Clemence, looking scarcely older than when she left her first, splendid abode—for peace and joy seem sometimes to have power to arrest the changing touch of Time—is seated at the open door. Perhaps she sits there to enjoy the soft evening breeze which so gently plays amongst her silky tresses, or she is watching for the return of her husband and Vincent from their daily visit to M——. Effingham, through the exertions8 of Mr. Gray, has procured9 a small office in the town—one which, some years ago, he would have rejected with contempt, but the duties of which he now steadily10 performs, thankful to be able, by honest effort, to earn an independence, however humble. Vincent still pursues his studies at the academy, paying his own expenses by private tuition, and is regarded as the most gifted scholar that M—— has ever been able to boast of.
Clemence is not alone—a lovely little golden-haired girl is beside her, helping11, or seeming to help her mother to fasten white satin bows upon a delicate piece of work, so light and fragile in fabric12 that it might have appeared woven by fairies. It is a wedding gift for Louisa, and will be dearly valued by the bride.
“And, mamma dear,” said the child, looking up into the smiling face of Clemence, “is there not something that I could send to sister too?”
“The wild-flowers which you gathered this morning, my darling, in the meadow.”
“Oh, but won’t they all die on the way?”
“We will press them in a book first, to dry them, and then they will look lovely for years.”
“Poor flowers—all crushed down!” sighed little Grace.
“Only preserved,” said Clemence; and her words carried a deeper meaning to herself than that which reached the mind of the child.
“I wish I were rich—very rich!” cried little Grace, after a silent pause.
“And what would my May-blossom do with her riches?”
“I would send a cake—such a cake—to sister!” replied Grace, opening her little arms wide to give an idea of its size; “and it should be sugared all over!”
“Anything else?” inquired Clemence.
“I’d make dear Vincy happy—quite happy. He wants so much to go to college and be a clergyman, like Mr. Gray, and teach all the people to be good; but he says that he has not the money. Mamma, don’t you wish you had plenty of money?”
“No, my love,” replied Clemence, more gravely, parting the golden locks on the brow of her little daughter.
“Martha told me,” said Grace, with the air of one in possession of an important secret—“Martha told me that once you had a grand house, and a carriage, and horses, and servants, and dresses—oh, such fine dresses to wear!”
“Long, long ago,” replied Clemence.
“Was it when you lived with your dear old uncle, who gave you the pretty little locket which always hangs round your neck?”
“No; I lived very happily with him in a cottage not much larger than this.”
Little Grace remained for some moments twirling the white ribbon round her tiny fingers, with a look of thought on her innocent face; then she said reverently,—
“Mamma, did God take away your money?”
“Yes, dearest; in wisdom and love.”
“But if you asked Him—if you prayed very hard—would He not give it all back to you again?”
“I should not dare to pray for it, my Grace; I should not dare even to wish for it again. I have been given blessings13 so much dearer, so much sweeter”—and she stooped to press a kiss on the soft, fair brow of her child. “God has taught me that what makes His people happy is not wealth, but religion and peace and love. I have had more real joy in this little cottage than I ever knew in my large and beautiful home. But, see! there are your father and brother! Quick, quick—run forward to meet them, or the first kiss will not be yours!”
We turn from the sunshine of Willow14 Cottage to the shady side of the narrow street in which Lady Selina and her nieces for years have made their abode. How have those years sped with the woman of the world?
They have sped in the constant pursuit of pleasure, grasping at shadows, seeking satisfying joys where such are never to be found; in straining to “keep up appearances,” efforts to dress as well, entertain as well as those whose fortunes greatly exceeded her own; in paying by the self-denial of a month for the ostentatious display of a night; in exchanging rounds of formal visits with acquaintance who would not shed a tear, or forego an hour’s mirth, were she to-morrow laid in her grave. Lady Selina feels her strength decaying, but by artificial aids she attempts to hide the change from others—by wilful15 delusion16 from herself. She would ignore sickness, ignore trial, ignore death! And yet, in hours of solitude17 and weakness, truth, however unwelcome, will sometimes force its way; and those whose all is contained within the hour-glass of Time are constrained18 to watch the sands ever flowing, to see below the accumulating heap of infirmities, troubles, and cares, and mark above the hollow, inverted19 cone20 of ever-lessening pleasures. How miserable21, then, is the reflection, that no mortal hand can restore a single grain, and that, when the last runs out, nothing will remain but the grave, and the dark, awful future beyond it.
But Lady Selina spares no effort to banish22 such reflections. It is but recently that she has even mustered23 courage sufficient for the performance of the necessary duty of making her will, leaving her small property to her nephew, Vincent; perhaps as a salve to her conscience for utterly24 neglecting him during her lifetime. Lady Selina is less willing than she ever was before to fix her meditations25 on death or the grave. She will struggle on to the last, laden26 with the vanity which distracts, the prejudice which distorts, the malice27 which corrodes28 the mind. Her temper has become very irritable29, for which her infirmities may offer some excuse; but her peevish30 nervousness serves to imbitter the lives of the two sisters who have chosen her dwelling as their own.
