Claribel (how she hated the absurd name!) had a splendid opportunity for observing everything in life, simply because she was so universally neglected. The Matchams and the Dorsets and the Duddons (all the relations, in fact) simply considered her of no importance at all.
She did not mind this: she took it entirely1 for granted, as she did her plainness, her slowness of speech, her shyness in company, her tendency to heat spots, her bad figure, and all the other things with which an undoubtedly2 all-wise God had seen fit to endow her. It was only that having all these things, Claribel was additionally an unfortunate name; but then, most of them called her Carrie, and the boys "Fetch and Carry" often enough.
She was taken with the others to parties and teas, in order, as she very well knew, that critical friends and neighbors should not say that "the Dorsets always neglected that plain child of theirs, poor thing."
She sat in a corner and was neglected, but that she did not mind in the least. She liked it. It gave her, all the more, the opportunity of watching people, the[Pg 222] game that she liked best in all the world. She played it without any sense at all that she had unusual powers. It was much later than this that she was to realise her gifts.
It was this sitting in a corner in the Horton flat that enabled her to perceive what it was that had happened to her Cousin Tom. Of course, she knew from the public standpoint well enough what had happened to him—simply that he had been wounded three times, once in Gallipoli and twice in France; that he had received the D.S.O. and been made a Major. But it was something other than that that she meant. She knew that all the brothers and the sisters, the cousins, the uncles and the aunts proclaimed gleefully that there was nothing the matter with him at all. "It's quite wonderful," they all said, "to see the way that dear Tom has come back from the war just as he went into it. His same jolly, generous self. Everyone's friend. Not at all conceited3. How wonderful that is, when he's done so well and has all that money!"
That was, Claribel knew, the thing that everyone said. Tom had always been her own favourite. He had not considered her the least little bit more than he had considered everyone else. He always was kind. But he gave her a smile and a nod and a pat, and she was grateful.
Then he had always seemed to her a miraculous4 creature; his whole history in the war had only increased that adoration5. She loved to look at him, and certainly he must, in anyone's eyes, have been handsome, with his light, shining hair, his fine, open brow, his[Pg 223] slim, straight body, his breeding and distinction and nobility.
To all of this was suddenly added wealth—his uncle, the head of the biggest biscuit factory in England, dying and leaving him everything. His mother and he had already been sufficiently6 provided for at his father's death; but he was now, through Uncle Bob's love for him, an immensely rich man. This had fallen to him in the last year of the war, when he was recovering from his third wound. After the Armistice7, freed from the hospital, he had taken a delightful8 flat in Hortons (his mother preferred the country, and was cosy9 with dogs, a parrot, a butler, and bees in Wiltshire), and it was here that he gave his delightful parties. It was here that Claribel, watching from her corner, made her great discovery about him.
Her discovery quite simply was that he did not exist; that he was dead, that "there was nobody there."
She did not know what it was that caused her just to be aware of her ghostly surprise. She had in the beginning been taken in as they all had been. He had seemed on his first return from the hospital to be the same old Tom whom they had always known. For some weeks he had used a crutch10, and his cheeks were pale, his eyes were sunk like bright jewels into dark pouches11 of shadow.
He had said very little about his experiences in France; that was natural, none of the men who had returned from there wished to speak of it. He had thrown himself with apparent eagerness into the dancing, the theatres, the house-parties, the shooting, the[Pg 224] flirting—all the hectic12, eager life that seemed to be pushed by everyone's hands into the dark, ominous13 silence that the announcement of the Armistice had created.
Then how they all had crowded about him! Claribel, seated in her dark little corner, had summoned them one by one—Mrs. Freddie Matcham with her high, bright colour and wonderful hair, her two daughters, Claribel's cousins, Lucy and Amy, so pretty and so stupid, the voluminous Dorsets, with all their Beaminster connections, Hattie Dorset, Dollie Pym-Dorset, Rose and Emily; then the men—young Harwood Dorset, who was no good at anything, but danced so well, Henry Matcham, capable and intelligent would he only work, Pelham Duddon, ambitious and grasping; then her own family, her elder sisters, Morgraunt (what a name!), who married Rex Beaminster, and they hadn't a penny, and Lucile, unmarried, pretty and silly, and Dora, serious and plain and a miser—Oh! Claribel knew them all! She wondered, as she sat there, how she could know them all as she did, and, after that, how they could be so unaware14 that she did know them! She did not feel herself preternaturally sharp—only that they were unobservant or simply, perhaps, that they had better things to observe.
The thing, of course, that they were all just then observing was Tom and his money. The two things were synonymous, and if they couldn't have the money without Tom, they must have him with it. Not that they minded having Tom—he was exactly what they felt a man should be—beautiful to look at, easy and[Pg 225] happy and casual, a splendid sportsman, completely free of that tiresome15 "analysis" stuff that some of the would-be clever ones thought so essential.
