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Part 1 Chapter 49
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VERA DOUKHOVA.

"So this is what it means, this," thought Nekhludoff as he left the prison, only now fully1 understanding his crime. If he had not tried to expiate2 his guilt3 he would never have found out how great his crime was. Nor was this all; she, too, would never have felt the whole horror of what had been done to her. He only now saw what he had done to the soul of this woman; only now she saw and understood what had been done to her.

Up to this time Nekhludoff had played with a sensation of self-admiration, had admired his own remorse4; now he was simply filled with horror. He knew he could not throw her up now, and yet he could not imagine what would come of their relations to one another.

Just as he was going out, a jailer, with a disagreeable, insinuating5 countenance6, and a cross and medals on his breast, came up and handed him a note with an air of mystery.

"Here is a note from a certain person, your honour," he said to Nekhludoff as he gave him the envelope.

"What person?"

"You will know when you read it. A political prisoner. I am in that ward7, so she asked me; and though it is against the rules, still feelings of humanity--" The jailer spoke8 in an unnatural9 manner.

Nekhludoff was surprised that a jailer of the ward where political prisoners were kept should pass notes inside the very prison walls, and almost within sight of every one; he did not then know that this was both a jailer and a spy. However, he took the note and read it on coming out of the prison.

The note was written in a bold hand, and ran as follows: "Having heard that you visit the prison, and are interested in the case of a criminal prisoner, the desire of seeing you arose in me. Ask for a permission to see me. I can give you a good deal of information concerning your protegee, and also our group.--Yours gratefully, VERA DOUKHOVA."

Vera Doukhova had been a school-teacher in an out-of-the-way village of the Novgorod Government, where Nekhludoff and some friends of his had once put up while bear hunting. Nekhludoff gladly and vividly10 recalled those old days, and his acquaintance with Doukhova. It was just before Lent, in an isolated11 spot, 40 miles from the railway. The hunt had been successful; two bears had been killed; and the company were having dinner before starting on their return journey, when the master of the hut where they were putting up came in to say that the deacon's daughter wanted to speak to Prince Nekhludoff. "Is she pretty?" some one asked. "None of that, please," Nekhludoff said, and rose with a serious look on his face. Wiping his mouth, and wondering what the deacon's daughter might want of him, he went into the host's private hut.

There he found a girl with a felt hat and a warm cloak on--a sinewy12, ugly girl; only her eyes with their arched brows were beautiful.

"Here, miss, speak to him," said the old housewife; "this is the prince himself. I shall go out meanwhile."

"In what way can I be of service to you?" Nekhludoff asked.

"I--I--I see you are throwing away your money on such nonsense--on hunting," began the girl, in great confusion. "I know--I only want one thing--to be of use to the people, and I can do nothing because I know nothing--" Her eyes were so truthful13, so kind, and her expression of resoluteness14 and yet bashfulness was so touching15, that Nekhludoff, as it often happened to him, suddenly felt as if he were in her position, understood, and sympathised.

"What can I do, then?"

"I am a teacher, but should like to follow a course of study; and I am not allowed to do so. That is, not that I am not allowed to; they'd allow me to, but I have not got the means. Give them to me, and when I have finished the course I shall repay you. I am thinking the rich kill bears and give the peasants drink; all this is bad. Why should they not do good? I only want 80 roubles. But if you don't wish to, never mind," she added, gravely.

"On the contrary, I am very grateful to you for this opportunity. . . . I will bring it at once," said Nekhludoff.

He went out into the passage, and there met one of his comrades, who had been overhearing his conversation. Paying no heed16 to his chaffing, Nekhludoff got the money out of his bag and took it to her.

"Oh, please, do not thank me; it is I who should thank you," he said.

