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Chapter 3
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Connie was aware, however, of a growing restlessness. Out of her disconnexion, a restlessness was taking possession of her like madness. It twitched1 her limbs when she didn't want to twitch2 them, it jerked her spine3 when she didn't want to jerk upright but preferred to rest comfortably. It thrilled inside her body, in her womb, somewhere, till she felt she must jump into water and swim to get away from it; a mad restlessness. It made her heart beat violently for no reason. And she was getting thinner.
It was just restlessness. She would rush off across the park, abandon Clifford, and lie prone4 in the bracken. To get away from the house...she must get away from the house and everybody. The work was her one refuge, her sanctuary5.

But it was not really a refuge, a sanctuary, because she had no connexion with it. It was only a place where she could get away from the rest. She never really touched the spirit of the wood itself...if it had any such nonsensical thing.

Vaguely6 she knew herself that she was going to pieces in some way. Vaguely she knew she was out of connexion: she had lost touch with the substantial and vital world. Only Clifford and his books, which did not exist...which had nothing in them! Void to void. Vaguely she knew. But it was like beating her head against a stone.

Her father warned her again: `Why don't you get yourself a beau, Connie? Do you all the good in the world.'

That winter Michaelis came for a few days. He was a young Irishman who had already made a large fortune by his plays in America. He had been taken up quite enthusiastically for a time by smart society in London, for he wrote smart society plays. Then gradually smart society realized that it had been made ridiculous at the hands of a down-at-heel Dublin street-rat, and revulsion came. Michaelis was the last word in what was caddish and bounderish. He was discovered to be anti-English, and to the class that made this discovery this was worse than the dirtiest crime. He was cut dead, and his corpse7 thrown into the refuse can.

Nevertheless Michaelis had his apartment in Mayfair, and walked down Bond Street the image of a gentleman, for you cannot get even the best tailors to cut their low-down customers, when the customers pay.

Clifford was inviting8 the young man of thirty at an inauspicious moment in thyoung man's career. Yet Clifford did not hesitate. Michaelis had the ear of a few million people, probably; and, being a hopeless outsider, he would no doubt be grateful to be asked down to Wragby at this juncture9, when the rest of the smart world was cutting him. Being grateful, he would no doubt do Clifford `good' over there in America. Kudos10! A man gets a lot of kudos, whatever that may be, by being talked about in the right way, especially `over there'. Clifford was a coming man; and it was remarkable11 what a sound publicity12 instinct he had. In the end Michaelis did him most nobly in a play, and Clifford was a sort of popular hero. Till the reaction, when he found he had been made ridiculous.

Connie wondered a little over Clifford's blind, imperious instinct to become known: known, that is, to the vast amorphous13 world he did not himself know, and of which he was uneasily afraid; known as a writer, as a first-class modern writer. Connie was aware from successful, old, hearty14, bluffing15 Sir Malcolm, that artists did advertise themselves, and exert themselves to put their goods over. But her father used channels ready-made, used by all the other R. A.s who sold their pictures. Whereas Clifford discovered new channels of publicity, all kinds. He had all kinds of people at Wragby, without exactly lowering himself. But, determined16 to build himself a monument of a reputation quickly, he used any handy rubble17 in the making.

Michaelis arrived duly, in a very neat car, with a chauffeur18 and a manservant. He was absolutely Bond Street! But at right of him something in Clifford's county soul recoiled19. He wasn't exactly... not exactly...in fact, he wasn't at all, well, what his appearance intended to imply. To Clifford this was final and enough. Yet he was very polite to the man; to the amazing success in him. The bitch-goddess, as she is called, of Success, roamed, snarling20 and protective, round the half-humble, half-defiant Michaelis' heels, and intimidated22 Clifford completely: for he wanted to prostitute himself to the bitch-goddess, Success also, if only she would have him.

Michaelis obviously wasn't an Englishman, in spite of all the tailors, hatters, barbers, booters of the very best quarter of London. No, no, he obviously wasn't an Englishman: the wrong sort of flattish, pale face and bearing; and the wrong sort of grievance23. He had a grudge24 and a grievance: that was obvious to any true-born English gentleman, who would scorn to let such a thing appear blatant25 in his own demeanour. Poor Michaelis had been much kicked, so that hes, and the strong queerly-arched brows, the immobile, compressed mouth; that momentary26 but revealed immobility, an immobility, a timelessness which the Buddha27 aims at, and which Negroes express sometimes without ever aiming at it; something old, old, and acquiescent28 in the race! Aeons of acquiescence29 in race destiny, instead of our individual resistance. And then a swimming throug亠? And how they enjoyed the various kicks , like rats in a dark river. Connie felt a sudden, strange leap of sympathy for him, a leap mingled30 with compassion31, and tinged32 with repulsion, amounting almost to love. The outsider! The outsider! And they called him a bounder! How much more bounderish and assertive33 Clifford looked! How much stupideand or let himself go. He knew he had been asked down to Wragby to be made use of, and like an old, shrewd, almost indifferent business man, or big-business man, he let himself be asked questions, and he answered with as little waste of feeling as possible.

`Money!' he said. `Money is a sort of instinct. It's a sort of property of nature in a man to make money. It's nothing you do. It's no trick you play. It's a sort of permanent accident of your own nature; once you start, you make money, and you go on; up to a point, I suppose.'

`But you've got to begin,' said Clifford.

`Oh, quite! You've got to get in. You can do nothing if you are kept outside. You've got to beat your way in. Once you've done that, you can't help it.'

`But could you have made money except by plays?' asked Clifford.

`Oh, probably not! I may be a good writer or I may be a bad one, but a writer and a writer of plays is what I am, and I've got to be. There's no question of that.'

`And you think it's a writer of popular plays that you've got to be?' asked Connie.

`There, exactly!' he said, turning to her in a sudden flash. `There's nothing in it! There's nothing in popularity. There's nothing in the public, if it comes to that. There's nothing really in my plays to make them popular. It's not that. They just are like the weather...the sort that will have to be...for the time being.'

He turned his slow, rather full eyes, that had been drowned in such fathomless34 disillusion35, on Connie, and she trembled a little. He seemed so old...endlessly old, built up of layers of disillusion, going down in him generation after generation, like geological strata36; and at the same time he was forlorn like a child. An outcast, in a certain sense; but with the desperate bravery of his rat-like existence.

`At least it's wonderful what you've done at your time of life,' said Clifford contemplatively.

`I'm thirty...yes, I'm thirty!' said Michaelis, sharply and suddenly, with a curious laugh; hollow, triumphant37, and bitter.

`And are you alone?' asked Connie.

`How do you mean? Do I live alone? I've got my servant. He's a Greek, so he says, and quite incompetent38. But I keep him. And I'm going to marry. Oh, yes, I must marry.'

`It sounds like going to have your tonsils cut,' laughed Connie. `Will it be an effort?'

He looked at her admiringly. `Well, Lady Chatterley, somehow it will! I find... excuse me... I find I can't marry an Englishwoman, not even an Irishwoman...'

`Try an American,' said Clifford.

`Oh, American!' He laughed a hollow laugh. `No, I've asked my man if he will find me a Turk or something...something nearer to the Oriental.'

Connie really wondered at this queer, melancholy39 specimen40 of extraordinary success; it was said he had an income of fifty thousand dollars from America alone. Sometimes he was handsome: sometimes as he looked sideways, downwards41, and the light fell on him, he had the silent, enduring beauty of a carved ivory Negro mask, with his rather full eyes, and the strong queerly-arched brows, the immobile, compressed mouth; that momentary but revealed immobility, an immobility, a timelessness which the Buddha aims at, and which Negroes express sometimes without ever aiming at it; something old, old, and acquiescent in the race! Aeons of acquiescence in race destiny, instead of our individual resistance. And then a swimming through, like rats in a dark river. Connie felt a sudden, strange leap of sympathy for him, a leap mingled with compassion, and tinged with repulsion, amounting almost to love. The outsider! The outsider! And they called him a bounder! How much more bounderish and assertive Clifford looked! How much stupider!

Michaelis knew at once he had made an impression on her. He turned his full, hazel, slightly prominent eyes on her in a look of pure detachment. He was estimating her, and the extent of the impression he had made. With the English nothing could save him from being the eternal outsider, not even love. Yet women sometimes fell for him...Englishwomen too.

He knew just where he was with Clifford. They were two alien dogs which would have liked to snarl21 at one another, but which smiled instead, perforce. But with the woman he was not quite so sure.

Breakfast was served in the bedrooms; Clifford never appeared before lunch, and the dining-room was a little dreary42. After coffee Michaelis, restless and ill-sitting soul, wondered what he should do. It was a fine November...day fine for Wragby. He looked over the melancholy park. My God! What a place!

He sent a servant to ask, could he be of any service to Lady Chatterley: he thought of driving into Sheffield. The answer came, would he care to go up to Lady Chatterley's sitting-room43.

Connie had a sitting-room on the third floor, the top floor of the central portion of the house. Clifford's rooms were on the ground floor, of course. Michaelis was flattered by being asked up to Lady Chatterley's own parlour. He followed blindly after the servant...he never noticed things, or had contact with Isis surroundings. In her room he did glance vaguely round at the fine German reproductions of Renoir and Cézanne.

