The reach which Shelton chose was innocent of launches, champagne5 bottles and loud laughter; it was uncivilised, and seldom troubled by these humanising influences. He paddled slowly, silent and absorbed, watching Antonia. An unaccustomed languor6 clung about her; her eyes had shadows, as though she had not slept; colour glowed softly in her cheeks, her frock seemed all alight with golden radiance. She made Shelton pull into the reeds, and plucked two rounded lilies sailing like ships against slow-moving water.
“Pull into the shade, please,” she said; “it's too hot out here.”
The brim of her linen7 hat kept the sun from her face, but her head was drooping8 like a flower's head at noon.
Shelton saw that the heat was really harming her, as too hot a day will dim the icy freshness of a northern plant. He dipped his sculls, the ripples9 started out and swam in grave diminuendo till they touched the banks.
He shot the boat into a cleft10, and caught the branches of an overhanging tree. The skiff rested, balancing with mutinous11 vibration12, like a living thing.
“I should hate to live in London,” said Antonia suddenly; “the slums must be so awful. What a pity, when there are places like this! But it's no good thinking.”
“No,” answered Shelton slowly! “I suppose it is no good.”
“There are some bad cottages at the lower end of Cross Eaton. I went them one day with Miss Truecote. The people won't help themselves. It's so discouraging to help people who won't help themselves.”
She was leaning her elbows on her knees, and, with her chin resting on her hands, gazed up at Shelton. All around them hung a tent of soft, thick leaves, and, below, the water was deep-dyed with green refraction. Willow13 boughs14, swaying above the boat, caressed15 Antonia's arms and shoulders; her face and hair alone were free.
“So discouraging,” she said again.
A silence fell.... Antonia seemed thinking deeply.
“Doubts don't help you,” she said suddenly; “how can you get any good from doubts? The thing is to win victories.”
“Victories?” said Shelton. “I 'd rather understand than conquer!”
“How can you let things slide like that, Dick? It's like Ferrand.”
“Have you such a bad opinion of him, then?” asked Shelton. He felt on the verge17 of some, discovery.
She buried her chin deeper in her hands.
“I liked him at first,” she said; “I thought that he was different. I thought he couldn't really be—”
“Really be what?”
Antonia did not answer.
“I don't know,” she said at last. “I can't explain. I thought—”
Shelton still stood, holding to the branch, and the oscillation of the boat freed an infinity18 of tiny ripples.
“You thought—what?” he said.
He ought to have seen her face grow younger, more childish, even timid. She said in a voice smooth, round, and young:
“You know, Dick, I do think we ought to try. I know I don't try half hard enough. It does n't do any good to think; when you think, everything seems so mixed, as if there were nothing to lay hold of. I do so hate to feel like that. It is n't as if we didn't know what's right. Sometimes I think, and think, and it 's all no good, only a waste of time, and you feel at the end as if you had been doing wrong.”
Shelton frowned.
“What has n't been through fire's no good,” he said; and, letting go the branch, sat down. Freed from restraint, the boat edged out towards the current. “But what about Ferrand?”
“I lay awake last night wondering what makes you like him so. He's so bitter; he makes me feel unhappy. He never seems content with anything. And he despises”—her face hardened—“I mean, he hates us all!”
“So should I if I were he,” said Shelton.
“He seems to be always looking at dark things, or else he seems as if—as if he could—enjoy himself too much. I thought—I thought at first,” she stammered20, “that we could do him good.”
“Do him good! Ha, ha!”
A startled rat went swimming for its life against the stream; and Shelton saw that he had done a dreadful thing: he had let Antonia with a jerk into a secret not hitherto admitted even by himself—the secret that her eyes were not his eyes, her way of seeing things not his nor ever would be. He quickly muffled21 up his laughter. Antonia had dropped her gaze; her face regained22 its languor, but the bosom23 of her dress was heaving. Shelton watched her, racking his brains to find excuses for that fatal laugh; none could he find. It was a little piece of truth. He paddled slowly on, close to the bank, in the long silence of the river.
The breeze had died away, not a fish was rising; save for the lost music of the larks24 no birds were piping; alone, a single pigeon at brief intervals25 cooed from the neighbouring wood.
They did not stay much longer in the boat.
On the homeward journey in the pony-cart, rounding a corner of the road, they came on Ferrand in his pince-nez, holding a cigarette between his fingers and talking to a tramp, who was squatting26 on the bank. The young foreigner recognised them, and at once removed his hat.
Antonia bowed.
“Oh!” she, cried, when they were out of hearing, “I wish he 'd go. I can't bear to see him; it's like looking at the dark.”
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v.安慰( soothe的第三人称单数 );抚慰;使舒服;减轻痛苦 | |
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(被砍下的树的)树桩( stump的名词复数 ); 残肢; (板球三柱门的)柱; 残余部分 | |
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n.香槟酒;微黄色 | |
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n.(车轮的)辐条;轮辐;破坏某人的计划;阻挠某人的行动 v.讲,谈(speak的过去式);说;演说;从某种观点来说 | |
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n.百灵科鸟(尤指云雀)( lark的名词复数 );一大早就起床;鸡鸣即起;(因太费力而不想干时说)算了v.百灵科鸟(尤指云雀)( lark的第三人称单数 );一大早就起床;鸡鸣即起;(因太费力而不想干时说)算了 | |
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