But this was not for long. The thought of her own selfish interests came back, and in the midst of her apparent grief the question forced itself upon her consideration, "Did my husband make a will?"
Of course, she did not give utterance5 to this query6. She knew what was expected of her, and she was prudent7 enough to keep up appearances before the neighbors, who poured into the house to offer their sympathy. She received them with her cambric handkerchief pressed to her eyes, from which, by dint8 of effort, she succeeded in squeezing a few formal tears, and, while her bosom9 appeared to heave with emotion, she was mentally calculating how much Colonel Preston had probably left.
"Shan't I stay with you, my dear Mrs. Preston?" said worthy10 Mrs. Cameron, in a tone full of warm interest and sympathy.
"Thank you," said Mrs. Preston, in a low voice; "you are very kind, but I would rather be left alone."
"But it must be so sad for you to be alone in your sorrow," said her neighbor.
"No. I can bear sorrow better alone," said the newly made widow. "Perhaps I am peculiar11, but I would prefer it."
"If you really wish it," said the other, reluctantly.
"Yes, I wish it. Thank you for your kind offer, but I know my own feelings, and the presence of others would only increase my pain."
This was what she said to others who made the same offer. It did not excite great surprise, for Mrs. Preston had never leaned upon anyone for sympathy, nor was she ready with her sympathy when others were in trouble. She was self-poised and self-contained, and, in fact, for this reason was not popular with her neighbors. Still, in this her distress12 they were ready to forget all this and extend the same cordial sympathy which they would have done in other cases. There was but one person whose company she did crave13 at this time and this was her son, Godfrey. So, when Alfred Turner offered to go for him the next morning, she accepted his offer with thanks.
At last she was left alone. The servant had gone to bed, and there was no one but herself and her dead husband in the lower part of the house. She no longer sat with her handkerchief pressed before her eyes. Her face wore its usual look of calm composure. She was busily thinking, not of her husband's fate, but of her own future.
"Did he leave a will? And, if so, how much did he leave me?" she thought.
If there was a will, it was probably in the house, and Mrs. Preston determined14 to find it, if possible.
"Of course, all ought to come to me and Godfrey," she soliloquized. "I don't think it is right to leave money to charitable institutions as long as a wife and child are living. Fortunately, my husband had no brothers or sisters, or perhaps he would have divided the property. If there is no will, I shall have my thirds, and shall have the control of Godfrey's property till he comes of age. I think I will go to Boston to live. My friend, Mrs. Boynton, has a very pleasant house on Worcester Street. I should like to settle down somewhere near her. I don't know how much Mr. Preston was worth, but I am sure we shall have enough for that. I always wanted to live in the city. This village is intolerably stupid, and so are the people. I shall be glad to get away."
Could the good women, whose kind hearts had prompted them to proffer15 their sympathy, have heard these words they would not have been likely to obtrude16 any more on the hard, cold woman who held them in such low estimation.
Mrs. Preston took the lamp in her hand, and began to explore her husband's desk. She had often thought of doing so, but, as his death was not supposed to be so near, she had not thought that there was any immediate17 cause of doing so. Besides, it had almost been her belief that he had made no will. Now she began to open drawers and untie18 parcels of papers, but it was some time before she came to what she sought. At length, however, her diligence was rewarded. In the middle of a pile of papers, she found one labeled on the outside:
MY WILL.
Her heart beat as she opened it, and, though there was no need, for it was now past ten o'clock, and there was not likely to be a caller at that late hour, she looked cautiously about her, and even peered out of the window into the darkness, but could find no one whose observation she might fear.
I am not about to recite at length the items in the will, which covered a page of foolscap. It is enough to quote two items, which Mrs. Preston read with anger and dissatisfaction. They are as follows:
"Item.—To my young friend, Andy Burke, son of the widow
Burke, of this village, in consideration of a valuable
service rendered to me on one occasion, and as a mark of my
regard and interest, I give and bequeath the sum of five
for her faithful nursing when I was dangerously sick with the
cottage in which she at present resides.
"Item.—To the town I give five thousand dollars, the
for a public library, for the benefit of all the citizens,
provided the town will provide some suitable place in which
to keep them."
All the balance of the property was left to his wife and son, in equal proportions, his wife to be the guardian22 of Godfrey till he should have attained23 his majority. As Colonel Preston was well known to be rich, this seemed to be an adequate provision, but Mrs. Preston did not look upon it in that light. On the contrary, she was deeply incensed24 at the two legacies25 of which mention has been made above.
"Was ever anything more absurd than to waste five thousand dollars and a house upon that Irish boy and his mother?" she said to herself. "I don't suppose it was so much my husband's fault. That artful woman got around him, and wheedled26 him into it. I know now why she was so willing to come here and take care of him when he was sick. She wanted to wheedle27 him into leaving money to her low-lived boy. She is an artful and designing hussy, and I should like to tell her so to her face."
The cold and usually impassible woman was deeply excited. Her selfish nature made her grudge28 any of her husband's estate to others, except, indeed, to Godfrey, who was the only person she cared for. As she thought over the unjust disposition29, as she regarded it, which her husband had made of his property, a red spot glowed in her usually pale cheek.
"What claim had the town on my husband," she thought, "that he should give it five thousand dollars? In doing it, he was robbing Godfrey and me. It was wrong. He had no right to do it. What do I care for these people? They are a set of common farmers and mechanics, with whom I condescend31 to associate because I have no one else here, except the minister's and the doctor's family, to speak to. Soon I shall be in the city, and then I don't care if I never set eyes on any of them again. In Boston I can find suitable society."
The more Mrs. Preston thought of it, the more she felt aggravated32 by the thought that so large a share of her husband's property was to go to others. She fixed33 her eyes thoughtfully on the document which she held in her hand, and a strong temptation came to her.
"If this should disappear," she said to herself, "the money would be all mine and Godfrey's, and no one would be the wiser. That Irish boy and his mother would stay where they belonged, and my Godfrey would have his own. Why should I not burn it? It would only be just."
Deluding34 herself by this false view, she persuaded herself that it was right to suppress the will. With steady hand she held it to the flame of the lamp, and watched it as it was slowly consumed. Then, gathering35 up the fragments, she threw them away.
"It is all ours now," she whispered, triumphantly36, as she prepared to go to bed. "It was lucky I found the will."
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