The train deposited Nora at Paddington. Had she known her way about she would have left her trunk in the cloak-room, and crossed London by one of half-a-dozen different routes, for a few coppers5; when she had found lodgings the box would have been delivered at her address for a few more coppers. What she did do was to charter a four-wheeler. It is some distance from Paddington to Newington Butts; to Nora, an unaccustomed traveller, already tired with her journey, hungry and thirsty, the way seemed interminable. She began to wonder if the driver quite knew where he was going; he seemed to go on and on and never get there. At last, a little desperate, she put her head out of the window and asked him--
"Are you sure this is the right way?"
The cab stopped. The driver screwed himself round in his seat, and he observed, in the tone of one who is offended--
"You said Newington Butts, didn't you?"
"Yes."
Hers was the voice of deprecation.
"Very well then; I'm driving you to Newington Butts. If you think you know the way better than I do you can come outside and I'll get inside. I've been driving this cab two and twenty years, and if there's any one who knows the way to Newington Butts better than I do, I should like to know who it is."
She drew her head back and subsided6 on the seat, doubting no longer. She felt that a man who had been a cabman for two and twenty years ought to know the way to Newington Butts better than she did. The cab went on. There was another period of seemingly interminable jolting7; it seemed likely that the springs had been on that cab as long as the driver had. Once more the vehicle stopped. This time the driver asked a question.
"What address?"
As Nora put her head out again hers was the tone of anxiety.
"Is this Newington Butts?"
"It used to be when I was here last, but perhaps it's been and gone and turned itself into something else since; you might ask a policeman if you think it has been up to any game of the kind. There's one standing8 over there; I'll call him if you like; he might know."
"Thank you; I--I don't think I'll trouble you. The fact is I want lodgings; do you know of any round here?"
"Lodgings? I shouldn't have thought there was any round here to suit you."
"Oh, I'm so sorry; why not?"
"There's about two hundred thousand, I dare say, so perhaps one of them might suit. Anyhow, I'll show you a few samples. Only, mind you, I'm not engaged by the hour, nor yet by the week."
When next the cab stopped the main thoroughfare had been left behind, and they were in a street of private houses.
"Here you are; here's a street pretty nearly full of them; all you've got to do is pick and choose."
Nora, getting out, perceived that in many of the windows there were cards announcing that there were rooms to let. She began her search. At some houses they asked too much; at others they did not take ladies; and there were rooms in which she would not have lived rent-free; perhaps she tried a dozen without success. The cabman, who had followed her from house to house, did not appear to be so disheartened by this result as she did.
"That's nothing," he declared, as she regarded him with doubtful eyes. "Sometimes people go dodging9 about after rooms the whole day long, and then don't find what they want. There's more round the corner; try them."
Nora went round the corner, the cab moving at a walking pace beside her. The first door at which she knocked was opened by a girl, a small girl, who looked about twelve; but she wore her hair in a knob at the back of her head, and there was something in her manner which seemed intended to inform the world at large that she was to be regarded as a grown woman.
"What rooms have you to let?" asked Nora.
The girl looked at her with sharp, shrewd eyes; her reply was almost aggressive.
"We don't care for ladies, not in the ordinary way we don't."
Nora had been told this before. Though she had not understood why a woman should be objected to merely because she was a woman, she had meekly11 withdrawn12. But there was that about this child--who bore herself as if she were so old--which induced her to persevere13.
"I am sorry to hear that. If you were to make an exception in my case I would try not to make myself more objectionable than I could help."
The girl remained unsoftened.
"That may be; but you never can tell. Some give more trouble than they're worth, and some aren't worth anything; this is a respectable house. Still there's no harm in letting you see what we have got."
On the upper floor were a small sitting-room14 in front and a still smaller bedroom behind; barely, poorly furnished, with many obvious makeshifts, but scrupulously15 clean.
"What rent are you asking?"
"Ten shillings a week, and not a penny less; it ought to be fourteen."
"I'm afraid I can't pay fourteen shillings a week just yet, but I think I can manage ten; I like the rooms because they seem so clean."
"They are clean; no one can say they're not clean; I defy 'em to."
"My mother's the landlady; she's not very well just now; I can make all arrangements."
"Then in that case don't you think that if I were to take the rooms for a week on trial, at the end of that time we might find out if we were likely to suit each other?"
"We might; there's no knowing. When would you want them?"