The haughty31 Arabella has suffered not less acutely, though more silently than her aunt, from the change in their outward circumstances; but she wraps herself up in selfishness and pride, and though she often finds her present life painful and mortifying32, deems it more tolerable than one spent in a cottage, with Clemence Effingham for a companion.
The case is somewhat different with her sister. There have been times when, wearied with a round of amusements, longing33 for gentle sympathy and affection, wounded by the peevishness34 of her aunt, or the selfish indifference35 of Arabella, Louisa has felt almost disposed to accept reiterated36 invitations to Willow Cottage, and has half resolved to cast in her lot with those nearest and dearest to her heart. But she is like some fluttering insect, caught in the double web of her own habitual37 love of pleasure and the influence of worldly relatives. Lady Selina ever represents Cornwall as an English Siberia, a desolate38 wild, in which existence would be perfect stagnation39. She paints the gloom which must surround the dwelling of a ruined, disappointed man, till Louisa actually regards her indulgent father with feelings approaching to fear. Arabella is indignant if her sister even alludes40 to the subject of any change in her arrangements; so, enchained by indolence, folly41, and fear, Louisa quietly resigns herself to a position which is often painful as well as unnatural42. Her father’s kindness permits her a choice; her choice is to remain where pleasure may be found. Her longing for happiness is unsatisfied still, but it is at the world’s broken cisterns43 that she seeks to quench44 the thirst of an immortal45 soul.
Lady Selina’s ambition is now concentrating itself on one object. Her nieces must form brilliant alliances—they must be united to men of fortune and rank, and in their homes she must find once more the luxury, grandeur46, and importance which she once enjoyed in that of their father. The wish so long indulged, and scarcely concealed47, appears now to be on the point of partial fulfilment. Sir Mordaunt Strange has offered his hand to Louisa; it has been, after some hesitation48, accepted, and every letter to the cottage from Lady Selina is full of encomiums on the character, manner, and appearance of the “Intended,” and of felicitations on the happy prospects49 opening before the young bride elect.
Mr. Effingham and his son are to be present at the wedding. Clemence would fain accompany them to London, for her heart yearns50 over Louisa, and the very praise so lavishly51 bestowed52 upon Sir Mordaunt by Lady Selina excites misgivings53 in the step-mother’s breast. Prudential motives55 and other obstacles, however, prevent Clemence from accomplishing her wish.
We shall glance for a moment at Louisa, as she stands before a pier-glass in the drawing-room of her aunt, trying on her bridal veil and wreath of white orange-blossoms. A milliner is adjusting the spray which is to fall on the fair girl’s graceful56 neck.
“Stay for a moment,” says Lady Selina, walking towards the bride with a feeble step (for she is infirm, though she will not own it, and was more fit for her couch last night than for the gay assembly at which she appeared); “Sir Mordaunt’s beautiful diamond spray will make the coiffure complete,” and she draws from its case a sparkling ornament57, which she places upon the brow of her niece. “Look, Arabella, could anything be more charming? The dear child is mise à peindre!”
Louisa glances into the mirror with a smile and a blush. It is chiefly by working upon her vanity that her aunt has obtained such influence over her weak and ill-regulated mind. It is an hour of pride to the maiden58. About to change her name for a title—her present small abode for a luxurious59 house of her own—receiving congratulations from every quarter—her table covered with splendid gifts—rich jewels glittering on her fair brow—her childish heart is elated, and for the instant she believes herself happy. But why, while the blush heightens on her cheek, has the smile entirely60 disappeared? Why is the feeling of momentary61 elation62 succeeded by misgiving54 and gloom? The door has opened, and the bride elect sees reflected in the mirror beside her own image that of another. She sees a face, not plain, but unpleasing—not coarse in its outlines, but hard in its expression; she sees him whom she is about to pledge herself to love, honour, and obey yet whom she regards with indifference—happy if indifference be not one day exchanged for fear, mistrust, and aversion! Louisa Effingham has for the second time made the world her deliberate choice. House, carriage, title, jewels, estate,—for such baubles63 as these will she, a few days hence, in the presence of God and man, bind64 herself to one whom she loves not, whom she never can learn to love! Slave to a proud and capricious tyrant65, her home will be but a luxurious prison, and the unhappy wife will bitterly rue66 the day when she sold herself to a bondage67 more intolerable than that under which the poor African groans68!
This is the crowning sacrifice to which the world dooms69 its willing slaves. The poor victim goes crowned to the altar; friends smile, relations congratulate, and admiring spectators applaud. Who would then whisper of a galling70 yoke71, a wounded spirit, a breaking heart; who would whisper that the gold circlet on the finger may be but the first link in a heavy chain? Moloch’s shrieking72 victims were soon destroyed in the flames;—more wretched the fate of those whose slow-consuming pangs73 make life itself one long sacrifice of woe74!
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