He entered the improvised5 prayer-room with this ironic6 sense of coming back to Judaism by the Christian7 prison door. But the service shook him terribly. He forgot even to be amused by the one successful impostor who had landed himself in an unforeseen deprivation8 of rations9 during the whole fast day. The passionate10 outcries of the old-fashioned Chazan, the solemn peals11 and tremolo notes of the cornet, which had once been merely ?sthetic effects to the reputable master-cutter, were now surcharged with doom12 and chastisement13. The very sight of the Hebrew books and scrolls14 touched a thousand memories of home and innocence15.
Ah, God, how he had sinned!
'Forgive us now, pardon us now, atone2 for us now!' he cried, smiting16 his breast and rocking to and fro.
His poor deserted17 wife and children! How terrible for Haigitcha to wake up one morning and find him gone! As terrible as for him to wake up one morning and find Gittel gone. Ah, God had indeed paid him in kind! Eye for eye, tooth for tooth.
The philanthropist himself preached the sermon. God could never forgive sins till the sinner had first straightened out the human wrongs.
[306]Ah, true, true! If he could only find his family again. If he could try by love and immeasurable devotion to atone for the past. Then again life would have a meaning and an aim. Poor, poor Haigitcha! How he would weep over her and cherish her. And his children! They must be grown up. Yankely must be quite a young man. Yes, he would be seventeen by now. And Rachel, that pretty, clinging cherub18!
In all those years he had not dared to let his thoughts pause upon them. His past lay like a misty19 dream behind those thousand leagues of ocean. But now it started up in all the colours of daylight, warm, appealing. Yes, he would go back to his dear ones who must still crave20 his love and guidance; he would plead and be forgiven, and end his days piously21 at the sacred hearth22 of duty.
'Forgive us now, pardon us now, atone for us now!'
If only he could get back to old England.
He appealed to the philanthropist, and lied amid all his contrition23. It was desperation at the severance24 from his wife and children that had driven him to drink, lust25 of gold that had spurred him across the Atlantic. Now a wiser and sadder man, he would be content with a modicum26 and the wife of his bosom27.
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n.(声音大而持续或重复的)洪亮的响声( peal的名词复数 );隆隆声;洪亮的钟声;钟乐v.(使)(钟等)鸣响,(雷等)发出隆隆声( peal的第三人称单数 ) | |
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