`It's very pleasant up here,' he said, with his queer smile, as if it hurt him to smile, showing his teeth. `You are wise to get up to the top.'

`Yes, I think so,' she said.

Her room was the only gay, modern one in the house, the only spot in Wragby where her personality was at all revealed. Clifford had never seen it, and she asked very few people up.

Now she and Michaelis sit on opposite sides of the fire and talked. She asked him about himself, his mother and father, his brothers...other people were always something of a wonder to her, and when her sympathy was awakened44 she was quite devoid45 of class feeling. Michaelis talked frankly46 about himself, quite frankly, without affectation, simply revealing his bitter, indifferent, stray-dog's soul, then showing a gleam of revengeful pride in his success.

`But why are you such a lonely bird?' Connie asked him; and again he looked at her, with his full, searching, hazel look.

`Some birds are that way,' he replied. Then, with a touch of familiar irony47: `but, look here, what about yourself? Aren't you by way of being a lonely bird yourself?' Connie, a little startled, thought about it for a few moments, and then she said: `Only in a way! Not altogether, like you!'

`Am I altogether a lonely bird?' he asked, with his queer grin of a smile, as if he had toothache; it was so wry48, and his eyes were so perfectly49 unchangingly melancholy, or stoical, or disillusioned50 or afraid.

`Why?' she said, a little breathless, as she looked at him. `You are, aren't you?'

She felt a terrible appeal coming to her from him, that made her almost lose her balance.

`Oh, you're quite right!' he said, turning his head away, and looking sideways, downwards, with that strange immobility of an old race that is hardly here in our present day. It was that that really made Connie lose her power to see him detached from herself.

He looked up at her with the full glance that saw everything, registered everything. At the same time, the infant crying in the night was crying out of his breast to her, in a way that affected51 her very womb.

`It's awfully52 nice of you to think of me,' he said laconically53.

`Why shouldn't I think of you?' she exclaimed, with hardly breath to utter it.

He gave the wry, quick hiss54 of a laugh.

`Oh, in that way!...May I hold your hand for a minute?' he asked suddenly, fixing his eyes on her with almost hypnotic power, and sending out an appeal that affected her direct in the womb.

She stared at him, dazed and transfixed, and he went over and kneeled beside her, and took her two feet close in his two hands, and buried his face in her lap, remaining motionless. She was perfectly dim and dazed, looking down in a sort of amazement56 at the rather tender nape of his neck, feeling his face pressing her thighs57. In all her burning dismay, she could not help putting her hand, with tenderness and compassion, on the defenceless nape of his neck, and he trembled, with a deep shudder58.

Then he looked up at her with that awful appeal in his full, glowing eyes. She was utterly59 incapable60 of resisting it. From her breast flowed the answering, immense yearning61 over him; she must give him anything, anything.

He was a curious and very gentle lover, very gentle with the woman, trembling uncontrollably, and yet at the same time detached, aware, aware of every sound outside.

To her it meant nothing except that she gave herself to him. And at length he ceased to quiver any more, and lay quite still, quite still. Then, with dim, compassionate62 fingers, she stroked his head, that lay on her breast.

When he rose, he kissed both her hands, then both her feet, in their suède slippers63, and in silence went away to the end of the room, where he stood with his back to her. There was silence for some minutes. Then he turned and came to her again as she sat in her old place by the fire.

`And now, I suppose you'll hate me!' he said in a quiet, inevitable64 way. She looked up at him quickly.

`Why should I?' she asked.

`They mostly do,' he said; then he caught himself up. `I mean...a woman is supposed to.'

`This is the last moment when I ought to hate you,' she said resentfully.

`I know! I know! It should be so! You're frightfully good to me...' he cried miserably65.

She wondered why he should be miserable66. `Won't you sit down again?' she said. He glanced at the door.

`Sir Clifford!' he said, `won't he...won't he be...?' She paused a moment to consider. `Perhaps!' she said. And she looked up at him. `I don't want Clifford to know not even to suspect. It would hurt him so much. But I don't think it's wrong, do you?'

`Wrong! Good God, no! You're only too infinitely67 good to me...I can hardly bear it.'

He turned aside, and she saw that in another moment he would be sobbing68.

`But we needn't let Clifford know, need we?' she pleaded. `It would hurt him so. And if he never knows, never suspects, it hurts nobody.'

`Me!' he said, almost fiercely; `he'll know nothing from me! You see if he does. Me give myself away! Ha! Ha!' he laughed hollowly, cynically69, at such an idea. She watched him in wonder. He said to her: `May I kiss your hand arid70 go? I'll run into Sheffield I think, and lunch there, if I may, and be back to tea. May I do anything for you? May I be sure you don't hate me?---and that you won't?'---he ended with a desperate note of cynicism.

`No, I don't hate you,' she said. `I think you're nice.'

`Ah!' he said to her fiercely, `I'd rather you said that to me than said you love me! It means such a lot more...Till afternoon then. I've plenty to think about till then.' He kissed her hands humbly71 and was gone.

`I don't think I can stand that young man,' said Clifford at lunch.

`Why?' asked Connie.

`He's such a bounder underneath72 his veneer73...just waiting to bounce us.'

`I think people have been so unkind to him,' said Connie.

`Do you wonder? And do you think he employs his shining hours doing deeds of kindness?'

`I think he has a certain sort of generosity74.'

`Towards whom?'

`I don't quite know.'

`Naturally you don't. I'm afraid you mistake unscrupulousness for generosity.'

Connie paused. Did she? It was just possible. Yet the unscrupulousness of Michaelis had a certain fascination75 for her. He went whole lengths where Clifford only crept a few timid paces. In his way he had conquered the world, which was what Clifford wanted to do. Ways and means...? Were those of Michaelis more despicable than those of Clifford? Was the way the poor outsider had shoved and bounced himself forward in person, and by the back doors, any worse than Clifford's way of advertising76 himself into prominence77? The bitch-goddess, Success, was trailed by thousands of gasping78, dogs with lolling tongues. The one that got her first was the real dog among dogs, if you go by success! So Michaelis could keep his tail up.

The queer thing was, he didn't. He came back towards tea-time with a large handful of violets and lilies, and the same hang-dog expression. Connie wondered sometimes if it were a sort of mask to disarm79 opposition80, because it was almost too fixed55. Was he really such a sad dog?

His sad-dog sort of extinguished self persisted all the evening, though through it Clifford felt the inner effrontery81. Connie didn't feel it, perhaps because it was not directed against women; only against men, and their presumptions82 and assumptions. That indestructible, inward effrontery in the meagre fellow was what made men so down on Michaelis. His very presence was an affront83 to a man of society, cloak it as he might in an assumed good manner.

Connie was in love with him, but she managed to sit with her embroidery84 and let the men talk, and not give herself away. As for Michaelis, he was perfect; exactly the same melancholic85, attentive86, aloof87 young fellow of the previous evening, millions of degrees remote from his hosts, but laconically playing up to them to the required amount, and never coming forth88 to them for a moment. Connie felt he must have forgotten the morning. He had not forgotten. But he knew where he was...in the same old place outside, where the born outsiders are. He didn't take the love-making altogether personally. He knew it would not change him from an ownerless dog, whom everybody begrudges89 its golden collar, into a comfortable society dog.

The final fact being that at the very bottom of his soul he was an outsider, and anti-social, and he accepted the fact inwardly, no matter how Bond-Streety he was on the outside. His isolation90 was a necessity to him; just as the appearance of conformity91 and mixing-in with the smart people was also a necessity.

But occasional love, as a comfort arid soothing92, was also a good thing, and he was not ungrateful. On the contrary, he was burningly, poignantly93 grateful for a piece of natural, spontaneous kindness: almost to tears. Beneath his pale, immobile, disillusioned face, his child's soul was sobbing with gratitude94 to the woman, and burning to come to her again; just as his outcast soul was knowing he would keep really clear of her.

He found an opportunity to say to her, as they were lighting95 the candles in the hall:

`May I come?'

`I'll come to you,' she said.

`Oh, good!'

He waited for her a long time...but she came.

He was the trembling excited sort of lover, whose crisis soon came, and was finished. There was something curiously96 childlike and defenceless about his naked body: as children are naked. His defences were all in his wits and cunning, his very instincts of cunning, and when these were in abeyance97 he seemed doubly naked and like a child, of unfinished, tender flesh, and somehow struggling helplessly.

He roused in the woman a wild sort of compassion and yearning, and a wild, craving98 physical desire. The physical desire he did not satisfy in her; he was always come and finished so quickly, then shrinking down on her breast, and recovering somewhat his effrontery while she lay dazed, disappointed, lost.

But then she soon learnt to hold him, to keep him there inside her when his crisis was over. And there he was generous and curiously potent99; he stayed firm inside her, giving to her, while she was active...wildly, passionately100 active, coming to her own crisis. And as he felt the frenzy101 of her achieving her own orgasmic satisfaction from his hard, erect102 passivity, he had a curious sense of pride and satisfaction.

`Ah, how good!' she whispered tremulously, and she became quite still, clinging to him. And he lay there in his own isolation, but somehow proud.

He stayed that time only the three days, and to Clifford was exactly the same as on the first evening; to Connie also. There was no breaking down his external man.

