The twins had been at home, in a state of total eclipse for two days of ominous7 parental8 silence. Mr. Challoner, as usual, was busy; Helen was busy also, for after her absence there was more than enough at present to occupy her day. But she had not yet broached9 the subject that was at the root of the silence: until the skies cleared a little she felt absolutely unable to do so. Her father also had said nothing about it; they ate, they drank, the weather was mentioned, and the danger of trouble in the East. Mr. Challoner himself, except when he read prayers, had hardly said half a dozen words in Helen’s presence: it was “good-night” and “good-morning,” and both were bad. Martin also was, so to speak, in prison, though not, like his sister, in the condemned10 cell. He read Demosthenes in his father’s study while the latter was writing his sermon, fell asleep and was detected, awoke, and wrote a futile11 supererogatory set of Greek iambics containing several false quantities and forms of aorists previously12 unknown and very interesting.
This morning Helen had received a letter from Frank that troubled her, for he pressed, where he had only hinted before, for some definite sort of date. Reasonably enough, he saw no cause for delay; he knew that in spite of her father’s feelings she had accepted his devotion; that was all her’s, waiting for her to reward it. The tone was not querulous. If it had been, the letter she must write would have been less difficult. It was simply and sincerely trustful. But before she wrote she must talk to her father; that could be put off no longer.{199}
For the moment, however, the “sad mechanic exercise” of the accounts occupied her attention. But, though the superficial brain which was employed on addition had its work before it, all that was round her—the walls, the floor, the aspect of the room, the neat, new brown-holland covers of the library—took that part of her brain that really felt and lived back to the day when she sat there last. The map of geological strata13 was there, too, with its auriferous belt, and she remembered very well Frank’s words about that: “There is a gold-bearing vein14 in all we are set to do. The trouble is to find it.” Yes, indeed, that was the trouble. She did not rebel against the superfluous15 ninepence, except, indeed, humorously; but what seemed to her such hard and barren rock was the living in this hopeless silence. Her conscience, her whole sense of moral obligation, had accepted the principle indicated to her by the dear aunt—sofa-cushion no longer—of this wider self-completion to be attained16 by behaving rightly in all relations of life. But at present she had been throwing good money after bad. The dutiful daughter had come home. No more notice was taken of her than of a mended window-pane.
Mr. Challoner always opened doors smartly. Thus, when the outer door of the “Room,” which gave on to a small lobby where wet coats were hung, gave a quick rattle18 of latch19, she knew, with the same certainty as she had known the crisp foot on the gravel20, who came.
“Have you finished the accounts?” he said.
“I can’t get them quite right, father,” she said. “I think—-{200}-“
“You have the bills and the receipts, have you not?” he said. “Where are they?”
Helen resented this, but silently; no shadow of it appeared in her face or voice.
“They are all here,” she said. “I have ninepence more than I should.”
Mr. Challoner sat down and counted up the silver and pence, arranging them in neat shilling heaps with all the care he would have given to a total of millions. Then rejecting her addition, he added up the receipted bills, and her mistake, one of pure carelessness, was patent.
“That balances them,” he said. “Perhaps I had better do the accounts for the future. If I have to do them in the long run, I may as well do them at once, instead of wasting your time over them.”
Helen stood up, her resentment21 shewing itself a little.
“Certainly, if you prefer,” she said.
He did not answer, but ran a metal clip neatly22 through the receipted bills, and swept the coins back into the money-box. Then he turned to her quickly.
“What do you intend to do, Helen?” he asked. “As your father, I think I have a right to ask you, since you have shewn no sign of wishing to tell me.”
The gulf23 between them seemed to her at that moment immeasurably wide, and his tone was harsh and cruel,—it cut her, but cut like a blunt knife, with sawing and tearing.
“Father, don’t speak to me like that,” she said. “I can’t bear it, and it does no good. I am trying, and I am going to continue trying, to do my duty to you—-{201}-“
For one moment the sternness vanished from his face.
“You are going to give him up?” he asked.
“No; but I am going to live quietly here if you will have me, for the next six months,” she said, “doing my work in the parish just as usual. During that time I will not see Frank. If you wish, I will not even write to him, except just once.”
She sat down again opposite him.
“I want to do something for you, which is hard for me,” she said. “I want to make you believe that I am trying to be a good daughter to you. I know we disagree vitally and essentially24. But is that any reason why the dearness of our human relations should be diminished?”
Her voice sank, but looking at his face she could see that the momentary25 brightness as he asked the last question had vanished again, and he sat looking, not at her, but out of the window, without replying.
“Father,” she said, gently, “I have spoken to you.”
He shook his head, then looked at her.
“It is useless,” he said.
Then suddenly the chilling reserve and silence of the last days gave way like ice before the South wind.
“My God!” he said, speaking more to himself than to her. “What have I done? What have I done? Has this come for some dreadful fault of mine of which I am ignorant? All your life, Helen, I have tried to train and teach you in the knowledge and fear of God. As He sees me, I have done my best, according to my lights. Never once to my knowledge have I not prayed every day that His blessing26 should guide and illuminate27 every step you take. And I cannot believe—that{202} is my difficulty—that you try to follow His will in this. It is impossible that——“
He broke off with a sudden helpless raising of his hands indescribably pathetic.