They liked Tom and approved of him, and oh! how they wanted his money! There was not one of them not in need of it! Claribel could see all their dazzling, shining eyes fixed16 upon those great piles of gold, their beautiful fingers crooked17 out towards it. Claribel did not herself want money. What she wanted, more than she allowed herself to think, was companionship and friendship and affection.... And that she was inclined to think she was fated never to obtain.
The day when she first noticed the thing that was the matter with Tom, was one wet, stormy afternoon in March; they were all gathered together in Tom's lovely sitting-room18 in Hortons.
Tom, without being exactly clever about beautiful things, had a fine sense of the way that he wished to be served, and the result of this was that his flat was neat and ordered, everything always in perfect array. His man, Sheraton, was an ideal man; he had been Tom's servant before the war, and now, released from his duties, was back again; there was no reason why he should ever now depart from them, he having, as he once told Claribel, a contemptuous opinion of women. Under Sheraton's care, that long, low-ceilinged room, lined with bookcases (Tom loved fine bindings), with its gleaming, polished floor, some old family portraits and rich curtains of a gleaming dark purple—to Claribel this place was heaven. It would not, of course, have been so heavenly had Tom not been so perfect[Pg 226] a figure moving against the old gold frames, the curtains, the leaping fire, looking so exactly, Claribel thought "the younger image of old Theophilus Duddon, stiff and grand up there on the wall in his white stock and velvet19 coat, Tom's great-grandfather."
On this particular day, Claribel's sister, Morgraunt Beaminster and Lucile, Mrs. Matcham, Hattie Dorset, and some men were present. Tom was sitting over the rim20 of a big leather chair near the fire, his head tossed back laughing at one of Lucile's silly jokes. Mrs. Matcham was at the table, "pouring out," and Sheraton, rather stout21 but otherwise a fine example of the Admirable Crichton, handed around the food. They were laughing, as they always did, at nothing at all, Lucile's shrill22, barking laugh above the rest. From the babel Claribel caught phrases like "Dear old Tom!" "But he didn't—he hadn't got the intelligence." "Tom, you're a pet...." "Oh, but of course not. What stuff! Why, Harriet herself ...!" Through it all Sheraton moved with his head back, his indulgent indifference23, his supremely24 brushed hair. It was just then Claribel caught the flash from Mrs. Matcham's beautiful eyes. Everyone had their tea; there was nothing left for her to do. She sat there, her lovely hands crossed on the table in front of her, her eyes lost, apparently25, in dim abstraction. Claribel saw that they were not lost at all, but were bent26, obliquely27, with a concentrated and almost passionate28 interest, upon Tom. Mrs. Matcham wanted something, and she was determined29 this afternoon to ask for it. What was it? Money? Her debts were notorious. Jewels? She[Pg 227] was insatiable there ... Freddie Matcham couldn't give her things. Old Lord Ferris wanted to, but wasn't allowed to.... Claribel knew all this, young though she was. There remained, then, as always, Tom.
Thrilled by this discovery of Mrs. Matcham's eyes, Claribel pursued her discoveries further, and the next thing that she saw was that Lucile also was intent upon some prize. Her silly, bright little eyes were tightened30 for some very definite purpose. They fastened upon Tom like little scissors. Claribel knew that Lucile had developed recently a passion for bridge and, being stupid.... Yes, Lucile wanted money. Claribel allowed herself a little shudder31 of disgust. She was only seventeen and wore spectacles, and was plain, but at that moment she felt herself to be infinitely33 superior to the whole lot of them. She had her own private comfortable arrogances.
It was then, while she was despising them, that she made her discovery about Tom. She looked across at him wondering whether he had noticed any of the things that had struck her. She at the same time sighed, seeing that she had made, as she always did, a nasty sloppy34 mess in her saucer, and knowing that Morgraunt (the watchdog of the family) would be certain to notice and scold her for it.
She looked across at Tom and discovered suddenly that he wasn't there. The shell of him was there, the dark clothes, the black tie with the pearl pin, the white shirt, the faintly-coloured clear-cut mask with the shining hair, the white throat, the heavy eye-lashes—the[Pg 228] shell, the mask, nothing else. She could never remember afterwards exactly what it was that made her certain that nobody was there. Lucile was talking to him, eagerly, repeating, as she always did, her words over and over again. He was, apparently, looking up at her, a smile on his lips. Morgraunt, so smart with the teasing blue feather in her hat, was looking across at them intent upon what Lucile was saying. He was apparently looking at Lucile, and yet his eyes were dead, sightless, like the eyes of a statue. In his hand he apparently held a cigarette, and yet his hand was of marble, no life ran through the veins35. Claribel even fancied, so deeply excited had she become, that you could see the glitter of the fire through his dark body as he sat carefully balanced on the edge of the chair.
