DAY 2 9:02 A.M.
We needed skim milk, Toastie-Os, Pop-Tarts, Jell-O, dishwasher detergent—and something else, but I couldn’t read my own writing. I stood in the supermarket aisle1 at nine o’clock in the morning, puzzling over my notes. A voice said, “Hey, Jack2. How’s it hanging?” I looked up to see Ricky Morse, one of the division heads at Xymos. “Hey, Ricky. How are you?” I shook his hand, genuinely glad to see him. I was always glad to see Ricky. Tanned, with blond crewcut hair and a big grin, he could easily be taken for a surfer were it not for his SourceForge 3.1 T-shirt. Ricky was only a few years younger than I was, but he had an air of perpetual youthfulness. I’d given him his first job, right out of college, and he’d rapidly moved into management. With his cheerful personality and upbeat manner, Ricky made an ideal project manager, even though he tended to underplay problems, and give management unrealistic expectations about when a project would be finished. According to Julia, that had sometimes caused trouble at Xymos; Ricky tended to make promises he couldn’t keep. And sometimes he didn’t quite tell the truth. But he was so cheerful and appealing that everyone always forgave him. At least, I always did, when he worked for me. I had become quite fond of him, and thought of him almost as a younger brother. I’d recommended him for his job at Xymos.
Ricky was pushing a shopping cart filled with disposable diapers in big plastic bundles; he had a young baby at home, too. I asked him why he was shopping and not at the office. “Mary’s got the flu, and the maid’s in Guatemala. So I told her I’d pick up some things.”
“I see you’ve got Huggies,” I said. “I always get Pampers3, myself.”
“I find Huggies absorb more,” he said. “And Pampers are too tight. They pinch the baby’s leg.”
“But Pampers have a layer that takes moisture away, and keeps the bottom dry,” I said. “I have fewer rashes with Pampers.”
“Whenever I use them, the adhesive4 tabs tend to pull off. And with a big load, it tends to leak out the leg, which makes extra work for me. I don’t know, I just find Huggies are higher quality.”
A woman glanced at us as she pushed past with her shopping cart. We started to laugh, thinking we must sound like we were in a commercial.
Ricky said loudly, “So hey, how about those Giants?” to the woman’s back as she continued down the aisle.
“Fuckin’ A, are they great or what?” I said, scratching myself. We laughed, then pushed our carts down the aisle together. Ricky said, “Want to know the truth? Mary likes Huggies, and that’s the end of the conversation.”
“I know that one,” I said.
Ricky looked at my cart, and said, “I see you buy organic skim milk ...”
“Stop it,” I said. “How are things at the office?”
“You know, they’re pretty damn good,” he said. “The technology’s coming along nicely, if I say so myself. We demoed for the money guys the other day, and it went well.”
“Julia’s doing okay?” I said, as casually5 as I could.
“Yeah, she’s doing great. Far as I know,” Ricky said.
I glanced at him. Was he suddenly reserved? Was his face set, the muscles controlled? Was he concealing6 something? I couldn’t tell.
“Actually, I rarely see her,” Ricky said. “She’s not around much these days.”
“I don’t see much of her either,” I said.
“Yeah, she’s spending a lot of time out at the fab complex. That’s where the action is now.” Ricky glanced quickly at me. “You know, because of the new fabrication processes.”
The Xymos fab building had been completed in record time, considering how complex it was. The fabrication building was where they assembled molecules8 from individual atoms. Sticking the molecule7 fragments together like Lego blocks. Much of this work was carried out in a vacuum, and required extremely strong magnetic fields. So the fab building had tremendous pump assemblies, and powerful chillers to cool the magnets. But according to Julia, a lot of the technology was specific to that building; nothing like it had ever been built before. I said, “It’s amazing they got the building up so fast.”
“Well, we kept the pressure on. Molecular9 Dynamics10 is breathing down our necks. We’ve got our fab up and running, and we’ve got patent applications by the truckload. But those guys at MolDyne and NanoTech can’t be far behind us. A few months. Maybe six months, if we’re lucky.”
“So you’re doing molecular assembly at the plant now?” I said.
“You got it, Jack. Full-bore molecular assembly. We have been for a few weeks now.”
