PART 1 CHAPTER 12

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G ENERAL LEE DECIDED¹ AFTER JACKSON’S SIEGE OF ROMNEY THAT WAR shouldn’t be waged
in the winter. And not until after late spring, either. Spring rains melted dirt roads into ribbons of
soupy mud that stuck supply wagons³ and cannon⁴ caissons to their surface like fly paper. The
Civil War would become a seasonal⁵ thing. But by May 1862, we began a charge through Hell
that didn’t slow down until that December. We fought more major battles that year than any
other year of the war, twelve of them including Antietam. Sometimes they were only a week
apart without time for either horses or men to rest.
I dreaded⁶ sleep just as desperately⁷ as I needed it. Every night, headless ghosts in blue
uniforms chased me through cornfields, a retreat was blocked by leaping flames, or I watched
helplessly as a union soldier drew a bead⁸ on Sam. Days were just as bad. When I raised my rifle
to take aim, a voice repeated the Sixth Commandment, the one forbidding murder. It caused my
rifle to waver. Another voice would rise against it, telling me that killing⁹ Yankees was my duty.
Daily, my conscience was split in a deadly contest. War was winning, erasing¹⁰ the rules I had
spent my brief lifetime learning.
Then there was theft—or confiscation¹¹, which was it? At Toms Brook¹² in May, we captured
Northern wagons loaded with grain for the horses, flour, rye, coffee, dried meat, medicinal
opium¹³, and quinine. We had no choice; we were at the mercy of the Confederate army’s lack of
experience providing for its soldiers. The horses had scarcely eaten in two weeks, and some
boys had been living on lard candles gathered from nearby houses. Protruding¹⁴ ribs¹⁵ and hollowed
cheeks marked man and beast.
Were we thieves after Port Republic under the early June sun, when we plucked guns,
Federal-issue oilskin raincoats, knapsacks, ammunition¹⁶, shoes, and pants from dead or fatally
wounded Yanks so we could go back into battle? The most unnerving sight was men bent¹⁷ over
the fallen, hands busy with shoelaces, buckles¹⁸, coat buttons, in pockets, and in their haversacks.
I, too, made that necessary, ghoulish search, competing with hordes¹⁹ of other men for something
less raggedy, less caked with mud and body fluids than the poor excuse for clothing on my back.
Was this disrespect for the dead? It seemed as great a sin to leave these useful items lying on the
ground for years, fabric²⁰ flapping loose around blood-filled shoes and desiccated flesh.
As I lay in my bedroll in his clothes, I couldn’t shake the image of their redheaded former
owner with his frozen expression and half-closed eyes. They had seemed to follow my hands as
I rifled his pockets. In his haversack, I’d found a rabbit’s foot just as worn as the one I rubbed
for luck. Now that he was removed from battle, would this boy have understood my need and
forgiven me?
The next morning, Sam noticed that I didn’t join the others for breakfast but stayed inside my
tent. He stuck his head through the tent flap. “What’s ailing²¹ you?”
“Nothing. Leave me alone for a little while.”
He sat down next to me. “Not on your life. Something’s bothering you. What is it?”
Sam’s open, accepting expression made it easier to tell him the reasons for my sleepless²²
night. He became solemn. “I’ve been troubled too. But if you ever want to get home again,
you’ve got to develop animal instincts. Don’t think about anything but food and shelter, nothing
else.”
“I guess you’re right.”
“I know I’m right.”
I grudgingly²³ agreed, but to me, it was pure theft when our Lieutenant²⁴ McDonald had a soldier
lead to the back of the line his elegant, prancing²⁵ Jack², sleek²⁶ with a still healthy coat, because he
worried he might lose his father’s fine mount in the coming battle near Gaines Mill. He then
covetously²⁷ eyed a Confederate farmer’s heavy-boned draft animal. Our company was marching
alongside a pasture in late June when he spied the horse calmly feeding in the field. Our group
of foot soldiers drew up behind McDonald when he abruptly²⁸ halted by the fence and
dismounted. He was in such a hurry to reach the sturdy animal that he swept right by me,
knocking me off my feet. Grimacing²⁹, I stood up, wiggled each foot to check that it still worked,
and brushed myself off.
“Here, boy. Come here, boy,” the lieutenant teased, hand extended. The liquid-eyed stallion
trotted³⁰ toward him, innocent of its fate. McDonald stroked its velvet³¹ nose while whispering
softly. The horse nudged him on the shoulder and gave a friendly whinny. The creature
reminded me of Pa’s Wilbur, who had carried us to Staunton so swiftly. Heartsick, I wondered if
he’d been taken too, and how Pa would put in crops, haul wood, or get to town without him. If
that were the case, my family would have to struggle against starvation and freezing weather for
the length of the war.
Deftly³² slipping a bridle³³ over its head, the Lieutenant coaxed³⁴ the horse out of the farm gate
and uprooted³⁵ it from its safe pasture and the family for whom it was necessary. Worry about my
own family cast a deep shadow across one more day.
I saw the stallion cut down five days later as a bullet pierced McDonald’s saddle a finger’s
width from his thigh³⁶. It bored like a drill into the horse’s muscled flesh. With a shriek³⁷, the
animal hurtled to the ground and tossed the Lieutenant over his neck like an acrobat³⁸. Exhilarated
by his escape from harm, McDonald guffawed³⁹ as he brushed twigs⁴⁰ from his uniform. He then
leaped astride a comrade’s mount, and the two men cantered off. I heard the rattle⁴¹ of the stolen
draft horse’s last breaths in the tall field grass.
Around this time, we stopped calling the war what it really was. A man would say as he
dropped a blackened greasy⁴² rag after cleaning his rifle, “Well, now I’m ready to see the
elephant.” Or we’d say about a fellow who had fallen on the field that he’d “heard the hooty
owl⁴³.” We couldn’t use words too close to the truth of the thing, so we kept it to animals or the
weather. All these years I’ve done my best to avoid recollecting⁴⁴ the cruelest particulars of the
circus of war and the whisper of Death’s wing.

