Robin2 had just left her with a very troubled face, but with his determination absolutely unshaken. On the morning after the declaration of war he had come straight up to town from Cambridge, and had been given a commission in the Grenadier Guards. That had met with her entire approval, she loved to think that her son had been among the very first to answer to the call, even anticipating it. Then she had done her part, and had got a promise for him of a staff appointment, which implied useful and necessary work, would give scope to his excellent abilities, and, above all, would not plunge3 him after a few months of training into the fiery4 hell, which, having by now burned its way almost within gun-range of Paris, had at length been stayed, and the edges of it turned back upon itself. But there was other work to do in the service of the country, just as important, just as primarily essential as being plunged5 into that inferno6 of shot and shell,{208} and this appointment, so entirely7 suitable to Robin’s capabilities8, was his if he chose to take it: it would be offered him in answer to his grateful assent9. Instead, he had given an ungrateful negative, and had left her in order to request that the offer might not be made him in any form that obliged him to accept it.
She had looked forward to this interview with the most delighted anticipations10, for she knew what Robin’s feelings with regard to his duty were. He, personally, hated and loathed12 the idea of war, and all that military service implied. He was a peaceful, easy-going young gentleman, fond of friends, and cricket, and Cambridge and the sunshine of the secure and pleasant life into which he had been born. But the moment the call had come, he had responded to it, he had put everything else aside, habit, and inclination13 and security, and had been among the earliest to present himself, never contemplating14 it as possible to do anything else. Surely, then, he had done his part: he had said, “Here am I, take me,” and they had taken him. Now, as if in reward of that, had come this offer, which she had procured15 for him.... But at the back of her delighted anticipation11 of telling Robin about it, there had been a doubt lurking16 in the dark, which she trusted would never open its baleful mouth in discourse17, but sit there dumb. Instead, the doubt had instantly leaped out into the light, and instead of being dumb, had expressed itself with great lucidity18 through Robin’s mouth.
“It’s awfully19 good of you,” he had said, “to take so much trouble, but don’t you see—I’m sure you do—that for me it would be mere20 shirking to take it? It’s a job which a fellow with four fingers on his hand could do. I’ve got five.”
Even while he spoke21 some instinct within her cordially agreed. But she did not intend to heed22 that{209} instinct: she slammed the door on it. Mightn’t a mother avert23 a great peril24 from her only son?...
“Shirking, darling?” she said, still only faintly doubting his eventual25 acquiescence26. “I don’t know what you mean. I don’t know much about war, any more than you do, but I’m sure it doesn’t merely consist in having men with guns and rifles. There have to be supplies, haven’t there, brought up? Armies have got to be fed; there must be lines of communication, there must be organization behind them, transport, intelligence.”
A little soft crease27 appeared between Robin’s eyebrows28, which she knew. It appeared there when he was proposing to be obstinate29 about something, and familiarly it was known as the mule30-face.
“Of course there must,” said he, just as if there wasn’t such a thing in the world as a mule.
“Well, then, don’t make the mule-face, Robin,” she said. “Listen to what I am saying. All that organization is the brain behind the mere mechanism31. When you doubt about taking this appointment, it is the same as if you were not sure that you would not sooner be a puff32 of steam that came from an engine, than part of the intelligence of the man who drives it.”
For a moment the “mule-face” vanished, and Robin laughed with boyish appreciation33.
“Oh, mother, you are clever!” he said. “That’s just like you.”
“My dear, I’m not clever in the least: it’s the plainest common sense.”
He shook his head.
“No, it was clever,” he said. “I am bound to admit the excellence34 of your simile35. But you can’t convince people by similes36.{210}”
“You can if the simile is just,” she said, “and if people are logical.”
He got up, the creased38 forehead outlining itself again, and pulled at his sword strap39 and belt which were still not quite familiar, as if he was wearing some new sort of cuff40 or collar.