He wrote to Connie with the same plaintive103 melancholy note as ever, sometimes witty104, and touched with a queer, sexless affection. A kind of hopeless affection he seemed to feel for her, and the essential remoteness remained the same. He was hopeless at the very core of him, and he wanted to be hopeless. He rather hated hope. `Une immense espérance a traversé la terre', he read somewhere, and his comment was:`---and it's darned-well drowned everything worth having.'

Connie never really understood him, but, in her way, she loved him. And all the time she felt the reflection of his hopelessness in her. She couldn't quite, quite love in hopelessness. And he, being hopeless, couldn't ever quite love at all.

So they went on for quite a time, writing, and meeting occasionally in London. She still wanted the physical, sexual thrill she could get with him by her own activity, his little orgasm being over. And he still wanted to give it her. Which was enough to keep them connected.

And enough to give her a subtle sort of self-assurance, something blind and a little arrogant105. It was an almost mechanical confidence in her own powers, and went with a great cheerfulness.

She was terrifically cheerful at Wragby. And she used all her aroused cheerfulness and satisfaction to stimulate106 Clifford, so that he wrote his best at this time, and was almost happy in his strange blind way. He really reaped the fruits of the sensual satisfaction she got out of Michaelis' male passivity erect inside her. But of course he never knew it, and if he had, he wouldn't have said thank you!

Yet when those days of her grand joyful107 cheerfulness and stimulus108 were gone, quite gone, and she was depressed109 and irritable110, how Clifford longed for them again! Perhaps if he'd known he might even have wished to get her and Michaelis together again.
 
 
然而,康妮感着一种日见增大的不安的感觉。因为她与一切隔绝,所以不安的感觉便疯狂似地把她占据。当她要宁静时,这种不安便牵动着她的四肢;当她要舒适地休息时,这种不安便挺直着她的脊骨。它在她的身内,子宫里,和什么地方跳动着,直至她觉得非跳进水里去游泳以摆脱它不可。这是一种疯狂的不安。它使她的心毫无理由地狂跳起来。她渐渐地消瘦了。

这种不安,有时使她狂奔着穿过林园,丢开了克利福,在羊齿草丛中俯卧着。这样她便可以摆脱她的家……她得摆脱她的家和一切的人。树林象是她唯一的安身处,她的避难地。

但是树林却不是一个真正的安身避难的地方,因为她和树林并没有真正的接触。这只是她可以摆脱其他一切的一个地方罢了。她从来没有接触树林本身的精神……假如树林真有这种怪诞的东西的话。

朦胧地,她知道自己是渐渐地萎靡凋谢了;朦胧地,她知道自己和一切都没有联系,她已与实质的、有生命的世界脱离关系。她只有克利福和他的书,而这些书是没有生命的……里面是空无一物的,只是一个一个的空洞罢了。她朦胧地知道,她虽然朦胧地知道,但是她却觉得好象自己的头碰在石头上一样。

她的父亲又惊醒地说:“康妮,你为什么不找个情人呢?那于你是大有益处的。”

那年冬天,蔑克里斯来这儿住了几天,他是个年轻的爱尔兰人,他写的剧本在美国上演,赚过一笔大钱。曾经有一个时候,他受过伦敦时髦社会很热烈的欢迎;因为他所写的都是时髦社会的剧本。后来,这般时髦社会的人们,渐渐地明白了自己实在被这达布林的流氓所嘲弄了,于是来了一个反动。蔑克里斯这个字成为最下流、最被轻视的宇了。他们发觉他是反对英国的,这一点,在发觉的人看来,是罪大恶极的。从此,伦敦和时髦社会把他诟骂得体无完肤,把他象一件脏东西似的丢在垃圾桶里。

可是蔑克里斯却住在贵族助梅惠区里,而且走过帮德街时,竟是仪表堂堂,俨然贵绅;因为只要你有钱,纵令你是个下流人。最好的裁缝师也不会拒绝你的光顾的。”

这个三十岁的青年,虽然正在走着倒霉运气,但是克利福却不犹豫地把他请到勒格贝来。蔑克里斯大概拥有几百万的听众;而正当他现在被时髦社会所遗弃不时,居然被请到勒格贝来,他无疑地是要感激的。既然他心中感激,那么他无疑地便要帮助克利福在美国成名起来,不露马脚的吹嘘,是可以使人赫然出名的,不管出的是什么名——尤其是在美国,克利福是个未来的作家,而且是个很慕虚名的人。还有一层便是蔑克里斯曾把他在一出剧本里描写得伟大高贵,使克利福成了一种大众的英雄——直至他发觉了自己实在是受人嘲弄了的时候为止。

克利福这种盲目的、迫切的沽名钓誉的天性,他这种要使那浮游无定的大干世界——其实这种世界是他自己所不认识而且惧怕的——知道他,知道他是一个作家,一个第一流的新作家的天性,是有点使康妮惊异的。从她的强壮的、善于引答人彀的老父亲麦尔肯爵士本身,康妮知道艺术家们也是用吹牛方法使自己的货色抬高的。但是她的父亲用的是些老方法,这些老方法是其他皇家艺术学会的会员们兜售他们的作品时所通用的。至于克利福呢,他发现各种各样的新宣传方法。他把各种各样的人请到勒格贝来,他虽则不至于奴颜婶膝,但是他因为急于成名,所以凡是可用的手段都采用了。

蔑克里斯坐着一部漂亮的汽车,带了一个车夫和一个男仆来到了,他穿得漂亮极了;但是一看见了他,克利福的乡绅的心里便感到一种退缩。这蔑克里斯并不是……不确是……其实一点也不是……表里一致的。这一点在克利福看来是毫无疑义了,可是克利福对他是很有礼貌的;对他的惊人的成功是含着无限羡慕的。所谓“成功”的财神,在半谦卑半傲慢的蔑克里斯的脚跟边,张牙舞爪地徘徊着,保护着他。把克利福整个威吓着了;因为他自己也是想卖身与财神,也想成功的,如果她肯接受他的话。

不管伦敦最阔绰的的区域里裁缝师、帽子商人、理发匠、鞋匠怎样打扮蔑克里斯,他都显然地不是一个英国人。不,不,他显然地不是英国人;他的平板而苍白的脸孔;他的高兴举止和他的怨恨,都不是一个英国人所有的。他抱着怨恨,愤懑,让这种感情在举止上流露出来,这是一个真正的英国绅士所不齿为的。可怜的蔑克里斯,因为他受过的冷眼和攻击太多了,所以现在还是处处留神,时时担心,有点象狗似的尾巴藏在两腿间。他全凭着他的本能,尤其是他真厚脸皮,用他的戏剧在社会上层替自己打开了一条路,直至赫然成名。他的剧本得到了观众的欢心。他以为受人冷眼和攻击的日子过去了。唉,那知道这种日子没有过去……而且永不会过去呢!因为这玲眼和攻击之来,在某种意义上说,是他咎由自取的。他渴望着到不属于他的英国上流社会里去生活。但是他们多么写意地给他以种种攻击!而他是多么痛恨他们!

然而这达布林的杂种狗,却带着仆人,乘着漂亮的汽车,处到旅行。

他有的地方使康妮喜欢,他并不摆架感,他对自己不抱幻想。克利福所要知道的事情,他说得又有理,又简洁,又实际。他并不夸张或任性。他知道克利福请他到勒格贝来为的是要利用他,因此他象—个狡猾老练的大腹贾似的,态度差不多冷静地让人盘问种种问题,而他也从容大方地回答。

“金钱!”他说。“金钱是一种天性,弄钱是一个男子所有的天赋本能。不论你干什么:都是为钱;不论你弄什么把戏,也是为钱,这是你的天性中一种永久的事。你一旦开始了赚钱,你便继续赚下去;直至某种地步,我想。”

“但是你得会开始才行。”克利福说。

“啊,当然呀,你得进到里面去,如果你不能进去,便什么也不行,你得打出一条进路;一旦有了进路,你就可以前行无阻了。”

“但是除了写剧本外,还有弄钱的方法么?”克利福问道。

“啊,大概没有了!我也许是个好作家,或者是个坏作家,但我总是一个戏剧作家,我不能成为别的东西。这是毫无疑义的。”

“你以为你必定要成为一个成功的戏剧作家么?”康妮问道。

“对了,的确!”他突然地回转头去向她说:“那是没有什么的!成功没有什么,甚至大众也没有什么。我的戏剧里,实在没有什么可使戏剧成功的东西。没有的。它们简直就是成功的戏剧罢了,和天气一样……是一种不得不这样的东西……至少目前是这样。”

他的沉溺在无底的幻灭中的迟钝而微突的眼睛,转向康妮望着,她觉得微微战栗起来。他的样于是这样的老……无限的老;他似乎是个一代一代的幻灭累积而成的东西,和地层一样;而同时他又象个孤零的小孩子。在某种意义上,他是个被社会唾弃的人,但是他却象一只老鼠似的竭力挣扎地生活着。

“总之,在你这样年纪已有这种成就。是可惊的。”克利福沉思着说。’

“我今年三十岁了……是的,三十岁了!”蔑克里斯一边锐敏地说,一边怪异地笑着,这笑是空洞的,得意的,而又带苦味的。

“你还是独身一个人么?”康妮问道。

“你问的是什么意思?你问我独自生活着么?我却有个仆人。据她自己说,她是个希腊人,这是个什么也不会做的家伙。但是我却留着他,而我呢,我要结婚了。啊,是的,我定要结婚了。”

“你把结婚说得好象你要割掉你的扁桃腺似的。”康妮笑着说,“难道结婚是这样困难的么?”

