At the War Office he learned that Henry had resigned his regiment3 and was at the head of the Surrey Yeomanry, with headquarters near the Towers. This argued well, he told himself; it meant work and responsibility for Henry that would engage his interest and surely win him away from his old, reckless way of living.
The morning slipped away with its many demands on his first day in town. His hansom turned into Sloane Street only as a clock near by struck two. In a few minutes the door of the Pont Street house was opened to him, and he was ushered4 into the library.
He dropped lightly into an arm-chair near a table heaped with books. Suddenly a door opened as though at the end of a corridor. He distinctly heard voices raised in strong argument behind the hangings; one sounded like Henry's; a half-suppressed oath followed.
"It's no use," the voice went on. "You must do as I say. Don't preach." He could not hear the words that followed. Jim wished it were possible to make known his presence in the room. He crossed to the farther window to avoid hearing the remainder of the conversation, but the clear and incisive5 words of the first speaker—this time Jim knew it was Henry—again struck his ears sharply.
"I must have the money, Petrie; make what explanation you like, but send it to me within a week. It's useless arguing. I've lost heavily in speculation6. Here are the papers." The opening and slamming of several drawers followed. To Jim the words that he had just heard were like a knell7 to his hopes of the past week for Diana's happiness. So this was the truth! Another mortgage! He knew enough of the involved condition of the estate to dread8 the possibilities of that word.
As Jim sat in the window-seat facing the street, he was so absorbed in his reflections that he did not hear the door open. With a start he felt a pair of hands clasped over his eyes.
"Guess!" the low voice said.
He answered, quickly, "Di!"
"Yes, it's Di, Jim; and such a happy Di to see you again."
As he turned he half expected to see the tiny child as he had last seen her, with the puppy in her arms calling, "It's Di, Jim." For a moment they stood holding each other's hands and only the eyes of the two spoke9. The thoughts of both involuntarily went back to their last meeting. They realized that unconsciously they had taken up their childhood manner. Slowly their hands unclasped and Diana was the first to speak.
"Oh, Jim, I should hardly know you. You are so big, so strong, and yet—you look as though you had been very ill; have you?"
She studied Jim's face closely, gaunt and drawn10, but with the eyes still like gray pools of suppressed fire. Jim forgot the troubled thoughts that Henry's words had aroused. He only knew that Diana stood before him, young and beautiful. He threw back his head and laughed; it was the ringing, joyous11 laugh of a boy.
"And I almost thought, as I turned, that I could see my little Di," he said.
The memory of the delicate child faded into the tall, strong figure before him. Quickly he noted12 the complexities13 of her face; its newly acquired look of womanhood seemed curiously14 incongruous with the rest of her personality. He saw in her eyes a haunting expression of marked patience. The new acquaintance of the grown man and woman had adjusted itself.
"Oh, Jim, I'm so proud of you," Diana said, gravely. "You have really done something with your life that is worth while."
"Which means, I suppose, that the rest of us have not," a voice said.
Jim and Diana turned as Henry spoke. He was standing15 in the doorway16. Jim noticed with satisfaction that his eyes rested on Diana in unquestionable gratification. Perhaps, after all, Henry's love for Diana was real. He remembered that his aunt, in her letter, had written of her great faith in this marriage for Henry's happiness—indeed, he well remembered that the letter seemed to insist upon the benefits Henry would derive17 from the marriage. He wondered what it had meant for Diana.
"Welcome to the hero," Henry chaffingly said, as he crossed to Jim's side.
An underlying18 nervous excitement, at once apparent to Jim, clung to Henry's manner. Otherwise his greeting was more than reassuring19.
"Did you finish your business interview?" Diana questioned. A shade of displeasure showed on Henry's face as he answered:
"Yes, yes, I had more than enough of it."
"We postponed20 luncheon," Diana explained to Jim, "because Henry found his solicitor21 wished to see him about some repairs needed on the estate. The request was urgent, Henry said, and I knew you would not mind the delay."
For a moment Jim felt as if Henry must read the thoughts that blazed so fiercely in his mind. So this was Henry's way of deceiving Diana. He tried to control his face so that it might give no sign of the disgust he felt. Henry had turned away; Jim could see him nervously22 twisting his mustache; Diana was smiling tenderly on Henry as though in approval of his morning's benevolent23 work. Jim, reading between the lines, saw Henry wince24 at the dishonestly gained approbation25; and decided26 that Henry was vulnerable where his desire to gain her respect was concerned. This was so much in his favor, at all events.
An hour later, as they sat over their coffee, Henry began explaining to Jim his work with the Yeomanry. If Jim stayed at home he wanted him to join in this splendid service to England.
"We shall need these men later, mark me. The situation in Africa is threatening." Then followed a discussion of their plans.
Henry's career as a soldier, Jim remembered, had promised well, but he also remembered certain periods of riotous27 living that had brought him for a time under the ban of the authorities.
As Henry elaborated his scheme to perfect the Yeomanry in their county, Jim acknowledged that there was no question of his undoubted ability to be in command. He succumbed28 to the strong personal charm of his cousin. Surely Henry would control himself and make a worthy29 showing of his life yet. In Jim's heart was the silent prayer that it might be so, and that perhaps he could help him to attain30 this result.
