I drove over the hill thinking about what family had meant to the Dowd kids.
Boundaries were to be blurred1, people were to be used, performance was all.
Brad had been abandoned, taken in reluctantly, exploited, expelled. Broughtback to be pressed into service by a woman who resented him and lusted2 for him.
Years later, after her death, he’d wormed his way back into the family and attained3 the power role. Knowing he’d never belonged, never would.
By that time, he’d murdered Juliet Dutchey. Maybe other women yet to be discovered.
Reserving his boyhood hobby for three victims.
Back when Milo and I had been theorizing, he’d wondered out loud about Cathy and Andy Gaidelas being parental4 symbols.
You guys still believe in the Oedipal thing?
More than I did a few weeks ago.
Why Meserve?
The only time I’d seen Brad express overt5 anger was when he talked about Meserve.
Young, slick manipulator.
Brad seeing himself two decades younger?
Despite the smooth manner, the clothes, the cars—the image—did it all boil down to self-hatred?
A body hanging in a jail cell said maybe.
Used and discarded…it didn’t explain the extent of the horror. It never does. I wondered why I kept trying.
I reached Mulholland, coasted down past dream houses and other encumbrances6, unable to let go.
Brad had been the ultimate actor. Protecting Billy and Nora, bedding her, stealing from both of them.
Pressing his own cousin into murderous service, then setting him up to be executed.
Coming on to another cousin—a female cop—at the same time he was being investigated by her colleagues in a showgirl’s disappearance7.
Why not? Why would blood ties mean anything to him?
Marcia Peaty had no problem seeing Brad as evil but she was certain Cousin Reynold had just been a penny-ante loser.
Ex-cop, but way off. She’d be dealing8 with that for a long time. If she were my patient, I’d work at getting her to see she was human, nothing less, nothing more.
When you got down to it, rules and exceptions were hard to separate.
Church deacons sneak9 into dark houses and strangle families. Diplomats10 and CEOs and other respectable types embark11 on sex tours of Thailand.
Anyone can be fooled.
But for arrogance12, Brad and Nora might’ve plied13 their hobby for years.
How long would it have taken before he looted the trust fund completely and decided14 Nora was no longer useful?
The jet card and the island off Belize said not long.
Did Nora—numbed, callous15, perpetually stoned—have any idea her life had been saved?
What kind of life lay ahead for her? Initial severe depression, for sure, once the reality of prison life set in. If she was deep enough to suffer. If she coped and set up a prison theater, things could get rosier16. Casting, directing. Experiencing. A few years down the line, she might even merit one ofthose rehab-miracle puff-pieces in the Times.
Or maybe I had too much faith in the system and Nora would never see the inside of a penitentiary17 cell.
Back on McCadden Place, walking her stuffed dog.
Stavros Menas was wasting no opportunity to shout that she was just another of Brad’s victims.
Milo and I had heard her joking about Meserve’s head but both of us could be made to look foolish on the stand and L.A. juries distrusted cops and shrinks. The disks showed her having consensual sex with Brad and Meserve but nothing more. No forensic18 evidence tied her directly to the killings19 and nowadays juries expected nifty science.
Menas would rack up billable hours trying to get everything ruled inadmissible. Maybe he’d put Nora on the stand and she’d finally get a starring role.
One way or the other, he’d earn his million.
The lawyers vying20 for stewardship21 of Billy Dowd’s diminished life would also do fine.
Still no callback from the judge who’d warehoused Billy and sentenced him to eating soft food with plastic utensils22.
The time I’d visited, he’d called me his friend, put his head on my shoulder, and wet my shirt with his tears.
What use is a child with no meaning?
Amelia Dowd had no idea what crop she’d cultivated.
I wondered what Captain William Dowd Junior had known as he’d ambled23 abroad on grand tours.
Both of them perishing in a car crash. Big Cadillac veering24 off the road and over a cliff on Route 1, on the way to the Pebble25 Beach auto26 show.
No suspicion it hadn’t been an accident.
But Brad had been in town the week they’d set out and Brad knew cars. Milo had raised that with the D.A. The prosecutors27 agreed it was interesting theoretically but the evidence was long gone, Brad was dead, time to concentrate on building a case against a living defendant28.
Time for me to…?
--- oOo ---
Robin29’s truck was parked in front of the house. I expected to find her in aback room, drawing or reading or napping. She was waiting for me in the livingroom, sitting on the big couch with her legs tucked under her. A sleeveless, sky-colored dress set off her hair. Her eyes were clear and her feet were bare.
“Learn anything?” she said.
“That maybe I should’ve taken up accounting30.”
She got up, took me by the hand, led me toward the kitchen.
“Sorry, not hungry,” I said.
“I wouldn’t expect you to be.” We continued into the service porch.
A plastic pet crate31 sat in front of the washer-dryer. Not Spike32’s crate,she’d junked that. Not in the spot Spike’s crate had occupied. Off slightly to the left.
Robin kneeled, unlatched the grate, drew out a wrinkly fawn-colored thing.
Flat face, rabbit ears, moist black nose. Huge brown eyes met Robin’s, thenaimed at me.
“You can name her,” she said.
“Her?”
“I figure you deserved that. No more macho competition. She’s from achampionship line with great disposition33.”
She rubbed the puppy’s belly34, handed her over.
Warm as toast, almost small enough to fit in one hand. I tickled35 a fuzzy, blunt chin. A pink tongue shot out and the puppy craned the way bulldogs do. One of the rabbit ears flopped36 over.
“It’ll take a couple of weeks before they stay up,” said Robin.
Spike had been a lead-boned package of muscle and grit37. This one was buttery-soft.
“How old?” I said.
“Ten weeks.”
“Runt of the litter?”
“The breeder promises she’ll fill in.”
The puppy began licking my fingers. I brought her closer to my face and she tongue-bathed my chin. She smelled of dog shampoo and that innate38 perfume that helps puppies get nurtured39.
I scratched her chin again. She jutted40 her mandible in response. Licked my fingers some more, made a throaty sound closer to feline41 than canine42.
“Love at first sight,” said Robin. She petted the puppy but the puppy pressed closer to me.
Robin laughed. “I’m really in for it.”
“That so?” I asked the puppy. “Or is it just infatuation?”
The puppy stared at me, followed every syllable43 with those huge brown eyes.
Lowering her head, she nuzzled my cheek, purred some more, butted44 until her knobby little cranium was buried under my chin. Squirming, she finally found a position she liked.
Closed her eyes, fell asleep. Snored softly.
“Mellow,” I said.
“We could use a bit of that, don’t you think?”
“We could,” I said. “Thanks.”
“Sure,” she said, tousling my hair. “Now, who’s getting up tonight for housebreaking?”
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