他景慕地望着她,“是人,查太莱夫人,那是有点困难的!我觉得……请你原谅我这句话……我觉得我不能跟一个英国女子,甚至不能跟一个爱尔兰女于结婚……”

“那么娶—个美国女子!”克利福说。

“啊,美国女子!”他空洞地笑了起来,“不,我会叫我的仆人替我找个土耳其女人,或者一个……一个什么近于东方的女人。”

这个奇特的、沮丧的、大成大就的人,真使康妮觉得奇怪。人说,单在美国方面,他就有五万金元的进款。有时他是漂亮的,当他向地下或向旁边注视时,光线照在他的上面,他象一个象牙雕刻的黑人似的,有着一种沉静持久的美。他的眼睛有点突出,眉毛浓厚而奇异地糨曲着,嘴部紧缩而固定,这种暂时的但是显露的镇静,是佛所有意追求而黑人有时超自然流露出来的,是一种很老的、种族所默认的东西!多少世代以来,它就为种族的命运所默认,而不顾我们个别的反抗。然后,悄悄地浮游而度,象一只老鼠在一条黑暗的河里一样。

康妮突然奇异地对他同情起来。她的同情里有怜悯,却也带点憎恶,这种同情差不多近于爱情了。这个受人排挤、受人唾弃的人!人们说他浅薄无聊!但是克利福比他显得浅薄无聊得多,自作聪明得多!而且蠢笨得多呢。

蔑克里斯立刻知道她对他有了一种印象。他那有点浮突的褐色的眼睛,怪不经意地望着她。他打量着她,打量着她对于他的印象的深浅。他和英国人在一起的时候,是永远受人冷待的。甚至有爱情也不中用。可是女子们却有时为他颠倒……是的,甚至于英国女子们呢。

他分明知道他和克利福的关系如何。他们俩象是一对异种的狗,原应互相张牙舞爪的,而因情境所迫,便不得不挂着一副笑脸。但是和一个女人的关系如何,他却不太摸得着头脑了。

早餐是开在各人寝室里的。克利福在午餐以前从不出来,饭厅里总是有点忧闷。喝过咖啡后,蔑克里斯恍恍惚惚地烦燥起来,不知做什么好。这是十一月的一个美丽的日子……在勒格贝,这算是美丽的了。他望了那凄凉的园林。上帝哟!什么一块地方!

他叫仆人去问查太莱夫人要他帮什么忙不,因为他打算乘火车到雪非尔德走走。仆人回来说,查太莱夫人请他上她的起坐室里坐坐。

康妮的起坐室是三楼,这是屋座中部的最高层楼。克利福的住所,不待言是在楼下了。他觉得很荣耀的被请到查太莱夫人的私人客室里去。他盲目地跟着仆人……他是从不注意外界事物或与他的四周的事物有所接触的。可是在她的小客室里,他却模糊地望了一望那些美丽的德国复制的勒瓦和塞扎纳①的作品。


①勒努瓦(Rbnoir)塞扎纳(Cexanne)颤是法国近代印象源大画家.


“这房子真是可爱。”他一边说一边奇异地微笑,露着牙齿,仿佛这的,“住在这样的高楼上,你真是聪明啊。”

“可不是吗?”她说。

她的房子,是这大厅里唯一的华丽新式的房子,在勒格贝,只有这个地方能够表现点她的个性。克利福是从来没有看过这房子的,而她也很少请人上这儿来。

现在,她和蔑克里斯在火炉边相对坐着谈话。她问他关于他自己、他的父母;他的兄弟的事情……他人的事情,康妮总是觉得有趣而神秘的,而当她有了同情的时候,阶级的成见便全没有了。蔑克里斯爽直地说着他自己的事,爽直地、诚实地披露着他那痛苦的、冷淡的、丧家狗的心情,然后流露着他的成功后的复仇的高傲。

“但是你为什么还是这么孤寂呢?”康妮问道。

他的微突的、刺探的、褐色的眼睛,又向她望着。

“有的人是这样的。”他答道。然后他用着一种利落的,讽刺的口气说:“但是,你自己呢?你自己不是个孤寂的人么?”康妮听了有点吃惊,沉思了一会,然后答道:“也许有点儿;但并不是全然孤寂着,和你一样!”

“我是全然地孤寂的人么?”他一边问,一边苦笑着,好象他牙痛似的,多么做作的微笑!他的眼睛带着十分忧郁的、忍痛的、幻灭的和惧怕的神气。

“但是,”她说,看见了他的神气,有点喘气起来:“你的确是孤寂的,不是么?”

她觉得从他那里发出了一种急迫的求援,她差不多颠倒了。

“是的,的确!”他说着,把头转了过去,向旁边地下望着,静默着,好象古代人类般的那种奇异的静默,看见了他冷淡她的这种神气,使康妮气馁了。

他抬起头直望着她,他看见一切,而且记住一切。同时,象一个深夜哭喊的小孩,他从他的内心向她哭喊着,直使她的子宫深处都感动了。

“你这样关心我,你真是太好了。”他简括地说。

“为什么我不关心你呢?”他发着那种强勉的、疾嘶的、常嘶声的苦笑。

“啊,那么……我可以握一下你的手吗?”他突然问道,两眼差不多用催眠力似地疑视着她。他用这恳求;直感动到她的子宫深处。

她神魂颠倒地呆望着他,他定了过来,在她旁边跪下。两手紧紧地扭着她的两脚,他的脸伏在她的膝上,一动也不动。她已完他地迷感着了,在一种惊骇中俯望着他的柔嫩的颈背,觉着他的脸孔紧压着她的大腿。她茫然自失了,不由得把她的手,温柔地,伶悯地放在他的无抵抗的颓背上。他全身战栗起来。

跟着,他始起头,用那闪光的,带着可怖的恳求的两眼望着她;她完全地不能自主了,她的胸怀里泛流着一种对他回答的无限的欲望,她可以给他一切的一切。

他是个奇怪而娇弱的情人,对女人很是娇弱,不能自制地战栗着,而同时,却又冷静地默听着外界的一切动静。

在她呢,她除了知道自己的委身与他以外,其他一初都不在意了。惭渐地,他不战栗了,安静起来了,十分安静起来了。她怜悯地爱抚着他依在她胸前的头。

当他站起来的时候,他吻着她的双手,吻着她的穿着羔羊皮拖鞋的双脚。默默地走开到房子的那一边,背向着她站着。两个人都静默了一会。然后,他转身向她回来,她依旧坐在火炉旁边的那个老地方。

“现在,我想你要恨我了。”他温和地,无可奈何地说道。她迅速地向他仰望着。

“为什么要恨你呢?”她问道。

“女子们多数是这样的。”他说,然后又改正说:“我的意思是说……,人家认为女于是这样的。”

“我即使要根你,也决不在此刻恨你。”她捧捧地说。

“我知道的!我知道的!应该是这样的!你对我真是太好了……。”他悲惨地叫道。

她奇怪着为什么他要这样的悲惨。“你不再坐下么?”她说。他向门边望了一望。

“克利福男爵!”他说,“他,他不会……?”她沉思了一会,说道;“也许!”然后她仰望着他,“我不愿意克利福知道……,甚至不愿让他猜疑什么,那定要使他太痛苦了。但是我并不以为那有什么错处,你说是不是?”

“错处!好天爷呀,决没有的,你只是对我太好罢了……好到使我有点受不了罢了,这有什么错处?”

他转过身去,她看见他差不多要哭了。

“但是我们不必让克利福知道,是不是?”她恳求着说,“那一来定要使他太痛苦了。假如他永不知道,永不猜疑,那么大家都好。”

“我!”他差不多凶暴地说,“我不会让他知道什么的!你看罢。我,我自己去泄露!哈!哈!”想到这个,他不禁空洞地冷笑起来。她惊异地望着他。他对她说:“我可以吻吻你的手再走吗?我想到雪非尔德走一趟,在那儿午餐,如果你喜欢的话,午后我将回这里来喝茶,我可以替你做点什么事么?我可以确信你不恨我么——你不会恨我罢?”他用着一种不顾一切口气说完这些话。

“不,我不恨你。”她说,“我觉得你可爱。”

“啊!”他兴奋地对她说:“我听你说这话,比听你说你爱我更喜欢!这里面的意思深得多呢……那么下午再会罢,我现在要想的事情多着呢。”他谦恭的吻了她的两手,然后走了。

在午餐的时候.克利福说:“这青年我真看不惯。”

“为什么?”康妮问道。

“他是个金玉其外,败絮其中的家伙……他时时准备着向我们攻击。”

“我想大家都对他太坏了。”康妮说。

“你惊怪这个么?难道你以为他天天干的是些好事么?”

“我相信他是有某种宽宏慷慨的气量的。”

“对谁宽宏慷慨?”