"At once; my luggage is at the door."
"Then mind you make the cabman bring it up before you pay him; I know them cabmen."
But the cabman would not be made; he pleaded inability to leave his horse. An individual had appeared who offered to carry up the box for threepence; so Nora let him. After the cabman had been paid there remained of her capital less than eight pounds. When they were again up-stairs she said to the girl--
"What's your name? I'm Miss Lindsay."
"I'm Miss Gibb."
Nora smiled; the child said it as if she wished the fact to be properly appreciated.
"Angelina; though I'm generally known as Angel, you see it's shorter; though I don't pretend that there's anything of the angel about me, because there isn't."
"I fancy I'm tired, my head aches; do you think you could let me have some tea?"
"Course I could; are you going to do for yourself, or are we going to do for you?"
"I'm afraid I don't understand."
"Are we going to do your marketing18, or are you going to do it for yourself? If you take my advice you'll do it for yourself; it'll save you trouble in the end, and then there won't be no bother about the bills. The last lodger19 we had in these rooms he never could be got to see that he'd had what he had had, there was always a rumpus. Quarter of a pound of tea a week he used to have, yet he never could understand how ever it got into his bill. I'll let you have a cup of tea, and some bread and butter, and perhaps an egg; then afterwards I dare say you might like to go out and lay in a few stores for yourself." The girl turned as she was leaving the room to supply the new-comer with a piece of information. "Number 1, Swan Street, Stoke Newington, S.E., that's the address you're now in, in case you might be wanting to tell your friends."
In Swan Street Nora continued to reside, while the days went by, though she never told her friends. From Cloverlea, and the position of a great heiress, with all the world at her feet to pick and choose from, to Swan Street and less than eight pounds between her and beggary, was a change indeed. Used only to a scale of expenditure20 in which cost was never counted she was incapable21 of making the best of such resources as she had. Miss Gibb took her to task, on more than one occasion, for what that young woman regarded as her extravagance.
"Don't want it again? What's the matter with the bread? Why, there's the better part of half a loaf here."
"Yes, but I had it the day before yesterday."
Nora spoke23 with something like an air of timidity, as she stood rather in awe24 of Miss Gibb when that young person showed a disposition25 to expand herself on questions of domestic economy.
"Day before yesterday? Let's hope you'll never be wanting bread. I've known the time when I'd have been glad to have the week before last's. Then look at those two rashers of bacon you told me to take away yesterday, what was the matter with them?"
"They weren't--quite nice."
"Not nice?"
"I didn't think they were--quite fresh."
"Not fresh? I know I cooked them for my dinner and there didn't seem to be anything wrong about them to me. Then there was that lump of cheese which you said was all rind, it made me and Eustace a handsome supper. Of course I know it's none of my business, and of course any one can see you're a lady from the clothes you send to the wash; but if there's one thing I can't stand it's waste; perhaps that's because I've known what want is."
Nora had been in the house more than a week without seeing or hearing anything of her landlady, or of any managing person except Miss Gibb. She made constant inquiries26, but each time it seemed that Mrs. Gibb was "not very well just now," though what ailed27 her Miss Gibb did not explain. One afternoon, as she was removing the tea-things, Nora was struck by the look of unusual weariness which was on the preternaturally old young face; something in the look determined28 her to make an effort to solve the mystery of the invisible and inaudible landlady.
"Angel, whenever I ask you how your mother is you always say she's not very well just now; but the only person I've seen or heard moving about the house is you. I'm beginning to wonder if your mother is a creature of your imagination." Angel said nothing; she continued to scrape the crumbs29 off the tablecloth30 with the blunt edge of a knife. "Are you alone in the house?"
"Course I'm not; how about my brother, Eustace? You've seen and heard him, haven't you?"
Eustace, it appeared, was only slightly his sister's senior, and almost as old; though Nora felt that no one could really be as old as Angel seemed; she admitted that she had seen Eustace.
"Very well then; he don't go till after nine and he's back most days before six, so how can I be alone in the house?"
"I know about Eustace; as you say, I've seen him. But I was thinking of your mother. Where is she; or have you reasons why you would rather not tell me?"
"What do you mean by have I reasons?"
The light of battle came into the child's eyes; it was extraordinary how soon it did come there.
"I was wondering if, for any reason, you would prefer to keep your own counsel."
"We don't all of us care to turn ourselves inside out; seems to me you don't for one."
