Part 3 Chapter 3

MARY PAVLOVNA.

In spite of the hard conditions in which they were placed, life among the political prisoners seemed very good to Katusha after the depraved, luxurious¹ and effeminate life she had led in town for the last six years, and after two months' imprisonment² with criminal prisoners. The fifteen to twenty miles they did per day, with one day's rest after two days' marching, strengthened her physically³, and the fellowship with her new companions opened out to her a life full of interests such as she had never dreamed of. People so wonderful (as she expressed it) as those whom she was now going with she had not only never met but could not even have imagined.

"There now, and I cried when I was sentenced," she said. "Why, I must thank God for it all the days of my life. I have learned to know what I never should have found out else."

The motives⁴ she understood easily and without effort that guided these people, and, being of the people, fully⁵ sympathised with them. She understood that these persons were for the people and against the upper classes, and though themselves belonging to the upper classes had sacrificed their privileges, their liberty and their lives for the people. This especially made her value and admire them. She was charmed with all the new companions, but particularly with Mary Pavlovna, and she was not only charmed with her, but loved her with a peculiar⁶, respectful and rapturous love. She was struck by the fact that this beautiful girl, the daughter of a rich general, who could speak three languages, gave away all that her rich brother sent her, and lived like the simplest working girl, and dressed not only simply, but poorly, paying no heed⁷ to her appearance. This trait and a complete absence of coquetry was particularly surprising and therefore attractive to Maslova. Maslova could see that Mary Pavlovna knew, and was even pleased to know, that she was handsome, and yet the effect her appearance had on men was not at all pleasing to her; she was even afraid of it, and felt an absolute disgust to all love affairs. Her men companions knew it, and if they felt attracted by her never permitted themselves to show it to her, but treated her as they would a man; but with strangers, who often molested⁸ her, the great physical strength on which she prided herself stood her in good stead.

"It happened once," she said to Katusha, "that a man followed me in the street and would not leave me on any account. At last I gave him such a shaking that he was frightened and ran away."

She became a revolutionary, as she said, because she felt a dislike to the life of the well-to-do from childhood up, and loved the life of the common people, and she was always being scolded for spending her time in the servants' hall, in the kitchen or the stables instead of the drawing-room.

"And I found it amusing to be with cooks and the coachmen, and dull with our gentlemen and ladies," she said. "Then when I came to understand things I saw that our life was altogether wrong; I had no mother and I did not care for my father, and so when I was nineteen I left home, and went with a girl friend to work as a factory hand."

After she left the factory she lived in the country, then returned to town and lived in a lodging⁹, where they had a secret printing press. There she was arrested and sentenced to hard labour. Mary Pavlovna said nothing about it herself, but Katusha heard from others that Mary Pavlovna was sentenced because, when the lodging was searched by the police and one of the revolutionists fired a shot in the dark, she pleaded guilty.

As soon as she had learned to know Mary Pavlovna, Katusha noticed that, whatever the conditions she found herself in, Mary Pavlovna never thought of herself, but was always anxious to serve, to help some one, in matters small or great. One of her present companions, Novodvoroff, said of her that she devoted¹⁰ herself to philanthropic amusements. And this was true. The interest of her whole life lay in the search for opportunities of serving others. This kind of amusement had become the habit, the business of her life. And she did it all so naturally that those who knew her no longer valued but simply expected it of her.

When Maslova first came among them, Mary Pavlovna felt repulsed¹¹ and disgusted. Katusha noticed this, but she also noticed that, having made an effort to overcome these feelings, Mary Pavlovna became particularly tender and kind to her. The tenderness and kindness of so uncommon¹² a being touched Maslova so much that she gave her whole heart, and unconsciously accepting her views, could not help imitating her in everything.

This devoted love of Katusha touched Mary Pavlovna in her turn, and she learned to love Katusha.

These women were also united by the repulsion they both felt to sexual love. The one loathed¹³ that kind of love, having experienced all its horrors, the other, never having experienced it, looked on it as something incomprehensible and at the same time as something repugnant and offensive to human dignity.