“God help us both,” he said.
There was a long silence, and his fingers clenched28 and unclenched themselves as he sat staring dismally29 out of the window. All her life, as he had said with absolute honesty, he had tried to bring Helen up in the knowledge and fear of God, and this decision of hers, from which he now realised he was powerless to move her, was like some overwhelming blow struck at him from the dark. He could not understand, he could not even conjecture30 in the vaguest way, what it meant or how he was meant to take it. In sorrow, renunciation, bereavement31, it was, at any rate, possible to acquiesce32 in there being a design. But that his child should do this was inexplicable33. It could not be the will of God. Something of this Helen read in his face, and she saw, for the first time fully34, how the blow had staggered him. His strength had given way under it; all vehemence35 and anger was dead; and dead, too, was the hope that she would come round to him. He was helpless. And the strangeness of that in one so certain, so accustomed to go without hinderance or obstacle along the straight road of his God-fearing life touched her with a profound pity, so that for a moment, had he but known it, her decision flickered36 and wavered like a candle-flame blown about in a draught38. She questioned herself whether such suffering could be right, whether that which caused it could be justifiable39, whether at whatever cost to herself or another she could permit it to be. It was like the{203} suffering of some animal,—blind, uncomprehending, a thing intolerable. And the animal that suffered was a strong man and a wise, and her father.
She sat down on the edge of the table beside him.
“Oh, poor father, poor father!” she said.
He looked at her with a wretched semblance40 of a smile.
“Ah, that is not the point, Helen,” he said. “What I feel, all my pain, is nothing, nothing. Why I feel it is everything, dear. Oh, you poor girl, blind, blind.”
Then, at last, that tie between father and daughter or mother and son, one of the immutable41 and indestructible things of the world, stirred, vibrated, made music, and for a moment across the infinite gulf between them their spirits and their hands met.
“Dear girl,” he said, “it will be delightful42 to have you at home. I was afraid that those happy days of work, you and I, side by side in this home, were over. I thank you for that, Helen; your father blesses you for that. Stop with me as long as you can. How long you—and he must settle. And, my dear, I am so selfish as to take your offer fully. Do not see him or write to him. Perhaps——“
He paused a moment, stroking her hand.
“And try to make allowance for me,” he went on, “when I am hard or gloomy or out of spirits. But I am so utterly43 at sea: my landmarks44 have gone. I don’t understand. I can only pray that you and I may have light. God bless you, my dear, now and always.”
Helen wrote the same day to Frank:
“My Dearest,—I have just come home, and I have settled to do a thing which is very hard on both of us; but I cannot do otherwise. Frank, we cannot be married yet. We must put it{204} off for six months, or seven, is it not,—till next May. And for six months I must live quietly at home here, and not see you. There, it is written. This, too: you are absolutely free. Ah, in spite of all these troubles, I can’t help smiling when I write that.
“But I can’t act otherwise. My father is in a state of misery45 about it which I can’t describe to you. Somebody he loves is deliberately—this is how he sees it—going to do a wicked thing. This morning, when he talked to me about it, I wondered whether I could be right in continuing our engagement at all. But I can’t give you up. My love for you is the best part of me, and the most living part. You see I am yours. Oh, my dear, if only things had been otherwise,—if you could believe! If you could only have not told me, have let me think you were a Christian46. No, I don’t wish that really. It would not have been you.
“He is my father. All my life he has watched over me, prayed for me, loved me. Even if he had been a bad father, I should still have owed him all I am, until the day I met you. And the only way in which I can repay him anything is by doing this. It is small change, I know, for all his gold, but it is all I have. At least, then, and at most I must do it. I must stop here with him,—he was such an old darling when I told him,—trying to be cheerful, trying in little, tiny human ways to be a good daughter to him. And it is all so infinitesimal. It is as if I gave him remedies for a cold in the head when he had cancer. I feel so mean in offering him so little. But there is only one other thing that I could offer him, and that I cannot. And, indeed, though this looks so little and makes little show, it costs me something. It does indeed.
“And I must do something more. I think I must not even write to you. While I am here I must have no connection with you. It would be incomplete without that. One letter you must send me, when you have thought this over, to say that you agree with me, if you can.
“And if you cannot? I must do it all the same.
“Do you remember telling me of Magda’s cry? That, too, tells me to do it. I should be stunted47, selfish, if I did not.
“Ah, Frank, my darling, be good to me. I long for you every day, and it is going to be so awfully48 dreary49 without you.
“Helen.
{205}
“I walked through the wood to-day where you set the hare free. I shall walk there every day. And I looked at the geological map with the ‘auriferous reef in it. Martin is here.”
The letter was not difficult to write, though the final determination to write it was so hard that when it came to the paper and ink she sat long with pen undipped, unable to begin. But the memory of the bewildered misery in her father’s face that morning as he sat looking out of the window in the Room had given her a real sense of responsibility towards him. It was her business to find some anodyne50 for that. Perhaps the proof before his eyes, kept there day after day and week after week, that she wanted to do her best, might serve. Anyhow, at the moment it had awakened51 his humanity and his fatherhood; his hand had reached to her across the gulf; two puzzled, blind folk had clasped hands in the darkness.