There was Nobody there, and then, as she began to reflect, there never had been anybody since the Armistice. Tom had never returned from France; only a framework with clothes hung upon it, a doll, an automaton36, did Tom's work and fulfilled his place. Tom's soul had remained in France. He did not really hear what Lucile was saying. He did not care what any of them were doing, and that, of course, accounted for the wonderful way that, during these past weeks, he had acquiesced37 in every one of their proposals. They had many of them commented on Tom's extraordinary good nature now that he had returned. "You really could do anything with him that you pleased," Claribel had heard Morgraunt triumphantly38 exclaim. Well, so you can with a corpse40!...
As she stared at him and realised the dramatic import[Pg 229] of her discovery, she was suddenly filled with pity. Poor Tom! How terrible that time in France must have been to have killed him like that, and nobody had known. They had thought that he had taken it so easily, he had laughed and jested with the others, had always returned to France gaily41.... How terrified he must have been—before he died!
As she watched him, he got up from the chair and stood before the fire, his legs spread out. The others had gathered in a corner of the room, busied around Hattie, who was trying some new Jazz tunes42 on the piano. Mrs. Matcham got up from her table and went over to Tom and began eagerly to talk to him. Her hands were clasped behind her beautiful back, and Claribel could see how the fingers twisted and untwisted again and again over the urgency of her request.
Claribel saw Tom's face. The mask was the lovelier now because she knew that there was no life behind it. She saw the lips smile, the eyes shine, the head bend. It was to her as though someone were turning an electric button behind there in the middle of his back....
He nodded. Mrs. Matcham laughed. "Oh, you darling!" Claribel heard her cry. "If you only knew what you've done for me!"
The party was over. They all began to go.
Claribel was right. There was Nobody there.
When everybody had gone that evening and the body of Tom was alone, it surveyed the beautiful room.
Tom's body (which may for the moment be conveniently[Pg 230] but falsely called Tom) looked about and felt a wave of miserable43, impotent uselessness.
Tom summoned Sheraton.
"Clear all these things away," he said.
"Yes, sir."
"I'm going out."
"Yes, sir." "Dinner jacket to-night, sir?"
"Yes sir!"
"What's the matter with me?"
"I beg your pardon, sir!"
"What's the matter with me? You know what I mean as well as I do. Ever since I came back.... I can't take an interest in anything—not in anything nor in anybody. To-day, for instance, I didn't hear a word that they were saying, not one of them, and they made enough noise, too! I don't care for anything, I don't want anything, I don't like anything, I don't hate anything. It's as though I were asleep—and yet I'm not asleep either. What's the matter with me, Sheraton?"
Sheraton's eyes, that had been so insistently45 veiled by decent society, as expressionless as a pair of marbles, were suddenly human; Sheraton's voice, which had been something like the shadow of a real voice, was suddenly full of feeling.
"Why, sir, of course I've noticed ... being with you before the war and all, and being fond of you, if you'll forgive my saying so, so that I always hoped that I'd come back to you. Why, if you ask me, sir,[Pg 231] it's just the bloody46 war—that's all it is. I've felt something of the same kind myself. I'm getting over it a bit. It'll pass, sir. The war leaves you kind o' dead. People don't seem real any more. If you could get fond of some young lady, Mr. Duddon, I'm sure...."
"Thanks, Sheraton. I dare say you're right." He went out.
It was a horrible night. The March wind was tearing down Duke Street, hurling47 itself at the windows, plucking with its fingers at the doors, screaming and laughing down the chimneys. The decorous decencies of that staid bachelor St. James's world seemed to be nothing to its mood of wilful48 bad temper. Through the clamour of banging doors and creaking windows the bells of St. James's Church could be heard striking seven o'clock.
The rain was intermittent49, and fell in sudden little gusts50, like the subsiding51 agonies of a weeping child. Every once and again a thin wet wisp of a moon showed dimly grey through heavy piles of driving cloud. Tom found Bond Street almost deserted52 of foot passengers.
Buttoning his high blue collar up about his neck, he set himself to face the storm. The drive of the rain against his cheeks gave him some sort of dim satisfaction after the close warm comfort of his flat.
Somewhere, far, far away in him, a voice was questioning him as to why he had given Mrs. Matcham that money. The voice reminded him of what indeed he very well knew, that it was exactly like throwing water down a well, that it would do Millie Matcham no good, that it was wasted money.... Well, he[Pg 232] didn't care. The voice was too far away, and altogether had too little concern with him to disturb him very deeply. Nothing disturbed him, damn it—nothing, nothing, nothing!
