“Miss Eve, where’ve you been all the winter? In London?”
“Yes, in London.”
“Do you like London better than Fernhill?”
“No, not better. You see, there are no fairies in London.”
“And did you paint pictures in London?”
“Sometimes. But people are in too much of a hurry to look at pictures.”
Miss Vance, as much the time-table as ever, met them where the white gate opened on to the heath garden. It was Lynette’s supper hour, an absurd hour, she called it, but she obeyed Miss Vance with great meekness1, remembering that God still had to be kept without an excuse for being churlish.
Eve and Miss Vance smiled reminiscently at each other. It was Miss Vance’s last term at Fernhill.
“Good night, Miss Eve, dear. You will come again to-morrow?”
“Yes; I will try to.”
Canterton and Eve were left alone together, standing2 by the white gate that opened into the great gardens of Fernhill. Canterton had been silent, smilingly silent. Eve had dreaded4 being left alone with him, but now that she was alone with him, she found that the dread3 had passed.
“Will you come and see the gardens?”
“May I?”
He opened the gate and she passed through.
May was a month that Eve had missed at Fernhill, and it was one of the most opulent of months, the month of rhododendrons, azaleas, late tulips, anemones5, and Alpines6. Never since last year’s roses had she seen such colour, such bushes of fire, such quiet splendour. It was a beauty that overwhelmed and silenced; Oriental in some of its magnificence, yet wholly pure.
The delicate colouring of the azaleas fascinated her.
“I never knew there were such subtle shades. What are they?”
“Ghents. They are early this year. Most people know only the old Mollis. There are such an infinite number of colours.”
“These are just like fire—magic fire, burning pale, and burning red, the colour of amber7, or the colour of rubies8.”
They wandered to and fro, Eve pointing out the flowers that pleased her.
“We think the same as we did last year—am I to know anything?”
“Oh, yes, if you wish it! But I am not a renegade.”
“I never suggested it. How is London?”
“Being here, I realise how I hate London to live and struggle in. What is the use of pretending? I tried my strength there, and I was beaten. So now——”
She paused, shrinking instinctively11 from telling him that she had become one of the marching, militant12 women. Fernhill, and this man’s presence, seemed to have smothered13 the aggressive spirit—rendered it superfluous14.
His eyes waited.
“Well?”
“I am on a walking tour with friends.”
“Painting?”
“No, proselytising.”
“As a Suffragette?”
“Yes, as a Militant Suffragette.”
She detested15 the label with which she had to label herself, for she had a sure feeling that it would not impress him.
“I had wondered.”
His voice was level and unprejudiced.
“Then it doesn’t shock you?”
“No, because I know what life may have been for you, trying to sell art to pork-butchers. It is hard not to become bitter. Won’t you let me hear the whole story?”
They were in the rosery, close to a seat set back in a recess16 cut in the yew17 hedge. Eve thought of that day when she had found him watching Guinevere.
“Would you listen?”
“I have been listening ever since the autumn, trying to catch any sounds that might come to me from where you were.”
They sat down, about two feet apart, half turned towards each other. But Eve did not look at Canterton. She looked at the stone paths, the pruned18 rose bushes, the sky, the outlines of the distant firs. Words came slowly at first, but in a while she lost her self-consciousness. She felt that she could tell him everything, and she told him everything, even her adventure with Hugh Massinger.
And then, suddenly, she was conscious that a cloud had come. She glanced at his face, and saw that he was angry.
“Why didn’t you write?”
“I couldn’t. And you are angry with me?”
“With you! Good God, no! I am angry with society, with that particular cad, and that female, the Champion woman. I think I shall go and half kill that man.”
She stretched out a hand.
“Don’t! I should not have told you. Besides, it is all over.”
He contradicted her.
“No, these things leave a mark—an impression.”
“Need it be a bad one?”
“Perhaps not. It depends.”
“On ourselves? Don’t you think that I am broader, wiser, more the queen of my own soul? I am beginning to laugh again.”
He stared at his clasped hands, and then raised his eyes suddenly to her face.
“Eve!”
His uttering of the name thrilled her.
She gave a little nervous laugh.
“Oh, because they were kind to me, because they are out to better things for women.”
“Have they a monopoly of all the kindness?”
“I—I don’t know.”
“Yes, you do. I am an ordinary sort of man in many ways, and we, the average men, have a growing understanding of what are called the wrongs of women. Give me one.”
She flushed slightly, and hesitated.
“I know. It is the blackguard’s game. But women can change that. The best men want to change it. But I ask you, are there no female cads who demand of men what some men demand of women?”
“You mean——”
“It is not all on one side. How are many male careers made? Isn’t there favouritism there too? I know men who would never be where they are, but for the fact that they were sexually favoured by certain women. I could quote you some pretty extraordinary cases, high up, near the summit. Besides, a sex war is the maddest sort of war that could be imagined.”
She felt driven to bay.
“But can we help fighting sometimes?”
“There is a difference between quarrelling and fighting.”
“Oh, come!”
