I had embarked10 on my letter, there at the end of a corner-table of the saloon, when I saw Dacres saunter through. He wore a very conscious and elaborately purposeless air; and it jumped with my mood that he had nothing less than the crisis of his life in his pocket, and was looking for me. As he advanced towards me between the long tables doubt left me and alarm assailed11 me. ‘I’m glad to find you in a quiet corner,’ said he, seating himself, and confirmed my worst anticipations13.
‘I’m writing to John,’ I said, and again applied14 myself to my pen-handle. It is a trick Cecily has since done her best in vain to cure me of.
‘I am going to interrupt you,’ he said. ‘I have not had an opportunity of talking to you for some time.’
‘I like that!’ I exclaimed derisively15.
‘And I want to tell you that I am very much charmed with Cecily.’
‘Well,’ I said, ‘I am not going to gratify you by saying anything against her.’
‘You don’t deserve her, you know.’
‘I won’t dispute that. But, if you don’t mind — I’m not sure that I’ll stand being abused, dear boy.’
‘I quite see it isn’t any use. Though one spoke16 with the tongues of men and of angels —’
‘And had not charity,’ I continued for him. ‘Precisely17. I won’t go on, but your quotation18 is very apt.’
‘I so bow down before her simplicity19. It makes a wide and beautiful margin20 for the rest of her character. She is a girl Ruskin would have loved.’
‘I wonder,’ said I. ‘He did seem fond of the simple type, didn’t he?’
‘Her mind is so clear, so transparent21. The motive22 spring of everything she says and does is so direct. Don’t you find you can most completely depend upon her?’
‘Oh yes,’ I said; ‘certainly. I nearly always know what she is going to say before she says it, and under given circumstances I can tell precisely what she will do.’
‘I fancy her sense of duty is very beautifully developed.’
‘It is,’ I said. ‘There is hardly a day when I do not come in contact with it.’
‘Well, that is surely a good thing. And I find that calm poise23 of hers very restful.’
‘I would not have believed that so many virtues could reside in one young lady,’ I said, taking refuge in flippancy24, ‘and to think that she should be my daughter!’
‘As I believe you know, that seems to me rather a cruel stroke of destiny, Mrs. Farnham.’
‘Oh yes, I know! You have a constructive25 imagination, Dacres. You don’t seem to see that the girl is protected by her limitations, like a tortoise. She lives within them quite secure and happy and content. How determined26 you are to be sorry for her!’
Mr. Tottenham looked at the end of this lively exchange as though he sought for a polite way of conveying to me that I rather was the limited person. He looked as if he wished he could say things. The first of them would be, I saw, that he had quite a different conception of Cecily, that it was illuminated27 by many trifles, nuances of feeling and expression, which he had noticed in his talks with her whenever they had skirted the subject of her adoption28 by her mother. He knew her, he was longing29 to say, better than I did; when it would have been natural to reply that one could not hope to compete in such a direction with an intelligent young man, and we should at once have been upon delicate and difficult ground. So it was as well perhaps that he kept silence until he said, as he had come prepared to say, ‘Well, I want to put that beyond a doubt — her happiness — if I’m good enough. I want her, please, and I only hope that she will be half as willing to come as you are likely to be to let her go.’
It was a shock when it came, plump, like that; and I was horrified30 to feel how completely every other consideration was lost for the instant in the immense relief that it prefigured. To be my whole complete self again, without the feeling that a fraction of me was masquerading about in Cecily! To be freed at once, or almost, from an exacting31 condition and an impossible ideal! ‘Oh!’ I exclaimed, and my eyes positively32 filled. ‘You ARE good, Dacres, but I couldn’t let you do that.’
His undisguised stare brought me back to a sense of the proportion of things. I saw that in the combination of influences that had brought Mr. Tottenham to the point of proposing to marry my daughter consideration for me, if it had a place, would be fantastic. Inwardly I laughed at the egotism of raw nerves that had conjured33 it up, even for an instant, as a reason for gratitude34. The situation was not so peculiar35, not so interesting, as that. But I answered his stare with a smile; what I had said might very well stand.
‘Do you imagine,’ he said, seeing that I did not mean to amplify36 it, ‘that I want to marry her out of any sort of GOODness?’
‘Benevolence is your weakness, Dacres.’
‘I see. You think one’s motive is to withdraw her from a relation which ought to be the most natural in the world, but which is, in her particular and painful case, the most equivocal.’
‘Well, come,’ I remonstrated37. ‘You have dropped one or two things, you know, in the heat of your indignation, not badly calculated to give one that idea. The eloquent38 statement you have just made, for instance — it carries all the patness of old conviction. How often have you rehearsed it?’
I am a fairly long-suffering person, but I began to feel a little annoyed with my would-be son-in-law. If the relation were achieved it would give him no prescriptive right to bully39 me; and we were still in very early anticipation12 of that.
