At the corner of a long, straight, brick-built street in the far East End of London—one of those lifeless streets, made of two drab walls upon which the level lines, formed by the precisely1 even window-sills and doorsteps, stretch in weary perspective from end to end, suggesting petrified2 diagrams proving dead problems—stands a house that ever draws me to it; so that often, when least conscious of my footsteps, I awake to find myself hurrying through noisy, crowded thoroughfares, where flaring3 naphtha lamps illumine fierce, patient, leaden-coloured faces; through dim-lit, empty streets, where monstrous4 shadows come and go upon the close-drawn blinds; through narrow, noisome5 streets, where the gutters6 swarm7 with children, and each ever-open doorway8 vomits9 riot; past reeking10 corners, and across waste places, till at last I reach the dreary11 goal of my memory-driven desire, and, coming to a halt beside the broken railings, find rest.
The house, larger than its fellows, built when the street was still a country lane, edging the marshes13, strikes a strange note of individuality amid the surrounding harmony of hideousness14. It is encompassed15 on two sides by what was once a garden, though now but a barren patch of stones and dust where clothes—it is odd any one should have thought of washing—hang in perpetuity; while about the door continue the remnants of a porch, which the stucco falling has left exposed in all its naked insincerity.
Occasionally I drift hitherward in the day time, when slatternly women gossip round the area gates, and the silence is broken by the hoarse16, wailing17 cry of “Coals—any coals—three and sixpence a sack—co-o-o-als!” chanted in a tone that absence of response has stamped with chronic18 melancholy19; but then the street knows me not, and my old friend of the corner, ashamed of its shabbiness in the unpitying sunlight, turns its face away, and will not see me as I pass.
Not until the Night, merciful alone of all things to the ugly, draws her veil across its sordid20 features will it, as some fond old nurse, sought out in after years, open wide its arms to welcome me. Then the teeming21 life it now shelters, hushed for a time within its walls, the flickering22 flare23 from the “King of Prussia” opposite extinguished, will it talk with me of the past, asking me many questions, reminding me of many things I had forgotten. Then into the silent street come the well-remembered footsteps; in and out the creaking gate pass, not seeing me, the well-remembered faces; and we talk concerning them; as two cronies, turning the torn leaves of some old album where the faded portraits in forgotten fashions, speak together in low tones of those now dead or scattered24, with now a smile and now a sigh, and many an “Ah me!” or “Dear, dear!”
This bent25, worn man, coming towards us with quick impatient steps, which yet cease every fifty yards or so, while he pauses, leaning heavily upon his high Malacca cane26: “It is a handsome face, is it not?” I ask, as I gaze upon it, shadow framed.
“Aye, handsome enough,” answers the old House; “and handsomer still it must have been before you and I knew it, before mean care had furrowed27 it with fretful lines.”
“I never could make out,” continues the old House, musingly28, “whom you took after; for they were a handsome pair, your father and your mother, though Lord! what a couple of children!”
“Children!” I say in surprise, for my father must have been past five and thirty before the House could have known him, and my mother's face is very close to mine, in the darkness, so that I see the many grey hairs mingling30 with the bonny brown.
“Children,” repeats the old House, irritably31, so it seems to me, not liking32, perhaps, its opinions questioned, a failing common to old folk; “the most helpless pair of children I ever set eyes upon. Who but a child, I should like to know, would have conceived the notion of repairing his fortune by becoming a solicitor33 at thirty-eight, or, having conceived such a notion, would have selected the outskirts34 of Poplar as a likely centre in which to put up his door-plate?”
“It was considered to be a rising neighbourhood,” I reply, a little resentful. No son cares to hear the family wisdom criticised, even though at the bottom of his heart he may be in agreement with the critic. “All sorts and conditions of men, whose affairs were in connection with the sea would, it was thought, come to reside hereabout, so as to be near to the new docks; and had they, it is not unreasonable35 to suppose they would have quarrelled and disputed with one another, much to the advantage of a cute solicitor, convenient to their hand.”
“Stuff and nonsense,” retorts the old House, shortly; “why, the mere36 smell of the place would have been sufficient to keep a sensible man away. And”—the grim brick face before me twists itself into a goblin smile—“he, of all men in the world, as 'the cute solicitor,' giving advice to shady clients, eager to get out of trouble by the shortest way, can you fancy it! he who for two years starved himself, living on five shillings a week—that was before you came to London, when he was here alone. Even your mother knew nothing of it till years afterwards—so that no man should be a penny the poorer for having trusted his good name. Do you think the crew of chandlers and brokers37, dock hustlers and freight wreckers would have found him a useful man of business, even had they come to settle here?”
I have no answer; nor does the old House wait for any, but talks on.
“And your mother! would any but a child have taken that soft-tongued wanton to her bosom38, and not have seen through acting39 so transparent40? Would any but the veriest child that never ought to have been let out into the world by itself have thought to dree her weird41 in such folly42? Children! poor babies they were, both of them.”
“Tell me,” I say—for at such times all my stock of common sense is not sufficient to convince me that the old House is but clay. From its walls so full of voices, from its floors so thick with footsteps, surely it has learned to live; as a violin, long played on, comes to learn at last a music of its own. “Tell me, I was but a child to whom life speaks in a strange tongue, was there any truth in the story?”
“Truth!” snaps out the old House; “just truth enough to plant a lie upon; and Lord knows not much ground is needed for that weed. I saw what I saw, and I know what I know. Your mother had a good man, and your father a true wife, but it was the old story: a man's way is not a woman's way, and a woman's way is not a man's way, so there lives ever doubt between them.”