“Well, the simile is just, and I am logical,” he said. “If I choose to think, I see your logic37. But as well as thinking, I feel. I don’t say that I choose to feel, but I have to feel. I wonder if you understand that.”
Suddenly she became aware of the immense change between the Robin of two months ago and the Robin who stood before her now. He was still the same Robin, too; the change, immense though it was, was not due to any new characteristic that had come to him: it was but the emergence41 and revelation of what she had known was there all along. The secure prosperity of his active, unreflective boyhood had but veiled it over as with thin ice: that bright, dazzling covering had caused a glitter on the surface, and you had not been able actually to see below it. But now that had melted and she could see into the deep water that lay so tranquilly42 beneath. Yet it was not that he had become a man: he was just as young as ever....
“Yes, darling,” she said, “but feeling is no guide. If we all did what we felt, the world would become a madhouse. It is the control of reason that keeps it sane43.”
He looked at her with a sort of humorous interrogation.
“I wondered if you would say something of the sort,” he said. “You don’t believe it, you know, in so far as it applies to my choice now!”
She thought over her simile about the engine’s puff{211} of steam and the engine’s driver. It seemed to her extremely apt.
“I do believe it,” she said. “It is mere common sense.”
“Then I’ll ask you another question. You would be very much relieved if I took this appointment. But shouldn’t I lose a little of your respect?”
She fancied she could quibble that away.
“Respect?” she said. “What a word to use. As if that had got anything to do with love!”
He laughed outright44, and in the fashion that was so common with him, sat down on the arm of her chair.
“That’ll never do,” he said. “You must learn to respect me.”
“I do,” she said hurriedly, for the instinct on which she had slammed the door asserted itself. “I respected your joining up as you did. You did all you could do.”
“And hasn’t it got anything to do with love?” he asked.
She paused before replying and Robin went on:
“It’s not only your respect,” he said. “It’s the respect of everybody who is serious. They wouldn’t tell me I had lost their respect: they would only congratulate me on getting a staff-appointment. But what would Jim feel, or Badders, or Jelf?”
“But you told me that Mr. Jelf was a pacifist,” she said. “You said that he loved the Germans and hated the English.”
“That was all his way of talking. I haven’t told you what he’s done. He has not applied45 for a commission at all: he has joined as a private.”
She made another appeal.
“Robin, you are all I have got,” she said simply.{212}
She looked up at him, and saw that the soft, firm crease still sat between his eyebrows.
“So don’t make the mule-face,” she added.
He shook his head.
“Can’t help it,” he said. “I’m going to be a mule: I—I must look like one.”
“Will you think it over then, first,” she asked, “before you do anything?”
“I have thought it over. Will you think it over? I know you agree with me really, but I can’t get at the part of you that agrees. It’s there, though.”
She knew that just as well as he did, but made no promise, and with a face troubled and yet determined46 he left her.
It was that which started the wave of loneliness far out on the sea, and she sat there idly, after he had gone, not yet aware of its approach, but only of the deadly, bored depression that had settled down on her, never lifting, since the day that she had driven down to Grote alone and late on a Saturday night in July. She no longer wanted to see him who should have been her companion then, though for a day or two after that, she would have forgiven even that monstrous47 letter of his revelation of himself, could her forgiveness have brought him back. And yet Robin had said that respect had something to do with love....
When he had said it she, or some part of her, had acquiesced48, and yet when she read Kuhlmann’s letter, though there was no one in the world for whom she had so profound a contempt, she still longed for his presence. Was that, then, another sort of love, something possibly not less real, certainly not less insistent49, but more animal, essentially50 lower? She had always hated seeing Robin and Kuhlmann together, and had rather laughed at herself for her sentimentality, her squeam{213}ishness. And then, by degrees almost imperceptible, any other feeling for the man who had so grossly insulted her, but mere contempt, had been distilled52 away, leaving just that sediment53 which unemotionally despised him.
