Allison swept Gail into his arms, and rained hot kisses upon her, crushing her closely to him. She offered no resistance, and the very fact that she held so supinely in his arms, made Allison release her sooner than he might otherwise have done. She had known that this experience must come, that no look or gesture or word of hers could ward1 it off.
“You must never do that again,” she told him, stepping back from him, and regaining2 her breath with an effort. She had lingered in the front parlours to receive him before her Uncle Jim should know that he was in the house, and she had led him straight into the little tête-à-tête reception room. She meant to free herself quickly.
“Why not?” he laughed, and advanced toward her, taking her attitude lightly, ascribing her action to a girlish whim3, confident in his power over her. He meant to dispose of her coyness by taking her in his arms again. She belonged to him.
“Mr. Allison.” The tone was cold enough, and deadly in earnest enough to arrest him.
“What’s the matter, Gail?” he protested, ready to humour her, to listen to what she had to say, to smooth matters out.
“You have no right,” she told him.
290“Yes I have,” he jovially5 assured her. “I hope I don’t have to wait until after marriage for a kiss. If that’s the case I’ll take you out and marry you right now.”
There was an infection in his laugh, contagion6 in the assumption that all was right between them, and that any difference was one which could be straightened out with jolly patience, and Gail, though her determination would not have changed, might have softened7 toward him, had she not seen in his face a look which paled her lips. Ever since last night he had anticipated her, had rejoiced in his possession of her, had dreamed on the time when he should take her for his own; and his eyes were cloudy with his thoughts of her.
“Let us have a clear understanding, Mr. Allison.” She was quite erect8, and looking him directly in the eyes. Her own were deep and troubled, and the dark trace which had been about them in the morning had deepened. “I told you last night that I should need time in which to decide; and I have decided9. I shall not marry you.”
He returned her gaze for a moment, and his brow clouded.
“You’ve changed since last night,” he charged her.
“Possibly,” she admitted. “It is more likely, however, that I have merely crystallised. I prefer not to discuss it.” She saw on his face the growing instinct to humiliate10 her.
“You must discuss it,” he insisted. “Last night when I took you in my arms you made no objection. I was justified11 in doing it again to-night. You’re not a fool. You knew from the first that I wanted you, and you encouraged me. Now, I’m entitled to know what has made the change.”
291The telltale red spots began to appear in her cheeks.
“You,” she told him. “Last night, your scheme of world empire seemed a wonderful thing to me, but since then I’ve discovered that it cannot be built without dishonesty and cruelty; and you’ve used both.”
“You’ve been reading the papers. There isn’t a man in the financial field who wouldn’t do everything I’ve done; and be proud of it. I can make you see this in the right light, Gail.”
“It’s a proof of your moral callousness13 that you think so,” she informed him. “Can you make me see it in the right light that you even used me, of whom you pretended to think sacredly enough to marry, to help you in your most despicable trick of all?”
“Look here,” he protested. “That would be impossible! You’re misinformed.”
“I wish I were,” she returned. “Unfortunately, it is a matter of direct knowledge. You caused Vedder Court to be torn down because I thought it should be wiped out of existence, and in the process you cheated Market Square Church out of six million dollars!”
He could not have been more shocked if she had struck him.
“I knew you did not understand,” he kindly14 reproved her. “I didn’t want those old buildings. They couldn’t have sold them for the wreckage15 price. When you suggested that they should be torn down, I saw it. They were a public menace, and the public was right with the movement. The condemnation16 price will cover all they could get from the property from any source. You see, you don’t understand business,” and his tone was forgiving. “I’d have been foolish to pay six million dollars for something I couldn’t use. You know, 292Gail, when the building commissioners17 came to look over those buildings, they were shocked! Some of them wouldn’t have stood up another year. It was only the political influence of Clark and Chisholm and a few of the other big guns of the congregation, which kept them from being condemned18 long ago. You shouldn’t interfere19 in business. It always creates trouble between man and wife,” and he advanced to put his arm around her, and soothe20 her.
The hand with which she warded21 him off was effective this time. She stared at him in wonder. It seemed inconceivable that the moral sense of any intelligent man should be so blunted.
