When Barbara and Frank entered the room together, Simnel looked up, and the bad expression faded out of his face. He, in common with the rest of the world, had heard some garbled20 story of the separation, and he saw at a glance that poor Kitty's accident had been the means of throwing them together again, and of effecting a reconciliation21. What he had just heard from the girl's month of Churchill had inspired in him a sense of gratitude22 and regard; and as he noticed Barbara clinging closely to her husband's arm, as she threw a half-frightened glance towards the bed, he felt himself dimly acknowledging the mysterious workings of that Providence23, which, in its own good time, brings all things to their appointed end.
Frank and Barbara, after casting a hurried look at the bed, had seated themselves on the other side; the nurse, tired out with watching, had drawn24 her large chair close to the fire and fallen into that horrible state of nodding and catching25 herself up again, of struggling with sleep, then succumbing26, then diving forward with a nod and pulling herself rigid7 in an instant--a state so common in extra-fatigue; and Simnel had dropped into his old desolate27 attitude. So they sat, no one speaking. Ah, the misery28 of that watching in a sick-room! the solemn silence scarcely broken by the ticking of the clock, the crackling of the fire, the occasional dropping of the coals, the smothered29 hum of wheels outside; the horrible thoughts that at such times get the mastery of the mind and riot in full sway,--thoughts of the sick person there being watched, doubts as to the chances of their recovery, wonderings as to whether they themselves are conscious of their danger, as to whether they are what is commonly called "prepared" to die. Then a dreamy state, in which we begin to wonder when we shall be in similar extreme plight30; and where? Shall we have had time for the realisation of those schemes which now so much occupy us, or shall we be cut off suddenly? Shall we outlive Tom and Dick and Harry31, who are now our intimates; or will they eat cake and wine before they step into the mourning-coach, and canvass32 our character, and be tenderly garrulous33 on our foibles? Shall we be able to bear it calmly and bravely when the doctor makes that dread34 announcement, and tells us that if we have any earthly affairs to settle, it were best to do it at once; for it is impossible to deny that there is a certain amount of danger, &c. &c. And the boys, with life before them, and no helping35, guiding hand to point out the proper path? Ah, Tom and Dick and Harry, our old friends, boon-companions, trusted intimates, they surely would have the heart to look after the children? And the wife, dearest helpmate, true in all her wifely duties, but ah how unfitted to combat with the world, to have the responsibilities of the household to bear alone? And then the end itself!--the Shadow-cloaked from head to foot! the great hereafter! "Behold36, we know not any thing!" Happy are we to arouse from that dismal37 reverie at the sound of the wheels of the doctor's carriage, and gaze into his eyes, trusting there to read a growing hope.
The reflections of the four persons assembled round poor Kate Mellon's sick-bed were not entirely38 of this kind. The minds of Frank and Barbara were naturally full of all that had just occurred, in which they were most interested; full of thoughts of past storms and future happiness--full of such pleasurable emotions, that the actual scene before them had but a minor39 influence. Simnel was pondering over his shattered idol40 and his dreams of vengeance41; while the nurse, when for a few seconds' interval42 between her naps she roused herself sufficiently43 to think at all, was full of a cheering consciousness of earning eighteenpence a-day more in her present place than in one in which she had been previously44. And then came the sound of the wheels and the smothered knock, and then the gentle opening of the door, and Mr. Slade's pleasant presence in the room.
He approached the bed, and surveyed the sleeper45; crossed the room with the softest footsteps, and asked a few whispered questions of the nurse; then turned quietly back, and seated himself by Frank and Barbara.
"How do you find her?" asked the latter.
Mr. Slade simply shook his head, without making any verbal reply.
"The nurse summoned us hurriedly about half-an-hour ago," whispered Churchill; "but when we came in, we found her in the state in which you now see her; she has not moved since, scarcely."
"Poor child! poor child!" said Mr. Slade, plying46 his pocket-handkerchief very vigorously; "she'll not move much more."
"Is she--is she very bad to-night?" asked Barbara.
"Yes, my dear," said the old gentleman, taking a large pinch of snuff to correct his emotion; "yes, my dear, she is very bad, as you would say. There is a worn pinched look in her face which is unmistakable. She is going home rapidly, poor girl!"
The sense of the last observation, though he had not heard the words, seemed to have reached Mr. Simnel's ears, for he rose hurriedly, and crossing to Mr. Slade, took him by the arm and led him on one side.
"Did you say she was dying?" he asked in a hoarse47 whisper, when they had moved some distance from the rest.
"I did not say so, though I implied it," said the old man; then peering at him from under his spectacles, "May I ask are you any relation of the lady's?"
"No, no relation; only I--I was going to be married to her, that was all." He said these words in a strange hard dry voice; and Mr. Slade felt him clutch his wrist tight as he went on to say, "Is there no hope? You won't take amiss what I say; I know your talent and your position; but still in some cases, a second opinion--if there is any thing that money can do--"
"My dear sir," said Mr. Slade "I understand perfectly48 what you mean; and God knows if there were any thing to be done, I wouldn't stand in the way; but in this case, if you had the whole College of Surgeons before you, and the gold-fields of Australia at your back, there could be but one result."
Mr. Simnel bowed his head, while one great shiver ran through his frame. Then he looked up and said, "And when?"
