I VISITED many places during my wanderings in New Zealand, among them the beautiful Bay of Akaroa, and many other romantic scenes. The New Zealand bush is wild and grand enough, and the Maoris deeply interested me. I visited one aged2 Maori warrior3, called Matene-Te-Nga. Samoan tattooing5 was nothing compared to the engraving6 on his big frame. He spoke7 English perfectly8, but said little. He had kind, deep-set eyes and a wrinkled face that was also deeply carved; indeed he looked like a stalwart bit of brownish Greek sculptural work, covered with hieroglyphics9, when he moved with majestic10 precision. Curves of artistic11 tattooing joined his stern, straight nose to his chin and upward to his eyebrows12. He was the one surviving warrior of a time when New Zealand was a real Maori land, when the beautiful legendary13 lore14 of to-day was poetical16 reality to the land’s original race. Matene had fought with the tribes while fleets of canoes were ambushed17 in the gulf18.
At Rotorua too I interviewed Maoris in their native pah. They wore but few clothes. The girls and women had good-looking, stoical faces.
The Maoris strongly resemble the islanders of the Samoan and Tongan Groups; indeed so pronounced is the likeness19 that one cannot help thinking that the two races are allied21 by blood ties, and probably drifted from New Zealand to the Pacific Isles22, or vice23 versa, ages ago. For several weeks I went off on my wanderings, accompanied by my beloved comrade—my violin. I had still a pound or so in my possession, which I intended to keep for the rainy day that would be sure to darken the blue sky of glorious vagabondage. So, while the skies were bright, I made my bed in the bush, and by the light of the moon read Byron’s Poems. I had bought a paper-covered edition of them in Wellington and carried them in my violin-case. Oh! the romantic splendour of those days and nights, when I drank in the Byronic atmosphere. The glorious illusion of youth, the rosy24 glamour25 that is not what it seems and seems what it’s not, hung about me, as I sat under the giant karri-trees by the track, or approached the Maori stronghold with Don Juan sparkling in my eyes.
On the west coast ranges, North Island, I came across a “bush-faller’s” camp. I walked across the slope and introduced myself to the solitary26 occupant, an old Irishman. He turned out to be an interesting and congenial member of the wandering species. His camp was pitched by a creek27 that led to a lake, the banks of which were surrounded by beautiful ferns, eucalyptus28 and trees covered with fiery29 blossoms musical with the moan of bees. As we sat together and sunset touched the lake waters with fire, and primeval silence brooded over the forest, broken only by the weird30 note of birds, I could easily have imagined that I and my comrade occupied a new continent alone. Parakeets went shrieking31 across the forest and over the lake; we only saw their shadows in the still water and heard the tuneless beaks32 scream as they passed overhead and left a deeper silence behind. I stopped with the “bush-faller” one night. “Good-bye, mate,” he said, as he looked up to me with his grateful, round blue eyes and placed my gift in his pocket. He had told me where there was a Maori pah several miles away, and had come stumbling with me through the undergrowth for a long way, to direct me to the track that led to the main road.
That same evening I came across several old whares by a sheet of water, at the foot of a tremendous range of hills that rolled to the southward. It was extremely hot weather, and, as I followed the track round by the water’s edge, I saw the little Maori children paddling by the lake shores as the native women were fishing. On the other side of the lake were several wooden homesteads where some whites lived.
I walked into the Maori village and the children stared stolidly33 at me as they stood by the shed doors. Presently I came across an old Maori chief sitting under a mangrove34. He looked very aged, possibly more so through his face being carved with dark blue tattoo4. He spoke English well, and as I approached he welcomed me and said: “Play me your music.” I at once sat down by him and began to talk. As we were speaking a crowd of Maori girls came round us, and some men, who wanted to hear me play the violin. The old chief took me into his dwelling35. It was strikingly clean. I saw his wife squatting36 in the corner, reading a book printed in the Maori language. She was a very ugly old woman and when she smiled revealed bare gums that seemed to reach to her ears. Her hideousness37 intensified38 the youthful beauty of the Maori girls, who came rushing into the pah while I was speaking to the old man. They were beautiful girls, with the usual fine eyes, and a marvellous wealth of hair that glistened39 over their bare shoulders and fell to their bosoms40. The sight of them reminded me of my pretty Maori girl, who had long haunted my dreams.
