It was a five-mile trip across to the Lone3 Cove4 Coast[8] Guard Station and Keeper John had a little time for reflection. He had not meant to quarrel with his sister; he had gone with the express determination not to have the usual row, but this had proved impossible. No one could avoid fighting with his sister, himself least of all. If it was not some allusion5 to his wife it was some allusion to their aunt’s will which, drawn6 to leave her considerable property equally to John and his sister, had at the last moment been altered to leave all to Keturah because of dissatisfaction with John’s marriage. The keeper had never cared about that while he had had his wife and for a few precious months the baby girl; and after he had lost them it would seem he might have cared less than ever. What was money then? Never-ceasing pain still gnawed7 at his heart, but for that very reason the gibes8 of his sister became the more unendurable. Was it not she who was in great measure responsible for the loss of Mary and the little Mary? Cap’n Smiley was a clear-minded man; he did not absolve9 his wife from blame, but she had been, after all, but a young girl and despite her lightmindedness he had loved her. With all her little affectations, with all her craving10 for amusement, with all her utter inefficiency11 as a housekeeper12, with all her childishness akin2 to that of the childlike Dora whom David Copperfield cherished—with all and in spite of all John Smiley had loved this young girl. And he could not but believe that his sister was as[9] much to blame for her behaviour in leaving him as Mary’s own weak nature.
And then the baby girl! How deep the wound of losing her John Smiley would never let the world know. Her name, too, had been Mary.
He thought of the mute little figure awaiting him and his bundles on the beach. She was just the age, as nearly as could be surmised13, that his own child would have been if ... if....
What was that his sister had said in regard to his own experience? “No one can play Providence14 to a married couple.” Well, a pretty thing for her to say! She had certainly played a r?le anything but providential in her brother’s marriage. But if no one could play Providence to married folk it might still be possible for someone to be a Providence to a single soul.
This little girl, he thought with a thrill, this little girl of the age his own would have been, with her blue eyes and her reddish hair, coppery, almost burnished—she could play Providence in his life, perhaps.
He remembered how, the night of the wreck15, he had put her to bed in his own bed and had slept in some blankets on the floor. In the middle of the night he had been wakened by her crying. Some memory in her sleep had made her sob16. Very weak, pitiful sobs17. They had stirred him to try to comfort her and after a little she had returned to sleep.
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n.小溪,小河,小湾 | |
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咬( gnaw的过去式和过去分词 ); (长时间) 折磨某人; (使)苦恼; (长时间)危害某事物 | |
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n.深谋远虑,天道,天意;远见;节约;上帝 | |
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n.失事,遇难;沉船;vt.(船等)失事,遇难 | |
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啜泣(声),呜咽(声)( sob的名词复数 ) | |
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