"You are getting on," Connie cried, "after a time you will become a Radical1. Already you are fast forgetting the caste of Vere de Vere, especially after your visit to the pawnbroker's yesterday. Tell me, did you feel very much afraid?"
"Well, no, I didn't," Mary laughed. "It was not such a dreadful experience after all. You see, I had the face of our landlady2 before my eyes. I tried to think of nothing but the fact that we had another night out of doors before us. I don't believe I even trembled as I placed a diamond ring on the counter and asked a loan of five pounds on it. Perhaps I was just a little afraid of being given in custody3 on a charge of dealing4 with stolen goods. Ah! the glow of satisfaction when I found that money in my pocket! Will you believe me, Connie dear, I was thinking nothing about myself, but about you and Grace. And when I got back here and saw your faces it was the happiest moment in my life."
Connie kissed the speaker affectionately. She was genuinely touched, though she did not care to own it. She pointed5 to the brushes and paints on the table.
"Well, don't be prodigal," she said. "I've managed to get you five hundred cards to paint and they will take you a whole week. And now I'll go and find some fresh work to do. Thanks to Mrs. Speed's exit, I have lost my Wheezer6 job. As the drawings were not on time I've been told that I need not ask for any more work. It is such a pity, because it was such regular, steady employment."
Connie spoke7 lightly, but Mary could see she felt it. She painted on at her cards till nearly luncheon-time, until her back ached and her fingers were almost too stiff to hold a brush. But there was peace and contentment in her heart, a feeling of happiness and gladness that she had never felt before. She took a glass of milk and a bun presently, and then put on her hat to go as far as Mrs. Speed's. Though the promised telegram had been sent, the necessary boxes had not turned up yet. And Mary was getting anxious. She would go and fetch the boxes; in the circumstances, the luxury of a cab would be justified8.
Mary swung along the street with a free step and a sense of joyful9 elation10. She had not gone far before somebody touched her lightly on the shoulder. She started and turned to find herself face to face with Ralph Darnley. He looked bronzed and well. The tan on his handsome face brought with it a whiff of the country. There was no mistaking the genuine pleasure that shone in his eyes as he held Mary's hand in his.
"I called at your rooms," he said, "and they told me that you had just gone out. I followed quickly with wonderful luck. Where are you going?"
"Off to the wilds of North London," Mary laughed. She felt a strange sense of gladness in the presence of Ralph; a certain shy happiness possessed11 her. "Our late landlady went off with our boxes. We had to sleep out the night before last."
"So Lady Dashwood told me," Ralph replied. "It must have been a dreadful experience. And yet you look very well and happy, Mary."
The girl laughed in a shy kind of way.
"I really believe I am," she confessed. "Mind you, it was very dreadful at first. I felt so utterly12 lost and sad that I very nearly came back and proclaimed my defeat."
"At the expense of the family pride?" Ralph laughed.
"Yes," Mary said quietly with a flush on her face. "I am coming to the conclusion that the family pride is a great mistake. It made me so cold and self-contained. I never seemed to know what it was to have sympathy for anybody. To be a Dashwood is a great thing, of course. But there are far higher and nobler aims. Those two girls I live with made me thoroughly13 ashamed of myself. They are ladies who get their own living by art work--but, of course, you know all about Connie Colam. What a nature she has!"
"One of the noblest in the world," Ralph said quietly. "Mary, I hoped that you would grow like her. I hoped that her example would be a benefit to you. With your beauty and her disposition14, you would be one of the most perfect women that God ever made. Ah, the man will be lucky indeed who calls Connie Colam his wife."
Mary assented15 warmly enough, and yet at the same time she was conscious of just a tinge16 of passing jealousy17 at the high praise of her friend. Ralph had told her all along that he loved her, that there was no other girl in the world for him. Had her coldness killed that love? Then she told herself that it did not matter, seeing that the affection was not returned in the way that Ralph meant. All the same, she could not rid herself of the impression that such a thing would take all the light out of her life, and leave her alone and desolate18 indeed.
"Connie thinks very highly of you," she said shyly.
