“I’m sorry for him,” Guest would say to himself; “but I can’t keep away because he is unhappy.”
So he visited at the admiral’s, where he always found a warm welcome, but made little progress with Edie, who seemed to have grown cold.
Then, too, he met the cousins at Miss Jerrold’s, and it naturally came about that one evening, after a good deal of persuasion1, Stratton became his companion.
Myra was there that night, and once more their hands were clasped, while Stratton felt that it was no longer the girl into whose eyes he looked, but the quiet, thoughtful woman who had suffered in the struggle of life, and that he must banish2 all hope of a nearer tie than that of friendship.
For whatever Myra may have held hidden in her secret heart she was the calm, self-contained friend to her aunt’s guest. Ready to sit and talk with him of current topics and their travels; to play or sing if asked; but Stratton always left the house with the feeling that unconsciously Myra had gravely impressed upon him the fact that she was James Barron’s wife, and that she would never seek to rid herself of that tie.
“And I must accept that position.” Stratton would say despairingly, after one of the meetings which followed; and then he would make a vow3 never to meet Myra again, for the penance4 was too painful to be borne.
The result was that the very next day after making one of these vows5 he received a letter from Edie, asking him, at her uncle’s wish, to dinner in Bourne Square.
For the admiral had said to Edie, on hearing that they had met Stratton at her aunt’s:
“Let bygones be bygones. I don’t see why we should not all be friends again. I always liked the boy. He can talk well about scientific things without boring you. Ask him to dinner.”
“Uncle wants him to come and wean poor Myra from that terrible business.”
But Edie was wrong, for after approaching his daughter several times on the question of the possibility of obtaining a divorce, Myra had stopped the admiral so decidedly that he had been ready to believe she must have cared for Barron after all.
“First man who ever told her he loved her,” the old man said to himself, “so, of course, she can’t help feeling a kind of liking6 for him. But suppose he comes out on ticket-of-leave, don’t they call it? And what if he comes here? Bah! I’ll shoot him before he shall have her. That would bring Myra to book, too. That’s a card I must play—possibility of his coming back. She’ll give in, then. I must hear what a lawyer says.”
But, in his unbusinesslike way, Sir Mark did nothing. Home was calm and pleasant again, and he had his little dinners, and his friends; and to him the existence of James Barron, alias7 Dale, at The Foreland became less and less clear. He was buried, as it were, in a living tomb, and there was no need to think of him for years.
Stratton came again and again for dinner, and now and then dropped in of an evening. Always against his will, he told himself; but the attraction was strong enough to draw him there. It was plain, too, that Myra’s eyes brightened when he entered, but he felt that it was only to see her father’s friend.
Then came one autumn night when, after a long and busy day, Stratton made up his mind to go to Bourne Square, undid8 it, made up his mind again, once more undid it, and determined9 that he would no longer play the moth10 round the bright candle.
He had dressed, and, throwing off his light coat and crush hat, he went out of his rooms and along the landing to Brettison’s.
“I’ll go and talk botany,” he said. “Life is too valuable to waste upon a heartless woman.”
He knocked; no answer. Again; no reply.
“Gone out,” he said. “What shall I do?”
Stratton hesitated for a few moments, and then went and fetched his hat and coat, descended11, took a cab, and ordered the man to drive to Guest’s, in Grey’s Inn.
“Better have stopped at home,” muttered Stratton; “he will talk about nothing else but Bourne Square.” But he was wrong. Guest was out, so descending12 into the square, and walking out into Holborn, Stratton took another cab.
“Where to, sir?”
“Bourne Square.”
Stratton sank back in his seat perfectly13 convinced that he had said Benchers’ Inn, and he started out of a reverie when the cab stopped at the admiral’s door.
“Fate,” he muttered. “It was no doing of mine.” Andrews admitted him as a matter of course, and led the way to the drawing room, where he announced his name.
Myra started from a couch, where she had been sitting alone, dreaming; and as Stratton advanced his pulses began to beat heavily, for never had the woman he idolised looked so beautiful as then.
There was a faint flush in her soft, creamy cheeks, the trace of emotion in her heaving bosom14, as she greeted him consciously; for she had been sitting alone, thinking of him and his proposal to her father, and the next minute the door had been opened, and he stood before her.
“It is almost by accident that I am here,” he said, in a low voice full of emotion, which he vainly strove to control. “Your cousin? The admiral?”
“Did you not know?” said Myra in a voice as deep and tremulous as his own. “Mr Guest came with tickets for the opera. He knew my father liked the one played to-night—‘Faust.’”
“Indeed!” said Stratton huskily.
“He goes for the sake of the great scene of the return of the men from the war. I think he would never tire of hearing that grand march.”
She left the couch, conscious of a strange feeling of agitation15, and, crossing to the piano, seated herself, and began to play softly the second strain in the spirit-stirring composition, gradually gliding16 into the jewel song quite unconsciously, and with trembling fingers. Then she awoke to the fact that Stratton had followed her to the instrument, against which he leaned, with the tones thrilling his nerves, tones set vibrating by the touch of hands that he would have given worlds to clasp in his own, while he poured forth17 the words struggling for exit.
“It is fate,” he said to himself, as he stood there gazing down at the beautiful head with its glossy18 hair, the curve of the creamy neck, and the arms and hands whiter than the ivory over which they strayed.
So sudden—so wondrous19. The only thing in his thoughts had been that he might be near her for a time, and hear her words, while now they were alone in the soft, dim light of the drawing room, and the touch of her fingers on those keys sent that dreamy, sensuous20, glorious music thrilling through every fibre of his body. Friend? How could he be friend? He loved her passionately22, and, cold as she might ever be, however she might trample23 upon his feelings, she must always be the same to him—his ideal—his love—the only woman in the world who could ever stir his pulses.
And so silent now—so beautiful? If she had spoken in her customary formal, friendly way, it would have broken the spell. But she could not. The chain was as fast round her at that moment, though she longed to speak.
She could not, for she knew how he loved her; how his touch stirred each pulse; that this man was all in all to her—the one she loved, and she could not turn and flee.
At last, by a tremendous effort, she raised her eyes to his to speak indifferently and break through this horrible feeling of dread24 and lassitude, but as their eyes met, her hands dropped from the keys, as, with a passionate21 cry, he took a step forward, caught her to his breast, and she lay for the moment trembling there, and felt his lips pressed to her in a wild, passionate kiss.
“Myra!” he panted; “all that must be as a dream. You are not his. It is impossible. I love you—my own! my own!”
His words thrilled her, but their import roused in her as well those terrible thoughts of the tie which bound her; and, with a cry of anger and despair, she thrust him away.
“Go!” she cried; “it is an insult. You must be mad.”
Then, with the calm majesty25 of an injured woman proud of her honour and her state, she said coldly, as she pointed26 to the door:
“Mr Stratton, you have taken a cruel advantage of my loneliness here. I am Mr Barron’s wife. Go, sir. We are friends no longer and can never meet again.”
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