“我倒不知道。”

“当然你不知道啊,我恐怕你把任性妄为认作宽宏慷慨了。”

康妮不做声,这是真的么?也许。可是蔑克里斯的任性妄为,有着某种使她迷惑的地方。他已经飞黄腾达了,而克利福只在匍匐地开始。他已用他的方式把世界征服了,这是克利福所求之不得的。说到方法和手段吗?难道蔑克里斯的方法和手段,比克利福的更卑下么?难道克利福的自吹自擂的登台术,比那可怜无助的人以自力狰扎前进的方法更高明么?“成功”的财神后面,跟着成千的张嘴垂舌的狗儿。那个先得到她的便是狗中之真狗!所以蔑克里斯是可以高举着他的尾巴的。

奇怪的是他并不这样做。他在午后茶点的时候,拿着一柬紫罗兰和百合花回来,依旧带着那丧家狗神气。康妮有时自问着,他这种神气,这种不变的神气,是不是拿来克敌的一种假面具,他真是一条可怜的狗吗?

他整个晚上坚持着那种用以掩藏自己的丧家狗的神气,虽然克利福已看穿了这神气里面的厚颜无耻。康妮却看不出来,也许因为他这种厚颜无耻并不是对付女人的,而是对付男子和他们的傲慢专横的。蔑克里斯这种不可毁灭的内在的厚颜无耻,便是使男子们憎恶他的原因。只要他一出现,不管他装得多么斯文得体,上流人便要引以为耻了。

康妮是爱上他了。但是她却没法自抑着真情,坐在那儿刺着绣,让他们去谈话。至于蔑克里斯呢,他毫不露出破绽,完全和昨天晚上一样,忧郁,专心,而又冷漠,和主人主妇象远隔得几百万里路似的,只和他们礼尚往来着,却不愿自献殷勤。康妮觉得他一定忘掉了早上的事了。但是他并没有忘掉。他知道他所处的境地……他仍旧是在外面的老地方,在那些天生成而被摈弃的人所处的那个地方。这回的恋爱,他毫不重视。因为他知道这恋爱是不会把他从一只无主的狗——从一只带着金颈圈而受人怨骂的无主狗,变成一只享福的上流家的狗的。

在他的灵魂深处,他的确是个反对社会的、局外的人、他内心里也承认这个,虽然他外表上穿得多么人时,他的离众孤立,在他看来,是必需的;正如他表面上是力求从众,奔走高门,也是必须一样。

但是偶然的恋爱一下,藉以安慰舒神,也是件好事,而且他并不是个忘思负义的人;反之,他对于一切自然的,出自心愿的恩爱,是热切的感激,感激到几乎流泪的。在他的苍白的、固定的、幻灭的脸孔后面,他的童子的灵魂,对那女人感恩地啜泣着,他焦急地要去亲近她;同时,他的被人摈弃的灵魂,却知道他实在是不愿与她纠缠的。

当他们在客厅里点着蜡烛要就寝的时候,他得了个机会对她说。

“我可以找你吗?”

“不,我来找你。”她说。

“啊,好罢!,,

他等了好久……但是她终于来了。

他是一种颤战而兴奋的情人,快感很快地来到,一会儿便完了。他的赤裸裸的身体,有一种象孩子似的无抵抗的希奇的东西:他象一个赤裸裸的孩童。他的抵抗力全在他的机智和狡猾之中,在他的狡猾的本能深处,而当这本能假寐着的时候,他显得加倍的赤裸,加倍地象一个孩子,皮肉松懈无力,却在拼命地挣扎着。

他引起了康妮的一种狂野的怜爱和温情,引起了她的一种狂野的渴望的肉欲。但是他没有满足他的肉欲,他的快感来得太快了。然后他萎缩在她的胸膛上,他的无耻的本能苏醒着,而她这时,却昏迷地,失望地,麻木地躺在那儿。

但是过了一会,她立刻觉得要紧紧地搂着他,使它留在她那里面,一任她动作着……一任她疯狂地热烈地动作着,直至她得到了她的最高快感。当地觉着她的疯狂的极度快感,是由他硬直的固守中得来的时候,他不禁奇异地觉得自得和满足。

“啊!多么好。”她颤战地低语着。她紧贴着他,现在她完全镇定下来了,而他呢,却孤寂地躺在那儿,可是带着骄傲神气。

他这次只住了三天,他对克利福的态度,和第一天晚上一样:对康妮也是一样,他的外表是毫无改变的。

他用着平时那种不平而忧郁的语调和康妮通信,有时写得很精彩。但总是渲染着一种奇异的无性爱的爱情。他好象觉得对她的爱情是一种无望的爱情,他们间原来的隔阂是不变的。他的深心处是没有希望的,而他也不愿有希望。他对于希望存有一种恨心。他在什么地方读过这句话:“一个庞大的希望穿过了大地。”他添了一个注说:“这希望把一切有价值的东西都扫荡无余了。”

康妮实在并不了解他;但是她自己觉得爱他。她的心里时时都感觉到他的失望。她是不能深深地、深深地爱而不存在希望的。而他呢,因为没有希望在心里,所以决不能深爱。

这样,他们继续了好久,互相通着信,偶尔也在伦敦相会。她依旧喜欢在他的极度快感完毕后,用自力得到的那种强烈的肉的快感。他也依旧喜欢去满足她。只这一点便足以维持他们间的关系。

她在勒格贝非常地快活。她用这种快活和满意去激励克利福,所以他在这时的作品写得最好,而且他几乎奇异地、盲目的觉得快活。其实,他是收获着她从蔑克里斯坚挺在她里面时,用自力得到的性的满足的果子。但是,他当然不知道这个的,要是知道了,他是决不会道谢的!

然而,当她的心花怒放地快乐而使人激励的日子过去了时,完全过去了时,她变成颓丧而易怒时,克利福是多么晦气啊!要是他知道个中因果,也许他还愿意她和蔑克里斯重新相聚呢。

