While Gill and Allan Drain were having their interview in the living-room, Bettina Graham slipped out of Tahawus cabin alone and carrying her skates walked down to the edge of Half Moon Lake.
She had been depressed1 all day; Peggy’s marriage and departure to a foreign country meant more to her than most persons dreamed. They had been intimate and devoted2 friends since they were tiny girls, and Bettina believed their friendship could never again have its old value.
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The fact that Peggy appeared to have found her place in the scheme of things also affected3 Bettina, because of late she herself had felt that she must find some more definite outlet4 for her own life. Her school days were over unless she were to choose some special course of study; this winter in the mountains, delightful5 as it had been in many respects and not without its useful lessons, nevertheless seemed to be a pause and not a step forward in any particular direction.
Unwilling6 to confess either to her mother or Camp Fire guardian7 who would be wounded by the knowledge, Bettina had been far more restless and dissatisfied for the past few months than any one had imagined. This afternoon her restlessness had culminated8.
Kneeling down, she fastened on her skates.
Twilight9 was approaching, the distant snow-covered hills were amazing studies in purple, from pale violet to the deeper tones. The surface of the lake itself bore the reflections of a crystal ball.
Bettina started skating slowly, wishing to pursue her own train of thought. She knew what her mother expected of her; they had been discussing the subject this afternoon, and Bettina not only recognized the reasonableness of her mother’s position, but would have been hurt had she felt otherwise.
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Naturally after two years of absence abroad, her father and mother looked forward to her returning to Washington and entering society. She was no longer young enough to plead for more time, the war was past and she had been allowed to devote herself to its service. This winter in the Adirondacks was due to a special set of circumstances, her Camp Fire guardian’s illness, her father’s long absence from Washington, and her mother’s desire to be with Mrs. Burton and her group of Camp Fire girls. In another six weeks her mother probably would join her father in the west and conclude the trip with him. She would then go back to Washington and they were looking forward to a happy summer together in their own cottage by the Blue Lagoon10. So far Bettina knew nothing save happiness in the prospect11 before her, but after the summer, her mother had been planning this very afternoon a brilliant winter in Washington society.
Why could she not feel the interest that any other normal girl in the world would feel in such a future, with a successful marriage as its climax12?
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Yet Bettina knew she only dreaded13 it with an even deeper antagonism14 than she had felt in the past.
If only she and her brother, Tony, might have changed places? Tony was as strikingly handsome as their mother was beautiful and possessed15 her social grace and charm of manner.
Bettina believed she had neither; it was not merely a matter of appearance; there were persons who thought her reasonably good looking in her own fashion. Besides, she and her Camp Fire guardian had discussed the subject many times, and she herself had witnessed in Mrs. Burton a triumph of personality which always transcends17 mere16 physical beauty. Her own distaste was a far more important factor. In the midst of a group of society people Bettina knew she always was obliged to fight a sense of awkwardness, of shyness, and that she had no conversation and no animation18. She could only prove a disappointment to her mother, and yet was it not fair that she should make the experiment? Against her own judgment19 and desire, her mother had allowed her the past two years of freedom in her Camp Fire life.
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Bettina was skating more rapidly than at first, and without her knowledge her depression was fading. The cold air stung her cheeks, but her blood flowed warmly; this portion of the lake was smooth as glass. Finally a smile appeared at the corners of her lips. Perhaps she was taking herself and her own future too seriously, as this was one of the faults of her character. Moreover, doubtless she was spoiled. Never had she to contend against real difficulties such as many other girls face. Marguerite Arnot, for instance, friendless and oftentimes ill, for years had been forced to earn her own living.
If at this instant Bettina could only have beheld20 herself with other eyes she would have appreciated her own good fortune more keenly.
Her skating costume was of the color she most affected, a soft, deep-toned blue serge, neither light nor dark blue, with a short skirt and coat. About her throat she was wearing a beaver21 fur and on her head a cap of beaver nearly the shade of her own hair, one of her mother’s Christmas gifts, and carrying a small muff.
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Her complexion22, at times too pale, was now a lovely combination of white and rose. Tall and slender, Bettina was always exceptionally graceful23, but more conspicuous24 than any other characteristic was her air of high breeding.
“Are you a part of the wind? Won’t you please pause and wait for a fellow mortal who has not your swift skill?” Bettina heard a voice behind her calling, and turning skated slowly back.
“But I thought you were off for a walk, Mr. Hale; the cabin was nearly deserted25 when I escaped?”
“Yes, I was, Miss Bettina, but our walk was over a half hour ago and I inquired of your mother what had become of you. I have been following you for the past fifteen minutes. You observe that I skate abominably26 and yet I was determined27 to catch up.”
Bettina extended her hand.
“You are a bit out of practice; perhaps if you take my hand I can be of some assistance. It was kind of you to care to join me.”
A moment they skated along in silence, David Hale gaining in prowess from the touch of the gloved fingers.
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“Does it occur to you, Miss Bettina, this is the first opportunity I have had to exchange a word with you alone?”
Bettina laughed.
“Yes, I know, but you only arrived a short time ago and we have been having a pretty strenuous28 existence at Tahawus cabin for these last two days. I hope you have not been bored by being forced to be a guest at a wedding, which was as unexpected to us as to you. I want to thank you for your presence of mind this morning. Mother and Mr. Drain would have been more seriously injured except for you.”
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“I was a dunce, Miss Bettina, not to have discovered sooner what was taking place almost beside me. I suppose I was too interested in the wedding ceremony. But in any case all the danger and therefore all the credit is due Allan Drain. I confess I am a little envious29 of his position as hero and my own as anything else. I would give a good deal to have you and your mother grateful to me. You seem altogether to have forgotten our friendship. Oh, I do not mean you are not friendly, but I believed we were more than ordinarily friendly during the months in France. I hoped when we met again that we might take things up where we left off on that enchanting30 afternoon in the Queen’s secret garden at Versailles. Now I see I must begin again at the beginning, but I am a persistent31 person and am looking forward to your return to Washington. Then you will be meeting so many people and no doubt will be a great belle32, so I am afraid my opportunities for seeing you there will be limited.”
Bettina moved so slowly that the two skaters appeared to be poised33 like birds about to take wing for further flight.
“If I am forced to make my début in Washington next winter if you will be good to me I shall be more grateful than you realize. I know I shall be a dismal34 failure. Really I don’t mind for myself so much as for my mother; I am afraid she is going to be dreadfully disappointed in me, and she always has been in a fashion. It is hard when people love each other a great deal and yet have no congeniality of taste.”
“Then why not follow your friend Peggy Webster’s example and so escape the society adventure altogether?”
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Bettina shook her head.
“Thanks, I don’t like to quote tiresome35 old axioms, but one has heard of the frying pan and the fire. Besides, one cannot follow Peggy’s example all alone. By the way, did you and Marguerite Arnot manage to have your walk together? I hope so. Isn’t Marguerite charming? I envy her exquisite36 manners. You know she is coming to spend next winter with us in Washington; mother has persuaded her. Sometimes I think it might be well if some witch or fairy should force Marguerite and me to change places. She could fill my place so much more gracefully37, however, than I could her’s.”
“You could never change places in my estimation.”
Bettina laughed.
“No, I never anticipated such an honor. But come let us go back to the cabin, the darkness is nearly upon us. Isn’t the evening exquisite? See the little half moon rising there above our lake! I am sorry, but I cannot stay out longer, I promised I would not. It has been nice to have this little talk with you.”
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