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Chapter 23
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The hot weather of July had crept upon them unawares, and the atmosphere of the flat vale hung heavy as an opiate over the dairy-folk, the cows, and the trees. Hot steaming rains fell frequently, making the grass where the cows fed yet more rank, and hindering the late haymaking in the other meads.

It was Sunday morning; the milking was done; the outdoor milkers had gone home. Tess and the other three were dressing1 themselves rapidly, the whole bevy2 having agreed to go together to Mellstock Church, which lay some three or four miles distant from the dairy-house. She had now been two months at Talbothays, and this was her first excursion.

All the preceding afternoon and night heavy thunderstorms had hissed3 down upon the meads, and washed some of the hay into the river; but this morning the sun shone out all the more brilliantly for the deluge4, and the air was balmy and clear.

The crooked5 lane leading from their own parish to Mellstock ran along the lowest levels in a portion of its length, and when the girls reached the most depressed6 spot they found that the result of the rain had been to flood the lane over-shoe to a distance of some fifty yards. This would have been no serious hindrance7 on a week-day; they would have clicked through it in their high pattens and boots quite unconcerned; but on this day of vanity, this Sun's-day, when flesh went forth8 to coquet with flesh while hypocritically affecting business with spiritual things; on this occasion for wearing their white stockings and thin shoes, and their pink, white, and lilac gowns, on which every mud spot would be visible, the pool was an awkward impediment. They could hear the church-bell calling - as yet nearly a mile off.

`Who would have expected such a rise in the river in summertime!' said Marian, from the top of the roadside-bank on which they had climbed, and were maintaining a precarious9 footing in the hope of creeping along its slope till they were past the pool.

`We can't get there anyhow, without walking right through it, or else going round the Turnpike way; and that would make us so very late!' said Retty, pausing hopelessly.

`And I do colour up so hot, walking into church late, and all the people staring round,' said Marian,' that I hardly cool down again till we get into the That-it-may-please-Thees.'

While they stood clinging to the bank they heard a splashing round the bend of the road, and presently appeared Angel Clare, advancing along the lane towards them through the water.

Four hearts gave a big throb10 simultaneously11.

His aspect was probably as un-Sabbatarian a one as a dogmatic parson's son often presented; his attire12 being his dairy clothes, long wading13 boots, a cabbage-leaf inside his hat to keep his head cool, with a thistle-spud to finish him off.

`He's not going to church,' said Marian.

`No - I wish he was!' murmured Tess.

Angel, in fact, rightly or wrongly (to adopt the safe phrase of evasive controversialists), preferred sermons in stones to sermons in churches and chapels14 on fine summer days. This morning, moreover, he had gone out to see if the damage to the hay by the flood was considerable or not. On his walk he observed the girls from a long distance, though they had been so occupied with their difficulties of passage as not to notice him. He knew that the water had risen at that spot, and that it would quite check their progress. So he had hastened on, with a dim idea of how he could help them - one of them in particular.

The rosy-cheeked, bright-eyed quartet looked so charming in their light summer attire, clinging to the roadside bank like pigeons on a roof-slope, that he stopped a moment to regard them before coming close. Their gauzy skirts had brushed up from the grass innumerable files and butterflies which, unable to escape, remained caged in the transparent15 tissue as in an aviary16. Angel's eye at last fell upon Tess, the hindmost of the four; she, being full of suppressed laughter at their dilemma17, could not help meeting his glance radiantly.

He came beneath them in the water, which did not rise over his long boots; and stood looking at the entrapped18 flies and butterflies.

`Are you trying to get to church?' he said to Marian, who was in front, including the next two in his remark, but avoiding Tess.

`Yes, sir; and 'tis getting late; and my colour do come up so--'

`I'll carry you through the pool - every Jill of you.'

The whole four flushed as if one heart beat through them.

`I think you can't, sir,' said Marian.

`It is the only way for you to get past. Stand still. Nonsense - you are not too heavy! I'd carry you all four together. Now, Marian, attend,' he continued, `and put your arms round my shoulders, so. Now! Hold on. That's well done.'

Marian had lowered herself upon his arm and shoulder as directed, and Angel strode off with her, his slim figure, as viewed from behind, looking like the mere19 stem to the great nosegay suggested by hers. They disappeared round the curve of the road, and only his sousing footsteps and the top ribbon of Marian's bonnet20 told where they were. In a few minutes he reappeared. Izz Huett was the next in order upon the bank.

`Here he comes,' she murmured, and they could hear that her lips were dry with emotion. `And I have to put my arms round his neck and look into his face as Marian did.'

`There's nothing in that,' said Tess quickly.

`There's a time for everything,' continued Izz, unheeding. `A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; the first is now going to be mine.'

`Fie - it is Scripture21, Izz!'

`Yes,' said Izz, `I've always a' ear at church for pretty verses.' Angel Clare, to whom three-quarters of this performance was a commonplace act of kindness, now approached Izz. She quietly and dreamily lowered herself into his arms, and Angel methodically marched off with her. When he was heard returning for the third time Retty's throbbing22 heart could be almost seen to shake her. He went up to the red-haired girl, and while he was seizing her he glanced at Tess. His lips could not have pronounced more plainly, `It will soon be you and J.' Her comprehension appeared in her face; she could not help it. There was an understanding between them.

Poor little Retty, though by far the lightest weight, was the most troublesome of Clare's burdens. Marian had been like a sack of meal, a dead weight of plumpness under which he had literally24 staggered. Izz had ridden sensibly and calmly. Retty was a bunch of hysterics.

However, he got through with the disquieted25 creature, deposited her, and returned. Tess could see over the hedge the distant three in a group, standing23 as he had placed them on the next rising ground. It was now her turn. She was embarrassed to discover that excitement at the proximity26 of Mr Clare's breath and eyes, which she had contemned27 in her companions, was intensified28 in herself; and as if fearful of betraying her secret she pattered with him at the last moment.