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1 twitched bb3f705fc01629dc121d198d54fa0904     
vt.& vi.(使)抽动,(使)颤动(twitch的过去式与过去分词形式)
参考例句:
  • Her lips twitched with amusement. 她忍俊不禁地颤动着嘴唇。
  • The child's mouth twitched as if she were about to cry. 这小孩的嘴抽动着,像是要哭。 来自《简明英汉词典》
2 twitch jK3ze     
v.急拉,抽动,痉挛,抽搐;n.扯,阵痛,痉挛
参考例句:
  • The smell made my dog's nose twitch.那股气味使我的狗的鼻子抽动着。
  • I felt a twitch at my sleeve.我觉得有人扯了一下我的袖子。
3 spine lFQzT     
n.脊柱,脊椎;(动植物的)刺;书脊
参考例句:
  • He broke his spine in a fall from a horse.他从马上跌下摔断了脊梁骨。
  • His spine developed a slight curve.他的脊柱有点弯曲。
4 prone 50bzu     
adj.(to)易于…的,很可能…的;俯卧的
参考例句:
  • Some people are prone to jump to hasty conclusions.有些人往往作出轻率的结论。
  • He is prone to lose his temper when people disagree with him.人家一不同意他的意见,他就发脾气。
5 sanctuary iCrzE     
n.圣所,圣堂,寺庙;禁猎区,保护区
参考例句:
  • There was a sanctuary of political refugees behind the hospital.医院后面有一个政治难民的避难所。
  • Most countries refuse to give sanctuary to people who hijack aeroplanes.大多数国家拒绝对劫机者提供庇护。
6 vaguely BfuzOy     
adv.含糊地,暖昧地
参考例句:
  • He had talked vaguely of going to work abroad.他含糊其词地说了到国外工作的事。
  • He looked vaguely before him with unseeing eyes.他迷迷糊糊的望着前面,对一切都视而不见。
7 corpse JYiz4     
n.尸体,死尸
参考例句:
  • What she saw was just an unfeeling corpse.她见到的只是一具全无感觉的尸体。
  • The corpse was preserved from decay by embalming.尸体用香料涂抹以防腐烂。
8 inviting CqIzNp     
adj.诱人的,引人注目的
参考例句:
  • An inviting smell of coffee wafted into the room.一股诱人的咖啡香味飘进了房间。
  • The kitchen smelled warm and inviting and blessedly familiar.这间厨房的味道温暖诱人,使人感到亲切温馨。
9 juncture e3exI     
n.时刻,关键时刻,紧要关头
参考例句:
  • The project is situated at the juncture of the new and old urban districts.该项目位于新老城区交界处。
  • It is very difficult at this juncture to predict the company's future.此时很难预料公司的前景。
10 kudos U9Uzv     
n.荣誉,名声
参考例句:
  • He received kudos from everyone on his performance.他的表演受到大家的称赞。
  • It will acquire no kudos for translating its inner doubts into hesitation.如果由于内心疑虑不安而在行动上举棋不定,是得不到荣誉的。
11 remarkable 8Vbx6     
adj.显著的,异常的,非凡的,值得注意的
参考例句:
  • She has made remarkable headway in her writing skills.她在写作技巧方面有了长足进步。
  • These cars are remarkable for the quietness of their engines.这些汽车因发动机没有噪音而不同凡响。
12 publicity ASmxx     
n.众所周知,闻名;宣传,广告
参考例句:
  • The singer star's marriage got a lot of publicity.这位歌星的婚事引起了公众的关注。
  • He dismissed the event as just a publicity gimmick.他不理会这件事,只当它是一种宣传手法。
13 amorphous nouy5     
adj.无定形的
参考例句:
  • There was a weakening of the intermolecular bonds,primarily in the amorphous region of the polymer.分子间键合减弱,尤其在聚合物的无定形区内更为明显。
  • It is an amorphous colorless or white powder.它是一种无定形的无色或白色粉末。
14 hearty Od1zn     
adj.热情友好的;衷心的;尽情的,纵情的
参考例句:
  • After work they made a hearty meal in the worker's canteen.工作完了,他们在工人食堂饱餐了一顿。
  • We accorded him a hearty welcome.我们给他热忱的欢迎。
15 bluffing bluffing     
n. 威吓,唬人 动词bluff的现在分词形式
参考例句:
  • I don't think he'll shoot—I think he's just bluffing. 我认为他不会开枪—我想他不过是在吓唬人。
  • He says he'll win the race, but he's only bluffing. 他说他会赢得这场比赛,事实上只是在吹牛。
16 determined duszmP     
adj.坚定的;有决心的
参考例句:
  • I have determined on going to Tibet after graduation.我已决定毕业后去西藏。
  • He determined to view the rooms behind the office.他决定查看一下办公室后面的房间。
17 rubble 8XjxP     
n.(一堆)碎石,瓦砾
参考例句:
  • After the earthquake,it took months to clean up the rubble.地震后,花了数月才清理完瓦砾。
  • After the war many cities were full of rubble.战后许多城市到处可见颓垣残壁。
18 chauffeur HrGzL     
n.(受雇于私人或公司的)司机;v.为…开车
参考例句:
  • The chauffeur handed the old lady from the car.这个司机搀扶这个老太太下汽车。
  • She went out herself and spoke to the chauffeur.她亲自走出去跟汽车司机说话。
19 recoiled 8282f6b353b1fa6f91b917c46152c025     
v.畏缩( recoil的过去式和过去分词 );退缩;报应;返回
参考例句:
  • She recoiled from his touch. 她躲开他的触摸。
  • Howard recoiled a little at the sharpness in my voice. 听到我的尖声,霍华德往后缩了一下。 来自《简明英汉词典》
20 snarling 1ea03906cb8fd0b67677727f3cfd3ca5     
v.(指狗)吠,嗥叫, (人)咆哮( snarl的现在分词 );咆哮着说,厉声地说
参考例句:
  • "I didn't marry you," he said, in a snarling tone. “我没有娶你,"他咆哮着说。 来自英汉文学 - 嘉莉妹妹
  • So he got into the shoes snarling. 于是,汤姆一边大喊大叫,一边穿上了那双鞋。 来自英汉文学 - 汤姆历险
21 snarl 8FAzv     
v.吼叫,怒骂,纠缠,混乱;n.混乱,缠结,咆哮
参考例句:
  • At the seaside we could hear the snarl of the waves.在海边我们可以听见波涛的咆哮。
  • The traffic was all in a snarl near the accident.事故发生处附近交通一片混乱。
22 intimidated 69a1f9d1d2d295a87a7e68b3f3fbd7d5     
v.恐吓;威胁adj.害怕的;受到威胁的
参考例句:
  • We try to make sure children don't feel intimidated on their first day at school. 我们努力确保孩子们在上学的第一天不胆怯。
  • The thief intimidated the boy into not telling the police. 这个贼恫吓那男孩使他不敢向警察报告。 来自《简明英汉词典》
23 grievance J6ayX     
n.怨愤,气恼,委屈
参考例句:
  • He will not easily forget his grievance.他不会轻易忘掉他的委屈。
  • He had been nursing a grievance against his boss for months.几个月来他对老板一直心怀不满。
24 grudge hedzG     
n.不满,怨恨,妒嫉;vt.勉强给,不情愿做
参考例句:
  • I grudge paying so much for such inferior goods.我不愿花这么多钱买次品。
  • I do not grudge him his success.我不嫉妒他的成功。
25 blatant ENCzP     
adj.厚颜无耻的;显眼的;炫耀的
参考例句:
  • I cannot believe that so blatant a comedy can hoodwink anybody.我无法相信这么显眼的一出喜剧能够欺骗谁。
  • His treatment of his secretary was a blatant example of managerial arrogance.他管理的傲慢作风在他对待秘书的态度上表露无遗。
26 momentary hj3ya     
adj.片刻的,瞬息的;短暂的
参考例句:
  • We are in momentary expectation of the arrival of you.我们无时无刻不在盼望你的到来。
  • I caught a momentary glimpse of them.我瞥了他们一眼。
27 Buddha 9x1z0O     
n.佛;佛像;佛陀
参考例句:
  • Several women knelt down before the statue of Buddha and prayed.几个妇女跪在佛像前祈祷。
  • He has kept the figure of Buddha for luck.为了图吉利他一直保存着这尊佛像。
28 acquiescent cJ4y4     
adj.默许的,默认的
参考例句:
  • My brother is of the acquiescent rather than the militant type.我弟弟是属于服从型的而不是好斗型的。
  • She is too acquiescent,too ready to comply.她太百依百顺了。
29 acquiescence PJFy5     
n.默许;顺从
参考例句:
  • The chief inclined his head in sign of acquiescence.首领点点头表示允许。
  • This is due to his acquiescence.这是因为他的默许。
30 mingled fdf34efd22095ed7e00f43ccc823abdf     
混合,混入( mingle的过去式和过去分词 ); 混进,与…交往[联系]
参考例句:
  • The sounds of laughter and singing mingled in the evening air. 笑声和歌声交织在夜空中。
  • The man and the woman mingled as everyone started to relax. 当大家开始放松的时候,这一男一女就开始交往了。
31 compassion 3q2zZ     
n.同情,怜悯
参考例句:
  • He could not help having compassion for the poor creature.他情不自禁地怜悯起那个可怜的人来。
  • Her heart was filled with compassion for the motherless children.她对于没有母亲的孩子们充满了怜悯心。
32 tinged f86e33b7d6b6ca3dd39eda835027fc59     
v.(使)发丁丁声( ting的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • memories tinged with sadness 略带悲伤的往事
  • white petals tinged with blue 略带蓝色的白花瓣
33 assertive De7yL     
adj.果断的,自信的,有冲劲的
参考例句:
  • She always speaks an assertive tone.她总是以果断的语气说话。
  • China appears to have become more assertive in the waters off its coastline over recent years.在近些年,中国显示出对远方海洋的自信。
34 fathomless 47my4     
a.深不可测的
参考例句:
  • "The sand-sea deepens with fathomless ice, And darkness masses its endless clouds;" 瀚海阑干百丈冰,愁云黪淡万里凝。 来自英汉 - 翻译样例 - 文学
  • Day are coloured bubbles that float upon the surface of fathomless night. 日是五彩缤纷的气泡,漂浮在无尽的夜的表面。
35 disillusion HtTxo     
vt.使不再抱幻想,使理想破灭
参考例句:
  • Do not say anything to disillusion them.别说什么叫他们泄气的话。
