Yet he himself was no longer altogether the same. He was less absorbed in the quiet intoxication2 of his own abstract dreams, less ready to be stirred by the stimulus3 of pure beauty around him. He no longer stood among the hills as in the earlier season, loft4 in the long sunny silences that were but heightened and enriched by some stray remote sound that floated through them, some measured thud of the threshing flail5 or faint tinkle6 of ring-barker’s axe7, coming one could not say whence. Words and tones, touches, lingering odors, fragmentary visions, came back to him again and again, perpetually, whatever he might be doing. These reminiscences thrilled him, yet their iteration grew wearisome and irritating at length. It was scarcely pleasure and not altogether pain.
In these days, as in the intervals8 of drudgery9 he went about his little household avocations10, they no longer hinted to him the exhilarating simplicity11 and joyousness12 of life. They called up questioning thoughts concerning what she was doing over there towards the east. Each act of his daily life seemed to have a thread tugging13 at it, and he half knew, yet was never quite sure, what movement was taking place at the other end of the thread. As he went down in the morning with his bucket for water at the creek14 he knew that she too might be going down to her creek, a larger one than his, in her loose dressing-gown, to take a hasty dip in the pool beneath the shea-oaks. For the most part their lives ran parallel, and each moment brought for each the same occupation. There was always a companion by his side, and yet a companion whose constant imaginary presence he would try to fling off, like the obsession15 of some verse or line that perpetually repeats itself in the memory.
One thought constantly beset16 him, the image of that smooth sandstone boulder17. He had avoided the spot ever since the unforgettable night that had sunk in the clash of hoofs18, yet the vision of that stone haunted him, and possessed19 him with the desire to see it, to sit upon it. He was for ever longing20 to wander across the creek, to that stone, for ever repressing the longing. At last, one evening after sunset, when the stars were scarcely out but the moon was over the hill, he found himself on the other side of the creek, walking up the slope, in the silent subdued21 light.
There, as ever, lay the lichened22 stone. He was tormented23 by the desire to sit on that stone as she had sat, and yet distracted by the foolishness of his desire. Vivid memories crowded back, the soft flesh, all the fragrance24 of womanhood for lonely youth. He was about to fling himself down and kiss the smooth stone.
But suddenly he turned away and went swiftly down the slope over the loose stones in the creek’s bed. The pride and reticence25 of boyhood, self-contained and self-centred, were as yet beaten down by no irresistible26 thrust of passion. His green youth still rigidly27 bound the crimson28 spike29 in the blossoming rose of love. The spirit of boyhood was still strong against the destinies of life, suspicious of easy self-abandonment, aloof30 from the irrational31 cry of instinct which belongs not to the person but the race; the day of love had yet scarcely dawned.
As he paced up and down the verandah he stopped to look wistfully at the heavy mass of Bambaroo standing32 out gloomily in the night. It seemed to be expanding in the darkness and pressing towards him.
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n.山峡,峡谷( gorge的名词复数 );咽喉v.(用食物把自己)塞饱,填饱( gorge的第三人称单数 );作呕 | |
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n.wild excitement;drunkenness;poisoning | |
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n.刺激,刺激物,促进因素,引起兴奋的事物 | |
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n.阁楼,顶楼 | |
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v.用连枷打;击打;n.连枷(脱粒用的工具) | |
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vi.叮当作响;n.叮当声 | |
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n.[军事]间隔( interval的名词复数 );间隔时间;[数学]区间;(戏剧、电影或音乐会的)幕间休息 | |
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快乐,使人喜悦 | |
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