“I didn’t know Julia was interested in that stuff.” With her background in psychology11, I’d always regarded Julia as a people person.
“She’s taken a real interest in the technology, I can tell you. Also, they’re doing a lot of programming up there, too,” he said. “You know. Iterative cycles as they refine the manufacturing.”
I nodded. “What kind of programming?” I said.
“Distributed processing. Multi-agent nets. That’s how we keep the individual units coordinated12, working together.”
“This is all to make the medical camera?”
“Yes.” He paused. “Among other things.” He glanced at me uneasily, as if he might be breaking his confidentiality13 agreement.
“You don’t have to say,” I said.
“No, no,” he said quickly. “Jeez, you and I go way back, Jack.” He slapped me on the shoulder. “And you got a spouse14 in management. I mean, what the hell.” But he still looked uneasy. His face didn’t match his words. And his eyes slid away from me when he said the word “spouse.”
The conversation was coming to an end, and I felt filled with tension, the kind of awkward tension when you think another guy knows something and isn’t telling you—because he’s embarrassed, because he doesn’t know how to put it, because he doesn’t want to get involved, because it’s too dangerous even to mention, because he thinks it’s your job to figure it out for yourself. Especially when it’s something about your wife. Like she’s screwing around. He’s looking at you like you’re the walking wounded, it’s night of the living dead, but he won’t tell you. In my experience, guys never tell other guys when they know something about their wives. But women always tell other women, if they know of a husband’s infidelity.
That’s just how it is.
But I was feeling so tense I wanted to—
“Hey, look at the time,” Ricky said, giving me a big grin. “I’m late, Mary’ll kill me, I’ve got to run. She’s already annoyed because I have to spend the next few days at the fab facility. So I’ll be out of town while the maid’s gone ...” He shrugged15. “You know how it is.”
“Yeah, I do. Good luck.”
“Hey, man. Take care.”
We shook hands. Murmured another good-bye. Ricky rolled his cart around the corner of the aisle, and was gone.
Sometimes you can’t think about painful things, you can’t make your mind focus on them. Your brain just slips away, no thank you, let’s change the subject. That was happening to me now. I couldn’t think about Julia, so I started thinking about what Ricky had told me about their fabrication plant. And I decided16 it probably made sense, even though it went against the conventional wisdom about nanotechnology.
There was a long-standing17 fantasy among nanotechnologists that once somebody figured out how to manufacture at the atomic level, it would be like running the four-minute mile. Everybody would do it, unleashing18 a flood of wonderful molecular creations rolling off assembly lines all around the world. In a matter of days, human life would be changed by this marvelous new technology. As soon as somebody figured out how to do it.
But of course that would never happen. The very idea was absurd. Because in essence, molecular manufacturing wasn’t so different from computer manufacturing or flow-valve manufacturing or automobile19 manufacturing or any other kind of manufacturing. It took a while to get it right. In fact, assembling atoms to make a new molecule was closely analogous20 to compiling a computer program from individual lines of code. And computer code never compiled, the first time out. The programmers always had to go back and fix the lines. And even after it was compiled, a computer program never ever worked right the first time. Or the second time. Or the hundredth time. It had to be debugged, and debugged again, and again. And again.
I always believed it would be the same with these manufactured molecules—they’d have to be debugged again and again before they worked right. And if Xymos wanted “flocks” of molecules working together, they’d also have to debug the way the molecules communicated with each other, however limited that communication was. Because once the molecules communicated, you had a primitive21 network. To organize it, you’d probably program a distributed net. Of the kind I had been developing at MediaTronics. So I could perfectly22 well imagine them doing programming along with the manufacturing. But I couldn’t see Julia hanging around while they did it. The fab facility was far from the Xymos headquarters. It was literally23 in the middle of nowhere—out in the desert near Tonopah, Nevada. And Julia didn’t like to be in the middle of nowhere. I was sitting in the pediatrician’s waiting room because the baby was due for her next round of immunizations. There were four mothers in the room, bouncing sick kids on their laps while the older children played on the floor. The mothers all talked to each other and studiously ignored me.