I stayed near that settlement for several days and attended the rehearsal41 of a canoe dance. The weird beauty of that scene in many ways recalled memories of the fantastic sights I had seen in the South Sea Islands. One night, when the moon was shining over the lake and forest, the Maori girls came forth42 from the pah, attired43 in scanty44 robes of woven grass and flowers reaching to their knees. Across the forest patch in front of the pah they ran with bare feet, waving their arms and singing a chant in their native language. Then lying down in a row, prone45, in the deep grass, they moved their bodies and arms as though to imitate canoe-paddling, all the time chanting a Maori melody. It was an unforgettable sight, the moonlight glimpsing over their bodies as the night wind lifted their luxuriant hair. They looked like mermaids46 paddling in seaweed at the bottom of an ocean of moonlight. All the while the Maori men gazed with admiring eyes.
I heard many Maori songs. They struck me as being full of a wild, poetic15 atmosphere that suggested tribal47 battles and the legendary sadness of far-off deeds of passion and love.
I give here a few bars of melody which may faintly express my memory of their music:
I recall the solemn grandeur48 of the New Zealand bush, the cry of the melancholy49 curlew in the forest as I tramped along the wild tracks to Rotorua. I had my violin with me, and in the strange perspective of memory I still hear and see the romping50, sunburnt bush children rushing out by the bush homesteads to welcome the troubadour who had suddenly appeared. Once or twice I got pretty hard up and had to resort to my violin’s appealing voice for help.
Not far from a little bush township, by a range of hills that rolled to the westward51, I came across another pah, where my fiddle52 and I were welcomed by the old Maori chiefs, whose blinking eyes lit up their tattooed53 faces. I remember I was warmly received by that primitive54 community. It seemed hard to believe that they were descendants of bloodthirsty cannibals as I sat among them and accompanied their songs, songs that breathed tenderness and poetry. The character of their music strikingly resembled Samoan melodies I had heard sung by the Siva chorus girls in the South Sea villages. The following suggests the atmosphere of Samoan or Maori music:—
I will tell you a native fairy tale, as nearly as I can remember just as the pretty mouth of Mochau, the Maori girl, told it to me. One evening she was singing sweetly while I strummed a tinkling55 accompaniment on my violin. The shadows were falling over the forest karri-trees and across the slanting56 roofs of the whares, and the sunset fire blazed the lake waters until they seemed a mighty57 burnished58 mirror that reflected the Maori village, with its sloping roofs and the romping children on the banks. “Good-bye, Mochau, I must go home now,” I said at last, and the old chief, Mochau’s father, looked up as he squatted59 with his back against a tree and said, his tattooed, wrinkled face smiling: “You stay in pah till to-morrow?”
“All right,” I replied; and then Mochau’s eyes shone with pleasure, and her bunched hair flew out in the soft forest breeze as she ran across the patch into the whare to peel the potatoes and boil corn-cobs for supper. After supper the kind old chief and his pretty daughter sat by me on the slope; the moon shone over the lake and was reflected in the still water, wherein the gum-trees stood upside down in a shadow world.
Half-Caste Maori Girls
Sitting on the grass, with her chin on her knees and her romantic eyes staring straight in front of her, Mochau started to chant to herself. “Come on, Mochau,” I said, “tell me some more fairy tales.” She laughed, then grew very earnest, for she always imagined she was the heroine of the tales she told. Then, facing me and looking into my eyes, she began:
“Long, long ago out of the sea rose the head of a beautiful youth, Takaroa. His eyes were two stars, which he had stolen one night out of the sky. Running up the shore, he looked on the land and clapped his hands with delight to see the beautiful trees and all horahia te marino” (so peaceful); “and as he stood looking, the water dripping from his body in the golden sunlight, he said: ‘Where is she? Where is she?’ Then all the warri flowers on the big trees suddenly heard and looked down, for they had turned into the faces of beautiful girls, and they opened their mouths and cried together: ‘I am she! I am she!’ Then the beautiful youth of the sea looked up at them closely with his wide-open eyes, and said: ‘You are not beautiful enough, not any of you; she whom I love has eyes made out of the sunsets, and the stars all shine in the dark night of her hair; so go away, go away.’ And all these beautiful girls cried bitterly, and shrank up and were only flowers again. Then the boy from the sea, Takaroa, shouted once more: ‘Where is she? Where is she?’ and all the caverns60 along the shores and the mountains echoed back sadly to him: ‘Where is she? Where is she?’ Then Takaroa lay on the shore in the deep grass and cried to himself and fell asleep.
