The camels crouched9 in the meagre shade, their large, heavy-lidded eyes half closed; they heard and understood both the faint murmur of the palms and the voice of the water; therefore were they silent, being satisfied. But from within the tent of goat's hair close at hand there came the sound of voices. "These men," grunted10 an old camel, "they be forever making a noise with their mouths; why cannot they be silent, and look and listen as do we?"
This is what the voices were saying:
"God is good, my husband, and as yet I have scarce had room in my soul for more than the sense of that goodness which hath snatched me from the jaws11 of death, and with life hath also restored to me the more precious treasure of thy love. Tell me how it chanced that thou hadst a hand in our rescue?"
"It is not unknown to thee, beloved, how that for many months my soul was a very hell of fear and remorse12. I was blood-guilty; I knew that upon my head rested the blood of an innocent man; nay14 more, I knew in my inmost soul that my crime was yet more deadly--that I, even I, had condemned15 to an accursed death the very Son of God. Yes, I believed; but alas16, it was even as the devils, who believe and tremble and yet--are devils still. I cast thee forth17 because thou didst also believe, I, black-hearted wretch18 that I was, did pronounce upon thee a curse, then my angel fled and the curse recoiled19 upon mine own head. I will not tell thee--I cannot--how I tried to strangle the ever-growing misery20 in my soul; how I flung myself, heart and strength, into the deadly persecutions against them that believed; all the while with the mean hope that the fire would drive thee back from the heavenly path which thou wast climbing into the black road down which I was plunging22 alone. I saw and gloried in the death of Stephen; I gloated over the agonies of them that suffered beneath the scourge23; I outdid Saul of Tarsus in the work of denouncing men and women whose only crime it was to believe on God manifest in the flesh. There is a hell, for I have sojourned there.
"One day I was told that thou wast in prison; that on the morrow thou wouldst be scourged--stoned. Issachar himself told me, with an air of mock sympathy.
"'She is less to me,' I declared to him coldly, 'than the stones beneath my feet.' But I lied when I said it. That night I begged Annas on my knees to have mercy.
"'I will have mercy,' he said. 'I will send a message to the woman within the hour,' and he called Caleb. I waylaid25 the man, and offered him gold to show me the message; he showed it me.
"That night I went to my chamber26 resolved to die before the light of another day, but each time that I lifted the dagger27 to my breast something seemed to hold my hand. At last I flung it from me and sank upon my knees, crying aloud, 'God be merciful to me a sinner! God be merciful to me a sinner!' Again and again I repeated the words till at last there came into my soul a great peace. God was merciful--I knew, I felt it; and then and there I made confession28 of all my guilt13 before him. 'I am guilty of the blood of him whom thou didst send to save me,' I cried, 'yet he prayed in his last agony, saying, Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.'
"I rose up forgiven, and the morning dawned. 'I will go,' I said, 'to the place where she is to suffer, and there before them all I will make confession of my guilt and my belief; then shall I die also.'
"But when I had come to the place outside the Damascus Gate--very early, for I could not wait--I fell in with the man Ben Hesed, and because my soul was full even to overflowing29, I told him all. 'I will die,' I said, 'with them.'
"'Nay,' he cried, 'rather must thou live, that thou mayest overlay the wickedness of the past with the pure gold of righteousness.'
"Thou knowest the rest, beloved."
Then the voices ceased for a space, and the sound of the falling water again filled the stillness.
That evening when the shadows were displaying themselves once more in triumph, and the voice of the fountain had sunken to a low murmur because of the more insistent voices of the women who were filling their jars at its cool brim, Ben Hesed held converse30 with them whom he had snatched from death. Their talk was sweet and comforting, as of those whose feet had trod the margin of the river of death, from whose hither bank the traveler can hear faint echoes of the heavenly melodies of the redeemed31, and where every breeze wafts32 the perfume of the blossoming tree of life.
