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Winter set in. Weeks went to Berlin to attend the lectures of Paulssen, and Hayward began to think of going South. The local theatre opened its doors. Philip and Hayward went to it two or three times a week with the praiseworthy intention of improving their German, and Philip found it a more diverting manner of perfecting himself in the language than listening to sermons. They found themselves in the midst of a revival1 of the drama. Several of Ibsen’s plays were on the repertory for the winter; Sudermann’s Die Ehre was then a new play, and on its production in the quiet university town caused the greatest excitement; it was extravagantly2 praised and bitterly attacked; other dramatists followed with plays written under the modern influence, and Philip witnessed a series of works in which the vileness3 of mankind was displayed before him. He had never been to a play in his life till then (poor touring companies sometimes came to the Assembly Rooms at Blackstable, but the Vicar, partly on account of his profession, partly because he thought it would be vulgar, never went to see them) and the passion of the stage seized him. He felt a thrill the moment he got into the little, shabby, ill-lit theatre. Soon he came to know the peculiarities4 of the small company, and by the casting could tell at once what were the characteristics of the persons in the drama; but this made no difference to him. To him it was real life. It was a strange life, dark and tortured, in which men and women showed to remorseless eyes the evil that was in their hearts: a fair face concealed5 a depraved mind; the virtuous6 used virtue7 as a mask to hide their secret vice8, the seeming-strong fainted within with their weakness; the honest were corrupt9, the chaste10 were lewd11. You seemed to dwell in a room where the night before an orgy had taken place: the windows had not been opened in the morning; the air was foul12 with the dregs of beer, and stale smoke, and flaring13 gas. There was no laughter. At most you sniggered at the hypocrite or the fool: the characters expressed themselves in cruel words that seemed wrung14 out of their hearts by shame and anguish15.

Philip was carried away by the sordid16 intensity17 of it. He seemed to see the world again in another fashion, and this world too he was anxious to know. After the play was over he went to a tavern18 and sat in the bright warmth with Hayward to eat a sandwich and drink a glass of beer. All round were little groups of students, talking and laughing; and here and there was a family, father and mother, a couple of sons and a girl; and sometimes the girl said a sharp thing, and the father leaned back in his chair and laughed, laughed heartily19. It was very friendly and innocent. There was a pleasant homeliness20 in the scene, but for this Philip had no eyes. His thoughts ran on the play he had just come from.

‘You do feel it’s life, don’t you?’ he said excitedly. ‘You know, I don’t think I can stay here much longer. I want to get to London so that I can really begin. I want to have experiences. I’m so tired of preparing for life: I want to live it now.’

Sometimes Hayward left Philip to go home by himself. He would never exactly reply to Philip’s eager questioning, but with a merry, rather stupid laugh, hinted at a romantic amour; he quoted a few lines of Rossetti, and once showed Philip a sonnet21 in which passion and purple, pessimism22 and pathos23, were packed together on the subject of a young lady called Trude. Hayward surrounded his sordid and vulgar little adventures with a glow of poetry, and thought he touched hands with Pericles and Pheidias because to describe the object of his attentions he used the word hetaira instead of one of those, more blunt and apt, provided by the English language. Philip in the daytime had been led by curiosity to pass through the little street near the old bridge, with its neat white houses and green shutters24, in which according to Hayward the Fraulein Trude lived; but the women, with brutal25 faces and painted cheeks, who came out of their doors and cried out to him, filled him with fear; and he fled in horror from the rough hands that sought to detain him. He yearned26 above all things for experience and felt himself ridiculous because at his age he had not enjoyed that which all fiction taught him was the most important thing in life; but he had the unfortunate gift of seeing things as they were, and the reality which was offered him differed too terribly from the ideal of his dreams.