“In the morning, when the great sunrise was shining over the sea, and all the mountains inland were on fire with golden light, he was awake, and, jumping up, he lifted his hands to the sky. ‘O god of the sky, where is she? Where is she?’ And at once a little hihi bird came flying across the forest sky and, sitting on the pohutukawa tree just above the beautiful youth, started to sing sweetly on its twig61. Takaroa listened, and looked up and said: ‘Are you my love?’ And the little bird started at once to swell62, its feathers all puffed63 out, and it grew and grew; then lo! out jumped a beautiful girl!
“Oh, so lovely she was,” said Mochau, as she stopped and looked at her imaged face in the moonlit lake; for, as I told you, she always would believe that she was the beautiful heroine; then she continued: “Her hair was like the tangled64 forest with the stars shining in it, and her eyes more beautiful than the sunset. ‘Oh, oh, you are my love, you are my love; sing to me, sing to me,’ the immortal65 youth said; and side by side they sang together. Then he plucked a bamboo cane66 and made a magic flute67, and she sang and danced. ‘Oh, how beautiful you are,’ he said as he looked upon her lovely body. And she said: ‘Do you love me, Takaroa, or my body?’ And he said: ‘Oh, Tamo mi Werie, I love you, not your body, but your beautiful eyelight.’ Then all day they danced and sang together.
“Then night came, and he made a lovely soft bed for her, and she lay down on the grey moss68 and curled up her warm limbs. The beautiful youth lay down beside her and kissed her red coral lips and said: ‘Oh, my love, place your arms round me.’ And she said: ‘I dare not, oh, I dare not.’ But still he pleaded, and he was as beautiful as was his voice, so she relented and put her arms out and sighed; and he clasped—a little bird! Oh! how he cried, and cried, for in the grey moss was still the impression of the beautiful girl’s body; and though the little bird had flown away, he still kept looking down at the grey moss bed and crying out: ‘Oh, come back to me.’ But the little bird came not back, and he was alone with the silent night; and all around him the old giant trees, with gnarled trunks, sighed and moaned in the moonlight with deep, windy voices as the wind blew through them; for they were the stalwart warriors69, the long dead tattooed chiefs who had once lived in the world of love and grief.”
Then Mochau looked once more into the lake water at herself, and the tears were in her eyes; and the old tattooed chief’s eyes blinked in the moonlight as we sat together and looked at each other. I cannot show you the surrounding forest and the deep stillness of the waters, or paint the moon that shone over the lake, or Mochau the Maori girl’s romantic eyes and face.
Presently Mochau looked up into her father’s face and said, “Parro, tell us a tale also”; and immediately the old chief, who longed to outrival his daughter, for the Maoris seem to live chiefly that they may dream of far-off battles and tell weird legends, began and told me how this world got into our Universe.