`I may be able to clim' along the bank perhaps - I can clim' better than they. You must be so tired, Mr Clare!'

`No, no, Tess,' said he quickly. And almost before she was aware she was seated in his arms and resting against his shoulder.

`Three Leahs to get one Rachel,' he whispered.

`They are better women than I,' she replied, magnanimously sticking to her resolve.

`Not to me,' said Angel.

He saw her grow warm at this; and they went some steps in silence.

`I hope I am not too heavy?' she said timidly. `O no. You should lift Marian! Such a lump. You are like an undulating billow warmed by the sun. And all this fluff of muslin about you is the froth.'

`It is very pretty - if I seem like that to you.'

`Do you know that I have undergone three-quarters of this labour entirely29 for the sake of the fourth quarter?'

`No.'

`I did not expect such an event to-day.'

`Nor I... The water came up so sudden.'

That the rise in the water was what she understood him to refer to, the state of her breathing belied30. Clare stood still and inclined his face towards hers.

`O Tessy!' he exclaimed.

The girl's cheeks burned to the breeze, and she could not look into his eyes for her emotion. It reminded Angel that he was somewhat unfairly taking advantage of an accidental position; and he went no further with it. No definite words of love had crossed their lips as yet, and suspension at this point was desirable now. However, he walked slowly, to make the remainder of the distance as long as possible; but at last they came to the bend, and the rest of their progress was in full view of the other three. The dry land was reached, and he set her down.

Her friends were looking with round thoughtful eyes at her and him, and she could see that they had been talking of her. He hastily bade them farewell, and splashed back along the stretch of submerged road.

The four moved on together as before, till Marian broke the silence by saying--

`No - in all truth; we have no chance against her!' She looked joylessly at Tess.

`What do you mean?' asked the latter.

`He likes 'ee best - the very best! We could see it as he brought 'ee. He would have kissed 'ee, if you had encouraged him to do it, ever so little.'

`No, no,' said she.

The gaiety with which they had set out had somehow vanished; and yet there was no enmity or malice31 between them. They were generous young souls; they had been reared in the lonely country nooks where fatalism is a strong sentiment, and they did not blame her. Such supplanting32 was to be.

Tess's heart ached. There was no concealing33 from herself the fact that she loved Angel Clare, perhaps all the more passionately34 from knowing that the others had also lost their hearts to him. There is contagion35 in this sentiment, especially among women. And yet that same hungry heart of hers compassionated36 her friends. Tess's honest nature had fought against this, but too feebly, and the natural result had followed.

`I will never stand in your way, nor in the way of either of you!' she declared to Retty that night in the bedroom (her tears running down). `I can't help this, my dear! I don't think marrying is in his mind at all; but if he were even to ask me I should refuse him, as I should refuse any man.'

`Oh! would you? Why?' said wondering Retty.

`It cannot be! But I will be plain. Putting myself quite on one side, I don't think he will choose either of you.'

`I have never expected it - thought of it!'moaned Retty. `But O! I wish I was dead!'

The poor child, torn by a feeling which she hardly understood, turned to the other two girls who came upstairs just then.

`We be friends with her again,' she said to them. `She thinks no more of his choosing her than we do.'

So the reserve went off, and they were confiding37 and warm.

`I don't seem to care what I do now,' said Marian, whose mood was tuned38 to its lowest bass39. `I was going to marry a dairyman at Stickleford, who's asked me twice; but - my soul - I would put an end to myself rather'n be his wife now! Why don't ye speak, Izz?'

`To confess, then,' murmured Izz, `I made sure to-day that he was going to kiss me as he held me; and I lay still against his breast, hoping and hoping, and never moved at all. But he did not. I don't like biding40 here at Talbotbays any longer! I shall go hwome.'

The air of the sleeping-chamber seemed to palpitate with the hopeless passion of the girls. They writhed41 feverishly42 under the oppressiveness of an emotion thrust on them by cruel Nature's law - an emotion which they had neither expected nor desired. The incident of the day had fanned the flame that was burning the inside of their hearts out, and the torture was almost more than they could endure. The differences which distinguished43 them as individuals were abstracted by this passion, and each was but portion of one organism called sex. There was so much frankness and so little jealousy44 because there was no hope. Each one was a girl of fair common sense, and she did not delude45 herself with any vain conceits46, or deny her love, or give herself airs, in the idea of outshining the others. The full recognition of the futility47 of their infatuation, from a social point of view; its purposeless beginning; its self-bounded outlook; its lack of everything to justify48 its existence in the eye of civilization (while lacking nothing in the eye of Nature); the one fact that it did exist, ecstasizing them to a killing49 joy; all this imparted to them a resignation, a dignity, which a practical and sordid50 expectation of winning him as a husband would have destroyed.

They tossed and turned on their little beds, and the cheese-wring dripped monotonously51 downstairs.

`B' you awake, Tess?' whispered one, half-an-hour later.

It was Izz Huett's voice.

Tess replied in the affirmative, whereupon also Retty and Marian suddenly flung the bedclothes off them, and sighed--

`So be we!'

`I wonder what she is like - the lady they say his family have looked out for him!'

`I wonder,' said Izz.

`Some lady looked out for him?' gasped52 Tess, starting. `I have never heard o' that!'

`O yes--'tis whispered; a young lady of his own rank, chosen by his family; a Doctor of Divinity's daughter near his father's parish of Emminster; he don't much care for her, they say. But he is sure to marry her.'

They had heard so very little of this; yet it was enough to build up wretched dolorous53 dreams upon, there in the shade of the night. They pictured all the details of his being won round to consent, of the wedding preparations, of the bride's happiness, of her dress and veil, of her blissful home with him, when oblivion would have fallen upon themselves as far as he and their love were concerned. Thus they talked, and ached, and wept till sleep charmed their sorrow away.