  • I'd hate to be the one to disillusion him.我不愿意成为那个让他幻想破灭的人。
36 strata GUVzv     
n.地层(复数);社会阶层
参考例句:
  • The older strata gradually disintegrate.较老的岩层渐渐风化。
  • They represent all social strata.他们代表各个社会阶层。
37 triumphant JpQys     
adj.胜利的,成功的;狂欢的,喜悦的
参考例句:
  • The army made a triumphant entry into the enemy's capital.部队胜利地进入了敌方首都。
  • There was a positively triumphant note in her voice.她的声音里带有一种极为得意的语气。
38 incompetent JcUzW     
adj.无能力的,不能胜任的
参考例句:
  • He is utterly incompetent at his job.他完全不能胜任他的工作。
  • He is incompetent at working with his hands.他动手能力不行。
39 melancholy t7rz8     
n.忧郁,愁思;adj.令人感伤(沮丧)的,忧郁的
参考例句:
  • All at once he fell into a state of profound melancholy.他立即陷入无尽的忧思之中。
  • He felt melancholy after he failed the exam.这次考试没通过,他感到很郁闷。
40 specimen Xvtwm     
n.样本,标本
参考例句:
  • You'll need tweezers to hold up the specimen.你要用镊子来夹这标本。
  • This specimen is richly variegated in colour.这件标本上有很多颜色。
41 downwards MsDxU     
adj./adv.向下的(地),下行的(地)
参考例句:
  • He lay face downwards on his bed.他脸向下伏在床上。
  • As the river flows downwards,it widens.这条河愈到下游愈宽。
42 dreary sk1z6     
adj.令人沮丧的,沉闷的,单调乏味的
参考例句:
  • They live such dreary lives.他们的生活如此乏味。
  • She was tired of hearing the same dreary tale of drunkenness and violence.她听够了那些关于酗酒和暴力的乏味故事。
43 sitting-room sitting-room     
n.(BrE)客厅,起居室
参考例句:
  • The sitting-room is clean.起居室很清洁。
  • Each villa has a separate sitting-room.每栋别墅都有一间独立的起居室。
44 awakened de71059d0b3cd8a1de21151c9166f9f0     
v.(使)醒( awaken的过去式和过去分词 );(使)觉醒;弄醒;(使)意识到
参考例句:
  • She awakened to the sound of birds singing. 她醒来听到鸟的叫声。
  • The public has been awakened to the full horror of the situation. 公众完全意识到了这一状况的可怕程度。 来自《简明英汉词典》
45 devoid dZzzx     
adj.全无的,缺乏的
参考例句:
  • He is completely devoid of humour.他十分缺乏幽默。
  • The house is totally devoid of furniture.这所房子里什么家具都没有。
46 frankly fsXzcf     
adv.坦白地,直率地;坦率地说
参考例句:
  • To speak frankly, I don't like the idea at all.老实说,我一点也不赞成这个主意。
  • Frankly speaking, I'm not opposed to reform.坦率地说,我不反对改革。
47 irony P4WyZ     
n.反语,冷嘲;具有讽刺意味的事,嘲弄
参考例句:
  • She said to him with slight irony.她略带嘲讽地对他说。
  • In her voice we could sense a certain tinge of irony.从她的声音里我们可以感到某种讥讽的意味。
48 wry hMQzK     
adj.讽刺的;扭曲的
参考例句:
  • He made a wry face and attempted to wash the taste away with coffee.他做了个鬼脸,打算用咖啡把那怪味地冲下去。
  • Bethune released Tung's horse and made a wry mouth.白求恩放开了董的马,噘了噘嘴。
49 perfectly 8Mzxb     
adv.完美地,无可非议地,彻底地
参考例句:
  • The witnesses were each perfectly certain of what they said.证人们个个对自己所说的话十分肯定。
  • Everything that we're doing is all perfectly above board.我们做的每件事情都是光明正大的。
50 disillusioned Qufz7J     
a.不再抱幻想的,大失所望的,幻想破灭的
参考例句:
  • I soon became disillusioned with the job. 我不久便对这个工作不再抱幻想了。
  • Many people who are disillusioned in reality assimilate life to a dream. 许多对现实失望的人把人生比作一场梦。
51 affected TzUzg0     
adj.不自然的,假装的
参考例句:
  • She showed an affected interest in our subject.她假装对我们的课题感到兴趣。
  • His manners are affected.他的态度不自然。
52 awfully MPkym     
adv.可怕地,非常地,极端地
参考例句:
  • Agriculture was awfully neglected in the past.过去农业遭到严重忽视。
  • I've been feeling awfully bad about it.对这我一直感到很难受。
53 laconically 09acdfe4bad4e976c830505804da4d5b     
adv.简短地,简洁地
参考例句:
  • "I have a key,'said Rhett laconically, and his eyes met Melanie's evenly. "我有钥匙,"瑞德直截了当说。他和媚兰的眼光正好相遇。 来自飘(部分)
  • 'says he's sick,'said Johnnie laconically. "他说他有玻"约翰尼要理不理的说。 来自飘(部分)
54 hiss 2yJy9     
v.发出嘶嘶声;发嘘声表示不满
参考例句:
  • We can hear the hiss of air escaping from a tire.我们能听到一只轮胎的嘶嘶漏气声。
  • Don't hiss at the speaker.不要嘘演讲人。
55 fixed JsKzzj     
adj.固定的,不变的,准备好的;(计算机)固定的
参考例句:
  • Have you two fixed on a date for the wedding yet?你们俩选定婚期了吗?
  • Once the aim is fixed,we should not change it arbitrarily.目标一旦确定,我们就不应该随意改变。
56 amazement 7zlzBK     
n.惊奇,惊讶
参考例句:
  • All those around him looked at him with amazement.周围的人都对他投射出惊异的眼光。
  • He looked at me in blank amazement.他带着迷茫惊诧的神情望着我。
57 thighs e4741ffc827755fcb63c8b296150ab4e     
n.股,大腿( thigh的名词复数 );食用的鸡(等的)腿
参考例句:
  • He's gone to London for skin grafts on his thighs. 他去伦敦做大腿植皮手术了。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • The water came up to the fisherman's thighs. 水没到了渔夫的大腿。 来自《简明英汉词典》
58 shudder JEqy8     
v.战粟,震动,剧烈地摇晃;n.战粟,抖动
参考例句:
  • The sight of the coffin sent a shudder through him.看到那副棺材,他浑身一阵战栗。
  • We all shudder at the thought of the dreadful dirty place.我们一想到那可怕的肮脏地方就浑身战惊。
59 utterly ZfpzM1     
adv.完全地,绝对地
参考例句:
  • Utterly devoted to the people,he gave his life in saving his patients.他忠于人民,把毕生精力用于挽救患者的生命。
  • I was utterly ravished by the way she smiled.她的微笑使我完全陶醉了。
60 incapable w9ZxK     
adj.无能力的,不能做某事的
参考例句:
  • He would be incapable of committing such a cruel deed.他不会做出这么残忍的事。
  • Computers are incapable of creative thought.计算机不会创造性地思维。
61 yearning hezzPJ     
a.渴望的;向往的;怀念的
参考例句:
  • a yearning for a quiet life 对宁静生活的向往
  • He felt a great yearning after his old job. 他对过去的工作有一种强烈的渴想。
62 compassionate PXPyc     
adj.有同情心的,表示同情的
参考例句:
  • She is a compassionate person.她是一个有同情心的人。
  • The compassionate judge gave the young offender a light sentence.慈悲的法官从轻判处了那个年轻罪犯。
63 slippers oiPzHV     
n. 拖鞋
参考例句:
  • a pair of slippers 一双拖鞋
  • He kicked his slippers off and dropped on to the bed. 他踢掉了拖鞋,倒在床上。
64 inevitable 5xcyq     
adj.不可避免的,必然发生的
参考例句:
  • Mary was wearing her inevitable large hat.玛丽戴着她总是戴的那顶大帽子。
  • The defeat had inevitable consequences for British policy.战败对英国政策不可避免地产生了影响。
65 miserably zDtxL     
adv.痛苦地;悲惨地;糟糕地;极度地
参考例句:
  • The little girl was wailing miserably. 那小女孩难过得号啕大哭。
  • It was drizzling, and miserably cold and damp. 外面下着毛毛细雨,天气又冷又湿,令人难受。 来自《简明英汉词典》
66 miserable g18yk     
adj.悲惨的,痛苦的;可怜的,糟糕的
参考例句:
  • It was miserable of you to make fun of him.你取笑他,这是可耻的。
  • Her past life was miserable.她过去的生活很苦。
67 infinitely 0qhz2I     
adv.无限地,无穷地
参考例句:
  • There is an infinitely bright future ahead of us.我们有无限光明的前途。
  • The universe is infinitely large.宇宙是无限大的。
68 sobbing df75b14f92e64fc9e1d7eaf6dcfc083a     
<主方>Ⅰ adj.湿透的
参考例句:
  • I heard a child sobbing loudly. 我听见有个孩子在呜呜地哭。
  • Her eyes were red with recent sobbing. 她的眼睛因刚哭过而发红。
69 cynically 3e178b26da70ce04aff3ac920973009f     
adv.爱嘲笑地,冷笑地
参考例句:
  • "Holding down the receiver,'said Daisy cynically. “挂上话筒在讲。”黛西冷嘲热讽地说。 来自英汉文学 - 盖茨比
  • The Democrats sensibly (if cynically) set about closing the God gap. 民主党在明智(有些讽刺)的减少宗教引起的问题。 来自互联网
70 arid JejyB     
adj.干旱的;(土地)贫瘠的
参考例句:
  • These trees will shield off arid winds and protect the fields.这些树能挡住旱风,保护农田。
  • There are serious problems of land degradation in some arid zones.在一些干旱地带存在严重的土地退化问题。
71 humbly humbly     
adv. 恭顺地,谦卑地
参考例句:
  • We humbly beg Your Majesty to show mercy. 我们恳请陛下发发慈悲。
  • "You must be right, Sir,'said John humbly. “你一定是对的,先生,”约翰恭顺地说道。
72 underneath VKRz2     
adj.在...下面,在...底下;adv.在下面
参考例句:
  • Working underneath the car is always a messy job.在汽车底下工作是件脏活。
  • She wore a coat with a dress underneath.她穿着一件大衣,里面套着一条连衣裙。
73 veneer eLczw     
n.(墙上的)饰面,虚饰
参考例句:
  • For the first time her veneer of politeness began to crack.她温文尔雅的外表第一次露出破绽。
  • The panel had a veneer of gold and ivory.这木板上面镶饰了一层金和象牙。
74 generosity Jf8zS     