“Before the very beginning of things a mighty god was walking across the clouds in the sky. He had not slept for thousands and thousands of years. So he put his giant feet against some stars that twinkled between his toes and, with his head pillowed on the roaming cloud, sat and rested; and his shadow moved across the sky like a mountain-man wherever the cloud moved along, and obscured the fixed70 stars in its passage. On and on he went for thousands of years, resting, which to the mighty god was only like a tiny rest of one minute. Then he suddenly said: ‘Oh, I do feel tired’; and as he slowly rose to his feet and obscured all the Milky71 Way he yawned, and lo! out of his mouth, to the mighty god’s own surprise, jumped thousands of tiny boys and girls. Round and round the god they swam in space, with gleaming eyes and laughing voices; and then, suddenly growing tired, they too cried: ‘We are tired, give us something to sit upon.’ The old god sighed, and on his breath came all the stars of the lower firmament72; and he shed tears at the thought that he had become sleepy and yawned, and made boys and girls come, and those tears made the great seas beneath him! Then, as the children cried again, the great earth heaved up silently under him also, and he threw the moon into the sky. Still the children cried out: ‘Oh, we are so cold!’ So he tore out one of his eyes and threw it into the sky, and lo! the great sun shone and warmed them! Then they said: ‘Oh, dear god, we are hungry.’ And the god sighed again and touched a fleecy cloud, and out jumped thousands of woolly sheep; and from his new clouds of moonlight he plucked bunches of glittering wings; and birds soared, singing across the new sky. Still they cried: ‘Oh, dear god, we want something else, and then something else.’ And the great god became terribly fierce and shouted the thunder; then the rain fell! Still the children were unsatisfied, and the god said: ‘All right, you shall grow old and ugly’; and when they understood what that meant they cried loudly to the god for forgiveness. So he relented and said: ‘Though you must grow old and ugly, you shall have little children to take your place.’ And they clapped their hands for joy. But still they were unsatisfied; and he got fierce again and said: ‘You shall fall asleep, and your bodies turn to flowers, and trees, and dust.’ And then at last they felt a little more satisfied; because, when they found that they had to leave the beautiful world for ever, the stars, the flowers, the trees, the ocean and the sunsets became sad and seemed more beautiful to look upon: and so the first old Maori men and women got very ugly and crept into the earth to die quite satisfied!” Thus finishing, the old chief licked his dry lips and sang me a chant, as he lived on in some past age; and Mochau looked at him tenderly and sang softly with him. They looked like two children together, and not father and daughter at all. They lived in a dreamland and cared for nothing else, for they lived within themselves.
Eventually I bade the Maori world farewell, and arrived at Christchurch, where I was forced to stay for two or three weeks, for whilst gazing at a derrick that was hauling up a huge coping-stone I slipped and sprained73 my ankle, and was laid up for a week, and thereby74 got into low water.
In the house in which I was lodging75 there was also staying a retired76 actor, who was, like me, in extremis through the lack of the essential wherewithal. This old actor was an amusing man, always cheerful and a good companion. He was a man of about sixty years of age; and when I sat on the side of my bed and played my violin to him one evening his eyes gleamed with intense pleasure. “Bravo, youngster!” he said, and in his extreme delight his clean-shaved face wrinkled up with happy thought. “Fancy you talking about being hard up when you can play the fiddle like that.” Immediately he unfolded a plan, which was to give concerts in public without any preliminary expenses; in common parlance77, we agreed on the spot to go “buskin.”
The idea of playing in the streets of a city was not congenial. It lacked all the romantic troubadour element of my previous experiences in the little bush towns up country. But nevertheless my companion’s cheerfulness and optimism gave me courage. He had a remarkably78 good voice, and in our room we rehearsed all the songs that he knew. Together next night, with our wild harps79 slung80 behind us, we sallied forth. My comrade had brushed his antiquated81 tall hat up till it shone with renewed prosperity. He had also cut out of paper a pair of new white cuffs82, for he had a great belief in looking respectable. “My boy,” he said, “we must let them see that we are not allied in any way to common plebeian83 street players. How do I look?” Then he gazed at himself in our looking-glass with pride, while I told him that he looked the last kind of man to be singing in the street. I meant what I said too, for he had a very distinguished84 look, and his speech had the intonation85 of bygone polish in it.
In the heart of the city, by the kerb-side, we started the first open-air concert. It was after dark, and the well-lit street was thronged86 with people, who generously dropped coins into my partner’s tall hat; for as soon as he had finished singing he went into the crowd, as I played on. Whether it was my comrade’s melodious87 voice, or my violin-playing, or our respectable appearance, I know not, but I was astounded88 at the money he collected. After each “pitch” we retired into a bar and counted out the proceeds and shared alike.
My comrade smacked89 me on the back with delight as he continually had another drink. “Don’t you think we had better finish now?” I said, as I noticed that he was getting a bit excited; but he would not hear of such a thing. At the next pitch, by the arcade90, he started to shout out, going through his old parts; he even opened his mouth and went through Hamlet! The vast crowd that collected to watch his antics stopped the traffic, and the police moved him on. “We had better get off,” I said to him, and to my great relief he agreed.
Just as we were turning a corner an aristocratic-looking old gentleman came up to us and, touching91 me on the back and saying, “You play the violin rather well for the streets,” got into conversation with us. He invited us up to his residence, where we had a good supper, and my friend entertained our host with reminiscences of better days. We were invited to stay the night, and left next morning as guests. I did not go out with my friend any more, but at once sought for a post.
