Once more he found himself at the right hand of Miss Dacre. All his career, since his arrival in England, flitted across his mind. Doncaster, dear Don-caster, where he had first seen her, teemed1 only with delightful2 reminiscences to a man whose favourite had bolted. Such is the magic of love! Then came Castle Dacre and the orange terrace, and their airy romps3, and the delightful party to Hauteville; and then Dacre Abbey. An involuntary shudder4 seemed to damp all the ardour of his soul; but when he turned and looked upon her beaming face, he could not feel miserable5.
He thought that he had never been at so agreeable a party in his life: yet it was chiefly composed of the very beings whom he daily execrated6 for their powers of boredom7. And he himself was not very entertaining. He was certainly more silent than loquacious8, and found himself often gazing with mute admiration9 on the little mouth, every word breathed forth10 from which seemed inspiration. Yet he was happy. Oh! what happiness is his who dotes upon a woman! Few could observe from his conduct what was passing in his mind; yet the quivering of his softened11 tones and the mild lustre12 of his mellowed13 gaze; his subdued14 and quiet manner; his unperceived yet infinite attentions; his memory of little incidents that all but lovers would have forgotten; the total absence of all compliment, and gallantry, and repartee15; all these, to a fine observer, might have been gentle indications of a strong passion; and to her to whom they were addressed sufficiently16 intimated that no change had taken place in his feelings since the warm hour in which he first whispered his o’erpowering love.
The ladies retired17, and the Duke of St. James fell into a reverie. A political discourse18 of elaborate genius now arose. Lord Fitz-pompey got parliamentary. Young Faulcon made his escape, having previously19 whispered to another youth, not unheard by the Duke of St. James, that his mother was about to depart, and he was convoy20. His Grace, too, had heard Lady Fitz-pompey say that she was going early to the opera. Shortly afterwards parties evidently retired. But the debate still raged. Lord Fitz-pompey had caught a stout21 Yorkshire squire22, and was delightedly astounding23 with official graces his stern opponent. A sudden thought occurred to the Duke; he stole out of the room, and gained the saloon.
He found it almost empty. With sincere pleasure he bid Lady Balmont, who was on the point of departure, farewell, and promised to look in at her box. He seated himself by Lady Greville Nugent, and dexterously24 made her follow Lady Balmont’s example. She withdrew with the conviction that his Grace would not be a moment behind her. There were only old Mrs. Hungerford and her rich daughter remaining. They were in such raptures25 with Miss Dacre’s singing that his Grace was quite in despair; but chance favoured him. Even old Mrs. Hungerford this night broke through her rule of not going to more than one house, and she drove off to Lady de Courcy’s.
They were alone. It is sometimes an awful thing to be alone with those we love.
‘Sing that again!’ asked the Duke, imploringly26. ‘It is my favourite air; it always reminds me of Dacre.’
She sang, she ceased; she sang with beauty, and she ceased with grace; but all unnoticed by the tumultuous soul of her adoring guest. His thoughts were intent upon a greater object. The opportunity was sweet; and yet those boisterous27 wassailers, they might spoil all.
‘Do you know that this is the first time that I have seen your rooms lit up?’ said the Duke.
‘Is it possible! I hope they gain the approbation28 of so distinguished29 a judge.’
‘I admire them exceedingly. By-the-bye, I see a new cabinet in the next room. Swaby told me, the other day, that you were one of his lady-patronesses. I wish you would show it me. I am very curious in cabinets.’
She rose, and they advanced to the end of another and a longer room.
‘This is a beautiful saloon,’ said the Duke. ‘How long is it?’
‘I really do not know; but I think between forty and fifty feet.’
‘Oh! you must be mistaken. Forty or fifty feet! I am an excellent judge of distances. I will try. Forty or fifty feet! Ah! the next room included. Let us walk to the end of the next room. Each of my paces shall be one foot and a half.’
They had now arrived at the end of the third room.
‘Let me see,’ resumed the Duke; ‘you have a small room to the right. Oh! did I not hear that you had made a conservatory30? I see, I see it; lit up, too! Let us go in. I want to gain some hints about London conservatories31.’
It was not exactly a conservatory; but a balcony of large dimensions had been fitted up on each side with coloured glass, and was open to the gardens. It was a rich night of fragrant32 June. The moon and stars were as bright as if they had shone over the terrace of Dacre, and the perfume of the flowers reminded him of his favourite orange-trees. The mild, cool scene was such a contrast to the hot and noisy chamber33 they had recently quitted, that for a moment they were silent.
