As it used to be.”
Sue interfered3 with the packing somewhat by darting4 to and fro, bringing her mother sacred souvenirs given her by the Shaker sisters and the children—needle-books, pin-balls, thimble-cases, packets of flower-seeds, polished pebbles5, bottles of flavoring extract.
“This is for Fardie,” she would say, “and this for Jack6 and this for Ellen and this for Aunt Louisa—the needle-book, 'cause she's so useful. Oh, I'm glad we're going home, Mardie, though I do love it here, and I was most ready to be a truly Shaker. It's kind of pityish to have your hair shingled7 and your stocking half-knitted and know how to say 'yee' and then have it all wasted.”
Susanna dropped a tear on the dress she was folding. The child was going home, as she had come away from it, gay, irresponsible, and merry; it was only the mothers who hoped and feared and dreaded8. The very universe was working toward Susanna's desire at that moment, but she was all unaware9 of the happiness that lay so near. She could not see the freshness of the house in Farnham, the new bits of furniture here and there; the autumn leaves in her own bedroom; her worktable full of the records of John's sorrowful summer; Jack handsomer and taller, and softer, also, in his welcoming mood; Ellen rosy10 and excited. She did not know that Joel Atterbury had said to John that day, “I take it all back, old man, and I hope you'll stay on in the firm!” nor that Aunt Louisa, who was putting stiff, short-stemmed chrysanthemums11 in cups and tumblers here and there through the house, was much more flexible and human than was natural to her; nor that John, alternating between hope and despair, was forever humming:
“Set her place at hearth and board
As it used to be:
Higher are the hills of home,
Bluer is the sea!”
It is often so. They who go weeping to look for the dead body of a sorrow, find a vision of angels where the body has lain.
“I hope Fardie 'll be glad to see us and Ellen will have gingerbread,” Sue chattered12; then, pausing at the window, she added, “I'm sorry to leave the hills, 'cause I 'specially13 like them, don't you, Mardie?”
“We are leaving the Shaker hills, but we are going to the hills of home,” her mother answered cheerily. “Don't you remember the Farnham hills, dear?”
“Yes, I remember,” and Sue looked thoughtful; “they were farther off and covered with woods; these are smooth and gentle. And we shall miss the lake, Mardie.”
“Yes; but we can look at the blue sea from your bedroom window, Sue!”
“Yes; but he and Jack will have a great deal to say to us, and we must n't talk all the time about the dear, kind Shakers, you know!”
“You're all 'buts,' Mardie!” at which Susanna smiled through her tears.
Twilight15 deepened into dusk, and dusk into dark, and then the moon rose over the poplar trees outside the window where Susanna and Sue were sleeping. The Shaker Brethren and Sisters were resting serenely16 after their day of confession17. It was the aged18 Tabitha's last Sabbath on earth, but had she known, it would have made no difference; if ever a soul was ready for heaven, it was Tabitha's.
There was an Irish family at the foot of the long hill that lay between the Settlement and the village of Albion; father, mother, and children had prayed to the Virgin19 before they went to bed; and the gray-haired minister in the low-roofed parsonage was writing his communion sermon on a text sacred to the orthodox Christian20 world. The same moon shone over all, and over millions of others worshiping strange idols21 and holding strange beliefs in strange far lands, yet none of them owned the whole of heaven; for as Elder Gray said, “It is a big place and belongs to God.”
Susanna Hathaway went back to John thinking it her plain duty, and to me it seems beautiful that she found waiting for her at the journey's end a new love that was better than the old; found a husband to whom she could say in that first sacred hour when they were alone together, “Never mind, John! Let's forget, and begin all over again.”
When Susanna and Sue alighted at the little railway station at Farnham, and started to walk through the narrow streets that led to the suburbs, the mother's heart beat more and more tumultuously as she realized that the issues of four lives would be settled before nightfall.
Little did Sue reck of life issues, skipping like a young roe22 from one side of the road to the other. “There are the hills, not a bit changed, Mardie!” she cried; “and the sea is just where it was!... Here's the house with the parrot, do you remember? Now the place where the dog barks and snarls23 is coming next... P'raps he'll be dead.., or p'raps he'll be nicer... Keep close to me till we get past the gate... He did n't come out, so p'raps he is dead or gone a-visiting.... There's that 'specially lazy cow that's always lying down in the Buxtons' field.... I don't b'lieve she's moved since we came away.... Do you s'pose she stands up to be milked, Mardie? There's the old bridge over the brook24, just the same, only the woodbine's red.... There's... There's... Oh, Mardie, look, look!... I do b'lieve it's our Jacky!”