Nor was the waiting for Frank’s answer difficult,—she knew him so well. And she was not disappointed here; the very brevity of the reply was honey to her.
“Dearest,—You must do as you must do. Magda says so, and so do I. But I am rather low, though she tells me not to be.
“Frank.”
But it was then, when she had made the difficult determination, and Frank had so ungrudgingly consented, that Helen’s difficulties began. Each day was an endless series of infinitesimal knots, not to be cut, but each to be patiently, cheerfully unravelled53. Each singly she could tackle, but she had to avert54 her eyes from the future, for the series of knots stretched into dim distance. All day, too, there was with her the{206} desire to see Frank, just once to see him, and perhaps cry a little on his shoulder; all day, too, there was the face of her father, always sunless, always grave. He had never, it is true, been other than austere55 in his domestic life, but then Helen had always known how deep was his love for her. But now it seemed to her sometimes as if he was trying to stifle56 and extinguish it; that knowing, as he did, there was soon to be an irrevocable rupture57 between them, a rupture that would divide them further than death divides, he was schooling58 himself to get used to it, as a man may school himself, when he sees one he loves in the pangs59 of mortal illness, to adjust himself beforehand to the loss that is coming. The marks of his suffering, too, were pathetically plain, and again and again she asked herself whether she had not only increased it by doing that which cost herself so much. Was it only an impulse of barren sentimentality that she had followed? Was she like a surgeon who gives an ineffective an?sthetic which should not deaden or mitigate60 the wrench61 and shock that was coming?
The encouragement she could find was but small. But it was this, that in any case she had done what was most difficult and what seemed, not only to her, but to Aunt Susan, to be right, and as such was fully accepted by her lover. Yet what if, after all, this was a mere62 senseless mutilation of herself, an objectless asceticism63?
It was this doubt that day after day most troubled her. Had she seen the least sign of bud on the barren stem she would have been much more than content. But the days became weeks, and there was still none, not even any return of the moment’s tenderness her{207} father had shewn at their first talk. She could not see that any practical good was coming of her renunciation. Like a wrecked65 sailor on a raft, she watched, as for a sail, for any horizon-distant sign that her father accepted her marriage and gave her credit—though she did not want the credit herself, but only longed for the evidence of it—for doing her best. But there was no such sign. He continued to use the prayer for Turks, infidels, and heretics.
What made things worse was that Martin, the beloved twin, with whom disagreement was a thing unthinkable, radically66 disapproved67 of what she was doing, and his disapproval68, she was afraid, was terribly practical,—namely, that it was quite certainly no use. Two things, however, after some three weeks of what seemed fruitless endeavour, kept her to it. One was a letter from Aunt Susan, to whom she had sent a despairing sheet, containing a memorable69 sentence: “God does not always pay on Saturday, Helen,” she had said. The other was an innate70 pride that forbade her to accept defeat. Here she feared also to lose the respect not only of her father, but of Frank.
“Yes, my darling, you tried it,” she imagined him saying, “and you found it was doing no good.”
And that he should say that was somehow intolerable to her. Whatever she might be, she would not be feeble. “The lame37 and the blind that are hated of David’s soul” seemed to her a very legitimate71 object of detestation. She would not give a thing up because she mistrusted her power of doing it.
Thus her apparent failure consumed itself. With the divine confidence of youth, the less successful she seemed to be the more she spurred herself on to strive.{208} All her sense of right had told her, when she made her decision, that she would thus be doing her best; her judgment72 was arrived at coolly and sanely73, and the present practical ill-success of it argued nothing against the principle.
Then came a crowning despondency and agitation74 in something Martin told her after he returned from a visit to Lady Sunningdale. The short history of that visit, however, claims an episodic precedence.
Lady Sunningdale had sent her motor over from Fareham to fetch Martin, and when he arrived, about tea-time, he rushed straight out on to the lawn to find her, but only encountered the chilling looks of several total strangers who were talking about fiscal75 problems and seemed surprised, if not pained, to see him. This was discouraging; and he was wondering what place there was to flee unto, when a footman came out after him to say that her ladyship was in her bedroom and wished to see him there immediately. Martin could not help giving a little giggle76 of amusement at this, and the footman, preceding him upstairs, threw open the door and announced him.
The room was large and very rose-coloured, on the principle of Lady Sunningdale’s famous maxim77 that bedrooms should be optimistic. She herself was reclining on the optimistic silk coverlet of her bed, with her shoes off and the blinds down.
“Is that you, monster?” she asked. “I am an absolute wreck64. Yes, pull up one blind and sit down at a respectful distance. Martin, you must promise to play absolutely all the time you are here, like a barrel organ, or I shall die. I shall send a footman to you{209} after each time with twopence on a tray and orders that you are not to move on. The house is crammed78 with perfectly79 dreadful people. I cannot imagine why I asked them. I hope you have not brought your gun, because I shan’t let you go shooting. You will have to talk to me all day, except when you are playing. Don’t tread on Suez Canal, or you’ll be drowned. Frank is here, and Stella. Otherwise—my dear, why are politicians so impossible? And why is Helen behaving like a mad-woman. Really, I thought she had more brains.”
