The hour which followed remained always in Tommy’s memory as some tremendous nightmare. He remembered going to the gymnasium, removing his football suit mechanically, taking a bath and rub-down, and getting into his other clothes. Then he made his way to his room, and Sexton, Reeves, and Blake came up and tried to tell him—each in his own way—how sorry they were, and to give him such crumbs2 of comfort as they could.
“Why, the fellows are all broken up,” said Reeves. “We were going to have a big celebration to-night, but that’s all off. There isn’t one of us feels like celebrating.”
“How could we?” added Blake. “It was Remington won the game. But it’s the first time in the history of Lawrenceville that we didn’t have a blow-out after whipping the freshmen3.”
“Maybe it’s not so bad,” said Sexton, with an attempt at cheerfulness. “He’ll be coming back before long,—as soon as his father gets well, you know,—and we’ll have the celebration then.”
But Tommy heard little of all this. His thoughts were far away. He saw again the narrow valley, which seemed to shut out all the joy and warm, aspiring4 life of the outside world; the rows of squalid cabins, grimy with the dust of the mines; the bent5, exhausted6, perspiring7 men, laboring8 day after day far within the bowels9 of the earth, away from the pure air and the bright sunshine, able to earn but a bare livelihood10, even by unceasing toil11; and a shiver ran through him at the thought that it was to this he was returning. An hour ago the old existence had seemed so far away, there had been so much to live for, the path before him had seemed so bright; and here it was closing in upon him like a great black thundercloud which there was no evading12.
Presently the head-master himself came in and told Tommy to pack up such clothing as he might need, and he would be driven over to Trenton at once to catch the six-o’clock train, which would get him to Wentworth early the next morning. The packing was soon done, and he went down to the buggy which was waiting. As he came out from the dormitory, he saw a sight which first made him stare in astonishment13, and then brought a swift rush of tears to his eyes. The boys—all of them, first, second, third, and fourth year alike—were lined up along the path, and as he passed them, each gave him a hearty14 handclasp. Some even ventured upon a word of sympathy, awkwardly and shyly said, but none the less genuine. Tommy quite broke down before he reached the end of the line, and the tears were streaming down his face unrestrained as he clambered into the buggy. As the horse turned into the road, he glanced back and saw the fellows still standing15 there looking after him. In after days, when he thought of those first months at Lawrenceville, this parting scene was dearest of all to him.
It was only when he was in the train speeding southward, with no one to watch him or speak to him, that he dared put the future plainly before him. It was evident that if his father was killed, or so seriously injured that he could not go to work again in the mines, some arrangement must be made to provide for his mother and brother. He knew too well how little chance there was that his father had been able to save anything. Something, then, would have to be done at once. But what? He shrank from the answer that first occurred to him. He turned his face from it, and set his brain to work to find another way. But he was soon stumbling blindly among the intricacies of his own thoughts, and finally fell into a troubled sleep. But on the instant his eyes closed, as it seemed to him, some disturbing and terrible vision would dance before him and startle him awake again.
At Washington he had a half-hour wait, and looked for Jim, the train-caller who had befriended him before, but he saw nothing of him, for that official worked only in the daytime. Yet he no longer felt ignorant and dependent. The crowd—which even at midnight throngs16 the station at Washington—did not astonish him as it had before. He knew, somehow, that he was quite a different boy from the one who had made this same journey only three short months before. He felt quite able to look out for himself. But as he was clambering up the steps to his train, a cheery voice greeted him.
“Why, hello, youngster!” it said. “Going back home again?”
Tommy looked up and recognized his old friend the conductor.
“Yes, sir; back home,” he answered with a queer lump in his throat.
The conductor saw how his face had changed. It seemed older and thinner, and the eyes were darker.
“Something wrong, eh?” he said kindly17. “Well, I’ll look you up after a while, and we’ll talk it all over.”
Tommy made his way into the coach, hardly knowing whether to be glad or sorry at this meeting. He was longing18 for a friend to talk to, and yet he was vaguely19 ashamed of the confession20 he might have to make. Could it be possible, he asked himself, that he no longer loved his father and his mother—that he was unwilling21 to make a sacrifice for them as they had done for him? But then, the sacrifice asked of him would be so much the greater. It was nothing to sacrifice the body, but to sacrifice the brain as well—that was another thing. His breast had never been torn by such a battle as was waging there now.
The conductor did not forget his promise. So soon as he had attended to his other duties, he dropped into the seat beside Tommy.
“Now, what is it?” he asked. “Tell me; it’ll do you good. Get into some trouble at school?”
Tommy shook his head.
