At the pianola, Henry Wimbush, smoking a long cigar through a tunnelled pillar of amber7, trod out the shattering dance music with serene8 patience. Locked together, Gombauld and Anne moved with a harmoniousness10 that made them seem a single creature, two-headed and four-legged. Mr. Scogan, solemnly buffoonish11, shuffled12 round the room with Mary. Jenny sat in the shadow behind the piano, scribbling13, so it seemed, in a big red notebook. In arm-chairs by the fireplace, Priscilla and Mr. Barbecue-Smith discussed higher things, without, apparently14, being disturbed by the noise on the Lower Plane.
“Optimism,” said Mr. Barbecue-Smith with a tone of finality, speaking through strains of the “Wild, Wild Women”—“optimism is the opening out of the soul towards the light; it is an expansion towards and into God, it is a h-piritual self-unification with the Infinite.”
“How true!” sighed Priscilla, nodding the baleful splendours of her coiffure.
“Pessimism, on the other hand, is the contraction15 of the soul towards darkness; it is a focusing of the self upon a point in the Lower Plane; it is a h-piritual slavery to mere16 facts; to gross physical phenomena17.”
“They’re making a wild man of me.” The refrain sang itself over in Denis’s mind. Yes, they were; damn them! A wild man, but not wild enough; that was the trouble. Wild inside; raging, writhing18—yes, “writhing” was the word, writhing with desire. But outwardly he was hopelessly tame; outwardly—baa, baa, baa.
There they were, Anne and Gombauld, moving together as though they were a single supple19 creature. The beast with two backs. And he sat in a corner, pretending to read, pretending he didn’t want to dance, pretending he rather despised dancing. Why? It was the baa-baa business again.
Why was he born with a different face? Why WAS he? Gombauld had a face of brass—one of those old, brazen20 rams21 that thumped22 against the walls of cities till they fell. He was born with a different face—a woolly face.
The music stopped. The single harmonious9 creature broke in two. Flushed, a little breathless, Anne swayed across the room to the pianola, laid her hand on Mr. Wimbush’s shoulder.
“A waltz this time, please, Uncle Henry,” she said.
“A waltz,” he repeated, and turned to the cabinet where the rolls were kept. He trod off the old roll and trod on the new, a slave at the mill, uncomplaining and beautifully well bred.
“Rum; Tum; Rum-ti-ti; Tum-ti-ti...”
The melody wallowed oozily along, like a ship moving forward over a sleek23 and oily swell24. The four-legged creature, more graceful25, more harmonious in its movements than ever, slid across the floor. Oh, why was he born with a different face?
“What are you reading?”
He looked up, startled. It was Mary. She had broken from the uncomfortable embrace of Mr. Scogan, who had now seized on Jenny for his victim.
“What are you reading?”
“I don’t know,” said Denis truthfully. He looked at the title page; the book was called “The Stock Breeder’s Vade Mecum.”
“I think you are so sensible to sit and read quietly,” said Mary, fixing him with her china eyes. “I don’t know why one dances. It’s so boring.”
Denis made no reply; she exacerbated26 him. From the arm-chair by the fireplace he heard Priscilla’s deep voice.
“Tell me, Mr Barbecue-Smith—you know all about science, I know—” A deprecating noise came from Mr. Barbecue-Smith’s chair. “This Einstein theory. It seems to upset the whole starry27 universe. It makes me so worried about my horoscopes. You see...”
Mary renewed her attack. “Which of the contemporary poets do you like best?” she asked. Denis was filled with fury. Why couldn’t this pest of a girl leave him alone? He wanted to listen to the horrible music, to watch them dancing—oh, with what grace, as though they had been made for one another!—to savour his misery28 in peace. And she came and put him through this absurd catechism! She was like “Mangold’s Questions”: “What are the three diseases of wheat?”—“Which of the contemporary poets do you like best?”
“Blight, Mildew29, and Smut,” he replied, with the laconism30 of one who is absolutely certain of his own mind.
It was several hours before Denis managed to go to sleep that night. Vague but agonising miseries31 possessed32 his mind. It was not only Anne who made him miserable33; he was wretched about himself, the future, life in general, the universe. “This adolescence34 business,” he repeated to himself every now and then, “is horribly boring.” But the fact that he knew his disease did not help him to cure it.
After kicking all the clothes off the bed, he got up and sought relief in composition. He wanted to imprison35 his nameless misery in words. At the end of an hour, nine more or less complete lines emerged from among the blots36 and scratchings.
“I do not know what I desire
When summer nights are dark and still,
When the wind’s many-voiced quire
I long and know not what I will:
Time’s black and silent flow.
I do not know what I desire,
I do not know.”
He read it through aloud; then threw the scribbled39 sheet into the waste-paper basket and got into bed again. In a very few minutes he was asleep.
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