Martin had pulled up one blind during this and revealed the room. There were pink-silk walls, on which were several pictures of Lady Sunningdale of not very recent date, a pink carpet, white furniture, and a particularly large and pink bed. Lady Sunningdale, fenced, like Egypt, on the one side by Suez Canal and on the other by Sahara, was lying propped80 up by a quantity of huge pillows and cushions. French books with yellow covers bestrewed the bed, and fragments of chewed pages suggested that the dogs had eaten one, like Jezebel, leaving only a few very indigestible pieces. A French maid hovered81 uneasily about a toilet-table, and appeared to be putting things in drawers. Considered as a wreck, finally, Lady Sunningdale looked particularly large and sea-worthy.
“Miss Plympton?” asked Martin, in an extremely disengaged voice, but with his face suddenly infected by the prevailing82 optimism.
Lady Sunningdale drew conclusions before most people could have arrived at data.
“Yes; ever since you played to us at Chartries she has been trying to learn the ‘Merry Peasant,’” she{210} said. “She is not getting on very well; but art is long, is it not. So is life. Too long, I think, sometimes. But, my dear, the rest of them! They talk about fiscal problems and what they’ve shot. Even Frank appears to be vaguely83 interested in free trade or free food or free drinks or something, which is deplorable of him. I expect him here immediately. My bedroom is the only place where one can be free from those intolerable bores. There are three, three cabinet ministers in the house! Really, politics ought to be considered a dangerous habit, like morphia. In fact, there is a very great resemblance between them. They are both drugs that send me to sleep, and the habit grows on one. You have to take more and more, and the result is death of the intellect, which is quite as lamentable84 as death of the body, and renders you far more tiresome85 to other people. For, after all, when one’s body is dead one is put away. But people whose intellect is dead are not put away at all; they pervade86 society. There is no one in the world so lost as the intellectually lost. How big hell must be! Talking of that, how is your father? What a bear!”
Martin had settled himself in a rose-coloured chair, and gave a great shout of laughter, suddenly checked.
“Quite well,” he said. “He always is.”
“Yes, that is so like him,” said she. “But, really, have you any strain of insanity87 in your very extraordinary family? My darlings, did I kick you? Oh, Sahara, naughty! All that book, and I hadn’t read it. Commandez du thé, Hortense. So convenient, she doesn’t know a word of English. Did you ever see such a murderish-looking woman? But she can make hats out of a tooth-brush and some waste-paper. Some{211} day she will kill me for my diamonds, and find out afterwards that they are paste. Then she will be sorry, and so shall I. Do attend, monster. Can you tell me why Helen, head over ears in love with him,—that was why I brought them together,—should behave like that? Shutting herself up with the bear and that dreadful aunt of yours who plays Patience. And Frank thinks, in some confused way, that it is so beautiful. He looks so funny when Helen’s name is mentioned, rather like a widower88, who hears a hymn-tune in four sharps on Sunday evening. So frightfully old-fashioned, that sort of thing. Those two find a sort of spiritual thrill in standing89 a hundred miles apart and shouting ‘Caro mio! O Carissima!’ to each other at the tops of their voices. I can’t bear that sort of Platonic90 love. Yes, you Challoners are all mad. If Becky Sharp lived with Savonarola in a grand piano, you would find a little Challoner crying on the drawing-room carpet one morning.”
“Why Becky Sharp?” he inquired, parenthetically.
“Only to add a little joie-de-vivre. No imputation91 on your morals.”
Lady Sunningdale struggled to a sitting attitude on the bed. Several French books flopped92 to the ground, and were instantly worried by the dogs: Zó’hár and A Rebours flew in gnawed93 fragments about the room.
Martin agreed with Lady Sunningdale in the view she took of Helen’s conduct, but he felt bound to defend his sister against so wild an attack.
“Anyhow, she’s doing a difficult thing because she thinks it right,” he said. “Give her credit for the difficulty.”
“Difficult?” cried Lady Sunningdale. “There is{212} no merit in doing a difficult thing just because it’s difficult. I might just as well try to stand on my head in the drawing-room and say to my wondering guests, ‘Admire me, please. Though foolish, this is difficult, and is only accomplished94 by prayer and fasting.’ Is that profane95? I think it must be, because my father was a Nonconformist, and whenever I say anything without thinking, it is nearly sure to be a reminiscence of my unhappy childish days, and comes out of the Bible. But it doesn’t prove that a thing is the least worth doing because it is difficult. She is standing on her head, then? And in a parsonage, too!”
“Yes, it amounts to that,” said Martin. “But with a moral purpose.”
There was a discreet96 tap at the door and Hortense entered with tea.
“Ah, muffins,” said Lady Sunningdale, in a mollified tone. “The under-piece, please, Martin. How delicious! But, though I am not cynical97, I always a little distrust moral purposes. If you do a thing with a moral purpose, it usually means that you do it because if you didn’t you would be uncomfortable inside. Good people are such cowards,—they are afraid of a little pain in their consciences. To avoid that they go and act in some foolish, antiquated98 manner, and every one says, ‘What a saint!’”
Then, out of all this nebulousness, like the gathering99 clouds of a thunder-storm, there leaped a sudden flash, like lightning, and rather like genius.
