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LIGHT OF MY LIFE
Letting go ain’t easy
Oh, it’s just exceedingly hurtful
’Cause somebody you used to know
Is flinging your world around
And they watch, as you’re falling down, down, down,Falling down, baby
—“The Art of Letting Go”
“You’ve always been the light of my life.”
My mother told me this over and over when I was a child. I wanted to be her light. Iwanted to make her proud. I respected her as a singer and a working mother. I loved herdeeply, and, like most kids, I wanted her to be a safe place for me. Above all, I desperatelywanted to believe her.
But ours is a story of betrayal and beauty. Of love and abandonment. Of sacrifice andsurvival. I’ve emancipated2 myself from bondage3 several times, but there is a cloud ofsadness that I suspect will always hang over me, not simply because of my mother butbecause of our complicated journey together. It has caused me so much pain andconfusion. Time has shown me there is no benefit in trying to protect people who nevertried to protect me. Time and motherhood have finally given me the courage to honestlyface who my mother has been to me.
For me, this is the steepest cliff edge. If I can make it to the other side of this truth, Iknow there is relief of epic4 proportions awaiting me. Those people who have hurt me, overand over, whom I have escaped or walled off, are deeply significant in my story, but theyare not central to my existence.
Removing myself from toxic5 people I love has been excruciatingly painful, but once Ifound the courage (with prayer and professional help, of course), I simply let go and letGod. (I’ll add, though, that there’s a huge difference between simple and easy. It ain’teasy, baby.) Yet, there is no “artful” way of letting go of my mother, and our relationshipis anything but simple. Like many aspects of my life, my journey with my mother hasbeen full of contradictions and competing realities. It’s never been only black-and-white—it’s been a whole rainbow of emotions.
Our relationship is a prickly rope of pride, pain, shame, gratitude6,
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偶像( idol的名词复数 ); 受崇拜的人或物; 受到热爱和崇拜的人或物; 神像 | |
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