‘You are not afraid of this delicious air?’ asked his Grace.
‘Midsummer air,’ said Miss Dacre, ‘must surely be harmless.’
Again there was silence; and Miss Dacre, after having plucked a flower and tended a plant, seemed to express an intention of withdrawing. Suddenly he spoke34, and in a gushing35 voice of heartfelt words:
‘Miss Dacre, you are too kind, too excellent to be offended, if I dare to ask whether anything could induce you to view with more indulgence one who sensibly feels how utterly36 he is unworthy of you.’
‘You are the last person whose feelings I should wish to hurt. Let us not revive a conversation to which, I can assure you, neither of us looks back with satisfaction.’
‘Is there, then, no hope? Must I ever live with the consciousness of being the object of your scorn?’
‘Oh, no, no! As you will speak, let us understand each other. However I may approve of my decision, I have lived quite long enough to repent37 the manner in which it was conveyed. I cannot, without the most unfeigned regret, I cannot for a moment remember that I have addressed a bitter word to one to whom I am under the greatest obligations. If my apologies ——’
‘Pray, pray be silent!’
‘I must speak. If my apologies, my complete, my most humble38 apologies, can be any compensation for treating with such lightness feelings which I now respect, and offers by which I now consider myself honoured, accept them!’
‘O, Miss Dacre! that fatal word, respect!’
‘We have warmer words in this house for you. You are now our friend.’
‘I dare not urge a suit which may offend you; yet, if you could read my heart, I sometimes think that we might be happy. Let me hope!’
‘My dear Duke of St. James, I am sure you will not ever offend me, because I am sure you will not ever wish to do it. There are few people in this world for whom I entertain a more sincere regard than yourself. I am convinced, I am conscious, that when we met I did sufficient justice neither to your virtues39 nor your talents. It is impossible for me to express with what satisfaction I now feel that you have resumed that place in the affections of this family to which you have an hereditary40 right. I am grateful, truly, sincerely grateful, for all that you feel with regard to me individually; and believe me, in again expressing my regret that it is not in my power to view you in any other light than as a valued friend, I feel that I am pursuing that conduct which will conduce as much to your happiness as my own.’
‘My happiness, Miss Dacre!’
‘Indeed, such is my opinion. I will not again endeavour to depreciate41 the feelings which you entertain for me, and by which, ever remember, I feel honoured; but these very feelings prevent you from viewing their object so dispassionately as I do.’
‘I am at a loss for your meaning; at least, favour me by speaking explicitly42: you see I respect your sentiments, and do not presume to urge that on which my very happiness depends.’
‘To be brief, then, I will not affect to conceal43 that marriage is a state which has often been the object of my meditations44. I think it the duty of all women that so important a change in their destiny should be well considered. If I know anything of myself, I am convinced that I should never survive an unhappy marriage.’
‘But why dream of anything so utterly impossible?’
‘So very probable, so very certain, you mean. Ay! I repeat my words, for they are truth. If I ever marry, it is to devote every feeling and every thought, each hour, each instant of existence, to a single being for whom I alone live. Such devotion I expect in return; without it I should die, or wish to die; but such devotion can never be returned by you.’
‘You amaze me! I! who live only on your image.’
‘Your education, the habits in which you are brought up, the maxims45 which have been instilled46 into you from your infancy47, the system which each year of your life has more matured, the worldly levity48 with which everything connected with woman is viewed by you and your companions; whatever may be your natural dispositions49, all this would prevent you, all this would render it a perfect impossibility, all this will ever make you utterly unconscious of the importance of the subject on which we are now conversing50. Pardon me for saying it, you know not of what you speak. Yes! however sincere may be the expression of your feelings to me this moment, I shudder to think on whom your memory dwelt even this hour but yesterday. I never will peril51 my happiness on such a chance; but there are others who do not think as I do.’
‘Miss Dacre! save me! If you knew all, you would not doubt. This moment is my destiny.’
‘My dear Duke of St. James, save yourself. There is yet time. You have my prayers.’
‘Let me then hope ——’
‘Indeed, indeed, it cannot be. Here our conversation on this subject ends for ever.’
‘Yet we part friends!’ He spoke in a broken voice.
‘The best and truest!’ She extended her arm; he pressed her hand to his impassioned lips, and quitted the house, mad with love and misery52.
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romps
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boredom
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admiration
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softened
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repartee
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retired
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discourse
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distinguished
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conservatory
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gushing
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depreciate
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explicitly
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conceal
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meditations
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maxims
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instilled
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infancy
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conversing
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peril
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misery
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