When he was almost upon Grosvenor Street, a sudden gust32 of wind drove at him so furiously that, almost without knowing what he was doing, instinctively53 he stepped back to take shelter beneath a wooden boarding. Here a street lamp gave a pale yellow colour to the dark shadows, and from its cover the street shot like a gleaming track of steel into the clustered lights of Oxford54 Street.
Tom was aware that two people had taken shelter in the same refuge. He peered at their dim figures. He saw at once that they were old—an old man and an old woman.
He did not know what it was that persuaded him to stare at them as though they could be of any importance to him. Nothing could be of any importance to him, and he was attracted, perhaps, rather by a kind of snivelling, sniffling noise that one of them made. The old lady—she had a terrible cold. She sneezed violently, and the old man uttered a scornful "chut-chut" like an angry, battered55 bird. Then he peered up at Tom and said in a complaining, whining56 voice:
"What a night!"
"Yes, it is," said Tom. "You'd better get home."
His eyes growing accustomed to the gloom, he saw the pair distinctly. The old man was wearing a high hat, battered and set rakishly on the side of his head. The collar of a threadbare overcoat was turned up high[Pg 233] over his skinny neck. He wore shabby black gloves. The old lady, sheltering behind the old man, was less easily discerned. She was a humped and disconcerted shadow, with a feather in her hat and a sharp nose.
"You'd better be getting home," Tom repeated, wondering to himself that he stayed.
The old man peered up at him.
"You're out for no good, I reckon," he mumbled57. "Waiting like this on a night like this." There was a note in his voice of scornful patronage58.
"I'm not out for anything particular," said Tom. "Simply taking a walk." The old lady sneezed again. "You'd really better be going home. Your wife's got a terrible cold."
"She's not my wife," said the old man. "She's my sister, if you want to know."
"I don't want to know especially," said Tom. "Well, good-night: I see the rain's dropped."
He stepped out into Bond Street, and then (on looking back he could never define precisely59 the impulse that drove him) he hurried back to them.
"You'd better let me get you a cab or something," he said. "You really ought to go home."
The impulse persisted.
"I'm going to get you a cab," he said. "Whether you like it or no."
"None of your bloody philanthropy," said the old man. "I know you. M'rier and me's all right."
It was Maria then who took the next step in the[Pg 234] affair. Tom, although he was afterwards to have a very considerable knowledge of that old lady, could never definitely determine as to whether the step that she took was honest or no. What she did was to collapse61 into the sodden62 pavement in a black and grimy heap. The feather stood out from the collapse with a jaunty63, ironical64 gesture.
"'Ere, M'rier," said the old man, very much as though he were addressing a recalcitrant65 horse, "you get hup."
No sound came from the heap. Tom bent down. He touched her soiled velvet coat, lifted an arm, felt the weight sink beneath him. "Well," he said, almost defiantly66, to the old man, "what are you going to do now?"
"She's always doing it," he answered, "and at the most aggravating67 moments." Then with something that looked suspiciously like a kick, he repeated: "You get hup, M'rier."
"Look here, you can't do that," Tom cried. "What an old devil you are! We've got to get her out of this."
A voice addressed them from the street: "Anything the matter?" it said.
Tom turned and found that the driver of a taxi had pulled up his machine and was peering into the shadow.
"Yes. There's been an accident," Tom said. "This lady's fainted. We'd better get her home."
"Where's she going to?" said the driver suspiciously.
"What business is that of yours?" cried the old man furiously. "You just leave us alone."
[Pg 235]
"No, you couldn't do that," Tom answered. "There'll be a policeman here in a moment, and he'll have you home whether you want it or not. You never can lift her yourself, and you can't leave her there. You'd better help me get her into the cab!"
The old man began to gargle strangely in his throat.
"Policeman!" he seemed to say. "If I 'ad my way——"
"Well, for once you haven't," said Tom shortly. "Here, driver, help me lift her in."
"Where's she going?" he repeated.
"If you don't help me at once I'll see that a policeman is here. I've got your number. You'll hear from me in the morning."
The man got off his box, cursing. He hesitated a moment, then came across. Together he and Tom lifted the inert68 mass, pushed it through the door of the cab and settled it in the seat.
"Well," said Tom to the old man, "are you going to see your sister home? If not, I shall take her to the nearest hospital."
For a moment the old man remained perched up against the wall, his top hat flaunting70 defiance71 to the whole world. Suddenly, as though he had been pushed, he came across to the driver.
"Eleven D Porker's Buildings, Victoria," he said.
"B?" asked the driver.
"D, you damned fool," the old man almost shouted.
[Pg 236]
The old man got in. He was on one side of the motionless Maria, Tom on the other.