But that draining away of the boiling, bubbling liquid which had filled her heart, had left it totally apathetic54 to all the myriad55 interests and diversions of her life. Even the tremendous impact of the breaking-out of war had failed to rouse her from it, her whole soul seemed drugged into a drowsy56, depressed57 somnolence58. She cared for nothing, and she disliked nothing, except only that which concerned Robin. The live tissues of the mind that record the emotions were not dead: she still wanted to want, wanted to enjoy, wanted to feel, but they lay as if under some opiate that deprived them of sensation.
The only thing that for these last days had in the least interested her was the obtaining for Robin the post that would keep him in town, doing work which undeniably must be done, dressed in khaki as every self-respecting young man was, with little red tabs on his shoulders and a red band on his cap to show that he was not merely a puff of steam from the engine, but part of the intelligence that directed it. All that was alive in her clung to the sound sense of the simile, which Robin himself had admitted.... But somewhere in the drowsed, drugged part of her mind some instinct within her despised that sound sense as completely as Robin himself despised it. He, too, had drawn59 the distinction between “thinking” and “feeling,” wondering if she understood. Good heavens, did she not understand? Was not three quarters of life a battle between thinking and feeling?
She was not one of those optimistic lunatics who{214} talked about the exposure of the enemy’s lengthening60 lines of communication, when day by day the tide of the black advance swept across the map towards Paris and the Channel ports, nor did she number herself with the large mass of folk who cheerfully maintained that the great steam-roller from the East was now giving forth61 encouraging hoots62, as a signal for its starting on its relentless63 journey to Berlin. But at present, though not cheerful, she cared about the war as little as they, because she could not care about anything. It had broken out at a time when she was still stunned64 by the greatest emotional blow, delivered with every circumstance of insult and contempt, that she had ever experienced. It had taken away all her power of keen feeling, except as regards Robin. All but that slim passage between her emotions and life was choked with dead leaves.
She took up the morning paper, at which she had not yet cared to look. The black line had not moved either backwards65 or forwards, but there was a long list of casualties. She read it, and found that it contained notices of intimate bereavement66 for some half-dozen of her friends, to whom she must write a line of condolence. Then, in imagination, she saw herself reading some similar list, on a morning but a few months ahead, and finding it contained the beloved name concerning which she had already received communication from the War Office. At that the great wave of loneliness soared high above her and engulfed67 her.
On that day, so vivid at the moment to her imagination, that she felt that it was already actually here, there would be nothing whatever left for which she cared to live. She made no sentimental51 pictures of herself as a mother bereaved68 of her only son, or of the blow killing69 her, for a blow, in order to kill, has to strike{215} some vital place, and there was nothing vital in her to strike. She would just go on living, if that could be called life, which had not enough keenness of edge to it to be termed either happy or unhappy, until the dark door opened, or, as she had phrased it once to herself, the great fish gulped70 down the fly that floated, water-logged on the stream, and she went back into the nothingness out of which she came.
What had it all been about, this tedious story, which she had once read with such intense interest? Hitherto life had denied her nothing which she cared to take, and she had taken freely, grasping it by the armful, and sucking out of it the utmost of its sweetness. But henceforth life seemed to hold nothing that was worth taking; she no longer cared what it gave her or denied her, since “desire had failed.” No longer had she any part in it: all those who hitherto had been active with herself in its pageants71 and movements, seemed no longer to be alive, but to be mere marionettes, bobbing about in meaningless antics, while she had become the one spectator of the show, quite alone in this infinite array of empty benches....
By a violent effort she pulled herself together: she was meeting trouble before it came, in imagining what the world would be to her when there was Robin’s name in the daily list of casualties. She knew it was utterly72 unlike her to indulge in that sort of profitless speculation73, but the billow of loneliness had for the moment completely submerged her, blotting75 out all else but the consciousness of itself. Now it had broken, and her head was above water again, and there was still a beach somewhere near, a shore to which she might struggle, and the engrained habit of life, the eager planning of the hours so as to fill them in a manner as diversified{216} and entertaining as possible, came back to her a little, striking feeble pulses in the arteries76 of her emotions. Perhaps the apathy77 of these last weeks had been leading up to a crisis like that she had just passed through; perhaps now the worst was over, and some hint of recuperation and of returning vitality78 was coming back to her.