“She is doing sacrifice to an ideal she doesn’t fully believe in,” she said. “Helen doesn’t believe in certain things as your father does. Else she would never marry Frank at all. She would have screamed loudly{213} for help when he asked her, instead of saying ‘Yes.’ Her sacrifice, therefore, isn’t quite sincere.”
Then a sort of confusing roar of thunder followed, marring the sharp conclusiveness100 of the lightning.
“I cannot bear seeing people making a mess of their lives,” she said, “and it is such a pleasure to see them make a really clean job of them. Yes. Why continue poking101 round in a parsonage, when you have made up your mind to go away? It is like ordering the carriage to go to the station, and then, for no reason, saying that you will go by the next train. She has shattered the happy parsonage life, and is feebly trying to pick up the bits, instead of ringing the bell and leaving the Room. It is silly.”
“Ah, Helen is not silly,” said her brother.
“I did not say that. Yes, slap Sahara twice, hard. But I said she is doing a silly thing. Now, I am silly, but I hardly ever do a silly thing. Yes, come in. It must be Frank. Sunningdale never knocks, and nobody else ever comes in.”
Frank appeared at the door.
“I was sent for,” he said, apologetically. “Ah, Martin.”
That rang true. “You are her brother,” was behind it, and the romantic touch did not escape, though it rather irritated, Lady Sunningdale. Personally, she disliked romance on the general grounds that in real life it was old-fashioned. To her the two completely satisfactory methods of expression were melodrama102 and farce103. And Frank’s greeting to Martin, the hand on the shoulder, the linked arm, was all romantic, and just a little tiresome.
“Frank, what have you been doing with yourself all{214} day?” she cried. “I have not set eyes on you. But, of course, if you do prefer golf and Chinese labour to my inspiring conversation—— Yes, help yourself to some tea, and all the muffin there is.”
But Frank still lingered by Martin.
“How is she?” he said. “Is all well? Any message for me? No, of course there can’t be. She meant that. But she is well?”
He sat down on the foot of the rose-coloured bed.
“Dear lady,” he said, “I have done both. I went out playing golf with a colonial secretary, I think, and we talked about fiscal problems. Then I drove off into the bushes and lost the ball. So I said, ‘Will the price of golf balls go up?’ Then he drove into the bushes, too, and he said, ‘I expect so. So we will not look for them for a year. They will then be more valuable than they are now, but will require painting.’ Lucky golf balls! The longer most of us live the less valuable we become.”
Lady Sunningdale rather resented this.
“The older people become the more paint they want,” she said, “but the other is absolutely untrue. Until people are of a certain age they are of no value at all. I hate boys and girls. You only just escape, Martin; and I don’t think you would unless you could play like an elderly person. Young people want airing; they want to be out in the world for a time to get ripe. Tact104, now,—tact and good temper are quite the only gifts worth having, and tact is entirely105 an acquired quality. Until all your edges are rubbed down, you cannot have tact. People with edges are always putting their elbows into others, instead of{215} rolling along comfortably. You have no tact, Martin, and Helen, it appears, has less.”
Frank held up an appealing hand.
“Ah, please, Lady Sunningdale,” he said.
“Dear Frank, it is no use saying ‘please,’” cried she; “Helen is behaving idiotically. She ought to have smoothed the Bear down somehow; deceived him for the sake of his comfort. Martin, I think, would deceive his friends to make them comfortable. Considering how dreadfully uncomfortable life is, the first duty towards our neighbour is to try to make things pleasant. You, too, Frank, you have no tact. You ought to have said the Ten Commandments, or whatever it is, very loud, in the vulgar tongue, when you went to the Bear’s church, and then there wouldn’t have been any question at all. I would be a Parsee or a Plymouth sister to-morrow if it would make Sunningdale groan107 less. He has taken to groaning108. I suppose his mind hurts him, as he says he’s quite well.”
“Did you say that I would deceive people to make them comfortable?” asked Martin.
“Yes; at least I hope you would. But you Challoners are all slightly cracked, I think. You owe your vividness to that. You, Helen, your father, all see things out of their real proportion.”
“Have you ever seen Aunt Susan?” asked Martin.
“No; is she dreadful?”
“Not at all, but not vivid. It was she who really made Helen go home and live there.”
“Then your Aunt Susan is a very stupid person,” said Lady Sunningdale. “My dear, there are only{216} two sorts of people in the world, the clever and the stupid. Nobody is good, nobody is bad. At least, they may be for all that it matters, but goodness and badness in themselves have no result. There is nothing more colourless than moral qualities; it is only brains that give colour to them. Do you choose your friends because they are good? I am sorry for you. Of course, I don’t want you to choose them because they are bad. The one is as idiotic106 as the other. But brains! There is nothing else in the world, and very little of that. And moral qualities are like corsets. If they are tight they hinder free development, and if they are loose, you might as well not wear them at all.”
Lady Sunningdale had taken her feet off the bed during this remarkable109 speech and looked more closely at Martin.
“Your forehead is bulging110, Martin,” she said, “and your hair is dipping like a plume111 into your left eye. That happens, I notice, when you play, and it means you are thinking. So you are thinking now. What is it?”
Martin did not deny the soft impeachment112.
“Yes, I was thinking,” he said. “I don’t imagine that what I was thinking about would interest you in the least.”
Lady Sunningdale made a gesture of despair.