He did not know how wide a country, arid27 and precipitous, must be crossed before the traveller through life comes to an acceptance of reality. It is an illusion that youth is happy, an illusion of those who have lost it; but the young know they are wretched, for they are full of the truthless ideals which have been instilled28 into them, and each time they come in contact with the real they are bruised29 and wounded. It looks as if they were victims of a conspiracy30; for the books they read, ideal by the necessity of selection, and the conversation of their elders, who look back upon the past through a rosy31 haze32 of forgetfulness, prepare them for an unreal life. They must discover for themselves that all they have read and all they have been told are lies, lies, lies; and each discovery is another nail driven into the body on the cross of life. The strange thing is that each one who has gone through that bitter disillusionment adds to it in his turn, unconsciously, by the power within him which is stronger than himself. The companionship of Hayward was the worst possible thing for Philip. He was a man who saw nothing for himself, but only through a literary atmosphere, and he was dangerous because he had deceived himself into sincerity33. He honestly mistook his sensuality for romantic emotion, his vacillation34 for the artistic35 temperament36, and his idleness for philosophic37 calm. His mind, vulgar in its effort at refinement38, saw everything a little larger than life size, with the outlines blurred39, in a golden mist of sentimentality. He lied and never knew that he lied, and when it was pointed40 out to him said that lies were beautiful. He was an idealist.

 

第二十九章

秋尽冬来。维克斯到柏林听保尔森讲学去了,海沃德开始考虑去南方。当地的剧院在上演各种戏目。菲利普和海沃德每周要跑两三次戏院。看戏的目的倒也颇值得嘉许,乃是为了提高他们的德语水平。菲利普发觉,通过这种途径来掌握语言比听牧师布道更生动有趣。他们置身于戏剧的复兴浪潮之中。冬季准备上演的剧目中,有好几出易卜生的戏剧。苏台尔曼的《荣誉》是一部新作,它上演之后,使这座恬静的大学城顿时为之哗然,有的推崇备至,有的痛加抨击。另有些剧作家也紧紧跟上,奉献了不少在新思潮影响下写成的剧本。菲利普眼界大开,在他看到的一系列剧作中,人类的罪恶暴露无遗。在此之前,他还从未看过话剧(有时候,一些可怜巴巴的巡回剧团也来布莱克斯泰勃的村会议厅演出,但是那位教区牧师一则碍于自己的职业,二则认为看戏有失风雅,所以从不肯屈尊赏脸),他被舞台上人物的喜怒哀乐深深吸引住了。他一走进灯光暗淡的蹩脚小戏馆,就感到心弦颤动。没多久,菲利普对那小剧团的特色已了如指掌。只要看一下演员角色的分派情况,就能立刻说出剧中人物的性格特征;不过这并不影响菲利普的兴致。在他看来,戏剧是真实生活,那是一种阴森而痛苦的奇怪生活,男男女女都把自己内心的邪念暴露在无情的睽睽泯众目之下:姣好的容貌把堕落的灵魂包藏了起来;君子淑女拿德行当作掩饰丑恶隐私的面具;徒有其表的强者由于自身的弱点而逐渐演为色厉内荏;诚实之徒并不诚实;高洁之辈原是荡妇、淫棍。你恍惚置身于这样一个房间:前一夜,人们在这儿纵酒宴乐,清晨,窗户尚未打开,空气浑浊不堪,酒残烟陈,杯盘狼藉,煤气灯还在闪亮。台下没有爽朗的笑声,至多也只是对那些伪君子或傻瓜蛋窃笑几声罢了:剧中人自我表白时所使用的残忍言词,仿佛是在羞痛交逼之下硬从心坎里挤出来的。

菲利普完全被这人间的罪恶渊薮迷住了。他似乎是按另一种方式重新审视着世界,对于眼前的这个世界他也渴望了解透彻。演出结束后,菲利普同海沃德一道去小酒店,坐在又明亮又暖和的店堂里,吃一客三明治,喝一杯啤酒。他们周围,三五成群的学生谈笑风生。阖家光临酒店的也不少,父母,两三个儿子,还有一个女儿。有时,女儿说了句刺耳的俏皮话,做父亲的就往椅背上一靠,仰面大笑,笑得还真欢哩。气氛极其亲切、纯真,好一幅天伦之乐图。但是,对于这一切,菲利普却视而不见。他还在回味着刚才在剧院里见到的那一幕幕。