That was a remarkable73 and even romantic ride. The roads were slippery, and the driver, it appeared, a little drunk. The cab rocked like a drunken boat, and the watery74 moon, now triumphant39 over the clouds, the gleaming pavement, the houses, gaunt in the uncertain moonlight, and thin as though they had been cut from black paper, seemed to be inebriated75 too. Maria shared in the general irresponsibility, lurching from side to side, and revealing, now that her hat was on Tom's lap, an ancient peeked76 face with as many lines on it as an Indian's, and grey, untidy hair. She seemed a lifeless thing enough, and yet Tom had a strange notion that one eye was open, and not only watching, but winking77 as well.
It would have been the natural thing to have opened her dress and given her air, to have poured whisky or brandy down her throat, to have tickled78 her with feathers! Tom did none of these things: afterwards he imagined that his inaction was due to the fact that he knew all the time that she had not really fainted.
Not a word was exchanged during the journey. They drove down Victoria Street, turned off on the right of Westminster Cathedral, and drew up in a narrow, dirty street.
A high block had "Porker's Buildings" printed in large, ugly letters on the fanlight near the door.
"You'd better help me lift her in," Tom said to the driver. "The old man's not good for anything."
The driver grunted79, but helped Maria into the street.[Pg 237] The fresh night air seemed to refresh her. She sighed and then sneezed.
"Maybe she can walk herself," said the driver.
The door opened of itself, and Tom was in a dark, dingy80 hall with a faint gas-jet like a ghostly eye to guide him. The old man started up the stairs.
"Can you walk a bit?" Tom asked the old lady.
She nodded. Tom paid the driver and the door closed behind him. It was a hard fight to conquer the stairs, and Maria clung like a heavy bag round her deliverer's neck; but on the third floor the old man unlocked a door, walked in before them and lighted a candle. He then sat himself down with his back to them, pulled a grimy piece of newspaper out of his pocket, and was apparently at once absorbed in reading.
The room was a wretched enough place. One of the windows was stuffed with brown paper; a ragged81 strip of carpet covered only a section of the cracked and dirty boards. There was a grimy bed; the fireplace was filled with rubbish.
Tom helped Maria on to the bed and looked about him. Then in a sudden fit of irritation82 he went up to the old man and shook him by the shoulder.
"Look here," he said. "This won't do. You've got to do something for her. She may die in the night, or anything. I'll fetch a doctor, if that's what you want, or get something from the chemist's——"
"Oh! go to hell!" said the old man without turning.
An impulse of rage seized Tom, and he caught the old man by the collar, swung him out of the chair,[Pg 238] shook him until he was breathless and coughing, then said:
"Now be civil."
"You damned aristocrat84! I'll have you up before the courts for this; invading a man's peaceable 'ome——"
Then Maria unexpectedly interfered86. She sat up, smoothing her hair with her old trembling fingers. "I'm sure," she said, in a mincing87, apologetic voice, "that we ought to be grateful to the gentleman, Andrew. If it 'adn't been for him, I'm sure I don't know where we'd 'ave been. It's your wicked temper you're always losing. I've told you of it again and again—I'm much better now, thank you, sir, and I'm sure I'm properly grateful."
Tom looked around him, then back at the two old people.
"Me daughter run away with a musical gentleman," said Maria. "Me 'usband died of D.T.'s three years back. Andrew and meself's alone now. We get the Old Age Pension, and manage very nicely, thank you."
"Well, I'm coming back to-morrow," said Tom fiercely, turning on the old man. "Do you hear that?"
"If yer do," said Andrew, "I'll 'ave the perlice after you."
"Oh, no 'e won't," said Maria. "That's only 'is little way. I'm sure we'll be pleased to see you."
[Pg 239]
Tom put some money on the bed and left.
Out in the street he paused. What was the matter with him? He stood in the street looking up at the Westminster Cathedral Tower and the thin sheeting of sky now clear—a pale, boundless89 sea in which two or three little stars were remotely sailing. What was the matter with him?
He felt a strange stirring and trembling about him. He had some of the pain and hurt that a man feels when he is first revived from some drowning adventure. But it was a pain and hurt of the soul, not of the body. His heart beat expectantly, as though around the corner of the lonely street a wonderful stranger might suddenly be expected to appear. He even strained his eyes against the shadows, piercing them and finding only more shadows behind them.
He even felt tired and exhausted90, as though he had but now passed through a great emotional experience.
And all these sensations were clear and precious to him. He treasured them, standing91 there, breathing deeply, as though he were in new air of some high altitude. The boom of Big Ben came suddenly across the silence like a summoning voice across waste, deserted country, and he went home....
When he awoke next morning he was aware that something had happened to him, and he did not know what it was. He lay there definitely beating back an impulse to spring out of bed, hurry through his bath, dress, and have breakfast, and then—what? He had not felt such an impulse since his return from France, and it could not be that he felt it now simply because[Pg 240] he had, last night, met two dirty, bedraggled old people and helped them home.
He laughed. Sheraton, hanging his shirt on the back of a chair, turned.
