Have passions in proportion, violent,
Resistless and tormenting1: they’re a tax
Imposed by nature in pre?minence,
Lillo.
When Olmedo left his house under such excited feelings, he unconsciously followed the path which led to the grove3 where Beatriz was, and which he knew to be her favorite retreat. In his present condition of mind, she was the last person his reason would have counselled him to meet, but led by an inward attraction, without seeking the meeting, his steps took him towards where she had just risen from prayer. So distracted, however, was he with his conflicting emotions, that she saw him the first. It was too late to avoid him, which she would not have done had she been able. Conscious of the rectitude of her own desires, and pacified4 by her late appeal to heaven, she obeyed her impulse and advanced towards him. As he suddenly looked up and saw her within a few steps, a faintness came over him, and he was well nigh falling, but with a great effort recovering himself, he took her hand as frankly5 as it was offered.
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Both were silent. Each felt the crisis of their fate had arrived. Nature, when her mightiest6 agencies are about to go forth7 in the hurricane, the earthquake, or the volcanic8 eruption9, is for the moment breathless. So the human soul anticipates its most direful trials by utter stillness.
They walked on side by side, going deeper into the wood, as if to screen themselves from all the world. Yet neither knew why they did so, only it was a relief to be together and to be apart from every one else. Though not a word had been spoken, each felt the confession11 had been made, and they began to tremble, as did the guilty pair in Paradise when they first heard the voice of the Creator. Why should they tremble?
To love surely was no crime. That hearts like theirs should in meeting mingle13, God had ordained14 when he first created man and woman. Whence, then, the thrill too deep for utterance15 that paralyzed their tongues? Beatriz was not a woman to shrink from the display of her own feelings. She was one rather to avow16 them, and meet the consequences fearless in her honesty. Olmedo had never before shrunk from speaking directly from his heart words of truth or admonition. Why, then, did these innocent ones act as if guilt12 was upon them? Because the Church had said to him, “thou shalt not love her whom God gave thee for a companion, and to her, thou shalt not be a companion to him.” Thus man’s forgery17 of God’s will, making Him to say, “it is good for man to be alone,” had given to each of these sufferers, who by his laws were mated in[142] love and sympathy in body and soul, for time and eternity18, a false conscience which perverted19 their good into their evil. Much of theology is indeed a cunningly contrived20 system of man’s to make himself miserable21, despite the broad ordinances22 of the Creator, to be read in all his works, “to go forth and enjoy the world, to be fruitful and multiply, to love Him with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind,” and “thy neighbor as thyself.” Man will not be in his proper relation to his Maker23, until he escapes from the dogmas and creeds24 of a conventional Christianity and walks with Him, as did Enoch, in the faith of that perfect love which casteth out all fear.
But man in his soul-progress can keep pace only with his age and opportunity. The duties he voluntarily assumes are still duties, though more light may have widened his own prospect25. He is but a link in the vast chain of humanity, no one of which can be ruptured26 without affecting it through its entire extent. He is, therefore, to consider well before he acts whether in seeking his own personal gratification, or even in obeying the right instincts of his heart, he may not offend others, or do a general injury for a particular good. In all doubtful moral emergencies, duty says obey the higher law, or that which shows that thou lovest thy neighbor as thyself.
There is a blessing27 in the principle of obedience28, springing from self-sacrificing motives29, which, whatever may be the result in this life, is sure of its final reward. Duties, whether artificial or not, are the[143] moral diamond dust, by which our souls are polished. As we free ourselves from all selfish considerations in our relations with others, so shall our hope be converted into joy in the next life. It is well, therefore, to bear our burdens meekly30 and with courage here, that we may travel the lighter31 hereafter.
Olmedo was distracted between his vows32 and his desire. How could he to the simple natives recall his teachings and example as a monk33, upon the one point of celibacy34, which in him was now in such peril35! Could they comprehend his recantation? Would not the little truth that had already begun to be understood among them, based as it was more upon their respect for one who showed himself superior to their ordinary passions, than to an intellectual appreciation36 of his doctrines38, would not this seed even be lost, and the priest, tabued to women, be hereafter esteemed39 only as one of themselves? Besides, the doctrine37 of self-abnegation, or the crucifying of his natural instincts, which although his now more enlightened reason showed him could not be an acceptable sacrifice to their author, except in refraining from their abuse, still had a deep hold upon him, particularly as it was his own love that had just stimulated40 his mind to the full exercise of its freedom. He who had already sacrificed so much to an erroneous idea, could he not now complete the sacrifice for the sake of the good to others? Would not such a sacrifice to the principle of love to his neighbor, and of duty to his vows, be bread upon the waters, to be returned to[144] him at the end of time? Each heart had its schooling41 for eternity. The struggle to decide his future—his salvation42 had come. What was once right for him as a free man, was now wrong as pledged to a religion whose tenets had ever been his love and admiration43.