“There’s another reason,” she told him, despairing of making him realise that he had done anything out of the way. “I do not love you. I could not.”
“That is something you must learn. You have young notions of love, gleaned23 from poetry and fiction. You conceive it to be an ideal stage of existence, a mysterious something almost too delicate for perception by the human senses. I will teach you love, Gail! Look,” and he stretched up his firm arm, as if in his grip he already held the reins24 of the mighty25 empire he was hewing26 out for her. “Love is a thing of strength, of power, of desire which shakes, and burns, and consumes with fever! It is like the lust27 to kill! It whips, and it goads28, and it drives! It creates! It puts new images into the brain; it puts new strength into sinews; it puts new life into the blood! It cries out! It demands! It has caused me to turn back from middle-age to youth, to renew all my ambitions, a thousandfold enhanced by my maturity29! It has caused me 293to grapple the world by the throat, and shake it, throttle30 it; so that I might drag it, quivering, to your feet and say, this is yours; kick it! That is love, Gail! It drives one on to do great deeds! It gives one the impulse to recognise no bounds, no bars, no obstacles! It has put all my being into the attainment31 of things big enough to show you the force of my will, and what it could conquer! Do you suppose that, with such love driving me on, any objection which you may make will stop me? No! I set out to attain32 you as the summit of my desire, the one thing in this world I want, and will have!”
Again that great fear of him possessed33 Gail. She feared many things. She feared that, in spite of her determination, he would still have her, and in that possibility alone lay all the other fears, fears so gruesome that she did not dare see them clearly! She knew that she must retain absolute control of herself.
“I shall not discuss the matter any further,” she quietly said, and walking straight towards the door, passed by him, quite within the reach of his arm, without either looking at him or away from him. Something within his own strength respected hers, in spite of him. “I have said all that I have to say.”
“So have I,” he replied, coming closer to her as she stood in the doorway34, and he gazed down at her with eyes in which there was insolent35 determination, and cruelty. “I have said that I mean to have you, and I will.”
Without a word, she went into the hall. He followed her, and took his hat.
“Good evening,” he said formally.
“Good evening,” she replied, and he went out of the door.
294When he had gone, she flew up to her rooms, her first coherent thought being that she had accomplished36 it! She had seen Allison, and had given him her definite answer, and had gotten him out of the house while the others were back in the billiard room. She had held up splendidly, but she was weak now, and quivering in every limb, and she sank on her divan37, supported on one outstretched arm; and in this uncomfortable position, she took up the eternal question of Gail. The angry tears of mortification38 sprang into her eyes!
A half hour later her Aunt Grace came up, and found her in the same position.
“Mrs. Boyd and Doctor Boyd are downstairs, dear,” she announced.
“Please make my excuses, Aunty,” she begged.
“What’s the matter?” asked Aunt Grace, the creases40 jumping into her brow as if they lay somewhere in the roots of her hair, ready to spring down at an instant’s notice. “Aren’t you feeling well? Shall I get you something?”
“Then don’t you come a step,” and Aunt Grace beamed down on her niece with infinite tenderness. She had an intuition, these days, that the girl was troubled; and her sympathies were ready for instant production. “You’ll have to tell me what to say, though. I’m so clumsy at it.”
“Just tell them the truth,” smiled Gail, and punching two pillows together, she stretched herself at full length on the divan.
295Her Aunt Grace regarded her with a puzzled expression for a moment, and then she laughed.
“I see; you’re lying down.” She looked at Gail thoughtfully for a moment. “Dear, could you close your eyes?”
“Certainly,” agreed Gail, and the brown lashes43 curved down on her cheeks, though there was a sharp little glint from under the edges of her lids.
Her Aunt Grace stooped and kissed the smooth white brow, then she went downstairs and entered the library.
The library was quite steadily45 devoted46 to Vedder Court to-night. A highly important change had come into the fortunes of Market Square Church. It was as if a stone had been thrown into a group of cardboard houses. All the years of planning had gone the way of the wind, and the card houses had all to be built over again. The Cathedral had receded47 by a good five years, unless the force and fire of the Reverend Smith Boyd should be sufficient to coax48 capital out of the pockets of his millionaire congregation; and, in fact, that quite normal plan was already under advisement.
