"You are, then, not even a gentleman!"
The ungracious words came almost unbidden from Daisy's pallid4 lips, as husband and wife for the first time faced each other in anger. She could not help it. Passive, patient, long-suffering she had been the while the mortifications and slights were for herself. But it was beyond the strength of her control to sit quietly by when Mr. Stewart was also affronted5.
Through all the years of her life she had been either so happy in her first home, or so silently loyal to duty in her second, that no one had discovered in Daisy the existence of a strong spirit. Sweet-tempered, acquiescent6, gentle, every one had known her alike in joy or under the burden of disappointment and disillusion7. "As docile8 as Daisy" might have been a proverb in the neighborhood, so general was this view of her nature. Least of all did the selfish, surly-tempered, wilful9 young Englishman who was her husband, and who had ridden rough-shod over her tender thoughts and dreams these two years, suspect that she had in her the capabilities10 of flaming, wrathful resistance.
He stared at her now, at first in utter bewilderment, then with the instinct of combat in his scowl11.
"Be careful what you say!" he answered, sharply. "I am in no mood for folly12."
"Nay13, mood or no mood, I shall speak. Too long have I held my peace. You should be ashamed in every recess14 of your heart for what you have said and done this day!" She spoke15 with a vibrant16 fervency17 of feeling which for the moment pierced even his thick skin.
"He was over-hasty," he muttered, in half-apology. "What I said was for his interest. I intended no offence."
"Will you follow him, and say so?"
"Certainly not! If he chooses to take umbrage18, let him. It's no affair of mine."
"Then I will go--and not return until he comes with me, invited by you!"
The woman's figure, scornfully erect19, trembled with the excitement of the position she had on the moment assumed; but her beautiful face, refined and spiritualized of late by the imprint20 of womanhood's saddening wisdom, was coldly resolute21. By contrast with the burly form and red, rough countenance22 of the man she confronted, she seemed made of another clay.
"Yes, I will go!" she went on, hurriedly. "This last is too much! It is not fit that I should keep up the pretence23 longer."
The husband burst out with a rude and somewhat hollow laugh. "Pretence, you say! Nay, madam, you miscall it. A pretence is a thing that deceives, and I have never been deceived. Do not flatter yourself. I have read you like a page of large print, these twenty months. Like the old gaffer whose feathers I ruffled24 here a while ago with a few words of truth, your tongue has been here, but your thoughts have been with the Dutchman in Albany!"
The poor girl flushed and recoiled25 under the coarse insult, and the words did not come readily with which to repel26 it.
"I know not how to answer insolence27 of this kind," she said, at last. "I have been badly reared for such purposes."
She felt her calmness deserting her as she spoke; her eyes began to burn with the starting tears. This crisis in her life had sprung into being with such terrible swiftness, and yawned before her now, as reflection came, with such blackness of unknown consequences, that her woman's strength quaked and wavered. The tears found their way to her cheeks now, and through them she saw, not the heavy, half-drunken young husband, but the handsome, slender, soft-voiced younger lover of three years ago. And then the softness came to her voice too.
"How can you be so cruel and coarse, Philip, so unworthy of your real self?" She spoke despairingly, not able wholly to believe that the old self was the true self, yet clinging, woman-like, to the hope that she was mistaken.
"Ha! So my lady has thought better of going, has she?"
"Why should you find pleasure in seeking to make this home impossible for me, Philip?" she asked, in grave gentleness of appeal.
"I thought you would change your tune," he sneered28 back at her, throwing himself into a chair. "I have a bit of counsel for you. Do not venture upon that tone with me again. It serves with Dutch husbands, no doubt; but I am not Dutch, and I don't like it."
She stood for what seemed to be a long time, unoccupied and irresolute29, in the centre of the room. It was almost impossible for her to think clearly or to see what she ought to do. She had spoken in haste about leaving the house, and felt now that that would be an unwise and wrongful step to take. Yet her husband had deliberately30 insulted her, and had coldly interpreted as weak withdrawals31 her conciliatory words, and it was very hard to let this state of affairs stand without some attempt at its improvement. Her pride tugged32 bitterly against the notion of addressing him again, yet was it not right that she should do so?
The idea occurred to her of ringing for a servant and directing him to draw off his master's boots. The slave-boy who came in was informed by a motion of her finger, and, kneeling to the task, essayed to lift one of the heavy boots from the tiled hearth33. The amiable34 Mr. Cross allowed the foot to be raised into the boy's lap. Then he kicked the lad backward, head over heels, with it, and snapped out angrily:
"Get away! When I want you, I'll call!"
The slave scrambled35 to his feet and slunk out of the room. The master sat in silence, moodily36 sprawled37 out before the fire. At last the wife approached him, and stood at the back of his chair.
"You are no happier than I am, Philip," she said. "Surely there must be some better way to live than this. Can we not find it, and spare ourselves all this misery38?"