"Well, you're feeling better this morning, sir," he said.
"Yes, I am," said Tom, "and I'm damned if I know why." Nevertheless, although he did not know why, before the morning was out he found himself once more behind Victoria Street and climbing the stairs of Porker's Buildings. He had strange experiences that morning. To many they would have been disappointing. The old man was silent: not a word would he say. His attitude was one of haughty92, autocratic superiority. Maria disgusted Tom. She was polite, cringing93 even, and as poisonous as a snake. She stated her wants quite modestly: had it not been for her age you would have thought her a typical image of the down-trodden, subjected poor. Her eyes glittered.
"Well, you are a nasty old creature." Tom turned from her and shook Andrew by the shoulder.
"Well?" said Andrew.
"There's nothing now I can do?" asked Tom.
"Except get out," said Andrew.
Another old woman came in—then a young man. A fine specimen94 this last—a local prize-fighter, it appeared—chest like a wall, thick, stumpy thighs95, face of a beetroot colour, nose twisted, ears like saucers. The old woman, Maria's friend, was voluble. She explained a great deal to Tom. She was used, it seemed, to speaking in public. They could afford, she explained, to be[Pg 241] indifferent to the "Quality" now, because a time was very shortly coming when they would have everything, and the Quality nothing. It had happened far away in Russia, and it was about to happen here. A good thing too.... At last the poor people could appear as they really were, hold their heads up. Only a month or two....
"You're a Bolshevist," said Tom.
Maria did not refuse the food and the finery and the money. "You think," said Tom, as a final word to her old lady friend, "that I'm doing this because I'm charitable, because I love you, or some nonsense of that kind. Not at all. I'm doing it because I'm interested, and I haven't been interested in anything for months."
He arranged with the pugilist to be present at his next encounter, somewhere in Blackfriars, next Monday night.
"It's against the Bermondsey Chick," Battling Bill explained huskily. "I've got one on him. Your money's safe enough...."
Tom gave Maria a parting smile.
"I don't like you," he said, "and I can see that you positively97 hate me, but we're getting along very nicely...."
It is at this point that Claribel again takes up the narrative98. It was, of course, not many days before, in[Pg 242] Tom's own world, "What's happened to Tom?" was on everyone's lips.
Claribel was interested as anyone, and she had, of course, her own theories. These theories changed from day to day, but the fact, patent to the world and beyond argument, was that Tom was "Nobody" no longer. Life had come back to him; he was eagerly, passionately99 "out" upon some secret quest.
It amused Claribel to watch her friends and relations as they set forth100, determined to lay bare Tom's mystery. Mrs. Matcham, who had her own very definite reasons for not allowing Tom to escape, declared that of course it was a "woman." But this did not elucidate101 the puzzle. Had it been some married woman, Tom would not have been so perfectly102 "open" about his disappearances103. He never denied for a moment that he disappeared; he rather liked them to know that he did. It was plainly nothing of which he was ashamed. He had been seen at no restaurants with anyone—no chorus-girl, no girl at all, in fact. Dollie Pym-Dorset, who was a little sharper than the others, simply because she was more determinedly104 predatory, declared that Tom was learning a trade.
"He will turn up suddenly one day," she said, "as a chauffeur105, or an engineer, or a bootblack. He's trying to find something to fill up his day."
"He's found it," Lucile cried with her shrill laugh. "Whatever it is, it keeps him going. He's never in; Sheraton declares he doesn't know where he goes. It's disgusting...."
Old Lord Ferris, who took an indulgent interest in[Pg 243] all the Duddon developments because of his paternal106 regard for Mrs. Matcham, declared that it was one of these new religions. "They're simply all over the place; a feller catches 'em as he would the measles107. Why, I know a chap...."
But no. Tom didn't look as though he had found a new religion. He had made no new resolutions, dropped no profanities, lost in no way his sense of humour. No, it didn't look like a religion.
Claribel's convictions about it were not very positive. She was simply so glad that he had become "Somebody" again, and she had perhaps a malicious108 pleasure in the disappointment of "the set." It amused her to see the golden purse slipping out of their eager fingers, and they so determined to stay it.
The pursuit continued for weeks. Everyone was drawn109 into it. Even old Lord John Beaminster, who was beset110 with debts and gout, stirred up his sister Adela to see whether she couldn't "discover" something....
It was Henry Matcham who finally achieved the revelation. He came bursting in upon them all. The secret was out. Tom had turned "pi——" He was working down in the East End to save souls.
The news was greeted with incredulity. "Tom soul-saving? Impossible! Tom the cynic, the irreligious, the despiser of dogma, the arbitrator of indifference—Incredible."
But Matcham knew. There could be no doubt. A man he knew in Brooks's had a brother, a parson in an East-End Settlement. The parson knew Tom well,[Pg 244] said he was always down there, in the men's clubs and about the streets.