Yes, faintly but unmistakably she wanted to be interested in the world again, until such time as the great fish gulped her down. So few months ago, without egotism and conceit79, there had been nobody she knew who had more than a fraction of the intensity80 of interest with which the world, just the human race, inspired her. All sorts and conditions of men held for her their own talisman81: once she had bidden to dinner a black bishop82, a lion tamer and a suffragette, and had passed an entrancing evening, in the effort to realize what was the fascination83 of converting cannibals, of cowing lions and of destroying works of art in order to show how fit you were to have a hand in the government of the country. None, literally84 none, had excelled her in the cult85 of mankind; never had there been a more ardent86 worshipper.
Then suddenly, owing in the main to an emotional shock, life had lost its coherence87 for her: instead of its being a clamour of entrancing topics, it had become a meaningless babble88. On the top of that had come this detestable war. If she was to win her way back to the ranks of the living, to enable herself to realize the world again as something more than a mere congregation of marionettes watched drowsily89 by a single spectator, she must somehow escape from this paralyzing influence of the war, which was sapping the intelligence just as it was monopolizing90 the entire energies of bishop, lion-tamer and suffragette alike. Of the women she{217} knew there was scarcely one who was not knitting or sewing or learning to nurse: they were dead to every form of human interest except counting stitches, and to every pursuit except that of dropping them and beginning again with a pulled-out heap of crinkled wool.
Gracie Massingberd was a ringleader among these. She had taken possession of Ardingly House, and had established her Sewing and Knitting Society there. The ballroom91 was full of small tables round which sat little parties of her workers who made shirts all day and turned out yard after yard of woollen scarves. It seemed to give them a sense of doing something for their country, and there they sat and knitted and talked all day in a pessimistic manner about the war, hatching as in the warmth of an incubator a hundred rumours92 of peril and disaster. Helen had attended these gatherings93 for two or three days, but instead of finding an anodyne94 to her dull aching in manual employment, she merely found a physical and emotional atmosphere that were equally intolerable. These ladies ate sandwiches out of little paper packets at lunch-time, and consumed a good deal of tea, and Gracie moved among them with the air of a high-priestess. And all seemed to think that their personal discomfort95, the sitting on high chairs and eating disgusting food, and turning out woollen scarves, somehow helped the war.
In the drawing-room next door was a depot96 for packing the fruits of their labours and old clothes of all sorts which were sent them in vast numbers. But after some three days in this rag and bone shop Helen had judged it better to retire, while, in case those woollen scarves were really of use to somebody, she left a standing97 order at a shop for a woollen scarf to be sent to Lady Massing{218}berd’s depot every other day, with her compliments. She was delighted to supply them, provided she was not obliged to make them, and did so with a greater prodigality98 than that with which they would have materialized under her unaccustomed fingers. But she thought with a sort of contemptuous envy of the type of mind which can evolve an approving conscience out of knitting and lugubrious99 conversation. In her it only produced a longing100 for fresh air and an escape from the nightmare that it wove about her. If all that she could do was to knit scarves, and admire Gracie standing waist high in a rubbish heap of old shoes and darned trousers, she would sooner admire and wonder at Gracie’s notion of what she called “personal service” at a distance, and buy scarves that were much better made than any she could herself make.
All this for the past week or two had formed the drab curtain of loneliness and depression in front of which her life had been enacted101. All the relief from it that she had got lay in her exertions102 to obtain a post for Robin which would give him some useful and necessary job and prevent his exposure to the grim Moloch that sat in flaming hunger along the battle-line in France. But this morning, when Robin had passed by with a shake of his head what she had procured for him, there had come this crisis of loneliness which, when it subsided103 again, left her not dully, drowsily aching any more, but had stabbed her, though with a piercing point, into some sort of vitality.