1 decided   

adj.决定了的，坚决的；明显的，明确的

参考例句：

• This gave them a decided advantage over their opponents.这使他们比对手具有明显的优势。
• There is a decided difference between British and Chinese way of greeting.英国人和中国人打招呼的方式有很明显的区别。

2 jack   

n.插座，千斤顶，男人；v.抬起，提醒，扛举；n.（Jake）杰克

参考例句：

• I am looking for the headphone jack.我正在找寻头戴式耳机插孔。
• He lifted the car with a jack to change the flat tyre.他用千斤顶把车顶起来换下瘪轮胎。

3 wagons   

n.四轮的运货马车( wagon的名词复数 )；铁路货车；小手推车

参考例句：

• The wagons were hauled by horses. 那些货车是马拉的。
• They drew their wagons into a laager and set up camp. 他们把马车围成一圈扎起营地。

4 cannon   

n.大炮，火炮；飞机上的机关炮

参考例句：

• The soldiers fired the cannon.士兵们开炮。
• The cannon thundered in the hills.大炮在山间轰鸣。

5 seasonal   

adj.季节的，季节性的

参考例句：

• The town relies on the seasonal tourist industry for jobs.这个城镇依靠季节性旅游业提供就业机会。
• The hors d'oeuvre is seasonal vegetables.餐前小吃是应时蔬菜。

6 dreaded   

adj.令人畏惧的；害怕的v.害怕，恐惧，担心( dread的过去式和过去分词)

参考例句：

• The dreaded moment had finally arrived. 可怕的时刻终于来到了。
• He dreaded having to spend Christmas in hospital. 他害怕非得在医院过圣诞节不可。 来自《用法词典》

7 desperately   

adv.极度渴望地，绝望地，孤注一掷地

参考例句：

• He was desperately seeking a way to see her again.他正拼命想办法再见她一面。
• He longed desperately to be back at home.他非常渴望回家。

8 bead   

n.念珠；(pl.)珠子项链；水珠

参考例句：

• She accidentally swallowed a glass bead.她不小心吞下了一颗玻璃珠。
• She has a beautiful glass bead and a bracelet in the box.盒子里有一颗美丽的玻璃珠和手镯。

9 killing   

n.巨额利润；突然赚大钱，发大财

参考例句：

• Investors are set to make a killing from the sell-off.投资者准备清仓以便大赚一笔。
• Last week my brother made a killing on Wall Street.上个周我兄弟在华尔街赚了一大笔。

10 erasing   

v.擦掉( erase的现在分词 )；抹去；清除

参考例句：

• He was like a sponge, erasing the past, soaking up the future. 他象一块海绵，挤出过去，吸进未来。 来自辞典例句
• Suddenly, fear overtook longing, erasing memories. 突然，恐惧淹没了渴望，泯灭了回忆。 来自辞典例句

11 confiscation   

n. 没收, 充公, 征收

参考例句：

• Confiscation of the property of all emigrants and rebels. 没收一切流亡分子和叛乱分子的财产。 来自英汉非文学 - 共产党宣言
• Confiscation of smuggled property is part of the penalty for certain offences. 没收走私财产是对某些犯罪予以惩罚的一部分。

12 brook   

n.小河，溪；v.忍受，容让

参考例句：

• In our room we could hear the murmur of a distant brook.在我们房间能听到远处小溪汩汩的流水声。
• The brook trickled through the valley.小溪涓涓流过峡谷。

