The “Lion” Inn was a pleasant, old-fashioned little hostelry overlooking the bay, with Bournemouth beyond the distant haze2. My room was small and clean, with white dimity curtains and hangings, and framed religious texts upon the walls. As I sat at the window in the hour before my dinner was ready, I reflected upon the strange incidents of those past few days—a chain of curious circumstances that seemed to enmesh and to entangle3 me.
Lucie Miller4—the girl whose peril5 was such a mysterious and yet deadly one—had actually known my Ella. That very fact seemed somehow as a further link between us. What, I wondered, did she know of those later days of my dead love’s life? To me they were shrouded6 in mystery.
That cold winter’s night in damp, dismal7 London, when I had met her in secret at the corner of Queen’s Gardens, would ever remain in my memory. She was staying with an aunt in Porchester Terrace, and we had always preserved the secret of our affection. She came dressed in black, wearing a thick veil and carrying a muff in which was a bunch of violets. Her voice, when I greeted her, was, alas8! not the same. Quick to recognise that something had occurred, I inquired the reason. Had she had any difference with her father or her aunt—as she sometimes had? No, she said, shaking her head, it was not that.
And then, almost in silence, we strolled on side by side over those wet shining London pavements through the quieter streets and squares of Bayswater, while I glanced wonderingly at her face showing pale behind her spotted9 veil. At last her trembling hand suddenly rested upon my wrist, and halting she turned to me. In hoarse10 tones quite unusual to her she blurted11 forth12 the truth—the bitter truth that froze my heart. I remember even the spot where we stood, beside a red letter-box at the corner of Chepstow Place. There the greatest blow of all my life fell upon me; and we parted.
I went straight along the Westbourne Grove13, blinded by tears. She was to wed14 the very last man she ought to have chosen. The coarse, fat-necked parvenu15 had bought her from her father with his gold won in gambles on the Stock Exchange. Yes, my Ella, my sweet-faced love, was not satisfied with the prospect16 of being the wife of a man comfortably off. Like so many other girls who are dazzled by the lights of life, she longed to shine as a hostess, to wear Paquin frocks and have her portraits in the papers. I was deeply disappointed with her, for, fool that I was, I really believed that she honestly loved me. How often, alas! is a man deceived! I was but one of thousands, after all. And yet I had adored her with all my heart and all my soul.
Away in the country the very song of the birds seemed to be in praise of her—she whose beauty was sweet and delicate as the petals17 of the flowers; chaste18 and sweet as the rose itself. Love to the looker-on may be blind, unwise, unworthily bestowed19, a waste, a sacrifice, a crime; yet none the less is love the only thing that, come weal or woe20, is worth the loss of every other thing; the one supreme21 and perfect gift of earth in which all common things of daily life become transfigured and divine.
I was crushed, benumbed, broken. At first my brain refused to accept her declaration that that meeting was to be our last, until she told me the truth in all its hideous22 detail, and that on the morrow her engagement was to be announced in the Morning Post. I opened my lips to upbraid23 her, but my tongue refused to utter a syllable24 of reproach. I only bit my lips in silence. Ah! yes, I loved her!—I loved her!
From that moment we never again met. Next day I saw the announcement in the papers, and, disappointed and heart-broken, I went abroad, and it was a year after when one of my intimate friends, Jack25 Davies, a lieutenant26 on board the Cornwall, in a letter which I received at a lonely post-house on the snow-bound road in the extreme north of Russia, wrote those words which caused my heart to burst within me:—
“You recollect27 little Ella Murray, who was, with her stepmother, up at the Grainger’s shoot two years ago? The poor little girl was engaged to some City fellow, an entire outsider, I heard, but I hear she caught typhoid at a hotel in Sheringham and died six months ago. A pity, isn’t it? I rather liked her—so did you, I remember.”
I stood at the door of that filthy28, log-built place with the letter in my hand, gazing across the great snow-covered plain with its long row of telegraph-wires and verst-posts stretching away from Pokrovskoi to the grey horizon. My big bearded driver whispered to the post-house keeper, for both saw that I had received bad news. The man in sheepskins who kept the place went in without a word and returned with a glass of vodka. I recognised his kindly29 thought, gulped30 down the spirit, and mounting into the sledge31 drove on—on, whither I did not care. Ella—my own dear Ella was dead!
All this came back vividly32 to me on that evening as I ate my dinner alone in the little inn at Studland, and then in the golden sunset strolled by the sea—that same wide, mysterious sea beside which I had so long ago declared my love. She lived then, smiling, sighing, loving. But now, alas! she was no more. Of her memory there only remained that shadowy picture that I had seen in Miller’s drawing-room, the portrait of the dead that smiled upon me in such mocking happiness.
I threw myself upon a bank and watched the glorious crimson33 and purple of the summer afterglow. Yes, the face of the world was for me now changed. The past had been full enough of bitterness, what, I wondered, did the future contain? Ah! if I could have but known at that moment! Yet perhaps after all the Divine power is merciful in keeping from us the happiness and tragedy that lie before.