“There is, when you come to think about it. I want neither. Does quarrelling ever help us?”
“It may.”
“When it drags us at once to a lower, baser, more prejudiced level? And do you think that these fanatics21 who burn houses are helping22 their cause?”
“Some of them have suffered very bitterly.”
“Yes, and that is the very plea that damns them. They are egotists who must advertise their sufferings. Supposing we all behaved like lunatics when we had a grievance23? Isn’t there something finer and more convincing than that? The real women are winning the equality that they want, but these fools are only raising obstinate24 prejudices. Am I, a fairly reasonable man, to be bullied25, threatened and nagged26 at? Instinctively the male fist comes up, the fist that balances the woman’s sharper tongue. For God’s sake, don’t let us get to back-alley arguments. Sex is marriage, marriage at its best, reasonable and human. Let’s talk things over by the fireside, try not to be little, try to understand each other, try to play the game together. What is the use of kicking the chessboard over? Perhaps other people, our children, have to pick up the pieces.”
Because she had more than a suspicion that he was right, she began to quote Mrs. Falconer, and to give him all the extreme theories. He listened closely enough, but she knew intuitively that he was utterly27 unimpressed.
“Do you yourself believe all that?”
“No; not all of it.”
“It comes to this, you are quoting abnormal people. You can’t generalise for the million on the idiosyncrasies of the few. These women are abnormal.”
“But the workers are normal.”
“Many of them lead abnormal lives. But do you think that we men do not want to see all that bettered?”
“Then you would give us the vote?”
“Certainly, to the normal women. Why not?”
“Are all the male voters normal?”
“Don’t make me say cynical30 things. If so many hundreds of thousands of fools have the vote at present, I do not see that it matters much if many more thousands of fools are given it.”
“That isn’t you!”
“It is a sensible, if a cynical conclusion. But I hope for something better. We are at school, we moderns, and we may be a little too clever. But if any parson tells me that we are not better than our forefathers31, I can only call him a liar32.”
She laughed.
“Oh, that’s healthy—that’s sound. I’m tired of thinking—criticising. I want to do things. It may be that quiet work in a corner is better than all the talking that ever was.”
“Of course. Read Pasteur’s life. There’s the utter damning of the merely political spirit.”
He pulled out his watch and looked at it reflectively.
“Half-past six. Where are you staying?”
“At the ‘Black Boar.’”
“I have something that I should like to show you. Have you time?”
She smiled at him shyly.
“Now and again time doesn’t matter.”
Canterton led her through the great plantations33 to the wild land on the edge of the fir woods where he had built the new cottage. It was finished, but empty. The garden had been turfed and planted, and beyond the young yew hedge the masses of sandstone were splashed with diverse colours.
“It’s new!”
“Quite! I built it in the winter.”
She stood at gaze, her lips quivering.
“How does it please you?”
“Oh, I like it! It is just the cottage one dreams about when one is in a London suburb. And that rock garden! The colours are as soft and as gorgeous as the colours on a Persian dish.”
Canterton had the key with him. They walked up the path that was paved with irregular blocks of stone. Eve’s eyes saw the date on the porch. She understood in a flash why he had not told her for whom he had built it.
Canterton unlocked the door. A silence fell upon her, and her eyes became more shadowy and serious as she went from room to room and saw all the exquisite but simple details, all the thought that had been put into this cottage. Everything was as she would have imagined it for herself. She touched the oak panelling with the tips of her fingers and smiled.
“It is just perfect!”
He took her to one of the windows.
“No.”
She looked away over the evening landscape, and the broad valley was bathed in gold. It was very beautiful, very still. Eve could hear the sound of her own breathing. And for the moment she could not look at Canterton, could not speak to him. She guessed what was in his mind, and knew what was in her own.
“A place to dream in!”
“Yet it was built for a worker!”
She rested her hands on the window sill, steadying herself, and looking out over the valley. Canterton went on speaking.
“You can guess for whom this was built.”
“I can guess.”
He could hardly hear her “Yes.”
“I know that chance brought us together to-day. May I make use of it? I am remembering my promise.”
“Perhaps it was more than chance. It was rash of me to want to see Lynette. And I trust you.”
He stood back a little, leaving her by the window.
“Eve, I do not ask for anything. I only say, here is a life for you—a working life. Live it and express yourself. Do things. You can do them. No one will be prouder of your work than I shall be. In creating a woman’s career, you can help other women.”
Her lips were quivering.
“I don’t ask you to do that. Go away, if you wish it, think it over, and decide. Don’t think of me, the man, the comrade. Think of the working life, of your art, the real life—just that.”
He made a movement towards the door, and she understood the delicacy37 of his self-effacement, and the fine courtesy that forefelt her sensitive desire to escape to be alone. They passed out into the garden. Canterton spoke38 again as he opened the gate.
“I still believe all that I believed last summer!”
He had to wait for her answer, but it came.
“I am older than I was. I have suffered a little. That refines or hardens. One does not ask for everything when one has had nothing. And yet I do not know what to say to you—the man.”
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