I was getting used to this. A guy at home, a guy in a setting like the pediatrician’s office, was an unusual thing. But it also meant that something was wrong. There was probably something wrong with the guy, he couldn’t get a job, maybe he was fired for alcoholism or drugs, maybe he was a bum24. Whatever the reason, it wasn’t normal for a man to be in the pediatrician’s office in the middle of the day. So the other mothers pretended I wasn’t there. Except they shot me the occasional worried glance, as if I might be sneaking25 up on them to rape26 them while their backs were turned. Even the nurse, Gloria, seemed suspicious. She glanced at the baby in my arms—who wasn’t crying, and was hardly sniffling. “What seems to be the problem?”
I said we were here for immunizations.
“She’s been here before?”
Yes, she had been coming to the doctor since she was born.
“Are you related?”
Yes, I was the father.
Eventually we were ushered27 in. The doctor shook hands with me, was very friendly, never asked why I was there instead of my wife or the housekeeper28. He gave two injections. Amanda howled. I bounced her on my shoulder, comforted her.
“She may have a little swelling29, a little local redness. Call me if it’s not gone in forty-eight hours.” Then I was back in the waiting room, trying to get out my credit card to pay the bill while the baby cried. And that was when Julia called.
“Hi. What’re you doing?” She must have heard the baby screaming.
“Paying the pediatrician.”
“Bad time?”
“Kind of ...”
“Okay, listen, I just wanted to say I have an early night—finally!—so I’ll be home for dinner. What do you say I pick up on my way home?”
“That’d be great,” I said.
Eric’s soccer practice ran late. It was getting dark on the field. The coach always ran practice late. I paced the sidelines, trying to decide whether to complain. It was so hard to know when you were coddling your kid, and when you were legitimately30 protecting them. Nicole called on her cell to say that her play rehearsal31 was over, and why hadn’t I picked her up? Where was I? I said I was still with Eric and asked if she could catch a ride with anybody.
“Dad ...” she said, exasperated32. You’d think I had asked her to crawl home.
“Hey, I’m stuck.”
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“Watch that tone, young lady.”
But a few minutes later, soccer was abruptly34 canceled. A big green maintenance truck pulled onto the field, and two men came out wearing masks and big rubber gloves, with spray cans on their backs. They were going to spray weed killer35 or something, and everybody had to stay off the field overnight.
I called Nicole back and said we would pick her up.
“When?”
“We’re on our way now.”
“From the little creep’s practice?”
“Come on, Nic.”
“Why does he always come first?”
“He doesn’t always come first.”
“Yes he does. He’s a little creep.”
“Nicole ...”
“Sor-ry.”
“See you in a few minutes.” I clicked off. Kids are more advanced these days. The teenage years now start at eleven.
By five-thirty the kids were home, raiding the fridge. Nicole was eating a big chunk36 of string cheese. I told her to stop; it would ruin her dinner. Then I went back to setting the table. “When is dinner?”
“Soon. Mom’s bringing it home.”
“Uh-huh.” She disappeared for a few minutes, and then she came back. “She says she’s sorry she didn’t call, but she’s going to be late.”
“What?” I was pouring water into the glasses on the table.
“She’s sorry she didn’t call but she’s going to be late. I just talked to her.”
“Jesus.” It was irritating. I tried never to show my irritation37 around the kids, but sometimes it slipped out. I sighed. “Okay.”
“I’m really hungry now, Dad.”
“Get your brother and get into the car,” I said. “We’re going to the drive-in.” Later that night, as I was carrying the baby to bed, my elbow brushed against a photograph on the living-room bookshelf. It clattered38 to the floor; I stooped to pick it up. It was a picture of Julia and Eric in Sun Valley when he was four. They were both in snowsuits; Julia was helping39 him learn to ski, and smiling radiantly. Next to it was a photo of Julia and me on our eleventh wedding anniversary in Kona; I was in a loud Hawaiian shirt and she had colorful leis around her neck, and we were kissing at sunset. That was a great trip; in fact, we were pretty sure Amanda was conceived there. I remember Julia came home from work one day and said, “Honey, remember how you said mai-tais were dangerous?” I said, “Yes ...” And she said, “Well, let me put it this way. It’s a girl,” and I was so startled the soda40 I was drinking went up my nose, and we both started to laugh.
