“That’s good,” said Simeon. “That’s good—as far as it goes.” But his thin face still wore an anxious look and he sat slouched a little forward, his eyes on the floor. The morning’s mail lay on the desk behind him, untouched.
John’s eyes turned to it. “You saw Dr. Blake?”
Simeon stirred uneasily. “Yes.” He drew a quick sigh and turned toward the desk. “Yes—I saw him.”
He glanced at the mail, but he did not touch it. His hand seemed to have lost volition2 and when John spoke3 again he gave no sign that he had heard.
The young man stepped to him quickly and touched his arm.
The man looked down at it vacantly. Then he lifted his hand and touched the spot where the hand had rested. He looked up, a thin, anxious smile quivering his face. “I can’t seem to think—” he said.
“Yes, I had—I think I had it—”
“What was it?”
He ran his hand across his forehead. Then he looked at John. “I can’t seem to think,” he said helplessly. “I think I ’m sleepy.... I’m so sleepy....”
The young man helped him to the couch and stood looking down at him. The eyelids5 had fallen and he seemed in a light slumber6; his face still wore its seamed and exhausted7 look, but the anxiety had left it He breathed lightly like a child.
After a minute John turned away and gave himself to the work of the office. No one came to break the quiet, and the figure on the couch did not stir.
Late in the afternoon he sat up and rubbed his eyes, looking confusedly about the office. “I’ve been asleep!” he said in a tone of surprise.
“Are you rested, sir?”
“First rate.” He shook himself a little and got up from the couch. “Mail come?”
“Yes, sir.” He handed him the letters.
“I ’ve answered these.” He handed him another pile ready for signature.
Simeon read them through with untroubled face, and signed those that were ready. He seemed more like himself than John had seen him for weeks; but the young man, watching him anxiously, was afraid to question him again.
When the letters were finished, Simeon turned to him with a smile. “Blake’s an old granny!” he said.
The young man made no reply. His steady eyes were on the thin face.
Simeon nodded re-assuringly. “I ’m all right.—You ’d ’a’ thought, to hear him talk, the funeral was to-morrow.” He gave a short laugh. “I guess he hypnotized me for a spell. I knew I’d be all right as soon as I got back to you.” He smiled at the youth affectionately.
“What did he say?” asked John.
Simeon reflected. “Said I must stop—right off—Be an idiot if I did n’t.—Idiot if I did!” he muttered shortly.
“You could stop—for a while?” It was the merest suggestion.
But the man turned fiercely—the old trembling awake in him. “You don’t know! You can’t know!” He threw the words from him. “You ’ve staved off Nixon. But there are other things—worse things than Nixon—”
“I don’t know anything much worse,” said John quietly.
Simeon stared at him a minute. Then he turned it aside with a motion of his hand. He leaned forward, speaking low and fast—“The directors—two weeks off—two weeks—I must stay, I tell you!”
“Yes, sir.” It was the old tone of quiet deference8 and Simeon yielded to it. “Give me two weeks,” he said more quietly. “Let me meet them with a straight record—and then—”
“And then?” The watching eyes held him.
“Then I ’ll go,” he said grudgingly9, “—If you make me.”
John weighed it for a minute. “Did you ask Dr. Blake about the two weeks?” he said.
Simeon fidgeted at his desk.
“Did you?”
The silence in the room was unbroken. John began to arrange things for the night. The man at the desk watched him, resentful, suspicious.
When the room was in order, the young man came across. He placed his hand on Simeon’s shoulder. “All ready, sir.”
Simeon started a little. He motioned to the chair. “Sit down.”
The young man sat down, looking at him quietly.
Simeon was holding a paper, fingering it absently; he had retained it when John put away the others, covering it with his hand. He glanced down at it now once or twice, as if about to speak. But when he opened his lips, it was not about the paper.
“Blake does n’t know,” he said harshly. The young man’s face clouded. “Don’t you trust him, sir?”
Simeon spun11 the paper a little contemptuously on the desk. “I trust him—Yes—I trust Blake where he knows.”
“He knows about you, sir.” John, remembering the minute accounts he had given of Simeon’s condition, smiled a little as he said it.
But the eyes looking into his did not smile. They held a kind of dumb fear, and the man shook his head. “He does n’t know—”
“Why did n’t you tell him sir?”
“I could n’t!” He glanced cautiously over his shoulder and lowered his voice. “He would n’t have believed—nobody ’d believe!”
“But he might help, sir.”
The man shook his head dully. “He can’t help. Nobody ’can help.—I ’ve had my chance—” He broke off and sat staring before him, as if at some nameless thing.
The young man watched him with perplexed12 eyes. Something mysterious, terrible, held the man in its grip—some intangible thing. Almost, it seemed to him, he conld put out his hand and touch it. Then, in a breath, it was not there.... There was only Simeon—sitting with pitifully bowed head, fingering the paper.
He looked up after a minute. “The Bard-well lease expires today,” he said, holding up the paper.
John nodded. He was not thinking of the Bardwell lease. He was trying to follow the elusive13 clue that had looked out at him and withdrawn14....
“The road takes possession tomorrow,” said Simeon.
“Yes, sir.” John’s mind came back to the farm.
“I ’d thought—” Simeon hesitated, “I ’d thought we might put some one on, for the winter.”
“Rent it?” asked John.
“No—we can’t rent it till spring; Nobody would want it now, but we could put some one on.” He waited a minute. “There ’s your friend—Tomlinson—”
John leaned forward, his face alight—“He’d like it, sir. He used to live on a farm—in Scotland.”
“I judged as much,” said Simeon drily. “He can have it, rent free, till spring. Then the road will talk about terms—we shan’t be hard on him.” He said the last words with a little gulp15. He was looking down at the paper trembling in his hands.
“He will like it,” said John heartily16. “And it will be good for the little Tomlinsons—There are two children, you know?”
“I don’t know anything about them,” said Simeon wearily. “I don’t care—whether there are children—or not. He can have the farm, if he wants it, rent free.” He looked about for his hat. “I ’m going home,” he said. “I’m tired.”
The freshness of his sleep had left him. He was old and haggard once more. And John, as he handed him his hat, was struck anew by the misery17 in the face.
“I am going in a minute, sir. Don’t you want me to walk along with you?”
“No, no. I ’m all right. Stay and write your letter. You’d better send it tonight.”
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