“Haven’t you grasped the elementary fact,” she said, “that anything anybody thinks about is deeply interesting? All the events of the world—who said it—take place in the brain. Sahara, darling, I am not a mutton bone, nor are my rings good to eat. Suez, how tiresome! And I hadn’t read a page of it! Yes; what were you thinking about, Martin?”{217}
Martin lit a cigarette from a smoked-down stump113 before he replied.
“I was thinking whether I was going to join the Roman Church,” he said.
Lady Sunningdale gave a deep, contented114 sigh.
“That’s the sort of thing I really like,” she remarked. “Poor Bear! Now, why, why, why do you want to do that? Yes, turn Sahara out, Frank; she is so restless. Suez Canal always follows her. And shut the door. Now close your eyes and think, Martin, for a minute if you like, and then tell me why?”
Frank said, under his breath, “I thought so,” and returned to his chair almost on tiptoe. Martin did not close his eyes at all, but looked at him.
“Frank knows why, I expect,” he said, “though I haven’t hinted it to him till this moment. Why is it, Frank?”
“Well, in one word, ‘Beauty,’” said he.
Lady Sunningdale was completely bewildered.
“Incense? The Virgin115 Mary?” she suggested, vaguely.
Martin frowned. For a moment he looked exactly like his father.
“Ah, what is the use of my telling you, if you say that sort of thing?” he asked.
“But I really haven’t an idea,” said she. “Did I say anything dreadful?”
“Frank, speak. You know,” said he. “I never know what I am talking about when I begin to talk.”
“It is only a guess.”
“You have guessed right. I believe you are always right.”{218}
“Well, get on somebody,” said Lady Sunningdale, with a show of impatience.
“All is Beauty,” said Frank, “and knowing this is Love, and Love is Duty.”
He smiled across to Martin.
“You quoted that, you know, to Helen,” he said, “on the day your father found ‘The Mill on the Floss.’”
“What did he find the mill on?” asked Lady Sunningdale. “Oh, I see. George Eliot, isn’t it? How dull! I read a book of hers once, ‘Scenes from Something,’ and thought it so like your father’s house, Martin. But all is Beauty, is it? I should have said almost everything was ugly. Anyhow, what has it all got to do with the Pope?”
Lady Sunningdale’s discursiveness116, the reader will have noticed, was liable to put in an appearance at any time, even when she was really interested. She herself explained this by the fact that she never thought about less than three things at once. Consequently, when she opened her mouth, any of the three was liable to make its escape.
“Yes, that is it,” said Martin, answering Frank’s last remark. “I am a Christian, and I cannot any longer be of a church that leaves out beauty from its worship. Why, if you love a thing, if you believe in a thing, you must approach it through beauty, it seems to me.”
He paused a moment, and then the words came as they had never come before. A sudden clearness of vision was his. He saw his own thought with precision, and he could at that moment of self-revelation delineate it very accurately117.{219}
“Why, when one’s friends come to see one,” he said, “one makes the room tidy. If you came to see me at Cambridge, Lady Sunningdale, I should take down my pipe-rack and put it in my bedroom, I should sweep my hearth118, I should give you a clean tablecloth119 for lunch, I should get flowers for the table, I should practise something which I thought you would like to hear me play. I should, in my small way, put all the beauty at my disposal at yours, and put the ugliness away. But—but take Chartries church. How beastly!”
Martin paused a moment. Frank was observing him quietly from underneath120 his hand, for the afternoon sun was pouring its light from the window where Martin had pulled up the blind full into his eyes. The boy seemed to him at this moment suddenly to have grown up, become vivider, to have thought for himself. Crude, elementary, unconvincing it all might be, but it was original. And Martin’s next words endorsed121 his opinion. Certainly he was not a child any longer.
“How dare they? How dare they?” he cried. “A wheezy organ; awful wood-work; terrible windows. Is there anything more hideous122 in all England than Chartries church,—unless it be a county jail for the confinement123 of prisoners? Because it is for God, will anything do?”
There certainly was crudity124 here. Frank felt that, though Lady Sunningdale did not, for her indifference125 on religious matters was perhaps the profoundest thing about her. He had enquired126 and rejected, she had never even looked in that direction. Martin had enquired, too, and found an awful Presence. And he was ashamed to call in old clothes, so to speak. What{220} was at the service of God was his best. All that was not best was an insult. And his face flushed suddenly.
“Why, if that church was my room, and you came to see me, I would cover up the stained glass,” he said. “I would make it decent. I would, I would——“
He paused for a moment, then found the word.
“I would have ‘form,’” he said. “I would give you politeness. I would not say, ‘She knows me; she will understand,’ and sit with you in a back bedroom, slops about, tooth-brushes, anything. But because God understands, are we to say ‘Anything will do?’ Why, when the Queen came to Chartries we had four courses for lunch and a red carpet.”
He broke off suddenly.
“Do you understand what I mean?” he demanded of Frank.
Frank understood perfectly, for he had known a long time what Martin had only just learned,—that “form” governed his life. For he did and always had done everything he believed in as well as he could do it, lavishing127 thereon all the pains and trouble at his command, with the instinctive128, open-handed generosity129 of love. These pains he did not bestow130 grudgingly52, nor count the expenditure131; whatever was worth doing was more than worth all the pains he could possibly bestow on it. That impulse lies at the root of every artistic132 temperament133, endless trouble for ever so minute a perfection, ever so infinitesimal a finish. But Frank, like an equitable134 judge, had to state the other side of the case to Martin.
