Part 1 Holston
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The view from the holding cell wasn’t as blurry1 as it had been in the cafeteria, and Holston spent his
final day in the silo puzzling over this. Could it be that the camera on that side was shielded against
the toxic3 wind? Did each cleaner, condemned4 to death, put more care into preserving the view they’d
enjoyed on their last day? Or was the extra effort a gift to the next cleaner, who would spend their
final day in that same cell?
why he was there, on the wrong side of those bars, and willingly.
As his thoughts drifted to Allison, he sat and stared out at the dead world some ancient peoples
had left behind. It wasn’t the best view of the landscape around their buried bunker, but it wasn’t the
worst, either. In the distance, low rolling hills stood, a pretty shade of brown, like coffee mash6 with
just the right amount of pig’s milk in it. The sky above the hills was the same dull gray of his
childhood and his father’s childhood and his grandfather’s childhood. The only moving feature on the
beasts from the picture books.
The view of the dead world filled up the entire wall of his cell, just like all the walls on the silo’s
upper level, each one full of a different slice of the blurry and ever-blurrier wasteland beyond.
Holston’s little piece of that view reached from the corner by his cot, up to the ceiling, to the other
forbidding prison bars.
The illusion, however, convinced only from a distance. Leaning closer, Holston could see a
handful of dead pixels on the massive display. They stood stark10 white against all the brown and gray
hues11. Shining with ferocious12 intensity13, each pixel (Allison had called them “stuck” pixels) was like a
toward some better reality. There were dozens of them, now that he looked closer. Holston wondered
if anyone in the silo knew how to fix them, or if they had the tools required for such a delicate job.
Were they dead forever, like Allison? Would all of the pixels be dead eventually? Holston imagined a
day when half of the pixels were stark white, and then generations later when only a few gray and
brown ones remained, then a mere16 dozen, the world having flipped17 to a new state, the people of the
silo thinking the outside world was on fire, the only true pixels now mistaken for malfunctioning18
ones.
Or was that what Holston and his people were doing even now?
other side of the bars, her hands resting in the belly20 of her overalls21. She nodded gravely toward the
cot.
“When the cell’s empty, at night when you and Deputy Marnes are off duty, I sometimes sit right
there and enjoy that very view.”
Holston turned back to survey the muddy, lifeless landscape. It only looked depressing compared
to scenes from the children’s books—the only books to survive the uprising. Most people doubted
those colors in the books, just as they doubted purple elephants and pink birds ever existed, but
Holston felt that they were truer than the scene before him. He, like some others, felt something
compared to the stifling23 silo, that muddy gray view outside looked like some kind of salvation24, just
the sort of open air men were born to breathe.
“Always seems a little clearer in here,” Jahns said. “The view, I mean.”
Holston remained silent. He watched a curling piece of cloud break off and move in a new
“You get your pick for dinner,” the mayor said. “It’s tradition—”
“You don’t need to tell me how this works,” Holston said, cutting Jahns off. “It’s only been three
years since I served Allison her last meal right here.” He reached to spin the copper26 ring on his finger
out of habit, forgetting he had left it on his dresser hours ago.
“Can’t believe it’s been that long,” Jahns murmured to herself. Holston turned to see her squinting27
at the clouds displayed on the wall.
“Do you miss her?” Holston asked venomously. “Or do you just hate that the blur has had so
much time to build?”
Jahns’s eyes flashed his way a moment, then dropped to the floor. “You know I don’t want this,
not for any view. But rules are the rules—”
“It’s not to be blamed,” Holston said, trying to let the anger go. “I know the rules better than
most.” His hand moved, just a little, toward the missing badge, left behind like his ring. “Hell, I
enforced those rules for most my life, even after I realized they were bullshit.”
Jahns cleared her throat. “Well, I won’t ask why you chose this. I’ll just assume it’s because you’d
be unhappier here.”