玛丝洛娃在城里过了六年奢侈放荡的生活，又在监狱里同刑事犯一起度过两个月，如今同政治犯待在一起，尽管处境艰苦，她却觉得心情舒畅。每天步行二三十俄里，伙食很好，走两天休息一天。这样，她的身体便逐渐强壮起来。再有，结交一批新朋友，使她发现了以前一无所知的生活乐趣。她认为目前同她一起赶路的人都好得出奇，不仅以前从没见过，简直无法想象。

“是啊，判刑的时候，我哭了，”玛丝洛娃说。“但我要永远感谢上帝。如今我懂了好多事，那在以前是一辈子都不会懂得的。”

玛丝洛娃毫不费力就懂得了这些人从事革命活动的动机。她出身平民，对他们自然很同情。她明白，这些人站在老百姓一边，反对老爷太太们；这些人原来也是老爷太太，但他们为了老百姓的利益，不惜牺牲特权、自由和生命。这就使她格外敬重他们，钦佩他们。

她钦佩所有的新朋友，但最钦佩谢基尼娜。她不仅钦佩她，而且怀着特殊的敬意热爱她。她感到惊讶的是，这个富裕将军家庭出身的美丽姑娘，能讲三种外语，却过着最普通的工人生活，把有钱的哥哥寄给她的东西全都分赠给人家，自己穿戴得不仅很朴素，甚至可以说很粗陋，而且对自己的外表毫不在意。谢基尼娜从不卖弄风情，这使玛丝洛娃感到特别惊奇，因此对她格外钦佩。玛丝洛娃看到谢基尼娜知道自己长得美，并因此感到高兴，但她不仅不因男人欣赏她的美貌而快乐，并且有点恐惧，她对谈情说爱甚至觉得嫌恶和害怕。凡是知道她脾气的男人，即使爱慕她，也不敢有所表示，而总是象对待男朋友那样对待她。那些不熟悉她的男人，往往对她纠缠不清，但据她自己说，全靠她力气大才把他们摆脱掉，而她也就以力气大自豪。她笑着讲道：“有一次，有个老爷在街上缠住我不放，我就抓住他使劲摇晃了几下，把他吓得拔脚就跑。”

她之所以成为革命家，据她自己说，是因为从小就厌恶贵族生活，而喜欢平民生活。那时她常常挨骂，因为喜欢待在女仆室、厨房和马房里，却不愿待在客厅里。

“我跟厨娘和车夫在一起，总是很快活，可是跟我们那些老爷太太在一起却觉得无聊，”谢基尼娜讲道。“后来我懂事了，看出我们的生活真是糟透了。我没有母亲，我不喜欢父亲。十九岁那年我就离开家，跟一个女朋友一起到厂里做工。”

谢基尼娜离开工厂就住到乡下去。后来又回到城里，住在一处设有秘密印刷所的房子里，终于被捕，判处苦役。这些事她自己从没讲过，但玛丝洛娃从别人嘴里知道，她被判苦役，是因为那所房子被搜查时，有个革命者在黑暗中开了一枪，她却把开枪的罪名揽到自己头上。

玛丝洛娃自从认识她以来就看出，不论在什么地方，不论在什么情况下，谢基尼娜从来不顾自己，遇到大小事情，总是只考虑怎样帮助别人，为别人出力。她现在的同志中有个叫诺伏德伏罗夫的，讲到她时总是戏称她为慈善迷。这话确实不错。她生活的全部乐趣就在于找寻机会为别人出力，象猎人找寻猎物一样。这种爱好已成为习惯，成为她的终身事业。她做起来十分自然，以致凡是知道她的人都不客气地要她帮助，并且认为不值得一提。