The five of this impromptu49 counsel were deep in the matter of ways and means, when a slender apparition50, in clinging grey, came down the stairs. It was Gail, who, for some reason unknown, even to her, had decided that she was selfish; and the Reverend Smith Boyd’s heart ached as he saw the pallor on her delicately tinted51 cheeks and the dark tracing about her brown eyes. She slipped quietly in among them, her brown hair loosely waved, so that unexpected threads of gold shone in it when she passed under the chandelier, and she 296greeted the callers pleasantly, and sat down in the corner, very silent. She was glad that she had come. It was restful in this little circle of friends.
A noise filled the hall, and even the lights of the library seemed to brighten, as Lucile and Ted4, Arly and Gerald, and Dick Rodley, came tumbling in, laughing and chattering52, and carrying hilarity53 in front of them like a wave. Gail shoved her tangle54 of thoughts still further back in her head, and the sparkle returned into her eyes.
“We’re bringing you a personal invitation to Arly and Gerald’s yacht party,” jabbered55 Lucile, kissing everybody in reach except the Reverend Smith Boyd.
“You might let Arly extend the invitation herself,” objected Ted.
“I’ve given the pleasure to Gerald,” laughed Arly, with a vivacious56 glance at that smiling gentleman. “He does it so much better. Now listen.”
“It’s a little informal week-end party, on the Whitecap,” Gerald informed them, with a new something in him which quite satisfactorily took the place of cordiality. “Sort of a farewell affair. Arly and I are about to take a selfish two months’ cruise, all by ourselves,” and he glanced fondly at the handsome black-haired young woman under discussion. “We should be pleased to have you join us,” and he included Mrs. Boyd and the young rector with a nod.
“Of course we’ll come,” agreed Gail. “Doctor Boyd, can’t you arrange for a week-end party once in your life?”
“Unfortunately custom has decreed that week-end parties shall cover Sundays,” he regretted, but there was a calculating look in his eye which sent Lucile over to him.
297“Play hooky just once,” she begged. “This is only a family crowd, the Babbitts and Marion Kenneth, and we who are here.”
The Reverend Smith Boyd looked at his mother, and that lady brightened visibly.
“When is it to be?” he asked.
“Saturday,” Arly informed him, joining Lucile, who had sat on the arm of Mrs. Boyd’s chair. Arly sat on the other one, and Gerald Fosland, with an entirely57 new appreciation58 of beauty, thought he had never seen a prettier picture than the sweet-faced old lady with the fresh and charming young women on either side of her.
The Reverend Smith Boyd glanced, for just an instant, at Gail, who was now sitting on the leather couch leaning confidingly59 against her Aunt Grace. He had been at some pains to avoid this young lady recently, for it is natural to spare one’s self distress60; but there was a look of loneliness about her which sent his heart out to her in quick sympathy.
“I think I’ll play hooky,” he announced, with a twinkle in the eyes which he now cast upon his mother.
“That’s being a good sport,” approved Ted. “Stay away a Sunday or two, and Market Square Church will appreciate you better.”
“Let’s have some music,” demanded Lucile.
“Gail and Doctor Boyd must sing for you,” announced Aunt Grace, in whom there was a trace of wistfulness. “They do sing so beautifully together!”
“I’m afraid I can’t to-night,” refused Gail hastily, and indeed she had good reason why her voice should not have its firm and true quality just now. “I will accompany Doctor Boyd, though, with pleasure,” and she started toward the music room.
298The Reverend Smith Boyd was cut off from the ordinary lies about not being in good voice, and suffering from a slight cold, and such things. He hesitated a moment, and then he followed.
The Bedouin Love Song, the Garden of Sleep, and others of the solo repertoire61 which Gail had selected for him, came pulsing out of the music room, first hesitantly, and then with more strength, as the friendly nearness between himself and the accompanist became better established.
Presently, the listeners in the library noticed an unusual pause between the songs, a low voiced discussion, and then, the two perfectly62 blended voices rose in a harmony so perfect that there was moisture in the eyes of two of the ladies present.
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