n.大度,慷慨,慷慨的行为
参考例句:
  • We should match their generosity with our own.我们应该像他们一样慷慨大方。
  • We adore them for their generosity.我们钦佩他们的慷慨。
75 fascination FlHxO     
n.令人着迷的事物,魅力,迷恋
参考例句:
  • He had a deep fascination with all forms of transport.他对所有的运输工具都很着迷。
  • His letters have been a source of fascination to a wide audience.广大观众一直迷恋于他的来信。
76 advertising 1zjzi3     
n.广告业;广告活动 a.广告的;广告业务的
参考例句:
  • Can you give me any advice on getting into advertising? 你能指点我如何涉足广告业吗?
  • The advertising campaign is aimed primarily at young people. 这个广告宣传运动主要是针对年轻人的。
77 prominence a0Mzw     
n.突出;显著;杰出;重要
参考例句:
  • He came to prominence during the World Cup in Italy.他在意大利的世界杯赛中声名鹊起。
  • This young fashion designer is rising to prominence.这位年轻的时装设计师的声望越来越高。
78 gasping gasping     
adj. 气喘的, 痉挛的 动词gasp的现在分词
参考例句:
  • He was gasping for breath. 他在喘气。
  • "Did you need a drink?""Yes, I'm gasping!” “你要喝点什么吗?”“我巴不得能喝点!”
79 disarm 0uax2     
v.解除武装,回复平常的编制,缓和
参考例句:
  • The world has waited 12 years for Iraq to disarm. 全世界等待伊拉克解除武装已有12年之久。
  • He has rejected every peaceful opportunity offered to him to disarm.他已经拒绝了所有能和平缴械的机会。
80 opposition eIUxU     
n.反对,敌对
参考例句:
  • The party leader is facing opposition in his own backyard.该党领袖在自己的党內遇到了反对。
  • The police tried to break down the prisoner's opposition.警察设法制住了那个囚犯的反抗。
81 effrontery F8xyC     
n.厚颜无耻
参考例句:
  • This is a despicable fraud . Just imagine that he has the effrontery to say it.这是一个可耻的骗局. 他竟然有脸说这样的话。
  • One could only gasp at the sheer effrontery of the man.那人十足的厚颜无耻让人们吃惊得无话可说。
82 presumptions 4bb6e62cc676264509a05ec20d1312e4     
n.假定( presumption的名词复数 );认定;推定;放肆
参考例句:
  • Much modern technological advance is based on these presumptions of legal security. 许多现代技术的发展都是基于这些法律安全设想的考虑。 来自互联网
  • What visions, what expectations and what presumptions can outsoar that flight? 那一种想象,那一种期望和推测能超越他之上呢? 来自互联网
83 affront pKvy6     
n./v.侮辱,触怒
参考例句:
  • Your behaviour is an affront to public decency.你的行为有伤风化。
  • This remark caused affront to many people.这句话得罪了不少人。
84 embroidery Wjkz7     
n.绣花,刺绣;绣制品
参考例句:
  • This exquisite embroidery won people's great admiration.这件精美的绣品,使人惊叹不已。
  • This is Jane's first attempt at embroidery.这是简第一次试着绣花。
85 melancholic 8afee07d8cc5d828bed0ce37516c1a84     
忧郁症患者
参考例句:
  • A absurd tragedy accompany a melancholic song by the Tiger Lillies. 一出荒诞的悲剧,在泰戈莱利斯犹豫的歌声中缓缓上演。
  • I have never heard her sing a melancholic song. 我从来没有听她唱过忧伤的曲子。
86 attentive pOKyB     
adj.注意的,专心的;关心(别人)的,殷勤的
参考例句:
  • She was very attentive to her guests.她对客人招待得十分周到。
  • The speaker likes to have an attentive audience.演讲者喜欢注意力集中的听众。
87 aloof wxpzN     
adj.远离的;冷淡的,漠不关心的
参考例句:
  • Never stand aloof from the masses.千万不可脱离群众。
  • On the evening the girl kept herself timidly aloof from the crowd.这小女孩在晚会上一直胆怯地远离人群。
88 forth Hzdz2     
adv.向前;向外,往外
参考例句:
  • The wind moved the trees gently back and forth.风吹得树轻轻地来回摇晃。
  • He gave forth a series of works in rapid succession.他很快连续发表了一系列的作品。
89 begrudges c8126d39bee0c2cd39e4739f3a238d25     
嫉妒( begrudge的第三人称单数 ); 勉强做; 不乐意地付出; 吝惜
参考例句:
  • No one begrudges to help her. 没有不乐意帮助她的。
  • Nobody begrudges you your success. 没有人忌妒你的成功。
90 isolation 7qMzTS     
n.隔离,孤立,分解,分离
参考例句:
  • The millionaire lived in complete isolation from the outside world.这位富翁过着与世隔绝的生活。
  • He retired and lived in relative isolation.他退休后,生活比较孤寂。
91 conformity Hpuz9     
n.一致,遵从,顺从
参考例句:
  • Was his action in conformity with the law?他的行动是否合法?
  • The plan was made in conformity with his views.计划仍按他的意见制定。
92 soothing soothing     
adj.慰藉的;使人宽心的;镇静的
参考例句:
  • Put on some nice soothing music.播放一些柔和舒缓的音乐。
  • His casual, relaxed manner was very soothing.他随意而放松的举动让人很快便平静下来。
93 poignantly ca9ab097e4c5dac69066957c74ed5da6     
参考例句:
  • His story is told poignantly in the film, A Beautiful Mind, now showing here. 以他的故事拍成的电影《美丽境界》,正在本地上映。
94 gratitude p6wyS     
adj.感激,感谢
参考例句:
  • I have expressed the depth of my gratitude to him.我向他表示了深切的谢意。
  • She could not help her tears of gratitude rolling down her face.她感激的泪珠禁不住沿着面颊流了下来。
95 lighting CpszPL     
n.照明,光线的明暗,舞台灯光
参考例句:
  • The gas lamp gradually lost ground to electric lighting.煤气灯逐渐为电灯所代替。
  • The lighting in that restaurant is soft and romantic.那个餐馆照明柔和而且浪漫。
96 curiously 3v0zIc     
adv.有求知欲地;好问地;奇特地
参考例句:
  • He looked curiously at the people.他好奇地看着那些人。
  • He took long stealthy strides. His hands were curiously cold.他迈着悄没声息的大步。他的双手出奇地冷。
97 abeyance vI5y6     
n.搁置,缓办,中止,产权未定
参考例句:
  • The question is in abeyance until we know more about it.问题暂时搁置,直到我们了解更多有关情况再行研究。
  • The law was held in abeyance for well over twenty years.这项法律被搁置了二十多年。
98 craving zvlz3e     
n.渴望,热望
参考例句:
  • a craving for chocolate 非常想吃巧克力
  • She skipped normal meals to satisfy her craving for chocolate and crisps. 她不吃正餐,以便满足自己吃巧克力和炸薯片的渴望。
99 potent C1uzk     
adj.强有力的,有权势的;有效力的
参考例句:
  • The medicine had a potent effect on your disease.这药物对你的病疗效很大。
  • We must account of his potent influence.我们必须考虑他的强有力的影响。
100 passionately YmDzQ4     
ad.热烈地,激烈地
参考例句:
  • She could hate as passionately as she could love. 她能恨得咬牙切齿,也能爱得一往情深。
  • He was passionately addicted to pop music. 他酷爱流行音乐。
101 frenzy jQbzs     
n.疯狂,狂热,极度的激动
参考例句:
  • He was able to work the young students up into a frenzy.他能激起青年学生的狂热。
  • They were singing in a frenzy of joy.他们欣喜若狂地高声歌唱。
102 erect 4iLzm     
n./v.树立,建立,使竖立;adj.直立的,垂直的
参考例句:
  • She held her head erect and her back straight.她昂着头,把背挺得笔直。
  • Soldiers are trained to stand erect.士兵们训练站得笔直。
103 plaintive z2Xz1     
adj.可怜的,伤心的
参考例句:
  • Her voice was small and plaintive.她的声音微弱而哀伤。
  • Somewhere in the audience an old woman's voice began plaintive wail.观众席里,一位老太太伤心地哭起来。
104 witty GMmz0     
adj.机智的,风趣的
参考例句:
  • Her witty remarks added a little salt to the conversation.她的妙语使谈话增添了一些风趣。
  • He scored a bull's-eye in their argument with that witty retort.在他们的辩论中他那一句机智的反驳击中了要害。
105 arrogant Jvwz5     
adj.傲慢的,自大的
参考例句:
  • You've got to get rid of your arrogant ways.你这骄傲劲儿得好好改改。
  • People are waking up that he is arrogant.人们开始认识到他很傲慢。
106 stimulate wuSwL     
vt.刺激,使兴奋;激励,使…振奋
参考例句:
  • Your encouragement will stimulate me to further efforts.你的鼓励会激发我进一步努力。
  • Success will stimulate the people for fresh efforts.成功能鼓舞人们去作新的努力。
107 joyful N3Fx0     
adj.欢乐的,令人欢欣的
参考例句:
  • She was joyful of her good result of the scientific experiments.她为自己的科学实验取得好成果而高兴。
  • They were singing and dancing to celebrate this joyful occasion.他们唱着、跳着庆祝这令人欢乐的时刻。
108 stimulus 3huyO     
n.刺激,刺激物,促进因素,引起兴奋的事物
参考例句:
  • Regard each failure as a stimulus to further efforts.把每次失利看成对进一步努力的激励。
  • Light is a stimulus to growth in plants.光是促进植物生长的一个因素。
109 depressed xu8zp9     
adj.沮丧的,抑郁的,不景气的,萧条的
参考例句:
  • When he was depressed,he felt utterly divorced from reality.他心情沮丧时就感到完全脱离了现实。
  • His mother was depressed by the sad news.这个坏消息使他的母亲意志消沉。
110 irritable LRuzn     
adj.急躁的;过敏的;易怒的
参考例句:
  • He gets irritable when he's got toothache.他牙一疼就很容易发脾气。
  • Our teacher is an irritable old lady.She gets angry easily.我们的老师是位脾气急躁的老太太。她很容易生气。


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