‘Ah!’ he said disarmingly. ‘Don’t let us quarrel. I’m sorry you think that; because it isn’t likely to bring your favour to my project, and I want you friendly and helpful. Oh, confound it!’ he exclaimed, with sudden temper. ‘You ought to be. I don’t understand this aloofness40. I half suspect it’s pose. You undervalue Cecily — well, you have no business to undervalue me. You know me better than anybody in the world. Now are you going to help me to marry your daughter?’
‘I don’t think so,’ I said slowly, after a moment’s silence, which he sat through like a mutinous41 schoolboy. ‘I might tell you that I don’t care a button whom you marry, but that would not be true. I do care more or less. As you say, I know you pretty well. I’d a little rather you didn’t make a mess of it; and if you must I should distinctly prefer not to have the spectacle under my nose for the rest of my life. I can’t hinder you, but I won’t help you.’
‘And what possesses you to imagine that in marrying Cecily I should make a mess of it? Shouldn’t your first consideration be whether SHE would?’
‘Perhaps it should, but, you see, it isn’t. Cecily would be happy with anybody who made her comfortable. You would ask a good deal more than that, you know.’
Dacres, at this, took me up promptly42. Life, he said, the heart of life, had particularly little to say to temperament43. By the heart of life I suppose he meant married love. He explained that its roots asked other sustenance44, and that it throve best of all on simple elemental goodness. So long as a man sought in women mere45 casual companionship, perhaps the most exquisite46 thing to be experienced was the stimulus47 of some spiritual feminine counterpart; but when he desired of one woman that she should be always and intimately with him, the background of his life, the mother of his children, he was better advised to avoid nerves and sensibilities, and try for the repose48 of the common — the uncommon49 — domestic virtues. Ah, he said, they were sweet, like lavender. (Already, I told him, he smelled the housekeeper’s linen-chest.) But I did not interrupt him much; I couldn’t, he was too absorbed. To temperamental pairing, he declared, the century owed its breed of decadents50. I asked him if he had ever really recognized one; and he retorted that if he hadn’t he didn’t wish to make a beginning in his own family. In a quarter of an hour he repudiated51 the theories of a lifetime, a gratifying triumph for simple elemental goodness. Having denied the value of the subtler pretensions52 to charm in woman as you marry her, he went artlessly on to endow Cecily with as many of them as could possibly be desirable. He actually persuaded himself to say that it was lovely to see the reflections of life in her tranquil53 spirit; and when I looked at him incredulously he grew angry, and hinted that Cecily’s sensitiveness to reflections and other things might be a trifle beyond her mother’s ken1. ‘She responds instantly, intimately, to the beautiful everywhere,’ he declared.
‘Aren’t the opportunities of life on board ship rather limited to demonstrate that?’ I inquired. ‘I know — you mean sunsets. Cecily is very fond of sunsets. She is always asking me to come and look at them.’
‘I was thinking of last night’s sunset,’ he confessed. ‘We looked at it together.’
‘What did she say?’ I asked idly.
‘Nothing very much. That’s just the point. Another girl would have raved54 and gushed55.’
‘Oh, well, Cecily never does that,’ I responded. ‘Nevertheless she is a very ordinary human instrument. I hope I shall have no temptation ten years hence to remind you that I warned you of her quality.’
‘I wish, not in the least for my own profit, for I am well convinced already, but simply to win your cordiality and your approval — never did an unexceptional wooer receive such niggard encouragement! — I wish there were some sort of test for her quality. I would be proud to stand by it, and you would be convinced. I can’t find words to describe my objection to your state of mind.’
The thing seemed to me to be a foregone conclusion. I saw it accomplished56, with all its possibilities of disastrous57 commonplace. I saw all that I have here taken the trouble to foreshadow. So far as I was concerned, Dacres’s burden would add itself to my philosophies, voila tout58. I should always be a little uncomfortable about it, because it had been taken from my back; but it would not be a matter for the wringing59 of hands. And yet — the hatefulness of the mistake! Dacres’s bold talk of a test made no suggestion. Should my invention be more fertile? I thought of something.
‘You have said nothing to her yet?’ I asked.
‘Nothing. I don’t think she suspects for a moment. She treats me as if no such fell design were possible. I’m none too confident, you know,’ he added, with longer face.
‘We go straight to Agra. Could you come to Agra?’
‘Ideal!’ he cried. ‘The memory of Mumtaz! The garden of the Taj! I’ve always wanted to love under the same moon as Shah Jehan. How thoughtful of you!’
‘You must spend a few days with us in Agra,’ I continued. ‘And as you say, it is the very place to shrine60 your happiness, if it comes to pass there.’
‘Well, I am glad to have extracted a word of kindness from you at last,’ said Dacres, as the stewards61 came to lay the table. ‘But I wish,’ he added regretfully, ‘you could have thought of a test.’
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