"你不认为这就是生活吗,呢?"他激动地说。"你知道,我不会再在这儿长呆下去。我要去伦敦,开始过真正的生活。我要见见世面。老是在为生活作准备,真使人发腻:我要尝尝生活的滋味。"

有时候,海沃德让菲利普独个儿回公寓。他从不针对菲利普心急火燎的提问作出确切回答,而是无所用心地嘻嘻傻笑一声,转弯抹角地谈起。某一件风流韵事。他还引用一些岁塞蒂的诗句。有次甚至给菲利普看了一首十四行诗。诗中热情洋溢,词藻华丽,充满了悲惋凄怆的情调、全部诗情为一个名叫特鲁德的少女而发。海沃德把自己的肮脏、庸俗的无矿艳遇",抹上一层光泽照人的诗意,还认为自己的诗笔颇得伯里克理斯和菲狄亚斯的几分遗风,因为他在描述自己所追求的意中人时特意选用了"hetaira"这样一个词而不屑从英语所提供的那些直截了当、比较贴切的字眼中挑选一个。日大,菲利普受着好奇心的驱使,曾特地去古桥附近的小街上走了一遭。街上有几幢整洁的、装有绿色百叶窗的白房子,据海沃德说,特鲁德小姐就住在那儿。但是,打门里走出来的那些女人,个个涂脂抹粉,脸带凶相,粗声粗气地同他打招呼,不能不叫他心惊肉跳。她们还伸出双粗壮的手来想把菲利普拦住,吓得他拔腿就溜。他特别渴望增加阅历,觉得自己幼稚可笑,因为自己到了这般年纪,还没有领略过所有小说作品无不渲染的那种所谓"人生最重要的东西";不幸的是,他天生具有那种洞察事物本来面目的能力,出现在他面前的现实,同他梦境中的理想,其差别之大,有如天壤。

他不懂得在人生的旅途上,非得越过一大片干旱贫瘠、地形险恶的荒野,才能跨入活生生的现实世界。所谓"青春多幸福"的说法,不过是一种幻觉,是青春已逝的人们的一种幻觉;而年轻人知道自己是不幸的,因为他们充满了不切实际的幻想,全是从外部灌输到他们头脑里去的,每当他们同实际接触时,他们总是碰得头破血流。看来,他们似乎成了一场共谋的牺牲品,因为他们所读过的书籍(由于经过必然的淘汰,留存下来的都是尽善至美的),还有长辈之间的交谈(他们是透过健忘的玫瑰色烟雾来回首往事的),都为他们开拓了一个虚假的生活前景。年轻人得靠自己去发现:过去念到过的书,过去听到过的话,全是谎言,谎言,谎言;而且每一次的发现,又无异是往那具已被钉在生活十字架上的身躯再打入一根钉子。不可思议的是,大凡每个经历过痛苦幻灭的人,由于受到内心那股抑制不住的强劲力量的驱使,又总是有意无意地再给现实生活添上一层虚幻的色彩。对于菲利普来说,世上再不会有比与海沃德为伍更糟糕的事了。海沃德这个人是带着十足的书生气来观察周围一切的,没有一工点儿自己的看法;他很危险,是因为他欺骗自己,达到了真心诚意的地步。他真诚地错把自己的肉欲当作浪漫的恋情,错把自己的优柔寡断视为艺术家的气质,还错把自己的无所事事看成哲人的超然物外。他心智平庸,却孜孜追求高尚娴雅,因而从他眼睛里望出去,所有的事物都蒙上了一层感伤的金色雾纱,轮廓模糊不清,结果就显得比实际的形象大些。他在撒谎,却从不知道自己在撒谎;当别人点破他时,他却说谎言是美的。他是一个理想主义者。