“No,” he said, “it’s not that. Father was hurt in the mines—and maybe—won’t—get well.”
The conductor took the boy’s hands in both his ample ones and patted them softly.
“Don’t you worry,” he said. “It’ll turn out all right. These accidents always look worse at first than they are. You’ll soon be coming back again over this same road.”
Tommy felt that he must speak—the weight was too heavy for him to bear alone.
“I’m afraid I’ll never come back,” he said brokenly. “There’s nobody now but me to make a living. You’ve never worked in the mines. You don’t know what it is.”
The other looked down at him quickly, and in an instant understood. For a moment he sat silent, considering his words.
“It seems hard,” he said at last. “It always seems hard when we have to give up something we’ve been counting on. But maybe, after all, we don’t have to give it up; and even when we do, something better almost always comes in place of it. It seems, somehow, that nobody in this world is given more than he can bear. I’ve felt, often, just as you feel now; but when I’m particularly blue, I get out a book called ‘Poor Boys who Became Famous’; and when I read what a tough time most of them had, I come to think I’m pretty well off, after all. Ever read it?”
“No,” answered Tommy; “I never read it.”
“Wait till I get it for you. It’ll give you something to think about, anyway”; and the good-natured official, who had not yet lost the enthusiasms of his boyhood, hurried away to get the book.
Five minutes later Tommy had forgotten all about his own troubles. The first page of the book had opened another life to him, whose struggles made his own seem petty and unimportant. It was of George Peabody he was reading: born at Danvers, Massachusetts, in 1795, his parents so poor they could afford him little schooling22; at the age of eleven sent out into the world to earn a living; for four years a clerk in a little grocery, giving every penny of his earnings23 to his mother; his father dying and leaving him to support the family; his well-nigh hopeless search for employment, his finding of a humble24 situation, his perseverance25, energy, honesty—until, at last, he had built up for himself a mighty26 business. And then the great acts of benevolence27 which marked his later years: three hundred thousand dollars for the Peabody Institute at his native town, where a free library and a free course of lectures were to be maintained, in order that other poor boys might be helped to an education; one million dollars for an academy of music and an art-gallery at Baltimore; three millions for the purpose of building comfortable homes for the poor of London; three millions more for the education of the negroes, who had just been freed from slavery and who were groping blindly for the light; scores of smaller gifts to colleges and charitable institutions—until, at last, dead in London, he was mourned even by the Queen of England; Westminster Abbey was opened for his funeral; statesmen and noblemen bowed before his coffin28; the noblest man-of-war in her Majesty’s navy was sent to bring the body back to his native land, which was in mourning for him from sea to sea; and, at the end, he was laid to rest beside the mother he had loved so tenderly, his life-work done, his name imperishable.
With a long sigh Tommy closed the book, and sat looking before him with eyes that saw nothing. But his task no longer seemed so difficult. This man had conquered even greater obstacles—why not he? The conductor came by and glanced at him, saw what was in his mind, and passed on without speaking.
At last he turned to the next biography: Bayard Taylor—walking sixty miles to get a poem printed, and failing; living in Europe on a few pennies a day, sometimes almost starving, but always writing, writing, writing, until at last came victory, and a niche29 in the hall of fame where the great literatures of the world live forever. He read of Watt30, of Mozart, of Goldsmith, of Faraday, of Greeley, of Moody31, of Childs, of Lincoln. What a galaxy32 of great names it was! And when at last he laid the book down he could see the dawn just breaking in the east. He sat for a long time looking out at it, watching the sky turn from black to gray, and from gray to purple. The book had stirred him to the very depths of his being.
“You haven’t finished it already, have you?” asked the conductor, coming up behind him.
Tommy nodded.
“It’s a great book, isn’t it?” And the conductor dropped into the seat a moment and took up the book fondly. “It’s helped me over a lot of rough places. Maybe it will be of use to you. Will you keep it?”
Tommy looked at him, astonished.
“Keep it?” he repeated. “Do you mean you’ll give it to me?”
The other looked out of the window to avoid catching33 his eye. Somehow he found it no longer possible to patronize this boy. He had grown, had broadened; it was not the same boy he had met before, but one who interested him vastly more.
“I want you to have it, you see,” he explained awkwardly. “You can’t get a copy at Wentworth, while I can easily get another at Washington. I’d like you to have something to remember me by. My name’s on the fly-leaf. Will you take it?”
He read the answer in the boy’s eyes, and fairly pushed the book into his hands.
“Put it in your pocket,” he said, and jumped up hastily. “Now I’ve got to go. There, don’t thank me. I know how you feel”; and he hastened away down the aisle35.