Hitherto, she had just let the hours go on guttering104 away to form days, the days accumulate into weeks, content that time should waste itself, provided only that it definitely ran away. But now that dull ache passed into a pain that awoke her, from which somehow it was necessary to escape: it was as if she had been{219} dreaming of pain, and awoke in a sweat of anguish105, encompassed106 by the added terror of the dark—dark, and the faint outline of Robin against it, as against a drawn blind behind which burns some remote and terrible conflagration107. At all costs she must turn on, here in the room of her own heart, some light that would blot74 out and extinguish that lurid108 smouldering of flame from without.
But even this sharp anguish and the horror of the dark were welcome to her, since they brought to her again something of the poignancy109 of life and the desire to live. Into her benumbed self as into a benumbed limb there came the prickings of returning sensation: it was beginning to be usable again, capable of grasping and of feeling. But there was a certain change already perceptible to herself in the quality of the life that was beginning to flow through it.
Hitherto, pleasure-seeking, self-centred, self-indulgently extravagant110 though her life had been, it had yet had this redeeming111 feature that she delighted in the delights of others, glowed with their joys, and gave herself to their pleasures. Though she never had risen to that higher altruism112 which equally rejoices in being associated with the troubles and sorrows of those it loves, and mourns for those who mourn even more sincerely than it plays for those who dance, she had always taken pleasure in spending her time, her money and herself on the enjoyment113 of others, and had found her reward in such application. The gem-like brilliance114 of her life had ever been undimmed by the softer fires of pity and compassion115: she had had no use for the failures and the ineffectives of this world. She was sorry—vaguely—for any who were not soaked in success, but they had never received from her more than a dropped “Poor thing,” and an averted116 gaze: people{220} in pain and distress117 had much better go away and hide themselves, as she herself would undoubtedly118 have done in similar circumstances, and not bring their damping and depressing influence among those whose privilege it was to live in sunlight....
But now the quality of her reviving desire for life was changed infinitely119 for the worse: little as she had previously120 cared for the sorrows of others, now she found herself awaking to an equal indifference121 to their joys. The great point was to extract for oneself all that life could possibly hold of pleasurable experience, and no longer to find pleasure in giving it. Robin had rejected the fruits of her efforts for his well-being122; another had returned her gift with outrageous123 contumely.
Here were the rewards of the well-wisher! And more paramount124 than ever was the necessity of turning the back on all that was painful and distressing125. Life did not last long, nor was she desirous that it should, but while the burden of consciousness was there, it was the only sanity126 to make it as light a weight as possible. It would soon be removed altogether, and for that interval127, reason and feeling alike advised the decking of it with ribands and flowers. It mattered not from where they came: the flowers could be plucked, if need be, from the wreaths left on graves. It was only necessary that they should hide the burden of life.
A more immediate128 necessity was to shut out from herself all that reminded her of this horror of war. She hated and deplored129 it, and already she saw it, in some future not far off, assuming an aspect much more intimately menacing. It was out of her power (already she had done her vain best) to avert that, and now the only possibility of avoiding that this awakening130 of hers should be but the awakening from stupor131 into{221} nightmare lay in banishing132 from her mind and from her sight all that could recall to her the grim reality. It was in a sort of self-protection that she framed her House of Life afresh: pity had long been banished133 from it, and now she must veil the face of love.
She had lived far too cosmopolitan134 a life to have much sense of patriotism135, if by patriotism is implied the blind preference for one country above the sum of all other countries. The roots of her culture were too widely planted to enable her to say, “It is from here my life comes, or from there.” Though in a very different sense to that in which John Wesley spoke, the world was her parish: she found that in all the enthusiasms of her life there had been no touchstone applied that would record a permanent nationality. Just as she had never cared for class, so she had never cared for blood. It only mattered that it beat, and in her roused a beat in answer.