Then a picture of Julia making cupcakes with Nicole, who was so young she sat on the kitchen counter and her legs didn’t reach the edge. She couldn’t have been more than a year and a half old. Nicole was frowning with concentration as she wielded41 a huge spoon of dough42, making a fine mess while Julia tried not to laugh.
And a photo of us hiking in Colorado, Julia holding the hand of six-year-old Nicole while I carried Eric on my shoulders, my shirt collar dark with sweat—or worse, if I remembered that day right. Eric must have been about two; he was still in diapers. I remember he thought it was fun to cover my eyes while I carried him on the trail.
The hiking photo had slipped inside its frame so it stood at an angle. I tapped the frame to try and straighten it, but it didn’t move. I noticed that several of the other pictures were faded, or the emulsion was sticking to the glass. No one had bothered to take care of these pictures. The baby snuffled in my arms, rubbing her eyes with her fists. It was time for bed. I put the pictures back on the shelf. They were old images from another, happier time. From another life. They seemed to have nothing to do with me, anymore. Everything was different now. The world was different now.
I left the table set for dinner that night, a silent rebuke43. Julia saw it when she got home around ten. “I’m sorry, hon.”
“I know you were busy,” I said.
“I was. Please forgive me?”
“I do,” I said.
“You’re the best.” She blew me a kiss, from across the room. “I’m going to take a shower,” she said. And she headed off down the hallway. I watched her go. On the way down the hall, she looked into the baby’s room, and then darted44 in. A moment later, I heard her cooing and the baby gurgling. I got out of my chair, and walked down the hall after her.
In the darkened nursery, she was holding the baby up, nuzzling her nose.
I said, “Julia ... you woke her up.”
“No I didn’t, she was awake. Weren’t you, little honey-bunny? You were awake, weren’t you, Poopsie-doopsie?”
The baby rubbed her eyes with tiny fists, and yawned. She certainly appeared to have been awakened45.
Julia turned to me in the darkness. “I didn’t. Really. I didn’t wake her up. Why are you looking at me that way?”
“What way?”
“You know what way. That accusing way.”
“I’m not accusing you of anything.”
The baby started to whimper and then to cry. Julia touched her diaper. “I think she’s wet,” she said, and handed her to me as she walked out of the room. “You do it, Mr. Perfect.”
* * *
Now there was tension between us. After I changed the baby and put her back to bed, I heard Julia come out of the shower, banging a door. Whenever Julia started banging doors, it was a sign for me to come and mollify her. But I didn’t feel like it tonight. I was annoyed she’d awakened the baby, and I was annoyed by her unreliability, saying she’d be home early and never calling to say she wouldn’t. I was scared that she had become so unreliable because she was distracted by a new love. Or she just didn’t care about her family anymore. I didn’t know what to do about all this, but I didn’t feel like smoothing the tension between us. I just let her bang the doors. She slammed her sliding closet-door so hard the wood cracked. She swore. That was another sign I was supposed to come running. I went back to the living room, and sat down. I picked up the book I was reading, and stared at the page. I tried to concentrate but of course I couldn’t. I was angry and I listened to her bang around in the bedroom. If she kept it up, she’d wake Eric and then I would have to deal with her. I hoped it wouldn’t go that far.
Eventually the noise stopped. She had probably gotten into bed. If so, she would soon be asleep. Julia could go to sleep when we were fighting. I never could; I stayed up, pacing and angry, trying to settle myself down.
When I finally came to bed, Julia was fast asleep. I slipped between the covers, and rolled over on my side, away from her.
It was one o’clock in the morning when the baby began to scream. I groped for the light, knocked over the alarm clock, which turned the clock radio on, blaring rock and roll. I swore, fumbled46 in the dark, finally got the bedside light on, turned the radio off. The baby was still screaming.
“What’s the matter with her?” Julia said sleepily.
“I don’t know.” I got out of bed, shaking my head, trying to wake up. I went into the nursery and flicked47 on the light. The room seemed very bright, the clown wallpaper very yellow and burning. Out of nowhere, I thought: why doesn’t she want yellow placemats when she painted the whole nursery yellow?
The baby was standing up in her crib, holding on to the rails and howling, her mouth wide open, her breath coming in jagged gasps48. Tears were running down her cheeks. I held my arms out to her and she reached for me, and I comforted her. I thought it must be a nightmare. I comforted her, rocked her gently.