After this disclosure Tess nourished no further foolish thought that there lurked54 any grave and deliberate import in Clare's attentions to her. It was a passing summer love of her face, for love's own temporary sake - nothing more. And the thorny55 crown of this sad conception was that she whom he really did prefer in a cursory56 way to the rest, she who knew herself to be more impassioned in nature, cleverer, more beautiful than they, was in the eyes of propriety57 far less worthy58 of him than the homelier ones whom he ignored.
 

  七月的炎热天气在不知不觉中来到了人们身边,平坦山谷中的大气好像麻醉剂一样,既沉重又沉闷,笼罩着奶牛场的人们、奶牛和树木。热气腾腾的绵绵大雨,使得供奶牛放牧的牧草长得更加茂盛了,但是也妨碍了其它牧场上晚期收割牧草的工作。
  那是一个礼拜天的早晨;牛奶已经挤完了;住在场外的挤奶工人也回家了。梅尔斯托克教堂离奶牛场大约有三四英里远近,苔丝和另外三个挤奶的女工已经商量好了,打算一块儿去那儿作礼拜,所以她们就迅速换好了衣服。到现在为止,苔丝来泰波塞斯已经两个月了,这还是她第一次出门去玩。在头一天的整个下午和晚上,雷阵雨哗哗地倾倒在牧场上,牧场上有些干草也被冲进河里去了;但是今天早上,大地经过雨水的冲洗,太阳照射在牧场上,显得更加明亮,空气清新而芬芳。
  从她们的教区通往梅尔斯托克的那条弯弯曲曲的小路,有一段是沿着谷中最低洼的地方通过的。那几个姑娘走到那段最低洼的地方时,发现大雨过后有一段大约五十码长的路面被淹没了,积水深过脚面。在平常的日子里,这并不是什么大不了的障碍;她们都是穿的高底木头套鞋和靴子,可以满不在乎地从水中蹚过去;但是这天是礼拜天,是她们抛头露面的日子,她们口头说的是去进行精神上的陶冶,而实际上是去进行肉体征服肉体的谈情说爱;这个时候她们都会穿上白色的袜子和轻俏的鞋,有的穿粉红的连衣裙,有的穿白色的连衣裙,有的穿淡紫色的连衣裙,只要上面溅上了一点儿泥都能被人看见;这片水塘把她们挡住了,叫她们犯了难。她们能够听见教堂的钟声已经敲响了——可是她们差不多还在一英里路以外。
  “谁能够想到在夏天这条河里还会涨这样大的水呢!”玛丽安说,她们已经爬到了路边的坡顶上,犹豫不定地站在那儿,希望沿着山坡爬过去,绕过那个水塘。“如果不从水里蹚过去,或者另外从征收通行税的路上绕过去,我们是过不了这个水塘的;要是绕过去的话,我们一定很晚才能到!”莱蒂毫无办法地站在那儿说。
  “我们要是进教堂晚了,让所有的人看着,我一定要难堪不过的。”玛丽安说,“不等到‘求主这个,求主那个’的时候,我是恢复不过来的。”
  正当她们挤在斜坡上站着的时候,她们听见了路边拐弯的地方传来一阵水声,接着安琪尔·克莱尔就在眼前出现了,他正在水中沿着那条被水淹的小路走来。
  她们四个人的心脏都不约而同地猛跳了一下。
  他的外表不像是过礼拜的,这大概是那个严守教条的牧师教育出来的儿子的样子吧;他穿的衣服还是在奶牛场挤奶时穿的衣服,脚上穿着走泥泞道路的靴子,帽子里面还塞了一片卷心菜叶,以保持头部的凉爽,手里拿一把小草铲,这就是他全身的装束。
  “他不是上教堂去的,”玛丽安说。
  “不是的——但我希望他是上教堂去的!”苔丝低声说。
  实际上,对也好错也罢(借用巧舌如簧的辩论家的话),在夏季天气晴朗的日子里,安琪尔与其说在大小教堂里听人讲道,不如说是在大自然里接受教训。而且这天早晨,他还出门去了解过洪水冲走干草是不是带来了巨大的损失。他在路上老远就望见了那几个姑娘们,尽管她们把心思集中在途中的困难上而没有注意到他。他知道那个地点的水位已经升高了,也知道那片积水完全有可能成为她们路上的障碍。所以,他就急急忙忙地赶来,心里模模糊糊地想着怎样才能帮助她们——尤其是要帮助她们中间的某一个人。
  四个姑娘的面颊红扑扑的,明亮的大眼睛水汪汪的,身穿轻盈的夏装站在路边的土坡上,就像鸽子挤在屋脊上一样,看上去是那样迷人,因此他在走到她们跟前之前,就停下来把她们端详了一番。姑娘们穿着细纱长裙,长裙的下摆从草丛中赶出来无数的飞虫和蝴蝶,它们被关在透明的裙摆之中飞不出来,就像关在笼中的小鸟一样。安琪尔的眼光终于落在了苔丝的身上。苔丝站在四人队伍的最后,正为她们进退两难而忍不住要笑的时候,接触到他的目光,不禁变得容光焕发。
  积水不比安琪尔的靴子深,他就从水中走到了她们的下边;他站在那儿,看着网罗在长裙中的飞虫和蝴蝶。
  “你们是想去教堂吗?”他对站在最前面的玛丽安说,说话里也包括了后面的两个,但是却把苔丝排除在外。
  “是的,先生;已经这么晚了;我一定会难堪死了——”
  “我来把你们抱过这个水塘吧——我把你们一个一个地抱过去。”
  四个姑娘的脸一起都变红了,仿佛在她们胸膛里跳动的是一颗心。
  “我想你抱不动的,先生,”玛丽安说。
  “你们要过去,这是唯一的办法了。站着别动。瞎说——你们不会太重的!我能够把你们四个人一起抱起来。好了,玛丽女,你来吧,”他接着说,“把你的胳膊伸过来,抱着我的肩膀,就这样。好啦!抱紧。你做得很好。”
  玛丽安按照克莱尔的吩咐,伏在他的肩上,让他用胳膊抱着走过去,他的身材又高又瘦,从后面看过去,就好像一根花枝,抱着的玛丽安就像是上面的一束鲜花。他们走到路上拐弯的地方不见了,但是从传过来的他们在水中走路的声音和玛丽安帽子上露出来的丝带,可以知道他们走到了哪儿。不一会儿他就回来了。按照她们站在斜坡上的顺序,伊茨·休特是第二个。
  “他回来了,”伊茨·休特低声说,她们听得出来,她的嘴唇已经被感情烧干了。“我也要和玛丽安一样,用胳膊搂着他的脖子,对着他的脸。”
  “那也没有什么呀,”苔丝急忙说。
  “什么事都是有定数的,”伊茨没有听到苔丝说话,接着说。“拥抱有定数,不拥抱也有定数;现在我拥抱的时候来了。”①
  