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1 revival UWixU     
n.复兴,复苏,(精力、活力等的)重振
参考例句:
  • The period saw a great revival in the wine trade.这一时期葡萄酒业出现了很大的复苏。
  • He claimed the housing market was showing signs of a revival.他指出房地产市场正出现复苏的迹象。
2 extravagantly fcd90b89353afbdf23010caed26441f0     
adv.挥霍无度地
参考例句:
  • The Monroes continued to entertain extravagantly. 门罗一家继续大宴宾客。 来自辞典例句
  • New Grange is one of the most extravagantly decorated prehistoric tombs. 新格兰奇是装饰最豪华的史前陵墓之一。 来自辞典例句
3 vileness 152a16dbbe75db0c44b2a4fd4aac4f59     
n.讨厌,卑劣
参考例句:
  • Separating out the vileness is impossible. 分离其中不良的部分是不可能的。 来自互联网
  • The vileness of his language surprised us. 他言语的粗俗令我们吃惊。 来自互联网
4 peculiarities 84444218acb57e9321fbad3dc6b368be     
n. 特质, 特性, 怪癖, 古怪
参考例句:
  • the cultural peculiarities of the English 英国人的文化特点
  • He used to mimic speech peculiarities of another. 他过去总是模仿别人讲话的特点。
5 concealed 0v3zxG     
a.隐藏的,隐蔽的
参考例句:
  • The paintings were concealed beneath a thick layer of plaster. 那些画被隐藏在厚厚的灰泥层下面。
  • I think he had a gun concealed about his person. 我认为他当时身上藏有一支枪。
6 virtuous upCyI     
adj.有品德的,善良的,贞洁的,有效力的
参考例句:
  • She was such a virtuous woman that everybody respected her.她是个有道德的女性,人人都尊敬她。
  • My uncle is always proud of having a virtuous wife.叔叔一直为娶到一位贤德的妻子而骄傲。
7 virtue BpqyH     
n.德行,美德;贞操;优点;功效,效力
参考例句:
  • He was considered to be a paragon of virtue.他被认为是品德尽善尽美的典范。
  • You need to decorate your mind with virtue.你应该用德行美化心灵。
8 vice NU0zQ     
n.坏事;恶习;[pl.]台钳,老虎钳;adj.副的
参考例句:
  • He guarded himself against vice.他避免染上坏习惯。
  • They are sunk in the depth of vice.他们堕入了罪恶的深渊。
9 corrupt 4zTxn     
v.贿赂,收买;adj.腐败的,贪污的
参考例句:
  • The newspaper alleged the mayor's corrupt practices.那家报纸断言市长有舞弊行为。
  • This judge is corrupt.这个法官贪污。
10 chaste 8b6yt     
adj.贞洁的;有道德的;善良的;简朴的
参考例句:
  • Comparatively speaking,I like chaste poetry better.相比较而言,我更喜欢朴实无华的诗。
  • Tess was a chaste young girl.苔丝是一个善良的少女。
11 lewd c9wzS     
adj.淫荡的
参考例句:
  • Drew spends all day eyeing up the women and making lewd comments.德鲁整天就盯着女人看,说些下流话。
  • I'm not that mean,despicable,cowardly,lewd creature that horrible little man sees. 我可不是那个令人恶心的小人所见到的下流、可耻、懦弱、淫秽的家伙。
12 foul Sfnzy     
adj.污秽的;邪恶的;v.弄脏;妨害;犯规;n.犯规
参考例句:
  • Take off those foul clothes and let me wash them.脱下那些脏衣服让我洗一洗。
  • What a foul day it is!多么恶劣的天气!
13 flaring Bswzxn     
a.火焰摇曳的,过份艳丽的
参考例句:
  • A vulgar flaring paper adorned the walls. 墙壁上装饰着廉价的花纸。
  • Goebbels was flaring up at me. 戈塔尔当时已对我面呈愠色。
14 wrung b11606a7aab3e4f9eebce4222a9397b1     