Such had been his reflections. They had flashed through his mind and ten-fold more, with piercing throbs44 of conscience, as in silence he walked by the side of Beatriz with his eyes fixed45 on the ground, while his blood was beating time to passion’s marches, and his affections yearned46, nay47, clamored to take Beatriz to wife. They had come to him with all the quickness and vividness with which the entire previous life crowds itself into the brief struggle of the drowning man. Speak he could not. His tongue was rooted to his mouth.
With Beatriz the struggle was different. She made no pretence48 to conceal49 what was longer impossible, but waited with quickened pulse and tremulous feeling, to hear him break the silence. His mental agony was perfectly50 intelligible51 to her. Without analyzing52 as he did the circumstances of their position, they flooded her heart like a spring freshet. It might break, but she would give no sigh that should tempt53 him from his holy allegiance. Once his decision made, her heart was wholly his, either to sustain him in duty, or to share his lot. With Ruth she would have said, “Entreat me not to leave thee, nor to return from following after thee, for whither thou goest I will go, and where thou lodgest I will lodge54.” How long they wandered[145] thus, or how far, neither could realize, for every step was as if a millstone were tied to their heels. In their doubt and conflict the landscape, so joyous55 in itself, seemed overspread with gloom. The very sun, as it stole through the thick verdure overhead, shot upon them cold and mocking rays—light without warmth. Heaven was darkened, and the earth gave them no rest.
At last they sat down; Beatriz on a log, and Olmedo at her feet. Around and over them rose a rural bower56, carpeted with soft mosses57 and canopied58 with vines, fragrant59 in blossoms and flowers. The birds warbled melodiously60 even at noon-day in this shady retreat. Near by, flowed a little brook61 with gentle murmurings, a vein62 of life coursing through the green sward, on its way to a torrent63 stream that thundered far below. Through an opening in the trees, mountain-ward in the far distance could be seen the glassy curve of the cataract64 which fed both. Rising from its mist, enclosing in its hollow the entire gorge65 from which it issued, was a perfect rainbow, forming a frame of wondrous66 beauty to nature’s painting. On the opposite side, glimmering67 through the forests like a silver horizon, was the ocean, its waves sparkling and dancing in the bright sun as the fresh trade-wind swept over it, and, cooled by its breath, came stealing with soft notes and reviving breeze through every leafy cranny of the dense68 jungle. The quick darting69, bright eyed lizards70, crept out of their holes and played about their human friends, sure that they had nothing to fear from them. Adam and Eve[146] when they slept in Paradise, were not more alone with the communings of nature than were apparently71 this pair. A scene more soothing72, since its gates were closed upon our race, the earth had never offered to mankind. Yet for a while it was unheeded, for the eyes of both were turned within; gradually, however, its beauties dawned upon them. They looked around. Beatriz first spoke10. “Olmedo,” she said, “does not God reign73 here? How beautiful is this landscape? how filled with repose74; all nature is hushed in harmony. Why is it we alone are unhappy?”
As she said this her face lighted up with its wonted smile for him. She wished to chase away the gloom that darkened his brow. The appeal was irresistible75. There was before him the rainbow, God’s sign of hope and protection for man; there was her smile which for so many years, and through so many trials, had been the rainbow to his heart. Why should it be less now? Could he not learn to accept its spirit, without coveting76 her possession?
His heart melted. He laid his head upon her knees, and for an instant wept aloud. Their hands soon met, and were entwined; then their eyes—long and earnestly they searched each other’s souls. All the tenderness and truth of natures, warm like theirs with humanity’s deepest sympathies, poured forth responsive in that gaze. From her face, lighted with love’s softest smile, bending over him with an angel look, as if it would pour into his torn heart all the peace, purity, and sacrifice hers contained,[147] there shone a celestial77 glow, which savored78 more of heaven than earth. Bright spirits were communing with them; spirits of love and joy. Alas79! their lips meet, and in one lingering kiss, the first of love’s passion either had known, was concentrated all the long pent-up affection of their two lives.
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forgery
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