  ①参见《圣经·传道书》第三章。
  “喂——那是《圣经》中的话呀,伊茨!”
  “不错,”伊茨说,“在教堂里,我总是喜欢这些漂亮的诗句。”
  安琪尔·克莱尔现在走到了伊茨的面前,不过在他的这番举动里,有四分之三是出于一种帮忙的性质。伊茨一声不响地朦朦胧胧地伏到克莱尔的肩上,克莱尔机械地把她抱起来走了。当莱蒂听见他第三次转回来时,她那一颗心怦怦地跳着,把她激动得差不多都摇晃起来了。克莱尔走到这个长着红头发的姑娘面前,在他把她抱起来时,他看了苔丝一眼。他不能够用嘴巴把话更明白地说出来。“一会儿就只剩下你和我了。”她脸上的表情说明她理解了他的意思;她有些喜形于色。他们都能善解人意。
  可怜的小莱蒂尽管身子最轻,但是抱着她却最麻烦。玛丽安胖乎乎的一堆死肉,好像一口袋粮食,几乎都把克莱尔给压倒了。伊茨很懂事,靠在他的肩上一动也不动。莱蒂却是歇斯底里的一团。
  不过,他还是把这个不安静的姑娘抱过了水塘,把她放在地上,转身走了,苔丝从树篱的顶上望过去,看见远处她们三个人挤在一起,站在他把她们放下的那块高地上,现在轮到她了。苔丝心里感到局促不安,因为她看见她的伙伴们接近克莱尔的呼吸和眼睛时那样激动,曾经嗤之以鼻,而现在却轮到她自己紧张了;她好像是害怕泄露了自己心中的秘密似的,到了最后一刻竟然推托搪塞起来。
  “也许我能够沿着这面土坡走过去——走路我比她们强得多。你一定太累了,克莱尔先生!”
  “不,不,苔丝,”克莱尔急忙说。苔丝几乎在不知不觉当中倒进了他的怀里,靠在了他的肩上。
  “娶三个利亚只是为了得到一个拉结呀!”①他轻声说。
  “她们都是比我强的女孩子呀,”她回答说,说话里仍然很慷慨地坚持着自己心中要成全她们的决定。
  
  ①《旧约·创世纪》第二十八章说,以撒吩咐雅各到外祖家去,在拉班的三个女儿中娶一个为妻。第二十九章接着说,雅各为拉班工作了七年,拉班把大女儿利亚(Leah)和使女兹尔巴许配给他,但雅各为了得到拉班的小女儿拉结(Rachel),又为拉班工作了七年。