They looked at one another in dismay. Claribel laughed to see them. What was to be done? Tom must be saved, of course; but how? No plan could be evoked111. "Well, the first thing we must do," said Mrs. Matcham, "is to get a plain statement from himself about it."
They sent Claribel as their ambassador, realising, suddenly, that "she had some sense," and that Tom liked her.
She told him, with a twinkle in her eye, what they wanted.
"They're all very much upset by what you're doing, Tom. They don't want to lose you, you see. They're fond of you. And they don't think it can be good for you being all the time with Bolsheviks and dirty foreigners. You'll only be taken in by them, they think, and robbed; and that they can't bear. Especially they think that now after the war everyone ought to stand together, shoulder to shoulder, you know, class by class. That's the way Henry Matcham puts it.
"Of course, they admire you very much, what you're doing—they think it very noble. But all this slumming seems to them ... what did Dollie call it?... Oh, yes, vieux jeu ... the sort of thing young men did in the nineties, centuries ago. Oxford House, and all that. It seems rather stupid to them to go back to it now, especially when the war's shown the danger of Bolshevism."
Tom laughed. "Why, Carrie," he said, "how well you know them!"
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She laughed too. "Anyway," she said, "I know you better than they do."
Tom agreed that it would be a very good thing for them all to meet.
"They've got what's happened just a trifle wrong," he said. "It's only fair to clear things up."
They all appeared on the appointed day—Mrs. Matcham, as president, in a lovely rose-coloured tulle for which she was just a little too old, Hattie, Dollie, Harwood Dorset, Henry Matcham, Pelham Duddon, Morgraunt and Lucile, Dora, and of course Claribel. The event had the appearance of one of the dear old parties.
The flat was just as beautiful, the tea as sumptuous112, Sheraton as perfect. They hung around the same chairs, the same table, in all their finery and beauty and expense. They were as sure of conquest as they had ever been.
Tom sat on the red leather top of the fire-guard and faced them.
Mrs. Matcham led the attack.
"Now, dear old Tom," she said, in that cooing and persuasive113 voice of hers, so well known and so well liked; "you know that we all love you."
"Yes, I know you do," said Tom, grinning.
"We do. All of us. You've just been a hero, and we're all proud to death of you. It's only our pride and our love for you that allows us to interfere85. We don't want to interfere, but we do want to know what's happening. Henry has heard that you're working down in the East End, doing splendidly, and it's just like[Pg 246] your dear old noble self, but is it wise? Are you taking advice? Won't those people down there do you in, so to speak? I know that this is a time, of course, when we've all got to study social conditions. No thinking man or woman can possibly look round and not see that there is a great deal ... a whole lot ... well, anyway, you know what I mean, Tom. But is it right, without consulting any of us, to go down to all those queer people? They can't like you really, you know. It's only for what they can get out of you, and all that. After all, your own people are your own people, aren't they, Tom dear?"
"I don't know." Tom looked up at her smiling. "But I don't think that's exactly the point. They may be or they may not.... Look here. You've got one or two wrong ideas about this. I want you to have the truth, and then we won't have to bother one another any more. You talk about my working and being noble, and so on. That's the most awful Tommy-rot. I'll tell you exactly what happened. I came back from France. At least, no, I didn't come back; but my body came back, if you know what I mean. I stayed over there. At least, I suppose that is what happened. I didn't know myself what it was. I just know that I didn't exist. You all used to come to tea here and be awfully114 nice and so on, but I didn't hear a word any of you said. I hope that doesn't sound rude, but I'm trying to tell exactly what occurred. I didn't know what was the matter with me—I wasn't anybody at all. I was Nobody. I didn't exist; and I asked Sheraton, and he didn't know either. And then, one night——"
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Tom paused. The dramatic moment had come. He knew the kind of thing that they were expecting, and when he thought of the reality he laughed.
"One night—well, you won't believe me, I suppose, if I tell you I was very unhappy—no, unhappy is too strong—I was just nothing at all. You'd all been here to tea, and I went out for a walk down Bond Street to clear my head. It was raining and I found two old things taking shelter under a wooden standing. The old lady fainted while I was talking to them, and I saw them home—And—well, that's all!"
"That's all!" cried Millie Matcham. "Do you mean, Tom, that you fell in love with the old woman!"
Her laugh was shrill and anxious.
He laughed back. "Fell in love! That's just like you, Millie. You think that love must be in it every time. There isn't any love in this—and there isn't any devotion, or religion, or high-mindedness, or trying to improve them, or any of the things you imagine. On the contrary, they hate me, and I don't think that I'm very fond of them—except that I suppose one has a sort of affection for anybody who's brought one back to life again—when one didn't want to die!"