It was pleasant to remember all this now; pleasant to remember that he had nearly had a quarrel with an officer who tried to make an objectionable joke of it, and how another of his comrades had taken his part, which led to a closer friendship between them. How successful the whole of that hunting expedition had been, and how happy he had felt when returning to the railway station that night. The line of sledges18, the horses in tandem19, glide20 quickly along the narrow road that lies through the forest, now between high trees, now between low firs weighed down by the snow, caked in heavy lumps on their branches. A red light flashes in the dark, some one lights an aromatic21 cigarette. Joseph, a bear driver, keeps running from sledge17 to sledge, up to his knees in snow, and while putting things to rights he speaks about the elk22 which are now going about on the deep snow and gnawing23 the bark off the aspen trees, of the bears that are lying asleep in their deep hidden dens24, and his breath comes warm through the opening in the sledge cover. All this came back to Nekhludoff's mind; but, above all, the joyous25 sense of health, strength, and freedom from care: the lungs breathing in the frosty air so deeply that the fur cloak is drawn26 tightly on his chest, the fine snow drops off the low branches on to his face, his body is warm, his face feels fresh, and his soul is free from care, self-reproach, fear, or desire. How beautiful it was. And now, O God! what torment27, what trouble!

Evidently Vera Doukhova was a revolutionist and imprisoned28 as such. He must see her, especially as she promised to advise him how to lighten Maslova's lot.

“唉,真没想到会弄得这么糟,这么糟!”聂赫留朵夫一边想,一边走出监狱。直到现在,他才了解自己的全部罪孽。要不是他决心赎罪自新,他也不会发觉自己罪孽的深重。不仅如此,她也不会感觉到他害她害到什么地步。直到现在,这一切才暴露无遗,使人触目惊心。直到现在,他才看到他怎样摧残了这个女人的心灵;她也才懂得他怎样伤害了她。以前聂赫留朵夫一直孤芳自赏,连自己的忏悔都很得意,如今他觉得这一切简直可怕。他觉得再也不能把她抛开不管,但又无法想象他们的关系将会有怎样的结局。

聂赫留朵夫刚走到大门口,就有一个戴满奖章的看守露出一副使人讨厌的媚相,鬼鬼祟祟地递给他一封信。

“嗯,这信是一个女人写给阁下的……”他说着交给聂赫留朵夫一封信。

“哪一个女人?”

“您看了就会知道。是个女犯,政治犯。我跟他们在一起。这事是她托我办的。这种事虽然犯禁,但从人道出发……”看守不自然地说。

一个专管政治犯的看守,在监狱里几乎当着众人的面传递信件,这使聂赫留朵夫感到纳闷。他还不知道,这人又是看守又是密探。他接过信,一面走出监狱,一面看信。信是用铅笔写的,字迹老练,不用旧体字母,内容如下:

“听说您对一个刑事犯很关心,常到监狱里来看她。我很想同您见一次面。请您要求当局准许您同我见面。如果得到批准,我可以向您提供许多有关那个您替她说情的人以及我们小组的重要情况。感谢您的薇拉。”

薇拉原是诺夫哥罗德省一个偏僻乡村的女教师。有一次聂赫留朵夫跟同伴去那里猎熊。这个女教师曾要求聂赫留朵夫给她一笔钱,帮助她进高等学校念书。聂赫留朵夫给了她钱,事后就把她忘记了。现在才知道她是个政治犯,关在监狱里。她大概在监狱里听说了他的事,所以愿意替他效劳。当时一切事情都很简单,如今却变得那么复杂难弄。聂赫留朵夫生动而愉快地回忆起当时的情景,他同薇拉认识的经过。那是谢肉节之前的事,在一个离铁路线六十俄里的偏僻乡村。那次打猎很顺手,打死了两头熊。他们正在吃饭,准备动身回家。这时,他们借宿的农家主人走来说,本地教堂助祭的女儿来了,要求见一见聂赫留朵夫公爵。