13 opium   

n.鸦片；adj.鸦片的

参考例句：

• That man gave her a dose of opium.那男人给了她一剂鸦片。
• Opium is classed under the head of narcotic.鸦片是归入麻醉剂一类的东西。

14 protruding   

v.（使某物）伸出，（使某物）突出( protrude的现在分词 )；凸

参考例句：

• He hung his coat on a nail protruding from the wall. 他把上衣挂在凸出墙面的一根钉子上。
• There is a protruding shelf over a fireplace. 壁炉上方有个突出的架子。 来自辞典例句

15 ribs   

n.肋骨( rib的名词复数 )；（船或屋顶等的）肋拱；肋骨状的东西；（织物的）凸条花纹

参考例句：

• He suffered cracked ribs and bruising. 他断了肋骨还有挫伤。
• Make a small incision below the ribs. 在肋骨下方切开一个小口。

16 ammunition   

n.军火，弹药

参考例句：

• A few of the jeeps had run out of ammunition.几辆吉普车上的弹药已经用光了。
• They have expended all their ammunition.他们把弹药用光。

17 bent   

n.爱好，癖好；adj.弯的；决心的，一心的

参考例句：

• He was fully bent upon the project.他一心扑在这项计划上。
• We bent over backward to help them.我们尽了最大努力帮助他们。

18 buckles   

搭扣，扣环( buckle的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• She gazed proudly at the shiny buckles on her shoes. 她骄傲地注视着鞋上闪亮的扣环。
• When the plate becomes unstable, it buckles laterally. 当板失去稳定时，就发生横向屈曲。

19 hordes   

n.移动着的一大群( horde的名词复数 )；部落

参考例句：

• There are always hordes of tourists here in the summer. 夏天这里总有成群结队的游客。
• Hordes of journalists jostled for position outside the conference hall. 大群记者在会堂外争抢位置。 来自《简明英汉词典》

20 fabric   

n.织物，织品，布；构造，结构，组织

参考例句：

• The fabric will spot easily.这种织品很容易玷污。
• I don't like the pattern on the fabric.我不喜欢那块布料上的图案。

21 ailing   

v.生病

参考例句：

• They discussed the problems ailing the steel industry. 他们讨论了困扰钢铁工业的问题。
• She looked after her ailing father. 她照顾有病的父亲。

22 sleepless   

adj.不睡眠的，睡不著的，不休息的

参考例句：

• The situation gave her many sleepless nights.这种情况害她一连好多天睡不好觉。
• One evening I heard a tale that rendered me sleepless for nights.一天晚上，我听说了一个传闻，把我搞得一连几夜都不能入睡。

23 grudgingly   

参考例句：

• He grudgingly acknowledged having made a mistake. 他勉强承认他做错了。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• Their parents unwillingly [grudgingly] consented to the marriage. 他们的父母无可奈何地应允了这门亲事。 来自《现代汉英综合大词典》

24 lieutenant   

n.陆军中尉，海军上尉；代理官员，副职官员

参考例句：

• He was promoted to be a lieutenant in the army.他被提升为陆军中尉。
• He prevailed on the lieutenant to send in a short note.他说动那个副官，递上了一张简短的便条进去。

25 prancing   

v.（马）腾跃( prance的现在分词 )

参考例句：

• The lead singer was prancing around with the microphone. 首席歌手手执麦克风，神气地走来走去。
• The King lifted Gretel on to his prancing horse and they rode to his palace. 国王把格雷特尔扶上腾跃着的马，他们骑马向天宫走去。 来自辞典例句

26 sleek   

adj.光滑的，井然有序的；v.使光滑，梳拢

参考例句：

• Women preferred sleek,shiny hair with little decoration.女士们更喜欢略加修饰的光滑闪亮型秀发。
• The horse's coat was sleek and glossy.这匹马全身润泽有光。

27 covetously   

adv.妄想地，贪心地

参考例句：

• The State of Wu always covetously eyed the State of Zhao. 吴国一直雄视着赵国，虎视眈眈。 来自互联网
• He is staring at her covetously. 他贪婪地望着她。 来自互联网

28 abruptly   

adv.突然地，出其不意地

参考例句：

• He gestured abruptly for Virginia to get in the car.他粗鲁地示意弗吉尼亚上车。
• I was abruptly notified that a half-hour speech was expected of me.我突然被通知要讲半个小时的话。

29 grimacing   

v.扮鬼相，做鬼脸( grimace的现在分词 )