Holston met her gaze, saw the film on her eyes before she was able to blink it away. Jahns looked
thinner than usual, comical in her gaping overalls. The lines in her neck and radiating from her eyes
were deeper than he remembered. Darker. And he thought the crack in her voice was genuine regret,
Suddenly, Holston saw himself through Jahns’s eyes, a broken man sitting on a worn bench, his
skin gray from the pale glow of the dead world beyond, and the sight made him dizzy. His head spun28
as it groped for something reasonable to latch29 on to, something that made sense. It seemed a dream,
the predicament his life had become. None of the last three years seemed true. Nothing seemed true
anymore.
He turned back to the tan hills. In the corner of his eye, he thought he saw another pixel die,
turning stark white. Another tiny window had opened, another clear view through an illusion he had
grown to doubt.
“I’ve been mayor too long,” Jahns said.
Holston glanced back and saw that her wrinkled hands were wrapped around the cold steel bars.
“Our records don’t go back to the beginning, you know. They don’t go back before the uprising a
century and a half ago, but since then no mayor has sent more people to cleaning than I have.”
“I’m sorry to burden you,” Holston said dryly.
“I take no pleasure in it. That’s all I’m saying. No pleasure at all.”
Holston swept his hand at the massive screen. “But you’ll be the first to watch a clear sunset
tomorrow night, won’t you?” He hated the way he sounded. Holston wasn’t angry about his death, or
life, or whatever came after tomorrow, but resentment31 over Allison’s fate still lingered. He continued
to see inevitable32 events from the past as avoidable, long after they’d taken their course. “You’ll all
love the view tomorrow,” he said, more to himself than the mayor.
“That’s not fair at all,” Jahns said. “The law is the law. You broke it. You knew you were
breaking it.”
Holston looked at his feet. The two of them allowed a silence to form. Mayor Jahns was the one
“You haven’t threatened yet to not go through with it. Some of the others are nervous that you
might not do the cleaning because you aren’t saying you won’t.”
Holston laughed. “They’d feel better if I said I wouldn’t clean the sensors34?” He shook his head at
“Everyone who sits there says they aren’t gonna do it,” Jahns told him, “but then they do. It’s
what we’ve all come to expect—”
“Allison never threatened that she wouldn’t do it,” Holston reminded her, but he knew what Jahns
meant. He himself had been sure Allison wouldn’t wipe the lenses. And now he thought he
understood what she’d been going through as she sat on that very bench. There were larger things to
consider than the act of cleaning. Most who were sent outside were caught at something, were
surprised to find themselves in that cell, their fate mere hours away. Revenge was on their mind when
they said they wouldn’t do it. But Allison and now Holston had bigger worries. Whether or not
they’d clean was inconsequential; they had arrived here because they wanted, on some insane level,
to be here. All that remained was the curiosity of it all. The wonder of the outside world beyond the
projected veil of the wallscreens.
“So, are you planning on going through with it or not?” Jahns asked directly, her desperation
evident.
He pretended not to care, to be disinterested37 in the why of the cleaning, but he had spent most of
his life, the past three years especially, agonizing38 over the why. The question drove him nuts. And if
his refusing to answer Jahns caused pain to those who had murdered his wife, he wouldn’t be upset.
Jahns rubbed her hands up and down the bars, anxious. “Can I tell them you’ll do it?” she asked.
“Or tell them I won’t. I don’t care. It sounds like either answer will mean the same to them.”
Jahns didn’t reply. Holston looked up at her, and the mayor nodded.
“If you change your mind about the meal, let Deputy Marnes know. He’ll be at the desk all night,
as is tradition …”
She didn’t need to say. Tears came to Holston’s eyes as he remembered that part of his former
duties. He had manned that desk twelve years ago when Donna Parkins was put to cleaning, eight
years ago when it was Jack39 Brent’s time. And he had spent a night clinging to the bars, lying on the
Mayor Jahns turned to go.
“Sheriff,” Holston muttered before she got out of earshot.
“I’m sorry?” Jahns lingered on the other side of the bars, her gray, bushy brows hanging over her
eyes.
“It’s Sheriff Marnes now,” Holston reminded her. “Not Deputy.”
suggesting you get some sleep.”
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