Henry Matcham broke in: "Tom, look here—upon my word, I don't believe that one of us has the least idea what you're talking about."
Tom looked around at them all and, in spite of himself, he was surprised at the change in their faces. The surprise was a shock. They were no longer regarding him with a gaze of tender, almost proprietary115, interest. The eyes that stared at his were almost hostile, at any[Pg 248] rate suspicious, alarmed. Alarmed about what? Possibly his sanity—possibly the misgiving116 that in a moment he was going to do or say something that would shock them all.
He realised as he looked at them that he had come, quite unexpectedly, upon the crisis of his life. They could understand it were he philanthropic, religious, sentimental117. They were prepared for those things; they had read novels, they knew that such moods did occur. What they were not prepared for, what they most certainly would not stand, was exactly the explanation that he was about to give them. That would insult them, assault the very temple of their most sacred assurances. As he looked he knew that if he now spoke118 the truth he would for ever cut himself off from them. They would regard his case as hopeless. It would be in the future "Poor Tom."
He hated that—and for what was he giving them up? For the world that distrusted him, disbelieved in him, and would kill him if it could....
The Rubicon was before him. He looked at its swirling119 waters, then, without any further hesitation120, he crossed it. He was never to return again....
"I'm sorry to disappoint you all," he said. "There's no sentimental motive121 behind my action—no desire to make any people better, nothing fine at all. It simply is, as I've said already, that those two people brought me back to life again. I don't know what, except that I was suddenly interested in them. I didn't like them, and they hated me. Now I've become interested in their friends and relations. I don't want to improve[Pg 249] them. They wouldn't let me if I did. I came back from France nobody at all. What happened there had simply killed all my interest in life. And—I'm awfully sorry to say it—but none of you brought my interest back. I think the centre of interests changed. It's as though there were some animal under the floor, and the part of the room that he's under is the part that you look at, because he's restless and it quivers. Well, he's shifted his position, that's all. You aren't on the interesting part of the floor any longer. I do hate to be rude and personal—but you have driven me to it. All of you are getting back to exactly what you were before the war: there's almost no change at all! And you're none of you interesting. I'm just as bad—but I want to go where the interesting human beings are, and there are more in the dirty streets than the clean ones. In books like Marcella, years ago people went out of their own class because they wanted to do 'good.' I don't want to do good to anyone, but I do want to keep alive now that I've come back to life again. And—that's all there is to it," he ended lamely122.
He had done as he had expected. He had offended them all mortally. He was arrogant123, proud, supercilious124, and a little mad. And they saw, finally, that they had lost him. No more money for any of them.
"Well," said Henry Matcham at last, "if you want to know, Tom, I think that's about the rottenest explanation I've ever heard. Of course, you're covering something up. But I'm sure we don't want to penetrate125 your secret if you don't like us to."
"There isn't any secret." Tom was beginning to be[Pg 250] angry. "I tell you for the hundredth time I'm not going to start soup kitchens, or found mission rooms, or anything like that, but I don't want any more of these silly tea-parties or perpetual revues, or—or——"
"Or any of us," Dollie, her cheeks flushed with angry colour, broke in. "All Tom's been trying to explain to us is that he thinks we're a dull lot, and the Bolsheviks in the slums are more lively——"
"No," Tom broke in; "Dollie, that isn't fair. I don't want to pick and choose according to class any more. I don't want to be anything ever again with a name to it—like a Patriot126, or a Democrat127, or a Bolshevik, or an Anti-Bolshevik, or a Capitalist. I'm going by Individuals wherever they are. I—Oh, forgive me," he broke off, "I'm preaching; I didn't mean to. It's a thing I hate. But it's so strange—you none of you know how strange it is—being dead, so that you felt nothing, and minded nothing, and thought nothing, and then suddenly waking——"
But they had had enough. Tommy was trying to teach them. Teach them! And Tommy!...
They "must be going"—sadly, angrily, indignantly they melted away. Tom was very sorry: there was nothing to be done.
Only Claribel, taking his hand for a moment, whispered:
"It's all right. They'll all come back later. They'll be wanting things."
They were gone—all of them. He was alone in his room. He drew back the curtains and looked down over[Pg 251] the grey misty128 stream of Duke Street scattered129 with the marigolds of the evening lights.
He threw open a window, and the roar of London came up to him like the rattle-rattle-rattle of a weaver's shuttle.
He laughed. He was happier than he had ever been before. The whole world seemed to be at his feet, and he no longer wished to judge it, to improve it, to dictate130 to it, to dogmatise it, to expect great things of it, to be disappointed in it....
He would never do any of those things again.
He addressed it:
"I did passionately wish you to be improved," he said, "but I didn't love you. Now I know you will never be improved, but I love you dearly—all of you, not a bit of you. Life simply isn't long enough for all I'm going to see!"
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