She continued to scream, unrelenting. Maybe something was hurting her, maybe something in her diaper. I checked her body. That was when I saw an angry red rash on her belly49, extending in welts around to her back, and up toward her neck.
Julia came in. “Can’t you stop it?” she said.
I said, “There’s something wrong,” and I showed her the rash.
“Has she got a fever?”
I touched Amanda’s head. She was sweaty and hot, but that could be from the crying. The rest of her body felt cool. “I don’t know. I don’t think so.”
I could see the rash on her thighs50 now. Was it on her thighs a moment before? I almost thought I was seeing it spread before my eyes. If it was possible, the baby screamed even louder. “Jesus,” Julia said. “I’ll call the doctor.”
“Yeah, do.” By now I had the baby on her back—she screamed more—and I was looking carefully at her entire body. The rash was spreading, there was no doubt about it. And she seemed to be in terrible pain, screaming bloody51 murder.
“I’m sorry, honey, I’m sorry ...” I said.
Definitely spreading.
Julia came back and said she left word for the doctor. I said, “I’m not going to wait. I’m taking her to the emergency room.”
“Do you really think that’s necessary?” she said.
I didn’t answer her, I just went into the bedroom to put on my clothes.
Julia said, “Do you want me to come with you?”
“No, stay with the kids,” I said.
“You sure?”
“Yes.”
“Okay,” she said. She wandered back to the bedroom. I reached for my car keys.
The baby continued to scream.
“I realize it’s uncomfortable,” the intern52 was saying. “But I don’t think it’s safe to sedate53 her.” We were in a curtained cubicle54 in the emergency room. The intern was bent55 over my screaming daughter, looking in her ears with his instrument. By now Amanda’s entire body was bright, angry red. She looked as if she had been parboiled.
I felt scared. I’d never heard of anything like this before, a baby turning bright red and screaming constantly. I didn’t trust this intern, who seemed far too young to be competent. He couldn’t be experienced; he didn’t even look as if he shaved yet. I was jittery56, shifting my weight from one foot to the other. I was beginning to feel slightly crazy, because my daughter had never stopped screaming once in the last hour. It was wearing me down. The intern ignored it. I didn’t know how he could.
“She has no fever,” he said, making notes in a chart, “but in a child this age that doesn’t mean anything. Under a year, they may not run fevers at all, even with severe infections.”
“Is that what this is?” I said. “An infection?”
“I don’t know. I’m presuming a virus because of that rash. But we should have the preliminary blood work back in—ah, good.” A passing nurse handed him a slip of paper. “Uhh ... hmmm ...” He paused. “Well ...”
“Well what?” I said, shifting my weight anxiously.
He was shaking his head as he stared at the paper. He didn’t answer.
“Well what?”
“It’s not an infection,” he said. “White cells counts all normal, protein fractions normal. She’s got no immune mobilization at all.”
“What does that mean?”
He was very calm, standing there, frowning and thinking. I wondered if perhaps he was just dumb. The best people weren’t going into medicine anymore, not with the HMOs running everything. This kid might be one of the new breed of dumb doctor. “We have to widen the diagnostic net,” he said. “I’m going to order a surgical57 consult, a neurological consult, we have a dermo coming, we have infectious coming. That’ll mean a lot of people to talk to you about your daughter, asking the same questions over again, but—”
“That’s okay,” I said. “I don’t mind. Just ... what do you think is wrong with her?”
“I don’t know, Mr. Forman. If it’s not infectious, we look for other reasons for this skin response. She hasn’t traveled out of the country?”
“No.” I shook my head.
“No recent exposures to heavy metals or toxins58?”
“Like what?”
“Dump sites, industrial plants, chemical exposure ...”
“No, no.”
“Can you think of anything at all that might have caused this reaction?”
“No, nothing ... wait, she had vaccinations59 yesterday.”
“What vaccinations?”
“I don’t know, whatever she gets for her age ...”
“You don’t know what vaccinations?” he said. His notebook was open, his pen poised60 over the page.
“No, for Christ’s sake,” I said irritably61, “I don’t know what vaccinations. Every time she goes there, she gets another shot. You’re the goddamned doctor—”
“That’s okay, Mr. Forman,” he said soothingly62. “I know it’s stressful. If you just tell me the name of your pediatrician, I’ll call him, how is that?”