Diana, listening, was happy in the apparent new bond between the cousins. She had been so eager for this: that Jim should be with them as he had been when he was a boy. Since her marriage, her life had been full of pleasant days, with only here and there the pin-prick of the old, frightened instincts. It usually occurred when Henry was in one of his black moods. Up to the present he had tried to avoid her on these occasions. She strangely rebelled when she came to realize that it was her beauty which gave him his greatest pleasure. That it was primarily her youth and loveliness that delighted him, he made no effort to conceal31. At times she admitted to herself that she wished it were not so flagrant—this frank, pagan joy of the senses which she invoked32 in him. But, she reasoned, if she allowed these thoughts to frighten her, she was catching33 at shadows. Of tangible34 facts there was none; indeed, she found it impossible to explain satisfactorily these doubts and regrets.
Jim was promising35 Henry that he would think seriously of the Yeomanry work, when Diana suddenly remembered that Henry and she were due at a studio to see a portrait of hers that was soon to be exhibited. At that moment a note was brought to Henry. Jim observed the quick contraction36 of Henry's brows and the sharp biting of his lips as he read it. Henry crumpled37 the letter. "Jim can take you," he brusquely said. "This note is of importance and requires my immediate38 attention. It's concerning my interview of this morning."
Diana's face showed her disappointment.
"But this is the third time that you've broken your appointment with me, and you promised Mr. Bond that you would surely give your decision on the picture to-day," Diana protested. "Besides, it is difficult for me to take all the responsibility in the matter, and the picture must be sent to-day to the exhibition. Do meet me there later, Henry."
Henry had been fighting the Furies for days; his financial worries were now vital to his honor. Into his eyes came the brutal39 flash that Jim knew so well, and he hurriedly intervened, "I'll go with you, Di, with pleasure, if I can be of the slightest service to you."
Instead of helping40 the situation, Jim found that his quick acquiescence41, although suggested by Henry, had the effect of further irritating him. Henry turned from the door, to which he had crossed, with the crumpled note in his hand; all the old, domineering, rebellious42 temper struck flame.
"There! You have Jim. What more can you wish? Your hero's opinion will no doubt interest you far more than mine, so don't talk rot about your disappointment."
Diana stood silent, amazed at her husband's uncalled-for fury. Jim found it impossible to speak. The servant returned to see if the answer to the note was ready.
Henry contended for a few seconds with a tempestuous43 remorse44 as strong as the flare45 of his nervous outbreak; he bitterly regretted his lack of control. He had tried to conceal the strain he had been under all the day; to be thwarted46 as he apparently47 was by the news from Petrie, was to arouse the demons48 of destruction in him—destruction to himself as well as to those near him. He cursed himself as the victim of his own folly49; but to see Jim master of the situation roused the old rebellion of his boyhood. A movement from the waiting servant recalled him, and with a few words of half-muttered apology he hurriedly left the room. A moment later they heard him drive away.
From so small a matter so great a consequence had arisen. This insight into Henry's nature again showed Jim the quicksands on which Diana's happiness was built.
To Diana the incident was embarrassing, but with infinite tact50 she made no allusion51 to it. Jim marvelled52 at the quiet control with which she deftly53 turned it aside.
The carriage was announced.
"Will you come, Jim?" Diana asked.
He hesitated.
"Do," she coaxingly54 said, "it would help me."
Under the calm, serious face he could see the tremulous expression that showed her quivering, hurt feelings. The tender eyes held him fast. Still he hesitated. As in a moment of prevision he was urged to say no; it seemed as though he were starting on a way that led him into darkness. The absurd compelling force fastened around him in a tight grip; he tried to stammer55 a few words; he was irritated by his apparent stupidity, then he heard Diana say: "Let me decide for you."
As she spoke, a shaft56 of golden light penetrated57 the room. Why should he not go? He quickly threw off the intangible feeling of fear. He told her he was only too happy to be of service. It was a warm, mellow58, summer day, and the soft, alluring59 air quickly lulled60 Jim into a tranquil61 mood.
As they stood before the portrait, Jim knew that it was one of the painter's true inspirations. The simple brown gown in which Diana had been painted brought out the gold in the bands of her straight hair. It faded away into a dull background, leaving only her luminous62 face in high relief. The painted oval contour and the curved lips were there in all their beauty; but the shadowy eyes unconsciously showed the troubled soul. It was a portrait of Diana older in years and experience. The painter seemed to have passed by her obvious youth and divined her in her maturity63. Curiously enough, the portrait stirred Jim more than his meeting with Diana had done.
When they descended64 to the carriage, Diana said, "Come and drive—not in the park, but let us go along the Embankment, across the bridge towards Richmond. I long for a breath of the country." This time he made no effort to resist her appeal.
As they drove, Jim learned from Diana the news about Sir Charles. His ill health had greatly increased, and a London specialist's opinion had been far from sanguine65. He gathered that Diana felt it was the beginning of the end; as she spoke, Jim could read the anguish66 of her thoughts. Once she turned to him and said:
"I have so few to love."
Soon they found themselves talking merrily over gay reminiscences of their childhood days. The hours slipped by, and it was only the deepening of the shadows that reminded Diana that she was entertaining the Prime-Minister that night at a large dinner-party. The return home was quickly made.
"Won't you dine with us, Jim?" Diana asked, as they reached Pont Street. "We can easily lay an extra cover."
But Jim, feeling that it would be better not to see Henry that night, pleaded an engagement at his club. He left Diana with a promise to see her soon.
That night he forgot her unusual beauty; he remembered only the fragrance67 of her personality. During the following week he obtained a leave of absence, and with Singleton planned to go abroad. Why he did this he could not quite explain. He saw Diana and Henry only once before leaving for his holiday. That was in June.
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regiment
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incisive
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speculation
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knell
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joyous
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noted
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doorway
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underlying
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reassuring
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postponed
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solicitor
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decided
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riotous
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catching
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contraction
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rebellious
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