  “在我看来不是这样的,”安琪尔说。
  他看见她听了他说的话脸上一红;就抱着她往前走了几步,没有说话。
  “但愿我不要太重才好?”她羞怯地问。
  “啊,不重。你试试玛丽安就知道!她是那样重的一堆肉呢。你却像阳光照耀下上下起伏的一片波浪。你身上穿的这件细纱衣裳,就是从波浪里飞出来的浪花。”
  “这真让人高兴——要是你觉得我真像波浪的话。”
  “我在前面出的四分之三的力气完全是为了后面这四分之一的缘故呀。你知道吗?”
  “不知道。”
  “我真没有想到今天会碰到这件事。”
  “我也没有想到……水是突然上涨的。”
  她嘴里说着水涨了的话,但是她明白他说的话里面的意思,因此她的呼吸把她的真情泄漏了。克莱尔静静地站着,把自己的脸朝向她的脸。
  “啊,苔丝!”他感叹地说。
  苔丝姑娘的面颊在微风中烧得发烫,情感荡漾,不敢再看他的眼睛了。安琪尔这时也想到,他利用这个偶然得来的优势有些不公平;他因此就不再迈她了。他们口中虽然没有明白地把他们的情话说出来,但是他们却希望现在就适可而止。但是,他走得很慢,尽量把抱着她走路的时间延长;不过他们最后还是走到了拐弯的地方,剩下的一段路就完全暴露在另外三个姑娘的眼中了。他们走到了干燥的地面,克莱尔把苔丝放了下来。
  苔丝的朋友们把眼睛睁得圆圆的,带着深思,看着她和安琪尔,她也看得出来她们一直在议论她。他急急忙忙地向她们告了别,又沿着被水淹没的道路哗哗地走了回去。
  四个姑娘又像以前一样往前走了,后来玛丽安打破沉默说——
  “不——不管怎么说;我们没有办法比过她!”她神情沮丧地看着苔丝说。
  “你这话什么意思?”苔丝问。
  “他最喜欢你呀——他最最喜欢你呀!他抱你过来时我们都看见啦。要是你给他一点点儿鼓励,只要很小一点儿,他就一定吻过你了。”
  “没有的事,没有的事。”她说。
  她们一块儿出门时的欢乐情绪也不知道怎么消失了;但是在她们中间并没有仇恨和恶意。她们都是纯朴的年轻女孩子;她们都生长在偏僻的农村里,都非常相信宿命论的思想,所以谁也没有恨她。她们是无法取代苔丝的。
  苔丝心里头很难过。她无法掩盖自己已经爱上了安琪尔·克莱尔的事实,也许,她在知道其他几个姑娘也倾心于他的时候,她爱他就爱得更加强烈了。这种情绪是能够相互传染的,在女孩子中间尤其如此。可是,她那颗同样渴望爱情的心也很同情她的朋友们。苔丝天性极其忠厚,但是要去同爱情搏斗又未免力量太弱小了,所以后来的结果是自然而然的。
  “我决不会妨碍你的,也不会妨碍你们中间任何一个!”当天夜里苔丝在寝室里对莱蒂声明说(说的时候流着眼泪)。“我不能不说,亲爱的!我觉得他心里一点结婚的意思也没有;但是如果他向我求婚,我是会拒绝他的,就像我拒绝其他的人一样。”
  “啊,真的吗?为什么?”莫名其妙的莱蒂问。
  “那是不可能的!不过我得把话说明白。我要把自己完全撇在一边,但是他也不会从你们中间选一个的。”
  “我从来没有这样希望过——也没有这样想过!”莱蒂痛苦地说。“可是,唉!我但愿我已经死了才好。”
  这个可怜的女孩子,被一种连她自己都不明白的感情折磨着,转身面向刚刚上楼的另外两个女孩子。
  “我们跟她还是朋友,”她对她们说。“她觉得他娶她的机会并不比娶我们的多。”
  她们中间的隔阂就这样消除了,又亲亲热热地说起知心话来。
  “我似乎现在做什么都不在乎了,”玛丽安说,她的心情现在低落到了极点。“我要嫁给斯底克福特的一个奶牛场老板了,他已经向我求婚两次了;可是——大啊——我现在宁肯死了也不愿做他的妻子了!你为什么不说话啊,伊茨?”
  “那么我承认,”伊茨小声说,“今天他抱着我走过水塘的时候,我心里想他一定要吻我的;我静静地靠在他的胸膛上,等了又等,一动也不动。但是他没有吻我。我再也不愿意在泰波塞斯住下去了!我要回家去。”
  姑娘们的爱情既然没有了希望,卧室里的气氛也就变得烦躁不安起来。冷酷的自然法则把她们的感情激发出来——这种感情既不是她们想要的,也不是她们情愿的,就是在这种感情的压力下,她们在床上辗转反侧,久久不能入睡。
  白天发生的事已经燃起了火苗,在她们的胸膛里燃烧着,折磨着她们,使她们痛苦得几乎无法忍受了。她们作为个体存在的差别被这种感情消除了,她们每一个人都不过是被称作女人的这种有机体的一部分。因为谁也没有希望,所以她们都是那样坦诚,没有一点儿忌妒。她们每一个人都是明白事理的姑娘,谁也没有想到为了超过别人,就用虚荣的幻想去自欺欺人,或是去否认她们的爱情,或去卖弄风情。从她们的身分地位看,她们完全明白她们的痴情不会有什么结果;这件事从一开始就是没有意义的;是她们自己建立起来的思想观念在作怪;从文明的观点看,她们的爱情根本就没有任何存在的理由(但是从自然的观点看,什么理由也不缺少);事实是,爱情是确实存在的,而且给她们带来的极度喜悦到了销魂蚀魄的程度;所有这一切也使她们产生出一种听天由命和自尊自重的思想,而她们要是真的去争夺他作丈夫,卑鄙地想心思,那么这种态度就会被破坏掉了。
  她们在小床上翻来覆去的,老是睡不着,楼下的奶油榨机里也传来单调的滴答声。
  “你没睡着吧,苔丝?”过了半小时,有一个女孩子低声问。
  那是伊茨·体特的声音。
  苔丝回答说没有睡着,刚一说完,莱蒂和玛丽安也掀开了被单叹着气说——
  “我们也没有睡着呢!”
  “据说他家里给他找了一位小姐——我实在想知道她长的是个什么样子!”
  “我也很想知道,”伊茨说。
  “给他找了一个小姐?”苔丝吃了一惊,急忙问。
  “啊,不错——听人悄悄说的;是一个门户和他相当的小姐,他家里给他找的;是一个神学博士的女儿,离他父亲住的爱敏寺教区不远;他们说他不太喜欢她。不过他肯定是要娶她的。”
  关于这件事,她们知道的就是这样一点点;但是在夜色深沉的晚上,这件事已经足以使她们建立起痛苦和悲哀的遐想。他们想象出所有的细节,想象他怎样被劝说得同意了,想象怎样准备婚礼,想象新娘的快乐,想象新娘的服装和婚纱,想象新娘和他住在一起的幸福之家,而他同她们之间的旧情却被忘得一干二净,她们就这样谈着,痛苦着,直到她们哭着睡着了,才算把忧愁驱散掉。
  在这段新闻透露出来以后,苔丝也就断了痴心妄想的念头,不再以为克莱尔对她的殷勤含有什么严肃郑重的意义了。那只是因为她的美丽而爱她的,就像上在过去的夏季一样,也就是说,他是为了暂时的爱情欢娱而爱她的,此外没有别的。在这种悲伤的想法里,她还戴有一顶荆棘之冠,那就是他对她的暂时爱恋胜于其他的人,而她自己也知道自己在天性方面比她们更热情、更聪明、更美貌,但是从社会礼法的观点看,她却不比被他忽视的不如她美貌的那些人更值得他爱。