I eventually secured a good orchestral job as violinist. I also got into “society,” and played drawing-room solos at a residence where the hostess was a person of very high standing92 in Christchurch. One day while I was playing a violin solo to her daughters in the drawing-room the door suddenly opened and a loud-voiced lady swept into the room, bringing a pungent93 odour of scent94 with her. She looked at me hard for a moment, then put on her pince-nez and once more surveyed me critically, saying: “Dear me, how you do resemble the young man who was playing a violin in Queen Street with another awful man!” I do not recommend violinists to go “buskin” if they can do better and wish to rise from the vagabond state. If they do they will be recognised long after they have forgotten the incident themselves.
To have even your ability recognised is sometimes distressing95. I remember being awarded the first prize in an amateur violin solo competition at Bathurst, in New South Wales. I played Paganini’s Le Streghe and his violin concerto96 in D. I was awarded the first prize by the adjudicator; then someone recognised me as a professional and I was immediately disqualified. I remonstrated97, but an old programme was produced, whereon it was stated that I had been special Court violinist to the kings, queens and high chiefs of the South Sea Islands! I think that is the only time in my career that my position as first violinist and composer to royalty98 has ever been recognised! also the only occasion when the musical and critical ability of the royal houses of the Southern Seas, through choosing me as their Court violinist, has ever been acknowledged.
Many things happened during my New Zealand wanderings, and one incident stands out in stronger, yet sadder, relief than many of the others as I dive and grope back, deep down in the silent waters for my dead sea fruit.
You will admit, I am sure, that I have not gone into rhapsodies over my virtues99, but verily I believe the worst of us are better than we seem!
One day I was resting against a tree by the track. I was on my way to Wellington, to reply personally to an advertisement that offered a good salary to a violin dance player. It was a long, weary road and I was very tired, but happy, for I had about a sovereign in my possession. I had been reading my Byron and Keats’s Ode to a Nightingale, to which I had written music, notwithstanding that the ode was the utterance100 of music itself, for when we are young we rush forward to paint the cheeks of the gods and teach wise old “bush-fallers” philosophy. I was feeling lonely and poetical, which, in the worldly sense, means slightly insane. The world seemed to have a glamour of poetry about it after all. The grandeur of the sombre forest bush seemed a part of me as the old gnarled giant trees stood silently in the gloom, like wise old friends staring at me, who would protect my homelessness if they could. The sun was blazing hot, and, just as I was thinking that I only had the silent butterflies for companions in a magic world of bright flowers and wise old trees, a tired-looking girl came round the bend of the track. As she was passing me she looked quietly into my face and smiled. I had never seen her before, so you may guess a good deal about that smile, and not be far wrong in thinking that Mrs Grundy’s unprivate opinion is a correct one.
It was a wan1 smile, and as weary looking as the feet of the owner of the smile as they dragged along the dusty bush track as though they cared not where they led the wretched body. I looked up and returned the smile, for the eyes of the girl were brown and earnest-looking. She came straight up at once and sat down beside me! “I suppose you haven’t a shilling or so to spare, sir?”
I looked at her kindly102, I am sure, and, with the quick intuition of her sex, her manner immediately changed. She saw that I returned the smile in a spirit of woeful fellowship only. She was a good-looking girl, about twenty-four, two or three years older than I. Her hair was glossy103 and thick, and to this day I remember her fine brow and the look that lighted up her face. She had a pretty, yet weak, mouth, but the star shone on the dim horizons of her eyes. As she looked long and earnestly at me, I got up and said: “I’m off; I’ve got to get to Wellington”; and away we went along the track side by side. I asked her a lot of questions about herself and she answered me truthfully, telling me that she was a three-quarter caste Maori girl. I should never have noticed it if she had not told me so. Her father was an engineer and had been killed in an accident, and her mother had taken to drink and gone to the devil. I saw by her manner and by all she said that she wanted to impress me with the disadvantages she had had in her brief career; also that she regretted that first familiar tell-tale smile. I looked much older than I was, for I was tall, well made, with thick bronzed hair, grey eyes and sensitive, curved nostrils105 and lips. Indeed I possessed106 all those physiological107 defects that have made me what I am! For to get on in this world one should have square nostrils and a protruding108, bull-dog jaw109, and eyes with a mental squint110 that can scan north, south east and west of one’s world of prospects111 all at once.