London in these psychical136 circumstances had become impossible. Wherever you went, war in some form confronted you or pounced137 out on you screaming: whether in Robin’s khaki, or in Gracie’s knitting establishment, or in the headlines of a paper, or in the innumerable appeals that, still unopened, littered her table.
What sense of patriotism had Gracie until Germany announced her most reasonable intention of invading France by the shortest possible route? That was a mere matter of common sense: the politics of a nation were exactly those of an individual. Certainly Germany had promised not to do so, but so for that matter had every married woman (herself included) promised to love, honour and obey her husband. But what in each case did that promise mean? It only meant that for convenience of a contract of international or personal importance, you declared yourself ready to enter into{222} obligations without which no contract would have been possible. It fitted the facts for the moment, but if the facts changed, you acted as if you denied the authenticity138 of your signature. You felt like that then, or otherwise you would not have signed. But if you felt differently afterwards, if a question of national existence or of private happiness were at stake, naturally you said, “I feel so no longer.” Contracts only bound such as were willing to observe them. If a godfather vowed139 that his godchild renounced141 the devil and all his works, was he responsible, or for that matter was the unconscious godchild responsible, for the complete observance of that contract?
How did the jargon142 run? “The pomps and vanities of this wicked world and all the sinful lusts143 of the flesh.” All that had been renounced for her, very solemnly. Surely her poor godmother had not perjured144 herself in guaranteeing these things. She had only hoped for the best, just in the same way as Germany had done when she promised not to invade Belgium. She hoped the necessity might not arise for her doing so, just as H.R.H., who had been so pleasant a guest at Lady Gurtner’s party the other day, had hoped for the best in promising145 that Helen Grote should renounce140 all the pomps and vanities of this wicked world. For both an internal necessity had arisen: it had become a condition of life that the promises, written or spoken, should become waste paper or wasted breath. It was ridiculous to keep a promise that was made in other circumstances. And it was over this that England had gone to war, that Moloch’s fires were heated. And yet it was this, neither more nor less, that had turned Robin into that grave-gay boy who had preferred to face shot and shell rather than be sensible and stay at home, and live at ease like a few other fortunate contem{223}poraries who had taken advantage of the facilities which influence had procured for them.
Well: she had done her best for him, and now she must look after herself a little, and learn to enjoy and to be alive again. It was no use, so she had lately ascertained146, to care too much for other people; they left you and went after their own devices, and brought upon you this intolerable sense of loneliness and of absolute indifference to the manifold joys of the world. But in order to appreciate these she must put away from her the thought of the war, which spoiled every hour into which it was permitted to intrude147. Her own individuality was the final court of appeal: she must satisfy its imperious need of banishing the things that wearied and distressed148 it. Surely there must be other people of intelligence, who, realizing their impotence to help or hinder, had got away from the ugliness of turmoil149 and the waste of profitless and anxious hours.
There was Aline Gurtner, for instance, with whom she was to have stayed in that week when first war knocked all plans on the head. She had put her visit off, promising, however, to propose herself as soon as she could manage to get away from London. Aline, with her amazing joy in life, would be just the sort of person who would not permit international complications to get between her and her pleasures. Helen would telegraph to her at once and propose a visit.
She hesitated a moment after her telegram was written before she rang the bell to order it to be sent, and stood looking out of the window on to the square that basked150 in the September sunlight. Some instinct within her lifted up a rebellious151 voice reminding her of tedious things like duty and the root from which duty sprang, not arid152 morality, but love....
At this moment there crossed the road two wounded{224} soldiers. One had his face bound round with bandages that crossed flat from cheek to cheek instead of projecting where his nose should be: the other, on crutches153, trailed a dragging foot. Perhaps some day Robin would cross the square like that, or some day perhaps he would not cross it at all.... She turned back into the room with her written telegram in her hand, and rang the bell.
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distressed
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turmoil
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basked
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rebellious
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arid
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crutches
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