"It is good to have been near death," said Mary of Nazareth, "because it is good to have touched the boundary of the life more abundant. There is no terror to them that believe on him that hath conquered death; 'he that believeth hath everlasting33 life.'"
Afterward34, while the day merged35 slowly into the night, they told Ben Hesed of all that happened to them since he had left them in Jerusalem; of the last days of Stephen, of his death and burial; of that stern enemy, Saul of Tarsus, and his unrelenting hatred36 of them that believed.
"Nay," said Anat, after a pause, "I know that he would have rejoiced truly had we but confessed as he bade us; there was a look in his eyes that was not all hatred; perchance God is leading him into peace by some sure way of his own, even as he led the Egyptian, Amu. Surely, God's ways are unsearchable."
"That is a true word," said Ben Hesed musingly37. "But tell me of the Egyptian, Amu."
So Anat told him how that he had rescued Stephen from death by the sacrifice of his life, together with all the story of their own wrong at his hands. "I would that God had given him one more breath," said the girl sighing, "for then would he have told us the name of our mother's kindred."
Ben Hesed looked at the clear profile of the girl as she sat looking away into the afterglow which still burned dully at the horizon, and a haunting memory of the past suddenly awakened38 in his breast. "Hast thou aught that belonged to thy mother, maiden39?" he said, and there was a strange thrill in his voice.
"I had anklets of wrought40 silver when I came out of Egypt," said Anat slowly, without turning her head; "also a necklace of coins; but when I was healed of my blindness I made an offering of these baubles41 to the Lord's poor. It was all that I had to give." Then she was silent for a moment. "I kept but one piece from the necklace; I thought that I should like that one small bit of my mother's past. It is a strange coin."
"Show it to me," said Ben Hesed.
Without a word Anat took from off her neck the slender chain of wrought silver, from which hung the one token that bound her to an unknown past.
Ben Hesed took it, his iron fingers trembling like those of a woman. In that simple amulet42 lay a strange power, for no sooner had he examined it in the fading light, than all else before his bodily eyes vanished. It was a bright morning now, and the sun was shining merrily on a caravan43 of strangers out of Egypt. He was trading with them, horses and sheep and cheeses of goat's milk, receiving in exchange bales of cloth and divers44 weapons of war, together with utensils45 of wrought brass46 and jars of pottery47.
"Give me also the horse," said the chief merchant, pointing to the animal which Ben Hesed himself bestrode. "I will give thee for it a bale of scarlet48 and another of fine linen49 for thy women."
"Women of the desert do not wear scarlet nor fine linen," he answered. "Dekar is the prince of all the herd50; I will not sell."
"Nay then, I will give thee gold--fifty pieces," persisted the merchant.
"Give me an hundred," he had said, "and the beast is thine."
So the merchant gave him an hundred pieces of gold for the horse--which was truly a great price, but he paid it without murmuring for he knew that he could again sell for a greater to the king of Egypt.
Of the gold pieces there was one of strange device, and this Ben Hesed gave to his eldest-born, that she might hang it upon her necklace. The maid was beautiful to look upon, and Ben Hesed felt for her a great tenderness, which was a thing quite by itself and apart from the pride which filled his breast when he looked upon his mighty51 sons. The name of this maid was Zarah, which signifies the Dawn; and truly she was fair and pure as the first beams of the new day, ere yet mortals have sullied it with sin.
It came to pass--Ben Hesed saw it all once more because of the wonderful amulet which he held in his hand--that one day a stranger came to the encampment alone. He was sick and exhausted52 because of the hardness of his journey, and he begged of Ben Hesed that he might sojourn24 for a space with his tribe till he should recover himself. And Ben Hesed made him welcome, as was ever his custom, and the stranger tarried many days; the women also ministered unto him, for he was both comely53 and young.
And when he was recovered, he came to Ben Hesed and said to him, "Behold54, I have received kindness at thy hand, and the springs of life are again strong within me. Now, I pray thee, give thy servant further of thy bounty55; for there is yet one thing that I would ask of thee."