I nodded. I wiped my hand across my forehead. I was sweating. I spelled the pediatrician’s name for him while he wrote it down in his notebook. I tried to calm down. I tried to think clearly.
And all the time, my baby just screamed.
* * *
Half an hour later, she went into convulsions.
They started while one of the white-coated consultants63 was bent over her, examining her. Her little body wrenched64 and twisted. She made retching sounds as if she was trying to vomit65. Her legs jerked spastically. She began to wheeze66. Her eyes rolled up into her head. I don’t remember what I said or did then, but a big orderly the size of a football player came in and pushed me to one side of the cubicle and held my arms. I looked past his huge shoulder as six people clustered around my daughter; a nurse wearing a Bart Simpson T-shirt was sticking a needle into her forehead. I began to shout and struggle. The orderly was yelling, “Scowvane, scowvane, scowvane,” over and over. Finally I realized he was saying “Scalp vein67.” He explained it was just to start an IV, that the baby had become dehydrated. That was why she was convulsing. I heard talk of electrolytes, magnesium68, potassium. Anyway, the convulsions stopped in a few seconds. But she continued to scream.
I called Julia. She was awake. “How is she?”
“The same.”
“Still crying? Is that her?”
“Yes.” She could hear Amanda in the background.
“Oh God.” She groaned69. “What are they saying it is?”
“They don’t know yet.”
“Oh, the poor baby.”
“There have been about fifty doctors in here to look at her.”
“Is there anything I can do?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Okay. Let me know.”
“Okay.”
“I’m not sleeping.”
“Okay.”
* * *
Shortly before dawn the huddled70 consultants announced that she either had an intestinal71 obstruction72 or a brain tumor73, they couldn’t decide which, and they ordered an MRI. The sky was beginning to lighten when she was finally wheeled to the imaging room. The big white machine stood in the center of the room. The nurse told me it would calm the baby if I helped her prepare her, and she took the needle out of her scalp because there couldn’t be any metal during the MRI reading. Blood squirted down Amanda’s face, into her eye. The nurse wiped it away.
Now Amanda was strapped74 onto the white board that rolled into the depths of the machine. My daughter was staring up at the MRI in terror, still screaming. The nurse told me I could wait in the next room with the technician. I went into a room with a glass window that looked in on the MRI machine.
The technician was foreign, dark. “How old is she? Is it a she?”
“Yes, she. Nine months.”
“Quite a set of lungs on her.”
“Yes.”
“Here we go.” He was fiddling75 at his knobs and dials, hardly looking at my daughter. Amanda was completely inside the machine. Her sobs76 sounded tinny over the microphone. The technician flicked a switch and the pump began to chatter77; it made a lot of noise. But I could still hear my daughter screaming.
And then, abruptly, she stopped.
She was completely silent.
“Uh-oh,” I said. I looked at the technician and the nurse. Their faces registered shock. We all thought the same thing, that something terrible had happened. My heart began to pound. The technician hastily shut down the pumps and we hurried back into the room. My daughter was lying there, still strapped down, breathing heavily, but apparently78 fine. She blinked her eyes slowly, as if dazed. Already her skin was noticeably a lighter79 shade of pink, with patches of normal color. The rash was fading right before our eyes. “I’ll be damned,” the technician said.
* * *
Back in the emergency room, they wouldn’t let Amanda go home. The surgeons still thought she had a tumor or a bowel80 emergency, and they wanted to keep her in the hospital for observation. But the rash continued to clear steadily81. Over the next hour, the pink color faded, and vanished. No one could understand what had happened, and the doctors were uneasy. The scalp vein IV was back in on the other side of her forehead. But Amanda took a bottle of formula, guzzling82 it down hungrily while I held her. She was staring up at me with her usual hypnotic feeding stare. She really seemed to be fine. She fell asleep in my arms.
I sat there for another hour, then began to make noises about how I had to get back to my kids, I had to get them to school. And not long afterward83, the doctors announced another victory for modern medicine and sent me home with her. Amanda slept soundly all the way, and didn’t wake when I got her out of her car seat. The night sky was turning gray when I carried her up the driveway and into the house.
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