“长得好看吗?”有人问。

“嗐,住口!”聂赫留朵夫板起脸说,从饭桌旁站起来,擦擦嘴,心里感到奇怪,助祭的女儿会有什么事要见他,随即走到主人屋里。

屋子里有一个姑娘,头戴毡帽,身穿皮外套,脸容消瘦,青筋毕露,相貌并不好看,只有一双眼睛和两道扬起的眉毛长得很美。

“喏,薇拉·叶夫列莫夫娜,这位就是公爵,”上了年纪的女主人说,“你跟她谈谈吧。我走了。”

“我能为您效点什么劳哇?”聂赫留朵夫说。

“我……我……您瞧,您有钱,可您把钱花在无聊的事上,花在打猎上,这我知道,”那个姑娘很难为情地说,“我只有一个希望,希望自己成为一个对人类有益的人,可是我什么也不会,因为什么也不懂。”

她的一双眼睛诚恳而善良,脸上的神色又果断又胆怯,十分动人。聂赫留朵夫不由得设身处地替她着想——他有这样的习惯,——立即懂得她的心情,很怜悯她。

“可是我能为您出什么力呢?”

“我是个教员,想进高等学校念书,可是进不去。倒不是人家下让进,人家是让我进的,可是要有钱。您借我一笔钱,等我将来毕业了还您。我想,有钱人打熊,还给庄稼人喝酒,这样不好。他们何不做点好事呢?我只要八十卢布就够了。您要是不愿意,那就算了,”她怒气冲冲地说。

“正好相反,我很感谢您给了我这样一个机会……我这就去拿来,”聂赫留朵夫说。

他走出屋子,看见他那个同伴正在门廊里偷听他们谈话。

他没有答理同伴的取笑,从皮夹子里取出钱,交给她。

“您请收下,收下,不用谢。我应该谢谢您才是。”

聂赫留朵夫此刻想起这一切,感到很高兴。他想到有个军官想拿那事当作桃色新闻取笑他,他差点儿同他吵架,另一个同事为他说话,从此他同他更加要好,又想到那次打猎很顺手很快活,那天夜里回到火车站,他心里特别高兴。双马雪橇一辆接着一辆,排成一长串,悄没声儿地在林间狭路上飞驰。两边树木,高矮不一,中间杂着积雪累累的枞树。在黑暗中,红光一闪,有人点着一支香味扑鼻的纸烟。猎人奥西普在没膝深的雪地里,从这个雪橇跑到那个雪橇,讲到麋鹿怎样徘徊在深雪地上,啃着白杨树皮,又讲到熊怎样躲在密林的洞穴里睡觉,洞口冒着嘴里吐出来的热气。

聂赫留朵夫想到这一切,想到自己当年身强力壮,无忧无虑,多么幸福。他鼓起胸膛,深深地呼吸着冰凉的空气。树枝上的积雪被马轭碰下来,撒在他脸上。他感到周身暖和,脸上凉快,心里没有忧虑,没有悔恨,没有恐惧,也没有欲望。那时是多么快乐呀!如今呢?我的天,如今一切都是多么痛苦,多么艰难哪!……