绞( wring的过去式和过去分词 ); 握紧(尤指别人的手); 把(湿衣服)拧干; 绞掉(水)
参考例句:
  • He has wrung the words from their true meaning. 他曲解这些字的真正意义。
  • He wrung my hand warmly. 他热情地紧握我的手。
15 anguish awZz0     
n.(尤指心灵上的)极度痛苦,烦恼
参考例句:
  • She cried out for anguish at parting.分手时,她由于痛苦而失声大哭。
  • The unspeakable anguish wrung his heart.难言的痛苦折磨着他的心。
16 sordid PrLy9     
adj.肮脏的,不干净的,卑鄙的,暗淡的
参考例句:
  • He depicts the sordid and vulgar sides of life exclusively.他只描写人生肮脏和庸俗的一面。
  • They lived in a sordid apartment.他们住在肮脏的公寓房子里。
17 intensity 45Ixd     
n.强烈,剧烈;强度;烈度
参考例句:
  • I didn't realize the intensity of people's feelings on this issue.我没有意识到这一问题能引起群情激奋。
  • The strike is growing in intensity.罢工日益加剧。
18 tavern wGpyl     
n.小旅馆,客栈;小酒店
参考例句:
  • There is a tavern at the corner of the street.街道的拐角处有一家酒馆。
  • Philip always went to the tavern,with a sense of pleasure.菲利浦总是心情愉快地来到这家酒菜馆。
19 heartily Ld3xp     
adv.衷心地,诚恳地,十分,很
参考例句:
  • He ate heartily and went out to look for his horse.他痛快地吃了一顿,就出去找他的马。
  • The host seized my hand and shook it heartily.主人抓住我的手,热情地和我握手。
20 homeliness 8f2090f6a2bd792a5be3a0973188257a     
n.简朴,朴实;相貌平平
参考例句:
  • Fine clothes could not conceal the girl's homeliness. 华丽的衣服并不能掩盖这个女孩的寻常容貌。 来自《简明英汉词典》
21 sonnet Lw9wD     
n.十四行诗
参考例句:
  • The composer set a sonnet to music.作曲家为一首十四行诗谱了曲。
  • He wrote a sonnet to his beloved.他写了一首十四行诗,献给他心爱的人。
22 pessimism r3XzM     
n.悲观者,悲观主义者,厌世者
参考例句:
  • He displayed his usual pessimism.他流露出惯有的悲观。
  • There is the note of pessimism in his writings.他的著作带有悲观色彩。
23 pathos dLkx2     
n.哀婉,悲怆
参考例句:
  • The pathos of the situation brought tears to our eyes.情况令人怜悯,看得我们不禁流泪。
  • There is abundant pathos in her words.她的话里富有动人哀怜的力量。
24 shutters 74d48a88b636ca064333022eb3458e1f     
百叶窗( shutter的名词复数 ); (照相机的)快门
参考例句:
  • The shop-front is fitted with rolling shutters. 那商店的店门装有卷门。
  • The shutters thumped the wall in the wind. 在风中百叶窗砰砰地碰在墙上。
25 brutal bSFyb     
adj.残忍的,野蛮的,不讲理的
参考例句:
  • She has to face the brutal reality.她不得不去面对冷酷的现实。
  • They're brutal people behind their civilised veneer.他们表面上温文有礼,骨子里却是野蛮残忍。
26 yearned df1a28ecd1f3c590db24d0d80c264305     
渴望,切盼,向往( yearn的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • The people yearned for peace. 人民渴望和平。
  • She yearned to go back to the south. 她渴望回到南方去。
27 arid JejyB     
adj.干旱的;(土地)贫瘠的
参考例句:
  • These trees will shield off arid winds and protect the fields.这些树能挡住旱风,保护农田。
  • There are serious problems of land degradation in some arid zones.在一些干旱地带存在严重的土地退化问题。
28 instilled instilled     