And Ben Hesed said, "Speak, my son, for my hand is open to satisfy the utmost wish of him that is an honored guest within my borders."
Then the young man bowed himself and said, "If I have found favor in the sight of my lord, give to me thy daughter Zarah for my wife; for I love her with my soul."
Ben Hesed looked at the young man long and earnestly, and his heart went out to him.
"Tell me," he said, "all of thy past; for thou hast asked of me the most precious thing that I possess, the maiden who is called the Dawn. Speak freely, for as my soul liveth, if thou dost keep back aught that I should know, thou shalt die accursed!"
At this the young man groaned56 aloud; but he told him how that he had disputed with his brother over the inheritance, and had smitten57 him that he died--for so he believed at the time.
And when Ben Hesed heard all he rose up, and his voice was cold and stern. "Go," he said, "that I see thy face no more. Thinkest thou that I will give my daughter to one that is a murderer? Go, lest I fall upon thee in wrath58."
And he went straightway without a word, but he found the maiden, Zarah, beside the fountain, and he told her all that had passed. That night when all were sleeping, the two rose up and fled away from the encampment and were seen no more.
When Ben Hesed found that they were gone, he said only one word: "My daughter is dead." And from that time no one durst speak to him of the matter. But he did not forget, though long years were passed. And now as he held the coin of strange device once more in his hand, he knew it for the token which he had given the maiden, Zarah, so long ago. And as he looked into the face of Anat, he saw that the Dawn was again risen.
Then he called the two, and he told them all the story, and when he had finished, he said, "Long ago hath the bitterness passed from my soul; but there hath remained ever an aching wound which the years have not healed. God hath given me many wonderful mercies, but none more wonderful than this, that the children of my daughter have returned to her father's house."
Then they fell on his neck and kissed him; and all that were in the encampment rejoiced, and the rejoicing continued many days.
Afterward, by the word of messengers which Ben Hesed sent to Jerusalem, they learned that the great persecution21 was at an end, because that Annas was now dead, and the others of his family were too much taken up with disputing over the inheritance of lands and houses, to trouble themselves further about the religious beliefs of any man. As for Saul of Tarsus, strange tales were told of him; some said that he was dead; others that he was blind; while others still declared that he had been rebuked59 of the Lord in a vision, and that he now believed. But this tale was not credited of many.
"Let us return to Jerusalem," said Mary of Nazareth, "for I would fain know whether my son John be safe; then there is also the house to be looked to."
So they went back to Jerusalem for a space. Ben Hesed and his grandchildren also.
But Anna and her husband went not all the way. "Jerusalem is hateful to me," said Caiaphas, "and, moreover, we should be in peril60 of our lives at the hand of our kindred. We will go away into Galilee, for I would fain behold all the places where the Lord lived and taught, and where also he passed his childhood."
So the two parted from the others after that they had passed the wilderness61, and they traveled humbly62 as pilgrims; sojourning long in all the places where Jesus had been in his life-time; and this did they for many years, till that Caiaphas was grown to be an old man.
"I am not worthy," he said humbly, "to write of all that he taught and suffered, that should be writ63 by the hand of one that loved him while he yet lived; but I can gather up the tales that are told of his sinless childhood."
And so as they journeyed he made inquiry64 everywhere concerning the child Jesus; insomuch that after a time the children would point him out and whisper, "Yonder old man is the prophet of the Child Jesus."
And after many years he made a book of these tales, and it was called "The Gospel of the Infancy65." He took great pleasure and comfort in the work, and it occupied all the closing years of his life.
"One thing only do I regret," he said to his wife many times, "and that is that I did not begin this work while the mother of our Lord yet lived; for she could have told me whether it be truly set forth; but now I shall never know."
"Thou wilt66 know, beloved, afterward," said Anna, her eyes shining with a wise and tender light. "For it must needs be that angels watched with awe67 each moment of that earth-life; be sure that it is all writ in heaven."
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