Zebedee guessed the nature of the shock that killed her, but only George and Helen knew, and for them it was another bond; they saw each other now with the eyes of those who have looked together on something never to be spoken of and never to be forgotten. She liked to have him with her, and he was dumb with pity for her and with regrets. To Miriam, when she arrived, it was an astonishment4 to find them sitting in the schoolroom, hand in hand, so much absorbed in their common knowledge that they did not loose their grasp at her approach, but sat on like lost, bewildered children in a wood.
Wherever Helen went, he followed, clumsy but protective, peering at her anxiously as though he feared something terrible would happen to her, too.
"You don't mind, do you?" he asked her.
"What?"
"Having me."
"I like it—but there's your hay."
"There's hay every year," he answered.
Uncle Alfred moved quietly about the house, stood uneasily at a window, or drifted into the garden, swinging his eyeglass, his expression troubled, his whole being puzzled by the capacity of his relatives to be dramatic, without apparent realization5 of their gift. Here was a sister suddenly dead, a niece wandering hand in hand with the man from whom another niece had fled, while the discarded lover acted the part of family friend; and that family preserved its admirable trick of asking no question, of accepting each member's right to its own actions. Only Miriam, now and then catching6 his eye in the friendly understanding they had established, seemed to make a criticism without a comment, and to promise him that, foolish as she was, he need not fear results on Helen's colossal7 scale.
It was Rupert who could best appreciate Helen's attitude, and when he was not thinking of the things he might have done for a woman he could help no longer, he was watching his sister and her impassivity, her unfailing gentleness to George, the perfection of her manner to Zebedee. She satisfied his sense of what was fitting, and gave him the kind of pleasure to be derived8 from the simple and candid9 handiwork of a master.
"If tragedy produces this kind of thing," he said to John with a gesture, "the suffering is much more than worth while—from the spectator's point of view."
"I don't know what you are talking about," John said.
"The way she manages those two."
"Who? And which?"
"Good Lord, man! Haven't you seen it? Helen and the two suitors."
John grunted10. "Oh—that!" He had not yet learnt to speak of the affair with any patience.
Mildred Caniper had left the house and all it held to Helen.
"I suppose you'll try to let it," Rupert said. "I don't like to think of that, though. Helen, I wish she hadn't died. Do you think we were more unpleasant than we need have been?"
"Not much. She was unpleasanter than we were, really, but then—"
"Heavens, yes. What a life!"
Her lips framed the words in echo, but she did not utter them, though she alone had the right.
"So perhaps I am not sorry she is dead," Rupert said.
Helen's lips tilted11 in a smile. "I don't think you need ever be sorry that any one is dead," she said, and before she could hear what her words told him, he spoke3 quickly.
"Well, what about this house?"
"I shan't let it."
"Will you live here?"
"No. I'm going to George, but no one else shall have it. I don't think the Pinderwells would be happy. Is there any furniture you want? You can have anything except what's in the dining-room. That's for Zebedee. His own is hideous12."
To Zebedee she said, "You'll take it, won't you?"
"I've always taken everything you've given me," he said, and with the words they seemed to look at each other fairly for the last time.
"And don't have any more dead ferns," she told him. "There was one in the dining-room the other day. You must keep fresh flowers on Mr. Pinderwell's table."
"I shall remember."
Nothing was left in the house except the picture of Mr. Pinderwell's bride, who smiled as prettily13 on the empty room as on the furnished one.
"She must stay with Mr. Pinderwell," Helen said. "What would he do if he found her gone? I wonder if they'll miss us."
She refused to leave the house until the last cart had gone down the road at which Helen must no longer look in hope. She watched the slow departure of the cart and held to the garden gate, rubbing it with her hands. She looked up at the long house with its wise, unblinking eyes. She had to leave it: George was waiting for her at the farm, but the house was like a part of her, and she was not complete when she turned away from it.
There was daylight on the moor14, but when she dipped into the larch-wood she found it was already night, and night lay on the cobbled courtyard, on the farmhouse15, and on George, who waited in the doorway16.
"You're like you were before," he said. "A silver star coming through the trees—coming to me." He took her hand. "I don't know why you do it," he murmured, and led her in.
They slept in a room papered with a pattern of roses and furnished with a great fourposted bed. It was the room in which George Halkett and his father had been born, the best bedroom for many generations. The china on the heavy washstand had pink roses on it, too, and the house was fragrant17 with real roses, burning wood, clean, scented18 linen19. Jasmine grew round the window and nodded in.