薇拉显然是个革命者,她因革命活动而坐牢。应该见见她,特别是因为她答应帮他出主意,来改善玛丝洛娃的处境。


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1 fully Gfuzd     
adv.完全地,全部地,彻底地;充分地
参考例句:
  • The doctor asked me to breathe in,then to breathe out fully.医生让我先吸气,然后全部呼出。
  • They soon became fully integrated into the local community.他们很快就完全融入了当地人的圈子。
2 expiate qPOzO     
v.抵补,赎罪
参考例句:
  • He tried to expiate his crimes by giving money to the church.他以捐款给教会来赎罪。
  • It seemed that Alice was expiating her father's sins with her charity work.似乎艾丽斯正在通过自己的慈善工作来弥补父亲的罪过。
3 guilt 9e6xr     
n.犯罪;内疚;过失,罪责
参考例句:
  • She tried to cover up her guilt by lying.她企图用谎言掩饰自己的罪行。
  • Don't lay a guilt trip on your child about schoolwork.别因为功课责备孩子而使他觉得很内疚。
4 remorse lBrzo     
n.痛恨,悔恨,自责
参考例句:
  • She had no remorse about what she had said.她对所说的话不后悔。
  • He has shown no remorse for his actions.他对自己的行为没有任何悔恨之意。
5 insinuating insinuating     
adj.曲意巴结的,暗示的v.暗示( insinuate的现在分词 );巧妙或迂回地潜入;(使)缓慢进入;慢慢伸入
参考例句:
  • Are you insinuating that I' m telling a lie ? 你这是意味着我是在说谎吗? 来自辞典例句
  • He is extremely insinuating, but it's a vulgar nature. 他好奉承拍马,那是种庸俗的品格。 来自辞典例句
6 countenance iztxc     
n.脸色,面容;面部表情;vt.支持,赞同
参考例句:
  • At the sight of this photograph he changed his countenance.他一看见这张照片脸色就变了。
  • I made a fierce countenance as if I would eat him alive.我脸色恶狠狠地,仿佛要把他活生生地吞下去。
7 ward LhbwY     
n.守卫,监护,病房,行政区,由监护人或法院保护的人(尤指儿童);vt.守护,躲开
参考例句:
  • The hospital has a medical ward and a surgical ward.这家医院有内科病房和外科病房。
  • During the evening picnic,I'll carry a torch to ward off the bugs.傍晚野餐时,我要点根火把,抵挡蚊虫。
8 spoke XryyC     
n.(车轮的)辐条;轮辐;破坏某人的计划;阻挠某人的行动 v.讲,谈(speak的过去式);说;演说;从某种观点来说
参考例句:
  • They sourced the spoke nuts from our company.他们的轮辐螺帽是从我们公司获得的。
  • The spokes of a wheel are the bars that connect the outer ring to the centre.辐条是轮子上连接外圈与中心的条棒。
9 unnatural 5f2zAc     
adj.不自然的;反常的
参考例句:
  • Did her behaviour seem unnatural in any way?她有任何反常表现吗?
  • She has an unnatural smile on her face.她脸上挂着做作的微笑。
10 vividly tebzrE     
adv.清楚地,鲜明地,生动地
参考例句:
  • The speaker pictured the suffering of the poor vividly.演讲者很生动地描述了穷人的生活。
  • The characters in the book are vividly presented.这本书里的人物写得栩栩如生。
11 isolated bqmzTd     
adj.与世隔绝的
参考例句:
  • His bad behaviour was just an isolated incident. 他的不良行为只是个别事件。
  • Patients with the disease should be isolated. 这种病的患者应予以隔离。
12 sinewy oyIwZ     
adj.多腱的,强壮有力的
参考例句:
  • When muscles are exercised often and properly,they keep the arms firm and sinewy.如果能经常正确地锻炼肌肉的话,双臂就会一直结实而强健。
  • His hard hands and sinewy sunburned limbs told of labor and endurance.他粗糙的双手,被太阳哂得发黑的健壮四肢,均表明他十分辛勤,非常耐劳。
13 truthful OmpwN     
adj.真实的,说实话的,诚实的
参考例句:
  • You can count on him for a truthful report of the accident.你放心,他会对事故作出如实的报告的。
  • I don't think you are being entirely truthful.我认为你并没全讲真话。
14 resoluteness 4dad1979f7cc3e8d5a752ab8556a73dd     
参考例句:
  • His resoluteness carried him through the battle. 他的果敢使他通过了战斗考验。
15 touching sg6zQ9     
adj.动人的,使人感伤的
参考例句:
