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BROKEN DOWN
That night, I did not “have a breakdown1.” I was broken down—by the very people whowere supposed to keep me whole. I knew of a place the locals called a “spa” that was veryclose, and I asked the police if they would take me there. They obliged. I wasn’t familiarwith the services or reputation of the place, but I figured at the very least I could finally getsome sleep, some nutritious2 food, and perhaps some medical attention. After all I’d beenthrough, I was very concerned about my physical condition. I knew enough to know Ineeded healing from the compounded trauma3 I had just experienced. My body was there,but my mind, my emotions, and my spirit were all powered down, in what I now realizewas protection mode.
I remember getting out of the squad4 car and pacing in the parking lot, knowing I didn’tbelong in that place, but I didn’t belong at my family house either. I didn’t know where Ibelonged. After a long and groggy5 battle, Morgan convinced me to go inside. I could feelnothing. I signed myself in, believing I could sign myself out. I had no idea what I hadactually signed myself up for. After speaking with some of the staff, Morgan left me there.
The size, color, and smell of the place, the names, the faces of the people—I don’t havemuch memory of the details. I was led to a small room at the end of a hall. I perceived it aswindowless, though it most likely was not. There was a door to close me in. There was abed. I curled up tight on top of it.
Terror came quickly.
I could hear the dull thud of a heavy mop hitting and sloshing on the floor in thedistance, and the muffled6, mingled7 voices of young girls chatting and giggling8. Every oncein a while, I clearly heard them say “Mariah Carey.” The mop and the voices were gettingcloser and louder, settling right outside my door. Their laughter was ringing in my head. Icoiled tighter into myself, shut my eyes, and tried to disappear. No relief came. I wasdeeply scared and completely alone. Prayer wouldn’t come. Fear was my only companion.
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