"It won't take them over four or five days," Gisela said at his shoulder.
He positively6 struggled to condemn7 her foolish waste, but not a word escaped the barrier of his pride. Once started, he would have to explain the entire precarious8 situation to her—the labor shortage, the dangerous tension of his credit, the inimical powers anxious to absorb his industry, the fact that he was a potential failure. He wished, at any sacrifice, to keep the last from his wife, convinced as she was of his success.
Surely in a few months the sky would clear and he would triumph—this time solidly, beyond all assault. He rehearsed this without his usual conviction; the letters from the Columbus System were growing more dictatorial9; he had received a covertly10 insolent11 communication from an insignificant12 tool works.
The Columbus Railroad had written that they were now able to secure a rail, satisfactory for their purpose and tests, at a considerably13 lower figure than he demanded. This puzzled him; knowing intimately the whole iron situation, he realized that it was impossible for any firm to make a legitimate14 profit at a smaller price than his. When he learned that the new contracts were being met by John Wooddrop his face was ugly—the older man, at a sacrifice, was deliberately15, coldly hastening his downfall. But he abandoned this unpleasant thought when, later, in a circuitous16 manner, he learned that the Wooddrop Rolling Mills, situated17 ten miles south of the valleys, were running on a new, secret, and vastly economical system.
He looked up, his brow scored, from his desk. Conrad Wishon's son, a huge bulk, was looking out through a window, completely blocking off the light. Alexander Hulings said:
"I'd give a thousand dollars to know something of that process!"
The second Wishon turned on his heel.
"What's that?" he demanded.
Alexander told him. The other was thoughtful.
"I wouldn't have a chance hereabouts," he pronounced; "but I'm not so well known at the South Mills. Perhaps——"
Hulings repeated moodily18:
"A thousand dollars!"
He was skeptical19 of Wishon's ability to learn anything of the new milling. It had to do obscurely with the return of the bars through the rollers without having to be constantly re-fed. Such a scheme would cut forty men from the pay books.
A black depression settled over him, as tangible20 as soot21; he felt physically22 weary, sick. Alexander fingered an accumulation of bills; one, he saw, was from the Philadelphia jeweler—a fresh extravagance of Gisela's. But glancing hastily at its items, he was puzzled—"Resetting diamond necklace in pendant, fifty-five dollars." It was addressed to Gisela; its presence here, on his desk, was an error. After a momentary23, fretful conjecturing24 he dismissed it from his thoughts; women were beyond comprehension.
He had now, from the sciatica, a permanent limp; a cane25 had ceased to be merely ornamental27. A hundred small details, falling wrongly, rubbed on the raw of his dejection. The feeling of loneliness deepened about him. As the sun sank, throwing up over, the world a last dripping bath of red-gold light, he returned slowly to his house.
Each window, facing him, flashed in a broad sheet of blinding radiance, a callous28 illumination. A peacock, another of Gisela's late extravagances, spread a burnished29 metallic30 plumage, with a grating cry.
But the hall was pleasantly still, dim. He stood for a long minute, resting, drawing deep breaths of quietude. Every light was lit in the reception room, where he found his wife, seated, in burnt-orange satin and bare powdered shoulders, amid a glitter of glass prisms, gilt31 and marble. Her very brilliance32, her gay, careless smile, added to his fatigue33. Suddenly he thought—I am an old man with a young wife! His dejection changed to bitterness. Gisela said:
"I hope you like my dress; it came from Vienna, and was wickedly expensive. Really I ought to wear sapphires34 with it; I rather think I'll get them. Diamonds look like glass with orange." Her words were lost in a confused blurring35 of his mind. He swayed slightly. Suddenly the whole circumstance of his living, of Gisela's babbling36, became unendurable. His pride, his conception of a wife set in luxury above the facts of existence, a mere26 symbol of his importance and wealth, crumbled37, stripping him of all pretense38. He raised a thin, darkly veined and trembling hand.
"Sapphires!" he cried shrilly39. "Why, next week we'll be lucky if we can buy bread! I am practically smashed—smashed at fifty and more. This house that you fix up and fix up, that dress and the diamonds and clocks, and—and——They are not real; in no time they'll go, fade away like smoke, leave me, us, bare. For five years I have been fighting for my life; and now I'm losing; everything is slipping out of my hands. While you talk of sapphires; you build bedamned gardens with the men I need to keep us alive; and peacocks and——"
He stopped as abruptly40 as he had commenced, flooded with shame at the fact that he stood before her self-condemned; that she, Gisela, saw in him a sham41. He miserably42 avoided her gaze, and was surprised when she spoke43, in an unperturbed warm voice:
"Sit down, Alexander; you are tired and excited." She rose and, with a steady hand, forced him into a chair. "I am glad that, at last, you told me this," she continued evenly; "for now we can face it, arrange, together. It can't be so bad as you suppose. Naturally you are worn, but you are a very strong man; I have great faith in you."
He gazed at her in growing wonderment; here was an entirely44 different woman from the Gisela who had chattered45 about Viennese gowns. He noted46, with a renewed sense of security, the firmness of her lips, her level, unfaltering gaze. He had had an unformulated conviction that in crises women wrung47 their hands, fainted. She gesticulated toward the elaborate furnishings, including her satin array:
"However it may have seemed, I don't care a bawbee about these things! I never did; and it always annoyed father as it annoyed you. I am sorry, if you like. But at last we understand each other. We can live, fight, intelligently."
Gisela knew; regret, pretense, were useless now, and curiously48 in that knowledge she seemed to come closer to him; he had a new sense of her actuality. Yet that evening she not only refused to listen to any serious statements, but played and sang the most frothy Italian songs.
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