Yet I was happy enough, untrammelled, and out of the grip of conventionality—that relentless112 old man of the sea could not cling to me. My soul roamed at will, like a riderless wild horse, across the plains of life. And as I was romantic, and the glamour of Byron’s gallant113 corsairs sparkled in my head, attuned114 to the tenderness of Keats, I spoke of the beautiful sunset and the goodness of God, and gazed down on the frail115 derelict beside me trudging116 along in her dilapidated shoes. How I remember her earnest eyes as she looked up at me! Most assuredly the great poets are really the sad, truthful104 Bibles of this world. For the tenderness, the atmosphere, of their inspired minds still sighed out of their graves into my heart, like the scent of the flowers growing over them. Her voice became soft and sighed with mine, and, God knows it’s true enough, I was never so proud and religiously happy as when that “bad woman’s” eyes gazed up into mine with admiration—my eyes indeed! Oh, we men, who write as though she would do that which we would never do!
Presently we saw the wooden houses of a township ahead, and as we entered the little main street, ignoring the curious looks of the stragglers who were leaning against the verandahs of the few shops, sheltered by their big-rimmed bush hats, I took her into an eating-house, where we ate together. She became very silent, and when we started off again, down the main road, I noticed that tone of respect in her voice that we give to those who we think we realise are better than ourselves. So I started to sing cheerily and made her laugh.
We arrived at the outskirts117 of Wellington at dusk and stood under a lamp-post. I gave her several shillings; she refused to take them at first, until I said: “That’s all right, I lend it to you.” She clutched my hand, looked up at me quickly and then hung her head and cried like a child. I soon cheered her up and made her promise to write to me, saying: “I am a musician and can make plenty of money!” “I thought you were something great like that; you’ve got the look in your face,” and she looked at me as though I was some wonderful being. We were standing outside a third-rate theatre, and I asked her if she would like to see the play. As she said she would, we went in, the “loose street woman” and I.
When we came out I said good-bye to her, and she got on a car to go to some friends. She seemed so happy as she looked back at me. She did write to me, and I gathered that she had obtained a situation in a boot factory. They were neatly118 written letters, and ah! how I recall the soul, the woman part of those letters, and what they really meant; but suddenly they ceased. How I pray that her life after that was a happier one than that of the gallant corsair she met on the bush track in New Zealand long ago.
As I look back I see again the weary face of that neglected girl; her eyes are looking at me. I did not love her then, but, strange as it may seem, I love her passionately119 now. Her shabby skirts and the bit of dirty coloured blue ribbon round her throat are sacred memories to me, and the old dilapidated shoes are shuffling120 a dusty song on the weary track, a song so unutterably sad that I think Christ must have composed it. I think God gathers all His beauty from grief; that, enthroned in loneliness, He gazes eternally across His stars and across His dark infinities121 and sees some Long Ago! For not in the vastness of things, or the mighty ocean of space, can we see or feel so much of Infinity122 as we can see in the derelict eyes of the friendless; as I saw, and see now, in the tramping Maori girl of my spiritual passion.
Ah! how I love the memory of those imaginative boyish days. I often wonder if many boys were, and are, as I was, and see the strange things that I saw. My earliest recollection is of the little bedroom at the top of the house where I slept when I was six or seven years of age. On moonlight nights I could see the poplar-trees swaying to the wind outside my window as I lay alone in bed. Just beyond the trees was a stable, and its chimney had a large cowl on it. That cowl was shaped like a helmet and had ribbed marks on it, like deep wrinkles on an old man’s throat, and as the wind blew it turned slowly and majestically123 round. I used to peep from the sheets out on the moonlight night with frightened, awestruck eyes; for my childish brain firmly believed that it was God’s head moving against the sky—watching me whenever it turned towards my window!
I told my mother about it, and they all assured me that it was only a chimney cowl, but still I did not like the look of it, and I was delighted when they shifted my bed into another room. At another time I stole some green apples off a tree in our garden and got very sick and ill. My dear mother made me promise to steal apples no more; and she said to me: “Though I cannot always see you, God can, for He is always walking about everywhere.”
“What is He like?” I asked, and then she described Him.