“What will your father say to it?” he asked, using the most commonplace phrase.
Martin looked at him quickly.{221}
“Same as he said about you and Helen,” he remarked.
Lady Sunningdale could not help a little spurt135 of laughter, the repartee136 was so exquisitely137 simple. But she checked it at once.
“But it’s too awful for him,” she said. “First Helen and then you. Martin, do you think you ought——“
“I don’t know, but I must,” said Martin.
“But it doesn’t hurt you to play a creaky organ. And the stained-glass windows don’t hurt you.”
Frank had seen further than this.
“How necessary do you feel it?” he asked. “That is the whole point. Is it as necessary as—as Chopin?”
The door opened and Hortense entered.
“Sept heures et demi, madame,” she said.
Lady Sunningdale started to her feet.
“Monsters, you must go at once,” she cried. “Yes, dear Martin, it is too interesting! You will play to us this evening, won’t you? So glad you could come; and did you ever see such a mess as the dogs have made? But those things don’t hurt you any more than brushing one’s teeth hurts, though it cannot help being a terribly inartistic performance. And you ought to consider Helen, as well. Not that it matters what church one belongs to, as far as I can see. Sunningdale might become a Parsee to-morrow if it would make him any happier, only there really is no sun in England; so I don’t see what he would worship. How nice always to sit in the sun and say one was worshipping! Yes. You extraordinary boy, fancy your being religious in your little inside. I should never have guessed it. But you got quite pink when you talked{222} about Chartries church. Most religious people are so dull. Is that a dreadful thing to say, too? Dinner at eight. Take him and shew him his room, Frank.”
Lady Sunningdale certainly had the knack138 of bringing quite unique combinations of people together and of making them behave quite characteristically of their respective selves. She herself—this may partly account for it—behaved with such child-like naturalness that it was quite impossible for those with her to be self-conscious. As a hostess she was quite incomparable, for rejecting all known conventions which are supposed to be binding139 on that very responsible class, instead of behaving to each of her guests as if he was a mere unit in the colourless mass known as society, she talked direct and unmitigated “shop” appropriate to each. To-night there was present among her guests a traveller in Central Thibet, to whom she talked cannibal-shop, so much encouraging him that his account of his adventures became scarcely narratable141; an astronomer142 who knew Mars better, it appeared, than the majority of dwellers143 on this terrestrial globe know the county in which they live; several cabinet ministers who received relays of telegrams during dinner (always a charming incident), their wives, whose main preoccupations were appendicitis144, golf, and babies; a duchess of American extraction, who shied violently when the words “pig” or “Chicago” were mentioned; and a German princess who, when directly questioned, seemed doubtful as to where her husband’s principality lay, and was corrected on the subject by the astronomer. But owing perhaps to the advent140 of the Twin (the name by which Lady Sunningdale referred to{223} Martin), though she had previously confessed that she found her guests “dreadful,” to-night she went bravely ahead, steering145 a triumphant146 course over shoals where she grounded heavily and dashing on to rocks that should have made a wreck of her. The dinner-table was round; she herself set an excellent example by screaming over smilax and chrysanthemums147 to the person most distantly removed, and Babel, that god so ardently148 worshipped by hostesses, shed his full effulgence149 over the diners. Thibet and the Chald?ans easily led on to astronomy; astronomy to the observatory150 at Chicago, which occasioned a sudden and thrilling silence; and from the United States it was but a step to fiscal problems in which all but the cabinet ministers laid down incontrovertible opinions. Then golf let them into the circle again; and the story of a golfer being carried off the first tee after a futile drive, and expiring an hour later from an operation for appendicitis, while his wife was being confined, was charmingly to the point. In fact, the desultory151 rapidity of conversation left nothing to be desired, and all was due to Lady Sunningdale’s inimitable plan of talking shop to the shop-keepers.
Later, Martin played, there was Bridge, and Lord Sunningdale, as usual, went to sleep, and, on awaking, revoked153, subsequently explaining the revoke152 to the satisfaction of everybody but his partner, who remained dissatisfied to the last. Women took bed-candles, men gravitated to the smoking-room, though, since every one had previously smoked in the drawing-room, this seemed unnecessary. But, the fact is one without exception, men left alone leave drawing-rooms.{224}
Soon, again, after the long day’s shoot, the smoking-room yawned itself to bed, and cabinet ministers, the traveller, and the astronomer being gone, Frank was left alone with Martin. There was no design in the matter,—both hated going to bed as much as both detested154 getting up, but they were neither of them sorry to have the opportunity of more talk. Frank had got up from his chair on the last exit, took a whiskey-and-soda, and moved to the fireplace.
“Lady Sunningdale is extraordinarily155 clever,” he remarked, “but I can no more discuss anything with her than I could with a dragon-fly. She is always darting156.”
Martin laughed.
“Go on, then,” he said.
Frank sat down.
“Are you determined157, Martin?” he asked.
“I think so. I don’t see what else I can do.”
“I asked you a question before dinner, which you didn’t have time to answer. Is it as much to you as Chopin?”
