Margarethe had passed through many phases, not only since the night she had heard of Ordham’s engagement, but since the beginning of her deliberate correspondence with him. As is commonly the case, she found more satisfaction in the writing of her own letters than in the reading of his; although that excited, hopeful, terrified, tremulous, forlorn waiting for the post was a new and astounding6 experience. Men, the cleverest of them, are indifferent letter writers, and Ordham was no exception. A woman lets her pen run on with a freedom and felicity which conscious art but intensifies7, the while it exercises selection and restraint. But men are prone8 to say what they have to say in the fewest possible words, rather rejecting all subjects but the essential than wandering afield in search of others that might make their compositions interesting.
Although Styr, in a manner, enjoyed this correspondence even more deeply than her personal intercourse9 with the man who had strolled into her inner kingdom and taken possession (for it gave her a sense of greater intimacy10, liberated11 her imagination), she was too wise to give alarm to his limited amount of masculine endurance by writing him twenty pages when she was artistically13 capable of packing news, gossip, personalities14, disquisitions upon books, the opera, the drama, and politics, into ten. Nor, although she longed to write daily, did she gratify this new passion oftener than once a week; and even so, she cultivated a certain irregularity, that the assured appearance of a too familiar envelope on his morning tray might not in time inspire him with that nervous irritability15 which so often takes shape in ennui16. Not for nothing had she been forced to accept man as her chief study before Wagner transposed her from life to art; but she hated these restraints, longed to be natural. She knew, however, that, given a man of Ordham’s temperament17, only nature heightened by art could hold him, never nature unbridled and ingenuous18.
Ordham’s disposition19 was so far from frank that although while within her magnetic radius20 he had been more confidential21 and revealing than he had ever been before, he could not shed his diplomatic shell with nothing but a sheet of paper before him, headed “Dear Countess Tann.” Moreover, with all his soul he hated letter writing, and only answered these fascinating epistles with a reasonable promptness for the sake of others to come. If she had tacitly agreed to write alone, he would have been completely happy. And she, of course, wanted a running picture of his daily life at Ordham, of the companies assembled there, of trivial but always interesting personalities and incidents. But he could as easily have written a book; the bare suggestion would have appalled22 him; and, while making his letters as short as decency23 would permit, he confined himself to a brief comment upon the literary and artistic12 people invited to the castle, music, and books—he sent her many new ones—and devoted24 the last page to herself, expressing his desire to see her again, and his regret that their summer had been all too short. Sometimes she smiled at these laborious25 epistles, and sometimes she flung them across the room and stamped her foot. She had to read them over and over to extract any comfort out of them; then, finally, she succeeded in reading between the lines, rewrote them, in short, as women will.
There were times when she intensely disliked him for his apostasy26 to herself, his weakness in being blindly steered27 into a commonplace attack of puppy love when he should have risen superior to the follies28 of youth and gone unscathed till thirty, then loved some one worthy29 of him. She hurled30 him from his pedestal and rolled him in the dirt, announcing that he belonged there, delighted with the sense of emancipation31 that permeated32 to her finger tips. Not even yet did her mind dwell upon the possibility of any closer union with him; she dreamed only of the insatiable mysterious immaterial tie; she indulged herself in attacks of bitterness, of furious regret that he had not so ordered his life that she might think of him always as the exceptional man, instead of seeing, against her will, a vision of a love-sick white-faced youth, idiotically in love with a pretty girl, then as a fatuous33 young husband complacent34 to all the selfish whims35 of his bride; drifting with her on a river of gold that threatened to rise and suffocate36 what energies he had. If he must be “managed,” she was the woman for this office, for she would have steered him to greater goals. She was a thorough woman, was Margarethe Styr, but her saving grace was that she knew it. When she laughed at herself, then was Ordham forgiven, excused, dusted off, and restored to his pedestal, his sovereignty in the realm of the ideal.
When there crept into his letters—after the return of his household to London—a tinge37 of sadness, deepening at times into melancholy38, more than a hint of impatience39 at enforced inertia40, at passing opportunities; when his polite desire to see her again began to vibrate with something like passion, then did she understand that not only was he tiring of his wife, but that her own letters, with their insidious41 but unremitting spur to his ambitions, were reaping the harvest she had planned. It was after one of these letters of his, longer than usual, more personal, asserting that could he but find a decent excuse, could he but exercise his freedom at this time without brutality42, he would take the next train for Munich, that a voice seemed to cry through her brain: “Let him alone! Let him alone! In silence and absence men forget.” This spasm43 of conscience brought her face to face with a good many possible results that she had ignored; and as she really loved him and was fairly consistent in her desire to see him happy and great, she delayed her answer to this letter, half resolving to drop the correspondence.
Then, a week later, arrived a letter charged with a curious hotchpotch of anger and jubilance, an astonished sense of semi-defeat and almost royal triumph. He had not given her a hint of his scheme to organize a season of Wagner opera at Covent Garden, for, although hopeful at the first, he had met, upon his return to London, with so many objections and difficulties, so much ignorance, prejudice, and pharisaical folly44, that he had at times despaired of attaining45 an object which opposition46 fanned into a passion. But, calling to his aid older and more influential47 men than himself, the last barrier had finally gone down, and although he could not hire the opera house for the season, owing to other contracts, he had succeeded in capturing it for five weeks by depositing, as a guarantee against failure, twenty thousand pounds with the committee he had formed. Of this guarantee he naturally made no mention to Styr, but had he been able to conceal48 the fact that the enterprise was his, a letter received in the same mail from the great conductor would have enlightened her.