Not long after that I was going up a lonely lane near our house when I suddenly spied some green gooseberries in a long front garden. Being a born vagabond, I opened the gate and crept in, and kneeling down by the bushes I stole a pocketful of the unripe124 gooseberries. Just as I was bolting off an old gentleman with a long white beard, who held a walking-stick to help him along, quietly opened the gate, walked in and looked at me with solemn eyes. I stood before him trembling like a leaf, quite certain that God stood before me! I hung my head with shame and said: “Oh, God, I am so sorry, please forgive me”; and then I saw a kind look in God’s eyes. I promised never to steal again. He let me out of the gate; and I rushed off home, thrilled with excitement. I almost burst the door open and, rushing up to my mother, shouted: “I’ve seen God! He’s such a kind old man. He’s given me a penny!” Sometimes now I think that God is dead, that He has died of sheer loneliness and grief over the sad lot of His lost children.
I have often wondered what I have lost through embracing scallawagism with its visionary splendours. Probably, were it not for that, I should be the proud possessor of a brick house in a decorous suburb, and oh! vast ambition, wear a white collar and cuffs. And, who knows, be pushing my lawn-mower, hiding my sarcastic125 grin over its ostentatious hum—as I watch my envious126 neighbour cut his grass with shears127!
Even so, I think the greater prize is in being able to sit over the hearth128 fire or the camp fire with one’s comrades, revelling129 in the realism of the “Not Permissible,” turning the Universe the other way and singing the reminiscent vagabond’s Excelsior—Onward to the Past! Ever back to some happy past, back to the miser130 hoards131 from the glorious Past to the loaded wine cellars of dreamland’s infinity. To uncork the bottled dead sunsets, foaming132 champagnes of forgotten forest moonlights and blazing camp fires, bubbling laughter and friendly eyes. Drink deeply to her lips of other days, renew the old vows133, clasp her tightly, gaze in her eyes ere the desert wind blow her from your arms—as scattered134 dust! And, if she be old, if her face, her loveliness, be changed to the wrinkled map, the sad parchment whereon Time’s hand ever toils135 to write creation’s grief, kiss her passionately, dip her in the bath of old cleansing136 imagination, rewhiten her limbs and make her beautiful! Watch her happiness! Make the only future man ever knew, or ever will know; gladden and become rich with life’s old wine of the beautifully unreal! Friend, shut your eyes and look at the past; see sunsets and sunrises, the mirrored blue days of silent skies, soaring birds, ancient cities, nations and their histories, empires of splendid chaotic137 violence, laughter, love and intense tragical138 drama. Now shut your eyes and look at the future—can you see one moment of its reality? No, you cannot. So make your spiritual creed139 some dim, long-ago remembrance of your own happiness, and cherish and make the old the new! Make yesterday, and to-day, and to-morrow shining planets that came, and are coming from the illimitable past to swim into the happy skies of your ken20. And let the lawn-mower’s triumphant140, respectable humming go by!
Probably we vagabonds are mad, and the great majority who laugh at sentiment are the really sane101 ones. How strange indeed if, after all, the poets are wrong, and the great and glorious aim and end of the Universe is—affluence, with flabbiness, grand pianofortes, Brussels carpets, retinues141 of wooden servants and gold! Gold! Indeed, for all those things we vagabonds must hold the candle to the devil. For alas142! the body cannot live on sunsets and the memory of sad derelicts, dead sailors and forgotten heroes. But mentally we are wealthy. We have explored the gold-fields of the universe and struck a rich vein143. It is rough gold, truly, but perhaps our Creator never meant it to be reforged and rehallmarked after He scattered it among the stars. Certainly it has always appealed to me in the rough state, more so than in the polish of strange, unmusical voices, high collars and a great lack of appreciation144 for shabby men. We vagabonds are not conscientious145 judges of worldly greatness. We are strangely biassed146 in favour of those lost outcasts who drift on the waters of infinity, singing chanteys to the wandering stars, and not caring so long as “God’s in His heaven—all’s right with the world!” What matters if men are happy? Yes, even though “they fall by the roadside and die,” with no obituary147 notice and the “cause of little crape,” as one of my critics said. He and I, I think, would tramp the world together if we had a chance to live our life over again. We may live again; I sometimes think I have lived before. And what greater truth is there in the hearts of men than their own belief in all that they believe?
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warriors
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