“But they came together in the end,” I say, remembering.
“Aye, in the end,” answers the House. “That is when you begin to understand, you men and women, when you come to the end.”
The grave face of a not too recently washed angel peeps shyly at me through the railings, then, as I turn my head, darts43 back and disappears.
“What has become of her?” I ask.
“She? Oh, she is well enough,” replies the House. “She lives close here. You must have passed the shop. You might have seen her had you looked in. She weighs fourteen stone, about; and has nine children living. She would be pleased to see you.”
“Thank you,” I say, with a laugh that is not wholly a laugh; “I do not think I will call.” But I still hear the pit-pat of her tiny feet, dying down the long street.
The faces thicken round me. A large looming44, rubicund45 visage smiles kindly46 on me, bringing back into my heart the old, odd mingling of instinctive47 liking held in check by conscientious48 disapproval49. I turn from it, and see a massive, clean-shaven face, with the ugliest mouth and the loveliest eyes I ever have known in a man.
“Was he as bad, do you think, as they said?” I ask of my ancient friend.
“Shouldn't wonder,” the old House answers. “I never knew a worse—nor a better.”
The wind whisks it aside, leaving to view a little old woman, hobbling nimbly by aid of a stick. Three corkscrew curls each side of her head bob with each step she takes, and as she draws near to me, making the most alarming grimaces50, I hear her whisper, as though confiding51 to herself some fascinating secret, “I'd like to skin 'em. I'd like to skin 'em all. I'd like to skin 'em all alive!”
It sounds a fiendish sentiment, yet I only laugh, and the little old lady, with a final facial contortion52 surpassing all dreams, limps beyond my ken12.
Then, as though choosing contrasts, follows a fair, laughing face. I saw it in the life only a few hours ago—at least, not it, but the poor daub that Evil has painted over it, hating the sweetness underlying53. And as I stand gazing at it, wishing it were of the dead who change not, there drifts back from the shadows that other face, the one of the wicked mouth and the tender eyes, so that I stand again helpless between the two I loved so well, he from whom I learned my first steps in manhood, she from whom I caught my first glimpse of the beauty and the mystery of woman. And again the cry rises from my heart, “Whose fault was it—yours or hers?” And again I hear his mocking laugh as he answers, “Whose fault? God made us.” And thinking of her and of the love I bore her, which was as the love of a young pilgrim to a saint, it comes into my blood to hate him. But when I look into his eyes and see the pain that lives there, my pity grows stronger than my misery54, and I can only echo his words, “God made us.”
Merry faces and sad, fair faces and foul55, they ride upon the wind; but the centre round which they circle remains56 always the one: a little lad with golden curls more suitable to a girl than to a boy, with shy, awkward ways and a silent tongue, and a grave, old-fashioned face.
And, turning from him to my old brick friend, I ask: “Would he know me, could he see me, do you think?”
“How should he,” answers the old House, “you are so different to what he would expect. Would you recognise your own ghost, think you?”
“It is sad to think he would not recognise me,” I say.
We both remained silent for awhile; but I know of what the old House is thinking. Soon it speaks as I expected.
“You—writer of stories, why don't you write a book about him? There is something that you know.”
It is the favourite theme of the old House. I never visit it but it suggests to me this idea.
“But he has done nothing?” I say.
“He has lived,” answers the old House. “Is not that enough?”
“Aye, but only in London in these prosaic58 modern times,” I persist. “How of such can one make a story that shall interest the people?”
The old House waxes impatient of me.
“'The people!'” it retorts, “what are you all but children in a dim-lit room, waiting until one by one you are called out to sleep. And one mounts upon a stool and tells a tale to the others who have gathered round. Who shall say what will please them, what will not.”
Returning home with musing29 footsteps through the softly breathing streets, I ponder the words of the old House. Is it but as some foolish mother thinking all the world interested in her child, or may there lie wisdom in its counsel? Then to my guidance or misguidance comes the thought of a certain small section of the Public who often of an evening commands of me a story; and who, when I have told her of the dreadful giants and of the gallant59 youths who slay60 them, of the wood-cutter's sons who rescue maidens61 from Ogre-guarded castles; of the Princesses the most beautiful in all the world, of the Princes with magic swords, still unsatisfied, creeps closer yet, saying: “Now tell me a real story,” adding for my comprehending: “You know: about a little girl who lived in a big house with her father and mother, and who was sometimes naughty, you know.”
So perhaps among the many there may be some who for a moment will turn aside from tales of haughty62 Heroes, ruffling63 it in Court and Camp, to listen to the story of a very ordinary lad who lived with very ordinary folk in a modern London street, and who grew up to be a very ordinary sort of man, loving a little and grieving a little, helping64 a few and harming a few, struggling and failing and hoping; and if any such there be, let them come round me.
But let not those who come to me grow indignant as they listen, saying: “This rascal65 tells us but a humdrum66 story, where nothing is as it should be;” for I warn all beforehand that I tell but of things that I have seen. My villains67, I fear, are but poor sinners, not altogether bad; and my good men but sorry saints. My princes do not always slay their dragons; alas68, sometimes, the dragon eats the prince. The wicked fairies often prove more powerful than the good. The magic thread leads sometimes wrong, and even the hero is not always brave and true.
So let those come round me only who will be content to hear but their own story, told by another, saying as they listen, “So dreamt I. Ah, yes, that is true, I remember.”
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