Till the summer twilight34 darkened into night I sat therefore before the sea, smoking and thinking. The dark vista35 of silent waters before me harmonised with my thoughts. Mine was, alas! a wasted, useless life, I had never known one moment’s financial worry, and yet I had somehow never found happiness. In my life where I might be, at home or abroad, there was always something wanting—the love of a good woman.
Through the following day I idled, mostly in the Lion, for it was too hot for walking. But at half-past two I sauntered to the station and, unseen by Lucie, I saw her alight from the train from London, climb into the smart dogcart that was awaiting her, and drive away in the direction of the Manor36.
Then when I returned and had my tea I remarked casually37 to the stout38, round-faced innkeeper:—
“I hear that Mr Miller is at the Manor House just now. I learnt so yesterday.”
“An’ so did I,” was his reply. “Dear me! wonders ’ull never cease. Fancy Mr Miller coming back again! An’ they say that Miss Lucie’s a-comin’, too.”
“Is she his daughter?” I inquired, as though in ignorance.
“Of course she is; an’ a very good girl, too. When she’s ’ere—which ain’t very often, more’s the pity—she does a great deal of good in the village—visits the old people, looks after the coal club, and gives away quite a lot of money to the deserving people who are destitute39. I only wish there were more like ’er in these ’ere parts.”
“Does she often come here?”
“Oh! two or three times a year,” answered the landlord. “Some say she lives up in London with ’er aunt, and others declare that she’s mostly abroad with ’er father. I believe the latter story. She ’as a foreign way about ’er, and I’ve ’eard the servants say as ’ow all ’er things are made abroad.”
“Then nobody knows her address?” I said.
“Seems not. But she’s very fond of ’er father, and no doubt is always with him.”
“Do they have many friends at the Manor when Mr Miller and his daughter are at home?”
“Not many. Dr Haviland often dines with ’em.”
“I don’t mean local friends—visitors from London.”
“Very few. I’ve known one or two, but they’ve all been forriners. Mr Miller seems to like them forriners some’ow. But I don’t,” declared the old fellow. “They’re too infernal polite and sleeky40 for me. I wouldn’t trust any of ’em for a pint41 o’ beer.”
“They were gentlemen, I suppose?”
“Oh, dear, yes—full of fine graces and fine manners. They wore shoes like women, and shirts pleated like women’s blouses—great swells42, I can assure you.”
“You never heard of any of their names?”
“No, how was I to ’ear? Once two of ’em came in one hot day and jabbered43, sayin’ ‘boch! boch!’ an’ grinnin’ all over their faces. It was quite a long time before I discovered that they wanted two half-pints o’ bitter. I suppose boch is what they calls it in French.”
“Yes,” I laughed. “You’re quite right.”
The strangers had evidently been French, I reflected. Had they been Italian they would have asked for birra.
Regarding Lucie, I learnt that on several occasions, while she had been at home, a young, black-moustached foreigner had been guest at the Manor, and that she frequently drove him out in the dogcart. My host did not know the visitor’s name. He described him, however, as tall and thin with a narrow hatchet44 face, black eyes and moustaches that turned up at the ends.
“They passed up and down the village once or twice on their way to the post-office, and I ’eard ’em talking in some gibberish,” added the old fellow, as he raised his tankard to his lips. Like all his race in the rural districts, he had no love for the foreigner, be he whatever he might. In his estimation every person from beyond the Channel was “a froggie.”
That evening I went for my usual lonely stroll by the sea, while all next day I spent in watchful45 vigil in the vicinity of the Manor. Though for hours I idled concealed46 in the park, within view of the stately old home of the Millers47, my patience was unrewarded. No sign of Lucie did I see, either at any of the windows or in the old rose-garden.
Next evening, however, having learnt from the landlord that she was much interested in a decrepit48 old woman who had been her nurse, and who lived in a cottage at the farther end of Studland, I idled in wait for her in a narrow green lane which ran at the back of the church, and was at length rewarded by seeing her approaching. She was dressed in white muslin with a large lace garden hat, and beside her walked her pet dog, a beautiful fawn49 collie.
Boldly I went towards her, my hat in my hand in respectful greeting.
In an instant she recognised me, and drew back, half in surprise, half in alarm.
Her countenance50 went white as death.
“You—Why—Mr Leaf!” she gasped51, attempting to smile. “Only fancy—to meet you here!”
“Miss Miller,” I said calmly, taking the hand she offered me, and glancing around in order to see that we were not observed, “I came here on purpose to meet you—to speak with you!”
“With me?” she cried in cold surprise, her brows contracting in marked displeasure. “What have you to say? Explain quickly, for we must not be seen together here.” And I recognised from her trembling lips how anxious and agitated52 she had become. She was in some great fear. I was convinced of that.
She tried to smile me welcome, but it died from her white lips. The expression upon her face told me that she was in deadly fear lest I should discover her secret.
I was, I felt certain, the very last person whom she desired to meet.
The very fact of my presence there told her that I knew something concerning her—something concerning the past that she intended at all costs to hide from me.
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