The accusation31 was so true that Nora was routed.
"No harm done that I know of; bones aren't broke by questions." She folded the tablecloth. As she placed it in its drawer, and her back was turned to Nora, she said, as with an effort, "Mother's paralyzed."
"Paralyzed? Oh, Angel, I'm so sorry; where is she?"
Miss Gibb faced round, again all battle.
"Where is she? This is her own house, isn't it? In whose house do you suppose she'd be if she wasn't in her own? I can't think what you mean by keeping on asking where is she?"
"You see, I only asked because I never hear her moving about; I never hear any one but you, and Eustace."
"Angel! you know I don't. You are nearly, as quiet as a mouse; but your mother is so very quiet. I hope the paralysis34 is only slight."
"That's the trouble, it isn't. It's been coming on for years; during the last three years it's been downright bad; and during the last twelve months she's hardly been able to move so much as a finger."
Nora reflected; how old could the child have been when the mother was taken "downright bad"?
"Can she do nothing for herself?"
"Can't even feed herself."
"But how does she manage?"
"What do you mean, how does she manage?"
"Who does everything for her?"
"I never heard such questions as you do ask! Who do you suppose does everything for her? Isn't there me? and isn't there Eustace? Me and Eustace always have done everything for her; she wouldn't have anybody else do anything for her not if it were ever so."
"Has she any income of her own?"
"I wish she had; that would be heaven below."
"But on what do you live?"
"Don't we let lodgings? What do you think we let 'em for? We live on our lodgings, that's what we live on; leastways mother and me; Eustace keeps himself, and a bit over now that Mr. Hooper's started giving him his old clothes. I only hope he'll keep on giving him them. The way Eustace wears out his clothes is something frightful35; it always has been Eustace's weakness, wearing out his clothes."
Later Nora did a sum in arithmetic. Miss Gibb had previously36 told her that, including rent, rates, and taxes the house cost more than forty pounds a year. Nora paid ten shillings a week; Mr. Carter, on the floor below, paid twelve and six; which meant twenty-two and sixpence a week, or fifty-eight pounds ten shillings a year; so that when rent, rates, and taxes had been paid under eighteen pounds per annum were left for the support of the Gibb family, or less than seven shillings a week. And this when times were flourishing! The rooms Nora had had been vacant more than a month before she came; small wonder Miss Gibb--as she would have put it--had "chanced" a lady.
More than another week elapsed before Nora was permitted to see her landlady. She found her in the front room in the basement, which was used by Miss Gibb as well as herself to live and sleep in. There, also, were performed most of the necessary cooking operations.
"Mother," explained Miss Gibb, "always does feel the cold; we can't have a fire going both in the kitchen and in here, so that's how it is. Besides, mother likes to see what's going on, don't you, mother?"
Mother said she did; for she could talk, and that was the only thing she still could do; it seemed to Nora that even the faculty37 of speech was threatened. Mrs. Gibb spoke very quietly and very slowly, and sometimes she paused, even in the middle of a word; as she listened Nora wondered how long it would be before that pause remained unbroken. Her landlady lay on a chair bedstead. Miss Gibb and her brother, between them, had contrived38 a method, of which every one was proud, by means of an arrangement of sloping boards, to raise her head and shoulders, when she desired to be raised. Nora was not surprised to find that, in common with the rest of the house, she was spotlessly neat and clean; but she was conscious of something akin22 to a feeling of surprise when she observed the expression which was on her face; and the more attentively39 she observed the more the feeling grew. Although she seemed so old--the cares of this world had pressed heavily on her--still, in a sense, she seemed younger than her daughter; for on her face was a look of peace, as on the face of those who are conscious that they also serve although they only stand and wait.
"I have nothing of which to complain," she told her lodger; "only--it's hard on Angelina." Nora noticed that she always referred to her daughter by her full Christian name. Angelina remonstrated40.
"Now, mother, don't you be silly; if you are going to say things like that I shall have to send Miss Lindsay away."
The mother looked at her daughter with a look in her eyes which, when she saw it, brought the tears into Nora's; there was in it an eloquence41 which she wondered if, with all her wisdom, Angelina comprehended. If she had only been able to take the burden of the mother off the daughter's shoulders, how gladly she would have done it. But the days when she was able to bear the burdens of others were gone; it seemed not unlikely that she would be crushed out of existence by her own.
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lodger
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paralysis
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