"That is very good of her," Ralph replied with something like a sigh, "but we are too good friends ever to care for each other in any other way. Still, she is doing you good, Mary. There is something about you that I can't describe, some subtle change for the better. I never noticed till now that you had such a sweet and tender smile and there is a thrill in your voice that makes you pure and womanly. My experiment has been a success."
"What experiment is that?" Mary asked innocently.
"What am I saying?" Ralph laughed. "I have a confession19 to make later, but it is not the time to go into that. It is good to be by your side again, listening to your voice. Now, tell me all that you are doing."
Mary did not need to be asked. She fairly bubbled over with delight. The deep thrill that Ralph had noticed in her voice touched him and caused a chord to throb20 in response. It seemed almost impossible to believe that this was the Mary of the old days, the proud, distant creature whose head was in the clouds contemplating21 the glory of the family. She was tender and warm and confiding22, and the flush on her face gave the one thing needed to make her fair and radiant beauty complete. This was the girl that Ralph loved, the woman of his fondest dreams. He felt as if he could walk by her side for ever.
"But you will think me conceited," she said presently; "I have talked of nothing but myself for half an hour or more. Please do not laugh at me."
"Certainly not," Ralph said indignantly. "I have no intention of laughing at you, Mary. It is a positive joy to me to hear you talking like this! And so there are better, truer things than the Dashwood pride and the family pedigree. You have seen what noble womanhood can do for itself, what a dignified23 thing honest labour is. Do you remember what I said to you the night that you came to London, Mary?"
"I recollect," Mary whispered softly. "You prophesied24 for me. You said that I should be better and purer for the sacrifice. You said that I should see life as it is, and learn what a poor thing the family glory was by the side of humanity. And I have learned the lesson, Ralph, I am quite content now to work for my living; I am trying to forget Dashwood and all its glories. Why, I have even become accustomed to London bread and butter."
The girl burst into a merry laugh in which Ralph joined from pure sympathy. Here was the model wife for which he had been looking.
"That is important," he said, "but there is another lesson that I am anxious about. You have become a child of the people now, a recruit in the great army of labour. But with your new womanhood has there not come another and sweeter dream to you, Mary? Have you not pictured someone by your side to help in the struggle?"
"Yes," she said frankly26, "we were only talking about it last night. Oh, I have gone a long way indeed since I saw you last."
"That is good to hear. And when the right man comes along you will not refuse him simply because he does not have a long pedigree?"
"Please do not say too much about it," Mary pleaded. "If you only knew how dreadfully ashamed you make me feel! As if it mattered, as if anything mattered, so long as the woman loved the man and he was worthy27 of her affection. There, Ralph, do you need me to say any more than that! A man does not need a long pedigree or a fine estate to be a gentleman. But, really, you are making me false to my creed28, and I shall not tell you anything else till I have seen Mrs. Speed. This is the house. Will you wait outside?"
"Certainly not," Ralph said, "I have something to say to Mrs. Speed as well as you. You will perhaps be surprised to hear that she is an old friend of my father's. Come along."
Mrs. Speed came up from the kitchen very hot and very red, and inclined to be angry at being disturbed at this time of the day. She began to explain volubly to Mary why the boxes had not yet been sent off. In the hall a man was calling for the landlady. She broke off in her exclamations29 and stared at Ralph. She seemed terribly agitated30, her face grew white, her eyes astonished, as Ralph held out his hand.
"A ghost!" she said, "a ghost from the grave. And yet it could not be; after all these years, it is impossible that the form of--well, what is it?"
The man in the hall came swaggering into the room. He glanced at Ralph, and would have vanished had not the latter detained him.
"This is an unexpected meeting," he said. "I did not expect to see you here so far away from home, Sir Vincent Dashwood."
"Sir Vincent Dashwood!" Mrs. Speed cried. "Then who, sir, are you, I'd like to know?"
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landlady
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custody
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dealing
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pointed
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wheezer
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spoke
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justified
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joyful
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elation
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possessed
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utterly
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thoroughly
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disposition
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tinge
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jealousy
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desolate
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confession
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contemplating
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frankly
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