She was infinitely49 touched. If resentments50 had lingered in her mind, they were swept out, and they never returned. She knew—who better than she?—what all this had meant to that indolent nature, steeped in self-indulgence. For the first time in his life he had really exerted himself, worked to accomplish an object, and not for himself, but for her. He wrote with enthusiasm of being the means of educating his country musically with her assistance, and there was no doubt that he assumed this responsibility in all sincerity51, but he dwelt upon it too emphatically, in his desire to save her from any sense of obligation. The deeper tenderness of her nature was stirred; it was the first poignant52 sweetness in an affair that had already given her far more joy than sorrow, pleasure than disappointment. Moreover, there was a new and a very keen delight in the gratitude53 she was forced to render to this noble but torpid54 nature, which she had revealed to itself, to be the first object of his energies.
But she hesitated some time before she accepted the formal offer to sing in London from the first of May until the seventh of June. She vowed55 anew to spare Ordham the certain disaster of materializing their bond, and herself as well. But this offer arrived very opportunely56 in her affairs. The King came no more to Munich, summoned her no more to his castles; and although, owing to her popularity with the public, and the still potent57 shadow of Ludwig, the opera house cabal58 might not dare to compass her sudden dismissal, they contrived59 that she sing less and less, gave her the worst support of which that admirable company was capable. Their object, of course, was to wean the public by degrees, to insinuate60 that the Styr had grown capricious, indifferent to her once beloved Munich, was losing health and nursing her voice; to tickle61 the Bavarian love of variety with as many Gasts as they could command, to press against her cold resistance until she lost control of her furious temper and flung her contract in the face of the intendant.
This she had no mind to do, and her will was as strong as theirs combined; but she was worn with the unremitting silent struggle, the countless62 mortifications; she knew that the death or deposition63 of the King would push her hard against the wall, battling for the supreme64 position she had held so easily. Now, through the influence of Princess Nachmeister, or the Queen-mother, she could obtain the signature necessary for a leave of absence. Then, London conquered, she knew that Munich would clamour for her return, and, with or without the support of the King, her position would be impregnable for a long time to come. For the matter of that it must be the first step in that greater career which her ambition had never ceased to picture. She had written to Damrosch several months since, but had received the reply she had expected: the artists were already engaged for the first Wagner season in New York; but it was expressed in a tone of sharp regret that she had written too late—even, perhaps, for that projected second season, were the experiment a success; but she had not the least doubt that did she create a furore in the most musically indifferent of all cities, to which, however, New York bent65 the knee, a place during the second season would be made for her as a matter of course.
And after London, she also would be invited to sing in every capital in Europe, with the possible exception of Paris; although to be sure she might sing to the public that still visited their hatred66 of Germany upon Wagner, in such r?les as Dido, Aida, Fidelio, Donna Anna, Katharine, in The Taming of the Shrew, and even the Countess, in The Marriage of Figaro; for after all these years of daily vocalization, besides her stage experience, there was little she could not do with her voice, and it would be interesting to prove that she could subdue67 that tremendous organ to pure melody. She was not even sure that she should not attempt Carmen, as a tour de force; and she could act it! Great God, how she could act it! She had only to conjure68 up Ordham’s marriage in all its details.
And how she should revel69 in the conquest of New York, look down with serenity70 or laughter from the unassailable position of the season’s idol71 upon the mire72 that had nurtured73 her, and upon the good respectable people that held their skirts so high, shuddering74 at the mere75 acknowledgment of the horrors upon which they danced, or lived their comfortable lives. She wanted no social recognition from that great city, where so many proud names covered secrets little less appalling76 than her own; but to dominate where she had once shrunk far from the limelight, to be crowned where she had been despised!—little she cared for the sleuths of the press. Their revelations would but excite the public the more, for that public almost resents the reflection of their own necessary virtues77 in a great prima donna, her failure to indulge the rights of genius.
But she hesitated, for John Ordham could not be shoved long from the forefront of her mind,—that young friend who would annihilate78 her worries, who had unrolled this glorious future. It would be a poor return to wreck79 his life. But was she not sure of herself? That, after all, was the whole point. She had managed him before, she could manage him again. She must live in a hotel, she would meet many people, five weeks pass very quickly. She could strengthen the bond, deepen her influence, even while she avoided the dangers inherent in mending a broken intimacy. . . .
Yes, she would go. What was more, she would make sure of his career before she left London, raze80 forever his wife’s selfish defences. Little she cared whether the silly child had married him for love or not; her possible sufferings were of no consequence whatever. She would not break up his peace in the common fashion; but give him to Europe she would, and his wife might console herself with her baby and the great position for which she had schemed quite as much as for the love of this exceptional creature to whom she had but the flimsiest, the most transient rights. Not in nine short years could Margarethe Styr swallow ten whole commandments.
Nevertheless, perhaps unconsciously, she possessed81 the large vision, the contempt of petty detail, of obstructing82 means, when a great end promised. There were times when she put even herself out of mind, and saw Ordham, his fine and peculiar83 abilities in full flower, moving his sure hand among the destinies of Europe, making as sure a place for himself in history. Of what earthly importance was the possible happiness, or the crushing, of one more American girl in the face of a great and useful career? She was, in truth, a negligible quantity.
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follies
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gratitude
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