"What misery?" he growled39. "There is none that I know, save the misery of having a wife who hates everything her husband does. The weather-cock on the roof has more sympathy with my purposes and aims than you have. At least once in a while he points my way."
"Wherein have I failed? When have you ever temperately41 tried to set me aright, seeing my errors?"
"There it is--the plausible42 tongue always. 'When have I done this, or that, or the other?' It is not one thing that has been done, madam, but ten thousand left undone43! What did I need--having lands, money, position--to make me the chief gentleman of Tryon County, and this house of mine the foremost mansion44 west of Albany, once Sir William was dead? Naught45 but a wife who should share my ambitions, enter into my plans, gladly help to further my ends! I choose for this a wife with a pretty face, a pretty manner, a tidy figure which carries borrowed satins gracefully46 enough--as I fancy, a wife who will bring sympathy and distinction as well as beauty. Well, I was a fool! This precious wife of mine is a Puritan ghost who gazes gloomily at me when we are alone, and chills my friends to the marrow47 when they are ill-advised enough to visit me. She looks at the wine I lift to my lips, and it sours in the glass. She looks into my kennels48, and it is as if turpentine had been rubbed on the hounds' snouts. This great house of mine, which ought of right to be the gallant49 centre of Valley life and gayety, stands up here, by God! Like a deserted50 churchyard. Men avoid it as if a regicide had died here. I might have been Sir Philip before this, and had his Majesty's commission in my pocket, but for this petticoated skeleton which warns off pleasure and promotion51. And then she whines52, 'What have I done?'"
"You are clever enough, Philip, to have been anything you wanted to be, if only you had started with more heart and less appetite for pleasure. It is not your wife, but your wine, that you should blame."
"Ay, there it comes! And even if it were true--as it is not, for I am as temperate40 as another--it would be you who had driven me to it."
"What folly!"
"Folly, madam? By Heaven, I will not--"
"Nay, listen to me, Philip, for the once. We may not speak thus frankly53 again; it would have been better had we freed our minds in this plain fashion long ago. It is not poor me, but something else, that in two years has changed you utterly54. To-day you could no more get your mind into the same honest course of thoughts you used to hold than you could your body into your wedding waistcoat. You talk now of ambitions; for the moment you really think you had ambitions, and because they are only memories, you accuse me. Tell me truly, what were your ambitions? To do nothing but please yourself--to ride, hunt, gamble, scatter55 money, drink till you could drink no more. Noble aspirations56 these for which to win the sympathy of a wife!"
Philip had turned himself around in his chair, and was looking steadily57 at her. She found the courage to stand resolute under the gaze and return it.
"There is one point on which I agree with you," he said, slowly: "I am not like ever again to hear talk of this kind under my roof. But while we are thus amiably58 laying our hearts bare to each other, there is another thing to be said. Everywhere it is unpleasantly remarked that I am not master in my own house--that here there are two kinds of politics--that I am loyal and my wife is a rebel."
"Oh, that is unfair! Truly, Philip, I have given no cause for such speech. Not a word have I spoken, ever, to warrant this. It would be not only wrong but presuming to do so, since I am but a woman, and have no more than a woman's partial knowledge of these things. If you had ever asked me I would have told you frankly, that, as against the Johnsons and Butlers and Whites, my feelings were with the people of my own flesh and blood; but as to my having ever spoken--"
"Yes, I know what you would say," he broke in, with cold, measured words. "I can put it for you in a breath--I am an English gentleman; you are a Dutch foundling!"
She looked at him, speechless and mentally staggered. In all her life it had never occurred to her that this thing could be thought or said. That it should be flung thus brutally59 into her face now by her husband--and he the very man who as a boy had saved her life--seemed to her astonished sense so incredible that she could only stare, and say nothing.
While she still stood thus, the young aristocrat60 rose, jerked the bell-cord fiercely, and strode again to the escritoire, pulling forth61 papers from its recesses62 with angry haste.
"Send Rab to me on the instant!" he called out to the slave who appeared.
The under-sized, evil-faced creature who presently answered this summons was the son of a Scotch63 dependent of the Johnsons, half tinker, half trapper, and all ruffian, by an Indian wife. Rab, a young-old man, had the cleverness and vices64 of both strains of blood, and was Philip's most trusted servant, as he was Daisy's especial horror. He came in now, his black eyes sparkling close together like a snake's, and his miscolored hair in uncombed tangle65 hanging to his brows. He did not so much as glance at his mistress, but went to Philip, with a cool--
"What is it?"
"There is much to be done to-night, Rab," said the master, assorting papers still as he spoke. "I am leaving Cairncross on a journey. It may be a long one; it may not."
"It will at least be as long as Thompson's is distant," said the familiar.
