Anna

VISIBILITY SUCKS. The rain, if possible, is coming down even harder. I have this brief vision of it pummelingthe car so hard it crunches¹ like an empty Coke can, and just like that it’s harder for me to breathe. It takes asecond for me to realize that this has nothing to do with the shitty weather or latent claustrophobia, but withthe fact that my throat is only half as wide as usual, tears hardening it like an artery², so that everything I doand say involves twice as much work.

I have been medically emancipated³ for a whole half hour now. Campbell says the rain is a blessing⁴, it’s keptthe reporters away. Maybe they will find me at the hospital and maybe they won’t, but by then I will be withmy family and it won’t really matter. My parents left before us; we had to fill out the stupid paperwork.

Campbell offered to drop me off when we were through, which is nice considering I know he wants nothingmore than to hook up with Julia, which they seem to think is some tremendous mystery, but so isn’t. I wonderwhat Judge does, when it’s the two of them. I wonder if he feels left out.

“Campbell?” I ask, out of nowhere. “What do you think I should do?”

He doesn’t pretend to not know what I’m talking about. “I just fought very hard at a trial for your right tochoose, so I’m not going to tell you what I think.”

“Great,” I say, settling deep into my seat. “I don’t even know who I really am.”

“I know who you are. You’re the premier⁵ doorknob caddy in all of Providence⁶ Plantations⁷. You’ve got a wisemouth, and you pick the crackers⁸ out of the Chex Mix, and you hate math and…”

It’s kind of cool, watching Campbell try to fill in all the blanks.

“…you like boys?” he finishes, but that one’s a question.

“Some of them are okay,” I admit, “but they probably all grow up to be like you.”

He smiles. “God forbid.”

“What are you going to do next?”

Campbell shrugs⁹. “I may actually have to take on a paying case.”

“So you can continue to support Julia in the style to which she’s accustomed?”

“Yeah,” he laughs. “Something like that.”

It gets quiet for a moment, so all I can hear is the squelch¹⁰ of the windshield wipers. I slip my hands under mythighs, sit on them. “What you said at the trial…do you really think I’ll be amazing in ten years?”

“Why, Anna Fitzgerald, are you fishing for compliments?”

“Forget I said anything.”

He glances at me. “Yes, I do. I imagine you’ll be breaking guy’s hearts, or painting in Montmartre, or flyingfighter jets, or hiking through undiscovered countries.” He pauses. “Maybe all of the above.”

There was a time when, like Kate, I’d wanted to be a ballerina. But since then I’ve gone through a thousanddifferent stages: I wanted to be an astronaut. I wanted to be a paleontologist. I wanted to be a backup singerfor Aretha Franklin, a member of the Cabinet, a Yellowstone National Park ranger¹¹. Now, based on the day, Isometimes want to be a microsurgeon, a poet, a ghost hunter.

Only one thing’s a constant. “Ten years from now,” I say, “I’d like to be Kate’s sister.”

1 crunches   

n.（突发的）不足( crunch的名词复数 )；需要做出重要决策的困难时刻；紧要关头；嘎吱的响声v.嘎吱嘎吱地咬嚼( crunch的第三人称单数 )；嘎吱作响；（快速大量地）处理信息；数字捣弄

参考例句：

• I can't bear the way she crunches the sugar. 我简直看不惯她嚼糖的那副样子。 来自辞典例句
• Crunches with a twisting motion (to hit obliques) are excellent. 做仰卧起坐时加上转体动作更好。 来自互联网

2 artery   

n.干线，要道；动脉

参考例句：

• We couldn't feel the changes in the blood pressure within the artery.我们无法感觉到动脉血管内血压的变化。
• The aorta is the largest artery in the body.主动脉是人体中的最大动脉。

3 emancipated   

adj.被解放的，不受约束的v.解放某人（尤指摆脱政治、法律或社会的束缚）( emancipate的过去式和过去分词 )

参考例句：

• Slaves were not emancipated until 1863 in the United States. 美国奴隶直到1863年才获得自由。
• Women are still struggling to be fully emancipated. 妇女仍在为彻底解放而斗争。 来自《简明英汉词典》

4 blessing   

n.祈神赐福；祷告；祝福，祝愿

参考例句：

• The blessing was said in Hebrew.祷告用了希伯来语。
• A double blessing has descended upon the house.双喜临门。

5 premier   

adj.首要的；n.总理，首相

参考例句：

• The Irish Premier is paying an official visit to Britain.爱尔兰总理正在对英国进行正式访问。
• He requested that the premier grant him an internview.他要求那位总理接见他一次。

6 providence   

n.深谋远虑，天道，天意；远见；节约；上帝

参考例句：

• It is tempting Providence to go in that old boat.乘那艘旧船前往是冒大险。
• To act as you have done is to fly in the face of Providence.照你的所作所为那样去行事，是违背上帝的意志的。

7 plantations   

n.种植园，大农场( plantation的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• Soon great plantations, supported by slave labor, made some families very wealthy. 不久之后出现了依靠奴隶劳动的大庄园，使一些家庭成了富豪。 来自英汉非文学 - 政府文件
• Winterborne's contract was completed, and the plantations were deserted. 维恩特波恩的合同完成后，那片林地变得荒废了。 来自辞典例句

8 crackers   

adj.精神错乱的，癫狂的n.爆竹( cracker的名词复数 )；薄脆饼干；（认为）十分愉快的事；迷人的姑娘

参考例句：

• That noise is driving me crackers. 那噪声闹得我简直要疯了。
• We served some crackers and cheese as an appetiser. 我们上了些饼干和奶酪作为开胃品。 来自《简明英汉词典》

9 shrugs   

n.耸肩（以表示冷淡，怀疑等）( shrug的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• Hungarian Prime Minister Ferenc Gyurcsany shrugs off this criticism. 匈牙利总理久尔恰尼对这个批评不以为然。 来自互联网
• She shrugs expressively and takes a sip of her latte. 她表达地耸肩而且拿她的拿铁的啜饮。 来自互联网

10 squelch   

v.压制，镇压；发吧唧声

参考例句：

• The President wants to squelch any perception that the meeting is an attempt to negotiate.总统想要消除任何视本次会议为谈判尝试的看法。
• You cannot squelch wanting.你不能压制要求。

11 ranger   

n.国家公园管理员，护林员；骑兵巡逻队员

参考例句：

• He was the head ranger of the national park.他曾是国家公园的首席看守员。
• He loved working as a ranger.他喜欢做护林人。