玛丝洛娃刚加入政治犯的队伍时，谢基尼娜有点嫌恶她。玛丝洛娃注意到这一点，但后来又发现谢基尼娜竭力克制自己的感情，待她特别和蔼可亲。这样一位不平凡的人物竟如此和蔼可亲，这使玛丝洛娃深为感动，她就把整颗心都交给她，并且不知不觉接受她的观点，情不自禁地处处模仿她。玛丝洛娃的一片赤忱感动了谢基尼娜，她也就真心喜欢玛丝洛娃了。

这两个女人特别投机，还因为她们对性爱都十分嫌恶。一个憎恨这种感情，因为在这方面尝够了痛苦；另一个虽没有这方面的体验，但认为这是一种辱没人格而难以理解的可憎的事。

1 luxurious   

adj.精美而昂贵的；豪华的

参考例句：

• This is a luxurious car complete with air conditioning and telephone.这是一辆附有空调设备和电话的豪华轿车。
• The rich man lives in luxurious surroundings.这位富人生活在奢侈的环境中。

2 imprisonment   

n.关押，监禁，坐牢

参考例句：

• His sentence was commuted from death to life imprisonment.他的判决由死刑减为无期徒刑。
• He was sentenced to one year's imprisonment for committing bigamy.他因为犯重婚罪被判入狱一年。

3 physically   

adj.物质上，体格上，身体上，按自然规律

参考例句：

• He was out of sorts physically,as well as disordered mentally.他浑身不舒服，心绪也很乱。
• Every time I think about it I feel physically sick.一想起那件事我就感到极恶心。

4 motives   

n.动机，目的( motive的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• to impeach sb's motives 怀疑某人的动机
• His motives are unclear. 他的用意不明。

5 fully   

adv.完全地，全部地，彻底地；充分地

参考例句：

• The doctor asked me to breathe in,then to breathe out fully.医生让我先吸气，然后全部呼出。
• They soon became fully integrated into the local community.他们很快就完全融入了当地人的圈子。

6 peculiar   

adj.古怪的，异常的；特殊的，特有的

参考例句：

• He walks in a peculiar fashion.他走路的样子很奇特。
• He looked at me with a very peculiar expression.他用一种很奇怪的表情看着我。

7 heed   

v.注意，留意；n.注意，留心

参考例句：

• You must take heed of what he has told.你要注意他所告诉的事。
• For the first time he had to pay heed to his appearance.这是他第一次非得注意自己的外表不可了。

8 molested   

v.骚扰( molest的过去式和过去分词 )；干扰；调戏；猥亵

参考例句：

• The bigger children in the neighborhood molested the younger ones. 邻居家的大孩子欺负小孩子。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• He molested children and was sent to jail. 他猥亵儿童，进了监狱。 来自《简明英汉词典》

9 lodging   

n.寄宿，住所；(大学生的)校外宿舍

参考例句：

• The bill is inclusive of the food and lodging. 账单包括吃、住费用。
• Where can you find lodging for the night? 你今晚在哪里借宿?

10 devoted   

adj.忠诚的，忠实的，热心的，献身于...的

参考例句：

• He devoted his life to the educational cause of the motherland.他为祖国的教育事业贡献了一生。
• We devoted a lengthy and full discussion to this topic.我们对这个题目进行了长时间的充分讨论。

11 repulsed   

v.击退( repulse的过去式和过去分词 )；驳斥；拒绝

参考例句：

• I was repulsed by the horrible smell. 这种可怕的气味让我恶心。
• At the first brush,the enemy was repulsed. 敌人在第一次交火时就被击退了。 来自《简明英汉词典》

12 uncommon   

adj.罕见的，非凡的，不平常的

参考例句：

• Such attitudes were not at all uncommon thirty years ago.这些看法在30年前很常见。
• Phil has uncommon intelligence.菲尔智力超群。

13 loathed   

v.憎恨，厌恶( loathe的过去式和过去分词 )；极不喜欢

参考例句：

• Baker loathed going to this red-haired young pup for supplies. 面包师傅不喜欢去这个红头发的自负的傻小子那里拿原料。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• Therefore, above all things else, he loathed his miserable self! 因此，他厌恶不幸的自我尤胜其它！ 来自英汉文学 - 红字