"Are you going to be happy?" George asked her, when the warm darkness dropped on them like another coverlet, and she hardly knew that it was she who reassured20 him. Could it be Helen Caniper in this room with the low ceiling and farmhouse smells, this bridal chamber21 of the Halketts? Helen Caniper seemed to have disappeared.
She woke when she had been asleep for a little while, and at first she could not remember where she was; then the window darted22 out of the darkness and the furniture took on shapes. She looked up and saw the looming23 canopy24 of the bed, she heard George breathing beside her, and suddenly she felt suffocated25 by the draperies and the low ceiling and the remembrance of the big pink roses growing on the wall.
She slid to the edge of the bed and out of it. The carpet was harsh to her feet, but, by the window, the bare boards soothed26 them.
There were dark clouds floating against the sky, and the larches27 looked like another cloud dropped down until she saw their crests28, spear-like and piercing: they hid the moor in its livery of night.
She turned her head and listened to the sleeper29, who did not stir except to breathe. She wanted to see her moor and the house where the Pinderwells were walking and wondering at its emptiness. George would not hear her if she dressed and left the room, and, having done so, she stood outside the door and listened before she fumbled30 her way along the passages.
She sped through the larches, but when her feet touched the heather they went more slowly, and now it was she who might have been a cloud, trailing across the moor. So she went until she saw the house, and then she ran towards it, startling the rabbits, hearing the blur31 of wings, and feeling the ping or flutter of insects against her face.
The doors were locked, but the kitchen window was not hasped, and through it she climbed. The room had an unfamiliar32 look: it was dismantled33, and ghostly heaps of straw and paper lay where the men had left them, yet this was still her home: nothing could exile her.
She went into the hall and into each bare room, but she could not go upstairs. It was bad enough to see Mr. Pinderwell walking up and down, and she could not face the children whom she had deserted34. She sat on the stairs, and the darkness seemed to shift about her. She thought of the bedroom she had left, and it seemed to her that there would never be a night when she would not leave it to find her own, nor a day when, as she worked in the hollow, her heart would not be here. Yet she was Helen Halkett, and she belonged to Halkett's Farm.
She rose and walked into the kitchen and slipped her hand along the mantelshelf to find a box of matches she had left there.
She was going to end the struggle. She could not burn Zebedee, but she could burn the house. The rooms where he had made love to her should stand no longer, and so her spirit might find a habitation where her body lived.
She piled paper and straw against the windows and the doors, and set a lighted match to them; then she went to the moor and waited. She might have done it in a dream, for her indifference35: it was no more to her than having lighted a few twigs36 in the heather; but when she saw the flames climbing up like red and yellow giants, she was afraid. There were hundreds of giants, throwing up hands and arms and trying to reach the roof. They fought with each other as they struggled, and the dark sky made a mirror for their fights.
The poplars were being scorched37, and she cried out at that discovery. Oh, the poplars! the poplars! How they must suffer! And how their leaves would drop, black and shrivelled, a black harvest to strew38 the lawn. She thought she heard the shouting of the Pinderwells, but she knew their agony would be short, and already they were silent. The poplars were still in pain, and she ran to the front of the house that she might not see them.
There was a figure coming up the track. It was John, with his trousers pulled over his night things.
"God! What's up?" he cried.
"It's the house—only the house burning. There's no one there."
He looked into the face that was all black and white, like cinders39; then at the flames, red and yellow, like live coals, and he held her by the arm because he did not like the look of her.
A man came running up. It was Halkett's William.
"Have you seen the master? He went round by the back."
"Go and look for him. Tell him his wife's here. I'll search the front."
Both men ran, shouting, but it was Helen who saw George at the window of Mildred Caniper's room.
She rushed into the garden where the heat was scorching40, she heard his joyful41 "Helen!" as he saw her, and she held out her arms to him and called his name.
She saw him look back.
"I'll have to jump!" he shouted.
"Oh, George, come quickly!"
There were flames all round him as he leapt, and there were small ones licking his clothes when he fell at her feet.
"His neck's broke," William said.
They carried him on to the moor, and there he lay in the heather. She would not have him touched. She crouched42 beside him, watching the flames grow and lessen2, and when only smoke rose from the blackened heap, she still sat on.
"I'm waiting for Zebedee," she said.
John sent for him, and he came, flogging his horse as a merciful man may, and when she saw him on the road, she went to meet him.
She put both hands on the shaft43. "I set the house on fire," she said, looking up. "I didn't think of George. He was asleep. I had to burn it. But I've killed him, too. First there was Notya, and now George. I've killed them both. His neck is broken. William said, 'His neck's broke,' that's all, but he cried. Come and see him. He hasn't moved, but he was too big to die. I've killed him, but I held my arms out to him when he jumped."
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