Tiennent comme un for?at son esprit à la cha?ne.—Boileau.
Nobody knew Vinal but Vinal himself. Know thyself was his favorite maxim1. He practised upon it, as he flattered himself, with a rigorous and unsparing logic2, applying the dissecting3 knife and microscope to the secrets of his mind, probing, testing, studying, pitilessly ripping up all that would fain hide itself. The aim of all this scrutiny4 was, thoroughly5 to comprehend the machine, in order to direct and perfect it to its highest efficiency.
Vinal, as men go, knew himself very well; and yet there were points of his character which escaped him, or which, rather, he misnamed. He knew perfectly6 that he was ambitious, selfish, unscrupulous: this he confessed in his own ear, pluming7 himself much on his philosophic8 candor9. But he never would see that he was envious10. In his mental map of himself, envy was laid down as pride and emulation11. The wrestlings of human nature are not all of the sort figured in the Pilgrim's Progress and set forth12 in the Catechism. Vinal had an ideal; he had cherished it from boyhood, and battled ever since to realize it. He would fain make himself the finished man of the world, the unflinching, all-knowing, all-potential man of affairs, like a blade of steel, smooth and polished, but keen, searching, resistless. This was his aim; but nature was always balking13 him. He was the victim of a constitutional timidity, his scourge14 from childhood. He had been known to swoon outright15, on being run away with in a chaise, and he never could muster16 nerve enough to fire a gun. Against this defect his pride rose in revolt. It thwarted17 him at every turn, and conflicted with all his aspirations18. In short, he could not endure its presence, and fought against it with an iron energy of will. Thus his life was a secret, unremitting struggle, whose mark was written on his pale, nervous, resolute19 features. It's an ill wind that blows no good. This painful warfare20 achieved a singular vigor21 and concentration of character, and would have led to still better issues, had the assailing22 force been marshalled under a better banner. A lofty purpose may turn timidity to heroism23; but a purpose like Vinal's is by no means so efficacious, and the man remains24, if not quite a coward, yet something very like one.
It would have been well for Vinal if, like Morton, he had been born to a fortune. In that case—for he had no aptitude25 for pleasure hunting—his restless energies would probably have spurred him into some creditable field of effort, natural science, mathematics, or philology26, to all of which he inclined. But Fate had not been so propitious27; and to achieve the task which she had forgotten was the zenith of his aspirations.
There was one person who had always been an eyesore to him, and a stumbling block in his way. This was Vassall Morton. Morton, at twenty-three, was, in feeling, still a boy; Vinal, at twenty-three, was a well-ripened man. But the man hated the boy; and the boy retorted with a dislike which was largely dashed with scorn. Vinal felt the scorn, and it cut him to the quick, the more so, that he could not hide from himself that he stood in awe28 of Morton. He hated him, too, because he had that which he, Vinal, lacked—fortune, good health, steady nerve. He hated him, because he thought that Morton understood him; because the frankness of the latter's nature rebuked29 the secrecy30 of his own; and, above all, because he saw in him his most formidable rival in the affections of Edith Leslie.
Vinal's nature, self-drilled as it was, could not be called a cold one. It had in it spots and veins31 of sensitiveness. When a child, this sensitiveness had often been morbidly32 awake, and had caused him much suffering; but as he grew towards manhood, it had been overlaid and hidden by very different qualities, not often found in connection with it. Of late, however, he had been in love,—with Edith Leslie, as well as with her money,—and the dormant33 susceptibilities of his childhood had been in some sort reawakened.
His mind, inharmonious and unhappy as nature and himself had jointly34 made it, had never yet felt a pang35 so sharp as when, arriving at Matherton, he learned privately36 from Colonel Leslie the engagement which had passed between Morton and his daughter. Miss Leslie's twice rejected suitor compressed his thin lips in silence; it was his usual sign of strong emotion. Leslie pressed his favorite's hand,—he would fain have called him son-in-law,—and, turning away abruptly37, Vinal left the house.
The man whom he envied and hated had triumphed; robbed him of fortune, and robbed him of happiness; happiness of which Morton had had already his full share, and a fortune which would but swell38 the ample bulk of his possessions. Vinal was frenzied39 with grief, rage, and jealousy40.
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n.格言,箴言 | |
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