“Why do you repeat that?” asked Martin. “It does not seem to me apt. How can I make such a comparison?”
“Easily, I should have thought.”
Again Martin’s likeness158 to his father started to his face.
“You say, ‘easily,’” he said. “Take this, then. What would you do if in order to get Helen you had to tell a real, mortal, mean lie, the sort of lie that would make you blush in the dark?”
“It’s like that, is it?”
“Yes; just like that. I must. I can’t tell you{225} why. I don’t know whether I know, except as regards what I said in Lady Sunningdale’s room, that, if in anything, in worship above all is beauty necessary. That is true, but it is only a sort of symbol of what I feel. Other people feel differently; they are less materialistic159 than I, and ugliness doesn’t get in their way. But if you happen to be gifted or cursed with the artistic temperament—Lord, how priggish that sounds!—I don’t see how you can help demanding beauty in the service of what is sublime160.”
“I never knew you thought about these things,” said Frank, rather lamely161.
Martin snapped his fingers impatiently.
“More fool you, old chap,” said he. “All the same, I don’t see why you should have. So I’ll apologise. Probably you thought that because one has high spirits, a really fine capacity for playing the fool, and also a certain leaning towards the piano, that I never took anything seriously. Nor did I till lately. In any case, this is really so much more my concern than anybody’s. I’ve got to lead my own life, not to be dragged about like a sheep. And I must.”
He paused a moment.
“I have only given you an external instance of what seems to me an underlying162 principle,” he said. “The difference in ‘form’ between the two churches is an illustration of the desire of the Roman Church to enlist163 beauty in the service of God. That desire is the spirit of Romanism. Now, English people, take them all round, are extremely deficient164 in the sense of beauty, and utterly blind to its importance. And in church I think it really seems to them slightly inappropriate. The Roman Church is mystical, romantic, poetical165.{226} The English is Puritan and ugly and literal. And, do you know, as soon as I began to think, I found I could not stand Puritanism. Heavens, how I have jawed166!”
Martin got up briskly from his chair, with the unmistakable air of closing that particular topic. In his youthful, boyish manner there lurked167 a great deal of masterfulness, which those who came in contact with it might be disposed to call obstinacy168. Though he never adopted any attitude so ungraceful as that of a donkey with its legs planted outwards169 towards the four quarters of the compass, the effect on such as pulled was about the same. If he chose, he would smilingly refuse to go in any direction whatever, certainly until all efforts to move him were relaxed. But as he knew himself, and as Frank suspected, there was just one person in the world with whom, hitherto, he had never adopted this attitude, and that was his father. Never yet in his life had he set his will calmly in opposition170 to Mr. Challoner’s. As he had once told his father, he was frightened at him, he feared his anger, but there was certainly no one else in the world whom he would radically disagree with, and yet obey. And some cold intimate knowledge of this had suddenly struck him when at this moment he stopped the conversation. All that he had said he had honestly felt, but vivid as was his imagination, when he flashed a light into his father’s study at home, he could not picture himself there saying this to him. His own figure wavered, as if blown by a draught.
There are certain plants which apparently171 lie dormant172, as far as outward observation can go, for months, and even years, together, and then suddenly grow with{227} an incredible swiftness, putting forth173 leaf, bud, and blossom with a rapidity that is almost uncanny. Some invisible storage of force must certainly have been taking place during the prolonged dormancy174, the root-fibre has prospered175 and been accumulating vitality176 out of the ken17 of human eye, transforming the fertile elements into itself, and the visible result is the constellation177 of sudden blossom. And a similar phenomenon is observable in that most obscure of all growths, that of the human character. There are no clear causes to be registered of this sudden activity, only the essence of the conditions favourable178 to growth must have been stored within it, till its reservoir has been filled to overflowing179 and discharges all at once its potential energy. It struck Frank this evening that some such inexplicable sprouting180 had just begun in Martin. He had quite suddenly taken a distinct and defined line of his own, and was under the spell of an irresistible181, original impulse. He had never been, it is true, devoid182 of vividness or vitality, but he had never yet taken a step. He had been held by the scruff of his neck with his nose to the grindstone of classical education without attempting to raise it, and his recent emancipation183 had been entirely contrived184 by others, while he himself had stirred not a finger in it, leaving Frank, his uncle, and Lady Sunningdale to fight his battle for him, merely sitting in his tent and, it is true, receiving the news of victory with engaging delight. But now his character showed growth: he had thought for himself, come to a conclusion consistent with himself, and was apparently prepared to act on it.
And now that the growth had begun, it was not so {228}hard to see the causes which made it inevitable185. For he was an artist through and through; in all his tastes, in all his achievements the note of “form” sounded trumpet-like. And if, which Frank had not known, the desire and the need of God was in the woof of his nature, that, too, must be expressed with the ?sthetic beauty in which, necessarily to him, emotion had to be clothed. He could be and was slovenly186 in execution where his artistic sympathies were not aroused, as his more than mediocre187 performances in classical languages could testify; but where his feelings were concerned, any expression of them had to be made with all the excellence188 obtainable. He was not able himself to do badly what appealed to him, neither could he watch or take part in a thing that was badly done. And the growth that he had made consisted in the fact that he recognised this.
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