"Oh, you know, then," said Philip. "So much the better, when one deals with close tongues. Very well. I ride to-night. Do you gather the things I need--clothes, money, trinkets, and what not--to be taken with me. Have the plate, the china, the curtains, pictures, peltries, and such like, properly packed, to be sent over to the Hall with the horses and dogs in the early morning. I shall ride all night, and all to-morrow if needs be. When you have seen the goods safely at the Hall, deliver certain letters which I shall presently write, and return here. I leave you in charge of the estate; you will be master--supreme--and will account only to me, when the king's men come back. I shall take Caesar and Sam with me. Have them saddle the roan for me, and they may take the chestnut66 pair and lead Firefly. Look to the saddle-bags and packs yourself. Let everything be ready for my start at eleven; the moon will be up by then."
The creature waited for a moment after Philip had turned to his papers.
"Will you take my lady's jewels?" he asked.
"Damnation! No!" growled Philip.
"If you do not, they shall be thrown after you!"
It was Daisy who spoke--Daisy, who leaned heavily upon the chair-back to keep erect in the whirling dream of bewilderment which enveloped67 her. The words when they had been uttered seemed from some other lips than hers. There was no thought in her mind which they reflected. She was too near upon swooning to think at all.
Only dimly could she afterward68 recall having left the room, and the memory was solely69 of the wicked gleam in the serpent eyes of her enemy Rab, and of the sound of papers being torn by her husband, as she, dazed and fainting, managed to creep away and reach her chamber70.
The wakeful June sun had been up for an hour or so, intent upon the self-appointed and gratuitous71 task of heating still more the sultry, motionless morning air, when consciousness returned to Daisy. All about her the silence was profound. As she rose, the fact that she was already dressed scarcely interested her. She noted72 that the lace and velvet73 hangings were gone, and that the apartment had been despoiled74 of much else besides, and gave this hardly a passing thought.
Mechanically she took from the wardrobe a hooded75 cloak, put it about her, and left the room. The hallways were strewn with straw and the litter of packing. Doors of half-denuded rooms hung open. In the corridor below two negroes lay asleep, snoring grotesquely76, beside some chests at which they had worked. There was no one to speak to her or bar her passage. The door was unbolted. She passed listlessly out, and down the path toward the gulf77.
It was more like sleep-walking than waking, conscious progress--this melancholy78 journey. The dry, parched79 grass, the leaves depending wilted80 and sapless, the leaden air, the hot, red globe of dull light hanging before her in the eastern heavens--all seemed a part of the lifeless, hopeless pall3 which weighed from every point upon her, deadening thought and senses. The difficult descent of the steep western hill, the passage across the damp bottom and over the tumbling, shouting waters, the milder ascent81, the cooler, smoother forest walk toward the Cedars82 beyond--these vaguely83 reflected themselves as stages of the crisis through which she had passed: the heart-aching quarrel, the separation, the swoon, and now the approaching rest.
Thus at last she stood before her old home, and opened the familiar gate. The perfume of the flowers, heavily surcharging the dewless air, seemed to awaken84 and impress her. There was less order in the garden than before, but the plants and shrubs85 were of her own setting. A breath of rising zephyr86 stirred their blossoms as she regarded them in passing.
"They nod to me in welcome," her dry lips murmured.
A low, reverberating87 mutter of distant thunder came as an echo, and a swifter breeze lifted the flowers again, and brought a whispered greeting from the lilac-leaves clustered thick about her.
The door opened at her approach, and she saw Mr. Stewart standing88 there on the threshold, awaiting her. It seemed natural enough that he should be up at this hour, and expecting her. She did not note the uncommon89 whiteness of his face, or the ceaseless twitching90 of his fallen lips.
"I have come home to you, father," she said, calmly, wearily.
He gazed at her without seeming to apprehend91 her meaning.
"I have no longer any other home," she added.
She saw the pallid face before her turn to wax shot over with green and brazen92 tints93. The old hands stretched out as if to clutch hers--then fell inert94.
Something had dropped shapeless, bulky at her feet and she could not see Mr. Stewart. Instead here was a reeling vision of running slaves of a form lifted and borne in, and then nothing but a sinking away of self amid the world-shaking roar of thunder and blazing lightning streaks95.
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79 parched | |
adj.焦干的;极渴的;v.(使)焦干 | |
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80 wilted | |
(使)凋谢,枯萎( wilt的过去式和过去分词 ) | |
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81 ascent | |
n.(声望或地位)提高;上升,升高;登高 | |
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82 cedars | |
雪松,西洋杉( cedar的名词复数 ) | |
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83 vaguely | |
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84 awaken | |
vi.醒,觉醒;vt.唤醒,使觉醒,唤起,激起 | |
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85 shrubs | |
灌木( shrub的名词复数 ) | |
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86 zephyr | |
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87 reverberating | |
回响,回荡( reverberate的现在分词 ); 使反响,使回荡,使反射 | |
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88 standing | |
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89 uncommon | |
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90 twitching | |
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91 apprehend | |
vt.理解,领悟,逮捕,拘捕,忧虑 | |
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92 brazen | |
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93 tints | |
色彩( tint的名词复数 ); 带白的颜色; (淡色)染发剂; 痕迹 | |
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94 inert | |
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95 streaks | |
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