"Immediately--to-night; in two or three hours at most. She will probably rouse from this lethargy, have some moments of consciousness, and then--"
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Mr. Slade made no direct answer, but he shrugged49 his shoulders and turned on his heel. Silently he shook hands with Barbara and Churchill, then with Simnel, placing one hand on his shoulder, and gripping him tightly with the other; then he walked to the bed, and bent50 over it, peering into poor Kitty's puckered51 face, while two large tears fell on the coverlet. Then he stooped and lightly kissed the hand which lay outstretched, and then hurried noiselessly from the room. Mr. Slade saw several patients that night before going to a scientific conversazione at the Hanover-Square Rooms--a noble lord, who had softening52 of the brain, and who passed his days in a big arm-chair, and made a moaning noise, and wept when turned away from the fire; a distinguished53 commoner, who had given way to brandy, and was raving54 in delirium55; and a young gentleman, who, in attempting to jump the mess-room table after dinner, had slipped, and sustained a compound fracture of his leg. But at each of these visits he was haunted by the pallid56 tortured face of the dying girl. At the conversazione it got between the microscope and a most delicious preparation; and was by his side as he drew on his nightcap and prepared for his hard-earned slumbers57.
Slowly, slowly wore away the night: Simnel still sat rigid and erect58; but the nurse was sound asleep, and Barbara's head had drooped59 upon Frank's shoulder, when suddenly the room rang with a shrill60 startling cry. In an instant all rushed to the bedside. There lay Kate awake, but still under the influence of some dreadful dream.
"Keep him off! keep him off!" she cried. "It's unfair, it's cowardly, Charley! I'm a woman and you hit so hard! Oh, Robert," she exclaimed, vainly endeavouring to drag herself towards Simnel, "you'll keep him off! you'll defend me!"
"There's no one there, Kate," said Simnel, dropping on his knees by the bedside, and taking her hand; "there's no one to hurt you, my child."
"I was dreaming then," said Kate; "oh, such a horrid61 dream! I thought I---- Who are these?" she exclaimed, looking at Barbara and Frank. "I'm scarcely awake yet, I think. Why, it's Guardy, of course! and you, dear, who were so kind to me. But how are you here together? I can't make that out."
"This is my wife, Kate," said Churchill; "my wife, of whom you were speaking this evening."
"Your wife! ah, I'm so glad; I never thought of that; I never thought of asking her who she was; I only knew she was, oh, so kind and so affectionate with me; and it was because she was your wife, eh? Will you kiss me again, dear? So; and again! What a sweet soft face it is! Ah, he's been so good to me dear, this husband of yours; and I've given him such trouble for so many years. So grave and so steady he's always been, that I've looked upon him as quite an old fellow, and never thought of his marrying. I--I'm much weaker to-night, I think; the pain seems to have left my side; but I feel so weak, as though I couldn't raise a finger. You're there Robert?"
"Yes, dear."
"Ay, I feel your hand-grip now! You must not mind what I'm going to say, Robert; you took on so before; but you'll be brave now, eh, Robert? I--I know I'm going home--to my long home, I mean; and I want to say how happy, and peaceful, and grateful to the Lord, I am. I've often thought of this time--often and often; and wondered--and I've often thought it would be like this, and yet not quite in this way. You used to talk to me about my rashness, Guardy,--in riding, I mean."
"Yes, dear Kate; and you always promised, and you never did, my headstrong child!"
"No, Guardy, I didn't, and yet I tried hard; but I hadn't much pleasure elsewise, had I? Robert knows that; and I did so enjoy my work! I've often thought it might come when I was with the hounds, and that would have been dreadful! All the business and bother in the field, and carried away somewhere, to some wretched place, where there'd have been no one near to care for me; and now I've you all here, and that kind old doctor; and, oh, thank God for all!"
There was a little pause, and then she asked in, if any thing, a weaker voice, "What's become of the horse? does any one know?--the horse, I mean, that did this?"
"He was taken home, Kate; so Freeman said. He's good deal cut; but--"
"Oh, don't let him come to grief, Robert! It wasn't fault, poor fellow! He was startled by the--ah, well; it's all over now! Don't frown so, Robert; I ought to have known better. Lord Clonmel always said he had a temper of his own; but I thought I could do any thing, and--Some of them will crow over this, won't they? Those Jeffrey girls, who always said I was a park-rider, and no good at fencing, eh? Well, well, that's neither here nor there. You know all about the will, Guardy,--in the desk, you know? and what I said about your having--and Freeman--and the men's wages; and--"
As she spoke62 she sunk back, and seemed to fall asleep at once. The nurse, who had been hovering63 round, advanced and looked anxiously at her, laying her finger on her pulse, and peering into her face. Reassured64, she retired65 again; and the others, save Simnel, who still remained kneeling by the bed, resumed their places. Then, stretched supine, and without addressing herself to any one, Kate Mellon began to talk again. Fragmentary, disconnected, incoherent sentences they were that she uttered; but, listening to them, Simnel and Frank Churchill managed to make out that her head was wandering, and that she was running through passages of her earlier life.
"Ready!" she said. "All right, Dolphin! Now, band!--why don't they play up? No hoop66 lit yet! Get along, Dolphin! Ribbons now! Stand up, man!--why doesn't that man stand up? So; give him his head--that's it! Chalk; more chalk!--this pad's so slippery, I shall never stand on it; and--that's better. Now we go--one, two, three! All right, sir; all right, madam; told you I should clear it. Ah, Charley! Hold the hoop lower--lower yet. What's he at? I shall miss it--miss it! and then--Slacken your curb67, miss, or she'll rear! So; that's it--easy does it. Courage now,--head and the heart up; hand and the heel down! Oh, he's jumped short!--he's over! he's over!"
She gave a sharp cry, and half-raised herself on to the pillow. The nurse was by her in an instant; so were they all. Her eyes opened at first dreamily; then she looked round and smiled sweetly. "Kiss me, dear," she said to Barbara. "Guardy! Robert, Robert! kindest, dearest Robert, I'm--going home!"
Then, with tears streaming from both their eyes, Frank led Barbara away; while, haggard and rigid, Simnel knelt by the bedside firmly clutching a dead hand.
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