参考例句：

• But then Boozer drove past Gasol for a rattling, grimacing slam dunk. 可布泽尔单吃家嫂，以一记强有力的扣篮将比分超出。 来自互联网
• The martyrdom of Archbishop Cranmer, said the don at last, grimacing with embarrassment. 最后那位老师尴尬地做个鬼脸，说，这是大主教克莱默的殉道士。 来自互联网

30 trotted   

小跑，急走( trot的过去分词 )； 匆匆忙忙地走

参考例句：

• She trotted her pony around the field. 她骑着小马绕场慢跑。
• Anne trotted obediently beside her mother. 安妮听话地跟在妈妈身边走。

31 velvet   

n.丝绒，天鹅绒；adj.丝绒制的，柔软的

参考例句：

• This material feels like velvet.这料子摸起来像丝绒。
• The new settlers wore the finest silk and velvet clothing.新来的移民穿着最华丽的丝绸和天鹅绒衣服。

32 deftly   

adv.灵巧地，熟练地，敏捷地

参考例句：

• He deftly folded the typed sheets and replaced them in the envelope. 他灵巧地将打有字的纸折好重新放回信封。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• At last he had a clew to her interest, and followed it deftly. 这一下终于让他发现了她的兴趣所在，于是他熟练地继续谈这个话题。 来自英汉文学 - 嘉莉妹妹

33 bridle   

n.笼头，束缚；vt.抑制，约束；动怒

参考例句：

• He learned to bridle his temper.他学会了控制脾气。
• I told my wife to put a bridle on her tongue.我告诉妻子说话要谨慎。

34 coaxed   

v.哄，用好话劝说( coax的过去式和过去分词 )；巧言骗取；哄劝，劝诱

参考例句：

• She coaxed the horse into coming a little closer. 她哄着那匹马让它再靠近了一点。
• I coaxed my sister into taking me to the theatre. 我用好话哄姐姐带我去看戏。 来自《现代汉英综合大词典》

35 uprooted   

v.把（某物）连根拔起( uproot的过去式和过去分词 )；根除；赶走；把…赶出家园

参考例句：

• Many people were uprooted from their homes by the flood. 水灾令许多人背井离乡。 来自《简明英汉词典》
• The hurricane blew with such force that trees were uprooted. 飓风强烈地刮着，树都被连根拔起了。 来自《简明英汉词典》

36 thigh   

n.大腿；股骨

参考例句：

• He is suffering from a strained thigh muscle.他的大腿肌肉拉伤了，疼得很。
• The thigh bone is connected to the hip bone.股骨连着髋骨。

37 shriek   

v./n.尖叫，叫喊

参考例句：

• Suddenly he began to shriek loudly.突然他开始大声尖叫起来。
• People sometimes shriek because of terror,anger,or pain.人们有时会因为恐惧，气愤或疼痛而尖叫。

38 acrobat   

n.特技演员，杂技演员

参考例句：

• The acrobat balanced a long pole on his left shoulder.杂技演员让一根长杆在他的左肩上保持平衡。
• The acrobat could bend himself into a hoop.这个杂技演员可以把身体蜷曲成圆形。

39 guffawed   

v.大笑，狂笑( guffaw的过去式和过去分词 )

参考例句：

• They all guffawed at his jokes. 他们听了他的笑话都一阵狂笑。
• Hung-chien guffawed and said, "I deserve a scolding for that! 鸿渐哈哈大笑道：“我是该骂！ 来自汉英文学 - 围城

40 twigs   

细枝，嫩枝( twig的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• Some birds build nests of twigs. 一些鸟用树枝筑巢。
• Willow twigs are pliable. 柳条很软。

41 rattle   

v.飞奔，碰响；激怒；n.碰撞声；拨浪鼓

参考例句：

• The baby only shook the rattle and laughed and crowed.孩子只是摇着拨浪鼓，笑着叫着。
• She could hear the rattle of the teacups.她听见茶具叮当响。

42 greasy   

adj. 多脂的，油脂的

参考例句：

• He bought a heavy-duty cleanser to clean his greasy oven.昨天他买了强力清洁剂来清洗油污的炉子。
• You loathe the smell of greasy food when you are seasick.当你晕船时，你会厌恶油腻的气味。

43 owl   

n.猫头鹰，枭

参考例句：

• Her new glasses make her look like an owl.她的新眼镜让她看上去像只猫头鹰。
• I'm a night owl and seldom go to bed until after midnight.我睡得很晚，经常半夜后才睡觉。

44 recollecting   

v.记起，想起( recollect的现在分词 )

参考例句：

• Once wound could heal slowly, my Bo Hui was recollecting. 曾经的伤口会慢慢地愈合，我卜会甾回忆。 来自互联网
• I am afraid of recollecting the life of past in the school. 我不敢回忆我在校过去的生活。 来自互联网