But dearer than all resurged his Jewish memories. When he went almost mechanically to the piano on the last afternoon, all these slumbering3 forces wakened in him found vent4 in a rhapsody of synagogue melody to which he abandoned himself, for once forgetting his audience. When gradually he became aware of the incongruity5, it did but intensify6 his inspiration. Let the heathen rats wallow in Hebrew music! But soon all self-consciousness passed away again, drowned in his deeper self.
It was a strange fantasia that poured itself through his obedient fingers; it held the wistful chants of ancient ritual, the festival roulades and plaintive7 [368]yearnings of melodious8 cantors, the sing-song augmentation of Talmud-students oscillating in airless study-houses, the long, melancholy9 drone of Psalm-singers in darkening Sabbath twilights, the rustle10 of palm-branches and sobbings of penitence11, the long-drawn12 notes of the ram's horn pealing13 through the Terrible Days, the passionate14 proclamation of the Unity15, storming the gates of heaven. And fused with these merely physical memories, there flowed into the music the peace of Sabbath evenings and shining candles, the love and wonder of childhood's faith, the fantasy of Rabbinic legend, the weirdness17 of penitential prayers in raw winter dawns, the holy joy of the promised Zion, when God would wipe away the tears from all faces.
There were tears to be wiped from his own face when he ended, and he wiped them brazenly18, unresentful of the frenzied19 approval of the audience, which now let itself go, out of stored-up gratitude20, and because this must be the last performance. All his vanity, his artistic21 posing, was swallowed up in utter sincerity22. He did not shut the piano; he sat brooding a moment or two in tender reverie. Suddenly he perceived his red-haired muse23 at his side. Ah, she had discovered him at last, knew him simultaneously24 for the genius and the patriot25, was come to pour out her soul at his feet. But why was she mute? Why was she tendering this scented26 letter? Was it because she could not trust herself to speak before the crowd? He tore open the delicate envelope. Himmel! what was this? Would the maestro honour Mrs. Wilhammer by taking tea in her cabin?
He stared dazedly27 at the girl, who remained respectful and silent.
[369]'Did you not hear what I was playing?' he murmured.
'Oh yes—a synagogue medley,' she replied quietly. 'They publish it on the East Side, nicht wahr?'
'East Side?' He was outraged28. 'I know nothing of East Side.' Her absolute unconsciousness of his spiritual tumult29, her stolidity30 before this spectacle of his triumphant31 genius, her matter-of-fact acceptance of his racial affinity32, her refusal to be impressed by the heroism33 of a Hebrew pianoforte solo, all she said and did not say, jarred upon his quivering nerves, chilled his high emotion. 'Will you say I shall have much pleasure?' he added coldly.
The red-haired maid nodded and was gone. Rozenoffski went mechanically to his cabin, scarcely seeing the worshippers he plodded34 through; presently he became aware that he was changing his linen35, brushing his best frock-coat, thrilling with pleasurable excitement.
Anon he was tapping at the well-known door. A voice—of another sweetness—cried 'Come!' and instantly he had the sensation that his touch on the handle had launched upon him, as by some elaborate electric contrivance, a tall and beautiful American, a rustling36 tea-gown, a shimmer37 of rings, a reek38 of patchouli, and a flood of compliment.
'So delightful39 of you to come—I know you men of genius are farouches—it was awfully40 insolent41 of me, I know, but you have forgiven me, haven't you?'
'The pleasure is mine, gracious lady,' he murmured in German.
'Ach, so you are a German,' she replied in the same tongue. 'I thought no American or Englishman could have so much divine fire. You see, mein Herr, [370]I do not even know your name—only your genius. Every afternoon I have lain here, lapped in your music, but I might never have had the courage to thank you had you not played that marvellous thing just now—such delicious heartbreak, such adorable gaiety, and now and then the thunder of the gods! I'm afraid you'll think me very ignorant—it wasn't Grieg, was it?'
He looked uncomfortable. 'Nothing so good, I fear—a mere16 impromptu42 of my own.'
'Your own!' She clapped her jewelled hands in girlish delight. 'Oh, where can I get it?'
'East Side,' some mocking demon43 tried to reply; but he crushed her down, and replied uneasily: 'You can't get it. It just came to me this afternoon. It came—and it has gone.'
'What a pity!' But she was visibly impressed by this fecundity44 and riotous45 extravagance of genius. 'I do hope you will try to remember it.'
'Impossible—it was just a mood.'
'And to think of all the other moods I seem to have missed! Why have I not heard you in America?'
He grew red. 'I—I haven't been playing there,' he murmured. 'You see, I'm not much known outside a few European circles.' Then, summoning up all his courage, he threw down his name 'Rozenoffski' like a bomb, and the red of his cheeks changed to the pallor of apprehension46. But no explosion followed, save of enthusiasm. Evidently, the episode so lurid47 to his own memory, had left no impress on hers.
'Oh, but America must know you, Herr Rozenoffski. You must promise me to come back in the fall, give me the glory of launching you.' And, seeing the cloud [371]on his face, she cried: 'You must, you must, you must!' clapping her hands at each 'must.'
He hesitated, distracted between rapture48 and anxiety lest she should remember.
'You have never heard of me, of course,' she persisted humbly49; 'but positively50 everybody has played at my house in Chicago.'
'Ach so!' he muttered. Had he perhaps misinterpreted and magnified the attitude of these Americans? Was it possible that Mrs. Wilhammer had really been too ill to see him? She looked frail51 and feverish52 behind all her brilliant beauty. Or had she not even seen his letter? had her secretary presumed to guard her from Semitic invaders53? Or was she deliberately54 choosing to forget and forgive his Jewishness? In any case, best let sleeping dogs lie. He was being sought; it would be the silliest of social blunders to recall that he had already been rejected.
'It is years since Chicago had a real musical sensation,' pleaded the temptress.
'I'm afraid my engagements will not permit me to return this autumn,' he replied tactfully.
'Do you take sugar?' she retorted unexpectedly; then, as she handed him his cup, she smiled archly into his eyes. 'You can't shake me off, you know; I shall follow you about Europe—to all your concerts.'
When he left her—after inscribing55 his autograph, his permanent Munich address, and the earliest possible date for his Chicago concert, in a dainty diary brought in by her red-haired maid—his whole being was swelling56, expanding. He had burst the coils of this narrow tribalism that had suddenly retwined itself round him; he had got [372]back again from the fusty conventicles and the sunless Ghettos—back to spacious57 salons58 and radiant hostesses and the great free life of art. He drew deep breaths of sea-air as he paced the deck, strewn so thickly with pleasant passengers to whom he felt drawn in a renewed sense of the human brotherhood59. Rishus, forsooth!
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