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1 dressing 1uOzJG     
n.(食物)调料;包扎伤口的用品,敷料
参考例句:
  • Don't spend such a lot of time in dressing yourself.别花那么多时间来打扮自己。
  • The children enjoy dressing up in mother's old clothes.孩子们喜欢穿上妈妈旧时的衣服玩。
2 bevy UtZzo     
n.一群
参考例句:
  • A bevy of bathing beauties appeared on the beach.沙滩上出现了一群游泳的美女。
  • Look,there comes a bevy of ladies.看,一群女人来了。
3 hissed 2299e1729bbc7f56fc2559e409d6e8a7     
发嘶嘶声( hiss的过去式和过去分词 ); 发嘘声表示反对
参考例句:
  • Have you ever been hissed at in the middle of a speech? 你在演讲中有没有被嘘过?
  • The iron hissed as it pressed the wet cloth. 熨斗压在湿布上时发出了嘶嘶声。
4 deluge a9nyg     
n./vt.洪水,暴雨,使泛滥
参考例句:
  • This little stream can become a deluge when it rains heavily.雨大的时候,这条小溪能变作洪流。
  • I got caught in the deluge on the way home.我在回家的路上遇到倾盆大雨。
5 crooked xvazAv     
adj.弯曲的;不诚实的,狡猾的,不正当的
参考例句:
  • He crooked a finger to tell us to go over to him.他弯了弯手指,示意我们到他那儿去。
  • You have to drive slowly on these crooked country roads.在这些弯弯曲曲的乡间小路上你得慢慢开车。
6 depressed xu8zp9     
adj.沮丧的,抑郁的,不景气的,萧条的
参考例句:
  • When he was depressed,he felt utterly divorced from reality.他心情沮丧时就感到完全脱离了现实。
  • His mother was depressed by the sad news.这个坏消息使他的母亲意志消沉。
7 hindrance AdKz2     
n.妨碍,障碍
参考例句:
  • Now they can construct tunnel systems without hindrance.现在他们可以顺利地建造隧道系统了。
  • The heavy baggage was a great hindrance to me.那件行李成了我的大累赘。
8 forth Hzdz2     
adv.向前;向外,往外
参考例句:
  • The wind moved the trees gently back and forth.风吹得树轻轻地来回摇晃。
  • He gave forth a series of works in rapid succession.他很快连续发表了一系列的作品。
9 precarious Lu5yV     
adj.不安定的,靠不住的;根据不足的
参考例句:
  • Our financial situation had become precarious.我们的财务状况已变得不稳定了。
  • He earned a precarious living as an artist.作为一个艺术家,他过得是朝不保夕的生活。
10 throb aIrzV     
v.震颤,颤动;(急速强烈地)跳动,搏动
参考例句:
  • She felt her heart give a great throb.她感到自己的心怦地跳了一下。
  • The drums seemed to throb in his ears.阵阵鼓声彷佛在他耳边震响。
11 simultaneously 4iBz1o     
adv.同时发生地,同时进行地
参考例句:
  • The radar beam can track a number of targets almost simultaneously.雷达波几乎可以同时追着多个目标。
  • The Windows allow a computer user to execute multiple programs simultaneously.Windows允许计算机用户同时运行多个程序。
12 attire AN0zA     
v.穿衣,装扮[同]array;n.衣着;盛装
参考例句:
  • He had no intention of changing his mode of attire.他无意改变着装方式。
  • Her attention was attracted by his peculiar attire.他那奇特的服装引起了她的注意。
13 wading 0fd83283f7380e84316a66c449c69658     
(从水、泥等)蹚,走过,跋( wade的现在分词 )
参考例句:
  • The man tucked up his trousers for wading. 那人卷起裤子,准备涉水。
  • The children were wading in the sea. 孩子们在海水中走着。
14 chapels 93d40e7c6d7bdd896fdd5dbc901f41b8     
n.小教堂, (医院、监狱等的)附属礼拜堂( chapel的名词复数 );(在小教堂和附属礼拜堂举行的)礼拜仪式
参考例句:
  • Both castles had their own chapels too, which was incredible to see. 两个城堡都有自己的礼拜堂,非常华美。 来自互联网
  • It has an ambulatory and seven chapels. 它有一条走廊和七个小教堂。 来自互联网
15 transparent Smhwx     
adj.明显的,无疑的;透明的
参考例句:
  • The water is so transparent that we can see the fishes swimming.水清澈透明,可以看到鱼儿游来游去。
  • The window glass is transparent.窗玻璃是透明的。
16 aviary TuBzj     
n.大鸟笼,鸟舍
参考例句:
  • There are many different kinds of birds in the aviary.大鸟笼里有很多不同种类的鸟。
  • There was also an aviary full of rare birds.那里面还有装满稀有鸟类的鸟舍。
17 dilemma Vlzzf     
n.困境,进退两难的局面
参考例句:
  • I am on the horns of a dilemma about the matter.这件事使我进退两难。
  • He was thrown into a dilemma.他陷入困境。
18 entrapped eb21b3b8e7dad36e21d322e11b46715d     
v.使陷入圈套,使入陷阱( entrap的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • He was entrapped into undertaking the work. 他受骗而担任那工作。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • He felt he had been entrapped into marrying her. 他觉得和她结婚是上了当。 来自辞典例句
19 mere rC1xE     
adj.纯粹的;仅仅,只不过
参考例句:
  • That is a mere repetition of what you said before.那不过是重复了你以前讲的话。
  • It's a mere waste of time waiting any longer.再等下去纯粹是浪费时间。
20 bonnet AtSzQ     
n.无边女帽;童帽
参考例句:
  • The baby's bonnet keeps the sun out of her eyes.婴孩的帽子遮住阳光,使之不刺眼。
  • She wore a faded black bonnet garnished with faded artificial flowers.她戴着一顶褪了色的黑色无边帽,帽上缀着褪了色的假花。
21 scripture WZUx4     
n.经文,圣书,手稿;Scripture:(常用复数)《圣经》,《圣经》中的一段
参考例句:
  • The scripture states that God did not want us to be alone.圣经指出上帝并不是想让我们独身一人生活。
  • They invoked Hindu scripture to justify their position.他们援引印度教的经文为他们的立场辩护。
22 throbbing 8gMzA0     
a. 跳动的,悸动的
参考例句:
  • My heart is throbbing and I'm shaking. 我的心在猛烈跳动,身子在不住颤抖。
  • There was a throbbing in her temples. 她的太阳穴直跳。
23 standing 2hCzgo     
n.持续,地位;adj.永久的,不动的,直立的,不流动的
参考例句:
  • After the earthquake only a few houses were left standing.地震过后只有几幢房屋还立着。
  • They're standing out against any change in the law.他们坚决反对对法律做任何修改。
24 literally 28Wzv     
adv.照字面意义,逐字地;确实
参考例句:
  • He translated the passage literally.他逐字逐句地翻译这段文字。
  • Sometimes she would not sit down till she was literally faint.有时候,她不走到真正要昏厥了,决不肯坐下来。
25 disquieted e705be49b0a827fe41d115e658e5d697     
v.使不安,使忧虑,使烦恼( disquiet的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • People are disquieted [on tenterhooks]. 人心惶惶。 来自《现代汉英综合大词典》
  • The bad news disquieted him. 恶讯使他焦急不安。 来自《现代英汉综合大词典》
26 proximity 5RsxM     
n.接近,邻近
参考例句:
  • Marriages in proximity of blood are forbidden by the law.法律规定禁止近亲结婚。
  • Their house is in close proximity to ours.他们的房子很接近我们的。
27 contemned cbbd655bf02d98d35983c887b48a49de     
v.侮辱,蔑视( contemn的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
28 intensified 4b3b31dab91d010ec3f02bff8b189d1a     
v.(使)增强, (使)加剧( intensify的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • Violence intensified during the night. 在夜间暴力活动加剧了。
  • The drought has intensified. 旱情加剧了。 来自《简明英汉词典》
29 entirely entirely     
ad.全部地,完整地;完全地,彻底地
参考例句:
  • The fire was entirely caused by their neglect of duty. 那场火灾完全是由于他们失职而引起的。
  • His life was entirely given up to the educational work. 他的一生统统献给了教育工作。
30 belied 18aef4d6637b7968f93a3bc35d884c1c     
v.掩饰( belie的过去式和过去分词 );证明(或显示)…为虚假;辜负;就…扯谎
参考例句:
  • His bluff exterior belied a connoisseur of antiques. 他作风粗放,令人看不出他是古董鉴赏家。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • Her smile belied her true feelings. 她的微笑掩饰了她的真实感情。 来自《简明英汉词典》
31 malice P8LzW     
n.恶意,怨恨,蓄意;[律]预谋
参考例句:
  • I detected a suggestion of malice in his remarks.我觉察出他说的话略带恶意。
  • There was a strong current of malice in many of his portraits.他的许多肖像画中都透着一股强烈的怨恨。
32 supplanting 55014765c74fea793d89472381bf1a0e     
把…排挤掉,取代( supplant的现在分词 )
参考例句:
33 concealing 0522a013e14e769c5852093b349fdc9d     
v.隐藏,隐瞒,遮住( conceal的现在分词 )
参考例句:
  • Despite his outward display of friendliness, I sensed he was concealing something. 尽管他表现得友善,我还是感觉到他有所隐瞒。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • SHE WAS BREAKING THE COMPACT, AND CONCEALING IT FROM HIM. 她违反了他们之间的约定,还把他蒙在鼓里。 来自英汉文学 - 三万元遗产
34 passionately YmDzQ4     
ad.热烈地,激烈地
参考例句:
  • She could hate as passionately as she could love. 她能恨得咬牙切齿,也能爱得一往情深。
  • He was passionately addicted to pop music. 他酷爱流行音乐。
35 contagion 9ZNyl     
n.(通过接触的疾病)传染;蔓延
参考例句:
  • A contagion of fear swept through the crowd.一种恐惧感在人群中迅速蔓延开。
  • The product contagion effect has numerous implications for marketing managers and retailers.产品传染效应对市场营销管理者和零售商都有很多的启示。
36 compassionated 36ba68091eb1bb68de4a4fe9261c363a     
v.同情(compassionate的过去式与过去分词形式)
参考例句:
  • That same hungry heart of hers compassionated her friends. 就是她那颗如饥如渴的心对她的朋友们恻然怜悯。 来自辞典例句
  • He is concerned, compassionated and committed to improving his quality of life. 他会把极大的热情和关注投入到提高生活质量上来。 来自互联网
37 confiding e67d6a06e1cdfe51bc27946689f784d1     
adj.相信人的,易于相信的v.吐露(秘密,心事等)( confide的现在分词 );(向某人)吐露(隐私、秘密等)
参考例句:
  • The girl is of a confiding nature. 这女孩具有轻信别人的性格。 来自《现代英汉综合大词典》
  • Celia, though confiding her opinion only to Andrew, disagreed. 西莉亚却不这么看,尽管她只向安德鲁吐露过。 来自辞典例句
38 tuned b40b43fd5af2db4fbfeb4e83856e4876     
adj.调谐的,已调谐的v.调音( tune的过去式和过去分词 );调整;(给收音机、电视等)调谐;使协调
参考例句:
  • The resort is tuned in to the tastes of young and old alike. 这个度假胜地适合各种口味,老少皆宜。
  • The instruments should be tuned up before each performance. 每次演出开始前都应将乐器调好音。 来自《简明英汉词典》
39 bass APUyY     
n.男低音(歌手);低音乐器;低音大提琴
参考例句:
  • He answered my question in a surprisingly deep bass.他用一种低得出奇的声音回答我的问题。
  • The bass was to give a concert in the park.那位男低音歌唱家将在公园中举行音乐会。
40 biding 83fef494bb1c4bd2f64e5e274888d8c5     