Tommy tucked the inspiring volume into his pocket, and turned again to the window. He was not at all sleepy—the hours had passed so quickly that they had left no fatigue36 behind them. He saw that the train was entering the mountains. Away and away they stretched, one behind another, steaming with mist as the sun’s first rays touched them. Mile after mile the train sped onward37. The light grew, the earth waked; men could be seen working in the scant38 fields, women standing at the cabin doors, children playing about their feet.
And then the train flashed into country familiar to Tommy. He looked out again upon New River, churning its way along over its rocky and uneven39 bed, the mountains springing straight up on either hand and almost crowding the train into the torrent40. The sun had not yet penetrated41 here, and the heaps of slack and tottering42 coal-tipples along the road looked inexpressibly dreary43.
More and more familiar grew the landscape. Away up on the mountain-side he discerned the black opening that marked the mouth of the mine where his father had worked. There was the little school-house. He could hear the engine-bell clanging wildly.
“Wentworth!” cried the brakeman, slamming open the door. “Wentworth!”
And in an instant Tommy was on the platform, where his teacher was awaiting him.
“He is not dead?” he cried, looking anxiously into her face, dreading44 what he might read there. “Don’t say he is dead!”
“No, no,” protested Miss Andrews, smiling at him reassuringly45. “He is not dead. He is not going to die. But he wants to see you so badly!”
Together they hurried up the steep, narrow path, Miss Andrews wondering within herself if this could be the same boy she had known. He seemed so changed—years older. As they neared the house, Tommy caught sight of a familiar figure standing in the doorway46 looking down at them, and he ran forward and up the steps to the porch.
“Oh, mother!” he cried, and nestled close against her breast as her arms strained him to her.
His mother said never a word, but the tears were streaming down her face as she bent over him and kissed him.
“Come in an’ see your pa,” she said. “He’s been askin’ fer you ever sence it happened.”
Tommy followed her into the little room,—how squalid it seemed now in comparison with the bright, airy rooms at Lawrenceville!—and stood for an instant, looking down at the wan34 figure on the bed.
Whatever of coldness had grown into his heart melted away in that instant, and left him sobbing48 on his father’s breast. Then, suddenly remembering that his father was injured, he attempted to draw away; but those strong arms held him close.
“You’re not hurtin’ me, boy,” he said. “I ain’t hurt up here. It’s in th’ legs. One of ’em had t’ come off, Tommy. I’m ’feard my minin’ days is over.”
“There, now,” said Mrs. Remington, soothingly49, “don’t you worry. All you’ve got t’ do is t’ git well. Now go t’ sleep. Come away, Tommy”; and she drew him from the bed.
It was only then, as they sat on the front porch with Miss Andrews, that he heard the story of the accident. His father, it seemed, had, by some chance, been working alone at the face of a new chamber50, some distance from the other men. In some way a great mass of coal, loosened, perhaps, by a previous blast, had fallen upon him, pinning him to the floor. Fortunately, a pile of refuse at the side of the chamber had kept it from pressing with its full weight upon his head or body, but his legs had been crushed under it, and after trying in vain to extricate51 himself or attract the attention of some of the other men by hallooing, he had fainted from the pain and loss of blood. He had been discovered, at last, by a driver-boy, and it seemed quite certain he was dying. He was borne tenderly to his home, and it was then that Mr. Bayliss had sent the telegram to Tommy. A further examination showed, however, that only his legs had been injured. The left one had been crushed so badly that the surgeon found it necessary to amputate it just above the knee. The patient had rallied from the operation nicely, there were no bad symptoms, and it seemed certain he would recover.
There was a long silence when the story was told, and all of them sat looking down into the valley, each busy with his own thoughts. Suddenly Mrs. Remington’s housewifely instinct asserted itself.
“Good gracious!” she exclaimed. “What hev I been thinkin’ of? Tommy ain’t hed a bite o’ breakfast!”
“I’m not hungry, mother,” he protested. “I’ll wait till dinner. It’ll soon be noon. You can get it a little earlier than usual,” he added, seeing that she was still bent on making him eat. “I want to go up on the mountain awhile. I can’t be of any use here, can I?”
“No,” answered his mother, regarding him doubtfully. “Your pa’s asleep, and even if he wakes up, I kin1 ’tend t’ him.”
“All right. I won’t be gone long”; and anxious to get away with only his thoughts for company, he started quickly up the hill.
“Now I wonder—” began his mother, looking after his retreating figure.
“He has a battle to fight,” said Miss Andrews, softly, “and I’m certain he’s going to win it.”
The mother understood, and as she looked out across the valley her face grew gray and lined.
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