  • It was a touching sight.这是一幅动人的景象。
  • His letter was touching.他的信很感人。
16 heed ldQzi     
v.注意,留意;n.注意,留心
参考例句:
  • You must take heed of what he has told.你要注意他所告诉的事。
  • For the first time he had to pay heed to his appearance.这是他第一次非得注意自己的外表不可了。
17 sledge AxVw9     
n.雪橇,大锤;v.用雪橇搬运,坐雪橇往
参考例句:
  • The sledge gained momentum as it ran down the hill.雪橇从山上下冲时的动力越来越大。
  • The sledge slid across the snow as lightly as a boat on the water.雪橇在雪原上轻巧地滑行,就象船在水上行驶一样。
18 sledges 1d20363adfa0dc73f0640410090d5153     
n.雪橇,雪车( sledge的名词复数 )v.乘雪橇( sledge的第三人称单数 );用雪橇运载
参考例句:
  • Sledges run well over frozen snow. 雪橇在冻硬了的雪上顺利滑行。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • They used picks and sledges to break the rocks. 他们用[镐和撬]来打碎这些岩石。 来自互联网
19 tandem 6Ibzp     
n.同时发生;配合;adv.一个跟着一个地;纵排地;adj.(两匹马)前后纵列的
参考例句:
  • Malcolm's contract will run in tandem with his existing one.马尔科姆的合同将与他手头的合同同时生效。
  • He is working in tandem with officials of the Serious Fraud Office.他正配合欺诈重案办公室的官员工作。
20 glide 2gExT     
n./v.溜,滑行;(时间)消逝
参考例句:
  • We stood in silence watching the snake glide effortlessly.我们噤若寒蝉地站着,眼看那条蛇逍遥自在地游来游去。
  • So graceful was the ballerina that she just seemed to glide.那芭蕾舞女演员翩跹起舞,宛如滑翔。
21 aromatic lv9z8     
adj.芳香的,有香味的
参考例句:
  • It has an agreeable aromatic smell.它有一种好闻的香味。
  • It is light,fruity aromatic and a perfect choice for ending a meal.它是口感轻淡,圆润,芳香的,用于结束一顿饭完美的选择。
22 elk 2ZVzA     
n.麋鹿
参考例句:
  • I was close enough to the elk to hear its labored breathing.我离那头麋鹿非常近,能听见它吃力的呼吸声。
  • The refuge contains the largest wintering population of elk in the world.这座庇护所有着世界上数量最大的冬季麋鹿群。
23 gnawing GsWzWk     
a.痛苦的,折磨人的
参考例句:
  • The dog was gnawing a bone. 那狗在啃骨头。
  • These doubts had been gnawing at him for some time. 这些疑虑已经折磨他一段时间了。
24 dens 10262f677bcb72a856e3e1317093cf28     
n.牙齿,齿状部分;兽窝( den的名词复数 );窝点;休息室;书斋
参考例句:
  • Female bears tend to line their dens with leaves or grass. 母熊往往会在洞穴里垫些树叶或草。 来自辞典例句
  • In winter bears usually hibernate in their dens. 冬天熊通常在穴里冬眠。 来自辞典例句
25 joyous d3sxB     
adj.充满快乐的;令人高兴的
参考例句:
  • The lively dance heightened the joyous atmosphere of the scene.轻快的舞蹈给这场戏渲染了欢乐气氛。
  • They conveyed the joyous news to us soon.他们把这一佳音很快地传递给我们。
26 drawn MuXzIi     
v.拖,拉,拔出;adj.憔悴的,紧张的
参考例句:
  • All the characters in the story are drawn from life.故事中的所有人物都取材于生活。
  • Her gaze was drawn irresistibly to the scene outside.她的目光禁不住被外面的风景所吸引。
27 torment gJXzd     
n.折磨;令人痛苦的东西(人);vt.折磨;纠缠
参考例句:
  • He has never suffered the torment of rejection.他从未经受过遭人拒绝的痛苦。
  • Now nothing aggravates me more than when people torment each other.没有什么东西比人们的互相折磨更使我愤怒。
28 imprisoned bc7d0bcdd0951055b819cfd008ef0d8d     
下狱,监禁( imprison的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • He was imprisoned for two concurrent terms of 30 months and 18 months. 他被判处30个月和18个月的监禁,合并执行。
  • They were imprisoned for possession of drugs. 他们因拥有毒品而被监禁。


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