v.等待,停留( bide的现在分词 );居住;(过去式用bided)等待;面临
参考例句:
  • He was biding his time. 他正在等待时机。 来自辞典例句
  • Applications:used in carbide alloy, diamond tools, biding admixture, high-temperature alloy, rechargeable cell. 用作硬质合金,磁性材料,金刚石工具,高温合金,可充电池等。 来自互联网
41 writhed 7985cffe92f87216940f2d01877abcf6     
(因极度痛苦而)扭动或翻滚( writhe的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • He writhed at the memory, revolted with himself for that temporary weakness. 他一想起来就痛悔不已,只恨自己当一时糊涂。
  • The insect, writhed, and lay prostrate again. 昆虫折腾了几下,重又直挺挺地倒了下去。
42 feverishly 5ac95dc6539beaf41c678cd0fa6f89c7     
adv. 兴奋地
参考例句:
  • Feverishly he collected his data. 他拼命收集资料。
  • The company is having to cast around feverishly for ways to cut its costs. 公司迫切须要想出各种降低成本的办法。
43 distinguished wu9z3v     
adj.卓越的,杰出的,著名的
参考例句:
  • Elephants are distinguished from other animals by their long noses.大象以其长长的鼻子显示出与其他动物的不同。
  • A banquet was given in honor of the distinguished guests.宴会是为了向贵宾们致敬而举行的。
44 jealousy WaRz6     
n.妒忌,嫉妒,猜忌
参考例句:
  • Some women have a disposition to jealousy.有些女人生性爱妒忌。
  • I can't support your jealousy any longer.我再也无法忍受你的嫉妒了。
45 delude lmEzj     
vt.欺骗;哄骗
参考例句:
  • You won't delude him into believing it.你不能诱使他相信此事。
  • Don't delude yourself into believing that she will marry you.不要自欺,别以为她会嫁给你。
46 conceits 50b473c5317ed4d9da6788be9cdeb3a8     
高傲( conceit的名词复数 ); 自以为; 巧妙的词语; 别出心裁的比喻
参考例句:
  • He jotted down the conceits of his idle hours. 他记下了闲暇时想到的一些看法。
  • The most grotesque fantastic conceits haunted him in his bed at night. 夜晚躺在床上的时候,各种离奇怪诞的幻想纷至沓来。
47 futility IznyJ     
n.无用
参考例句:
  • She could see the utter futility of trying to protest. 她明白抗议是完全无用的。
  • The sheer futility of it all exasperates her. 它毫无用处,这让她很生气。
48 justify j3DxR     
vt.证明…正当(或有理),为…辩护
参考例句:
  • He tried to justify his absence with lame excuses.他想用站不住脚的借口为自己的缺席辩解。
  • Can you justify your rude behavior to me?你能向我证明你的粗野行为是有道理的吗?
49 killing kpBziQ     
n.巨额利润;突然赚大钱,发大财
参考例句:
  • Investors are set to make a killing from the sell-off.投资者准备清仓以便大赚一笔。
  • Last week my brother made a killing on Wall Street.上个周我兄弟在华尔街赚了一大笔。
50 sordid PrLy9     
adj.肮脏的,不干净的,卑鄙的,暗淡的
参考例句:
  • He depicts the sordid and vulgar sides of life exclusively.他只描写人生肮脏和庸俗的一面。
  • They lived in a sordid apartment.他们住在肮脏的公寓房子里。
51 monotonously 36b124a78cd491b4b8ee41ea07438df3     
adv.单调地,无变化地
参考例句:
  • The lecturer phrased monotonously. 这位讲师用词单调。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • The maid, still in tears, sniffed monotonously. 侍女还在哭,发出单调的抽泣声。 来自辞典例句
52 gasped e6af294d8a7477229d6749fa9e8f5b80     
v.喘气( gasp的过去式和过去分词 );喘息;倒抽气;很想要
参考例句:
  • She gasped at the wonderful view. 如此美景使她惊讶得屏住了呼吸。
  • People gasped with admiration at the superb skill of the gymnasts. 体操运动员的高超技艺令人赞叹。 来自《现代汉英综合大词典》
53 dolorous k8Oym     
adj.悲伤的;忧愁的
参考例句:
  • With a broken-hearted smile,he lifted a pair of dolorous eyes.带著伤心的微笑,他抬起了一双痛苦的眼睛。
  • Perhaps love is a dolorous fairy tale.也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话。
54 lurked 99c07b25739e85120035a70192a2ec98     
vi.潜伏,埋伏(lurk的过去式与过去分词形式)
参考例句:
  • The murderers lurked behind the trees. 谋杀者埋伏在树后。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • Treachery lurked behind his smooth manners. 他圆滑姿态的后面潜伏着奸计。 来自《现代英汉综合大词典》
55 thorny 5ICzQ     
adj.多刺的,棘手的
参考例句:
  • The young captain is pondering over a thorny problem.年轻的上尉正在思考一个棘手的问题。
  • The boys argued over the thorny points in the lesson.孩子们辩论功课中的难点。
56 cursory Yndzg     
adj.粗略的;草率的;匆促的
参考例句:
  • He signed with only a cursory glance at the report.他只草草看了一眼报告就签了名。
  • The only industry mentioned is agriculture and it is discussed in a cursory sentence.实业方面只谈到农业,而且只是匆匆带了一句。
57 propriety oRjx4     
n.正当行为;正当;适当
参考例句:
  • We hesitated at the propriety of the method.我们对这种办法是否适用拿不定主意。
  • The sensitive matter was handled with great propriety.这件机密的事处理得极为适当。
58 worthy vftwB     
adj.(of)值得的,配得上的;有价值的
参考例句:
  • I did not esteem him to be worthy of trust.我认为他不值得信赖。
  • There occurred nothing that was worthy to be mentioned.没有值得一提的事发生。


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