Sue flew over the ground like a swallow, calling “Jack-y! Jack-y! It's me and Mardie come home!”
Jack extricated25 himself from his sister's strangling hug and settled his collar. “I'm awful glad to see you, Sukey,” he said, “but I'm getting too big to be kissed. Besides, my pockets are full of angleworms and fishhooks.”
“Are you too big to be kissed even by mother?” called Susanna, hurrying to her boy, who submitted to her embrace with better grace. “O Jack, Jack! say you're glad to see mother! Say it, say it; I can't wait, Jack!”
“'Course I'm glad! Why would n't I be? I tell you I'm tired of Aunt Louisa, though she's easier than she was. Time and again I've packed my lunch basket and started to run away, but I always made it a picnic and went back again, thinking they'd make such a row over me.”
“Aunt Louisa is always kind when you're obedient,” Susanna urged, “She ain't so stiff as she was. Ellen is real worried about her and thinks she's losing her strength, she's so easy to get along with.”
“How's... father...?”
“Better'n he was.”
“Has n't he been well?”
“Not so very; always quiet and won't eat, nor play, nor anything. I'm home with him since Sunday.”
“What is the matter with your clothes?” asked Susanna, casting a maternal26 eye over him while she pulled him down here and up there, with anxious disapproving27 glances. “You look so patched, and wrinkled, and grubby.”
“Aunt Louisa and father make me keep my best to put on for you, if you should come. I clean up and dress every afternoon at train time, only I forgot today and came fishing.”
“It's too cold to fish, sonny.”
“It ain't too cold to fish, but it's too cold for 'em to bite,” corrected Jack.
“Why were you expecting us just now?” asked Susanna. “I did n't write because... because, I thought... perhaps... it would be better to surprise you.”
“Father's expecting you every day, not just this one,” said Jack.
Susanna sank down on a stone at the end of the bridge, and leaning her head against the railing, burst into tears. In that moment the worst of her fears rolled away from her heart like the stone from the mouth of a sepulcher28. If her husband had looked for her return, he must have missed her, regretted her, needed her, just a little. His disposition29 was sweet, even if it were thoughtless, and he might not meet her with reproaches after all. There might not be the cold greeting she had often feared—“Well, you've concluded to come back, have you? It was about time!” If only John were a little penitent30, a little anxious to meet her on some common ground, she felt her task would be an easier one.
“Have you got a pain, Mardie?” cried Sue, anxiously bending over her mother.
“No, dear,” she answered, smiling through her tears and stretching a hand to both children to help her to her feet. “No, dear, I've lost one!”
“I cry when anything aches, not when it stops,” remarked Jack, as the three started again on their walk. “Say, Sukey, you look bigger and fatter than you did when you went away, and you've got short curls 'stead of long ones. Do you see how I've grown? Two inches!”
“I'm inches and inches bigger and taller,” Sue boasted, standing31 on tiptoe and stretching herself proudly. “And I can knit, and pull maple32 candy, and say Yee, and sing 'O Virgin Church, how great thy light.'”
“Pooh,” said Jack, “I can sing 'A sailor's life's the life for me, Yo ho, yo ho!' Step along faster, mummy dear; it's 'most supper time. Aunt Louisa won't scold if you're with me. There's the house, see? Father 'll be working in the garden covering up the asters, so they won't freeze before you come.”
“There is no garden, Jack. What do you mean?” “Wait till you see if there's no garden! Hurrah33! there's father at the window, side of Aunt Louisa. Won't he be pleased I met you halfway34 and brought you home!”
Oh! it was beautiful, the autumn twilight, the smoke of her own hearth-side rising through the brick chimneys! She thought she had left the way of peace behind her, but no, the way of peace was here, where her duty was, and her husband and children.
The sea was deep blue; the home hills rolled softly along the horizon; the little gate that Susanna had closed behind her in anger and misery35 stood wide open; shrubs36, borders, young hedgerows, beds of late autumn flowers greeted her eyes and touched her heart. A foot sounded on the threshold; the home door opened and smiled a greeting; and then a voice choked with feeling, glad with welcome, called her name.
Light-footed Sue ran with a cry of joy into her father's outstretched arms, and then leaping down darted37 to Ellen, chattering38 like a magpie39. Husband and wife looked at each other for one quivering moment, and then clasped each other close.
“Forgive! O Susanna, forgive!”
John's eyes and lips and arms made mute appeals, and it was then Susanna said, “Never mind, John! Let's forget, and begin all over again!”
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confession
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