v.逐渐使某人获得(某种可取的品质),逐步灌输( instill的过去式和过去分词 )
参考例句:
  • Nature has instilled in our minds an insatiable desire to see truth. 自然给我们心灵注入了永无休止的发现真理的欲望。 来自辞典例句
  • I instilled the need for kindness into my children. 我不断向孩子们灌输仁慈的必要。 来自辞典例句
29 bruised 5xKz2P     
[医]青肿的,瘀紫的
参考例句:
  • his bruised and bloodied nose 他沾满血的青肿的鼻子
  • She had slipped and badly bruised her face. 她滑了一跤,摔得鼻青脸肿。
30 conspiracy NpczE     
n.阴谋,密谋,共谋
参考例句:
  • The men were found guilty of conspiracy to murder.这些人被裁决犯有阴谋杀人罪。
  • He claimed that it was all a conspiracy against him.他声称这一切都是一场针对他的阴谋。
31 rosy kDAy9     
adj.美好的,乐观的,玫瑰色的
参考例句:
  • She got a new job and her life looks rosy.她找到一份新工作,生活看上去很美好。
  • She always takes a rosy view of life.她总是对生活持乐观态度。
32 haze O5wyb     
n.霾,烟雾;懵懂,迷糊;vi.(over)变模糊
参考例句:
  • I couldn't see her through the haze of smoke.在烟雾弥漫中,我看不见她。
  • He often lives in a haze of whisky.他常常是在威士忌的懵懂醉意中度过的。
33 sincerity zyZwY     
n.真诚,诚意;真实
参考例句:
  • His sincerity added much more authority to the story.他的真诚更增加了故事的说服力。
  • He tried hard to satisfy me of his sincerity.他竭力让我了解他的诚意。
34 vacillation Oi2wu     
n.动摇;忧柔寡断
参考例句:
  • Vacillation is the cause of his failure.优柔寡断是他失败的原因。
  • His constant vacillation made him an unfit administrator.他经常优柔寡断,这使他不适合当行政官员。
35 artistic IeWyG     
adj.艺术(家)的,美术(家)的;善于艺术创作的
参考例句:
  • The picture on this screen is a good artistic work.这屏风上的画是件很好的艺术品。
  • These artistic handicrafts are very popular with foreign friends.外国朋友很喜欢这些美术工艺品。
36 temperament 7INzf     
n.气质,性格,性情
参考例句:
  • The analysis of what kind of temperament you possess is vital.分析一下你有什么样的气质是十分重要的。
  • Success often depends on temperament.成功常常取决于一个人的性格。
37 philosophic ANExi     
adj.哲学的,贤明的
参考例句:
  • It was a most philosophic and jesuitical motorman.这是个十分善辩且狡猾的司机。
  • The Irish are a philosophic as well as a practical race.爱尔兰人是既重实际又善于思想的民族。
38 refinement kinyX     
n.文雅;高尚;精美;精制;精炼
参考例句:
  • Sally is a woman of great refinement and beauty. 莎莉是个温文尔雅又很漂亮的女士。
  • Good manners and correct speech are marks of refinement.彬彬有礼和谈吐得体是文雅的标志。
39 blurred blurred     
v.(使)变模糊( blur的过去式和过去分词 );(使)难以区分;模模糊糊;迷离
参考例句:
  • She suffered from dizziness and blurred vision. 她饱受头晕目眩之苦。
  • Their lazy, blurred voices fell pleasantly on his ears. 他们那种慢吞吞、含糊不清的声音在他听起来却很悦耳。 来自《简明英汉词典》
40 pointed Il8zB4     
adj.尖的,直截了当的
参考例句:
  • He gave me a very sharp pointed pencil.他给我一支削得非常尖的铅笔。
  • She wished to show Mrs.John Dashwood by this pointed invitation to her brother.她想通过对达茨伍德夫人提出直截了当的邀请向她的哥哥表示出来。


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