"What is the matter with you to-day, Fosca? What has happened to you? Why are you so distant to me? Speak! Tell me!"
Stelio had entered San Marco by chance, and had seen her there, leaning against the chapel-door that leads to the baptistry. She was alone, motionless, her face devoured3 by fever and by shadows, with terrified eyes fixed4 on the fearful figures of the mosaics5 that flamed in a yellow fire.
She turned as if to flee, but he detained her.
"But tell me! Speak at least one word that I may understand."
"I implore you! If you pity me, the only thing you can do for me now is to let me go."
"But one word—at least one word, so that I shall understand."
"No! I wish to be alone!"
Her voice was as hard as her glance. She turned, taking a step or two like a person overcome by dizziness seeking some support.
"Foscarina!"
But he dared not detain her longer. He saw the despairing one walk through the zone of sunlight that invaded the basilica like a rushing torrent10 entering through a door opened by an unknown hand. Behind her the deep golden cavern11, with its apostles, martyrs12, and sacred beasts, glittered as if the thousand torches of the daylight were pouring in on it.
"I am lost in the depths of sadness.... This violent impulse to revolt against fate, to rush away in search of adventure—to seek.—Who will save my hope? Whence will come a ray of light?... To sing, to sing! But I would sing a song of life at last.... Can you tell me where the Lord of the Flame is at present?"
These words, in a letter from Donatella Arvale, were branded on her eyes and on her soul, with all the characteristics of handwriting, as much alive as the hand that traced them, as throbbing13 as that impatient pulse. She saw them graved on the stones, outlined on the clouds, reflected in the water, indelible and inevitable14 as the decrees of Fate.
—Where shall I go? Where shall I go?—Through all her agitation15 and despair, she had still a sense of the sweetness of things, the warmth of the gilded16 marbles, the perfume of the quiet air, the languor17 of human leisure.
She turned with a start, fearing yet hoping to be followed by her lover. She could not see him. She would have fled had she seen him, but her heart ached as if he had sent her to death without a word of recall.—All is over!—
She entered the Porta della Carta, having crossed the threshold. The intoxication18 of her sorrow led her to the spot where, on a night of glory, the three destinies had come together. She went to the well, the point of that rendezvous19. Around that bronze curb20 the whole life of those few seconds rose again with the distinct outline of reality. There she had said, addressing her companion with a smile: "Donatella, this is the Lord of the Flame!" Then the immense cry of the multitude had drowned her voice, and above their head rose a flight of fiery21 pigeons against the dark sky.
She approached the well, and gazed into it. She leaned over the curb, saw her own face in the deep mirror, saw in it terror and perdition, saw the motionless Medusa she carried in the depth of her soul. Without realizing it, she repeated the action of him she loved. She saw his face, too, and Donatella's, as she had seen them illumined for an instant that night, close together, lighted by the radiance in the sky.
—Love, love each other! I will go away, I shall disappear! Good-by!—
She closed her eyes at the thought of death, and in that darkness she saw the kind, strong eyes of her mother, infinite as a horizon of peace.—You are at peace, and you await me—you whose life and death were of passion.—
She stood erect22, then departed by the Molo, stepped into a gondola23, and ordered it to be rowed to the Giudecca. The buildings and the water formed a miracle of gold and opal. The image of dead Summer flashed across her memory—dead Summer dressed in gold and shut in a coffin24 of opalescent25 glass. She imagined herself submerged in the lagoon26, sleeping on a bed of seaweed; but the memory of the promise made on that water, and kept in the delirium27 of that night, pierced her heart like a knife, and threw her into a convulsion.
—Never more, then? Never more!—
She reached the Rio della Croce. The gondola stopped before a closed door. She landed, took out a small key, opened the door, and entered the garden.
This was her refuge, the secret place for her solitude28, defended by the fidelity29 of her melancholy30 as by silent guardians32.
"Never more?" She walked under the trellises, approached the water, stopped a moment, felt weary, and at last sat down on a stone, held her temples between her hands, and made an effort to concentrate her mind, to recover her self-possession. "He is still here, near me. I can see him again. Perhaps I shall find him standing33 on the steps of my house. He will take me in his arms, kiss my lips and eyes, tell me again that he loves me, that everything about me pleases him. He does not know—he does not understand. Nothing irreparable has happened. What is it, then, that has so upset and disturbed me? I have received a letter written by a girl who is far-away, imprisoned34 in a lonely villa35 near her demented father, who complains of her lot and seeks to change it. That is all. There is no more to say. And here is the letter."
Her fingers trembled, and she fancied she could detect Donatella's favorite perfume, as if the young girl were sitting beside her.
—Is she beautiful? Really beautiful? How does she look?—
The lines of the image were indistinct at first. She tried to seize them, but they eluded36 her. One particular above all others fixed itself in her mind—the large, massive hand.—Did he see her hand that night? He is very susceptible37 to the beauty of hands. When he meets a woman, he always looks at her hands. And he adores Sofia's hands.—She allowed herself to dwell on these childish considerations, then she smiled bitterly. And suddenly the image became perfect, lived, glowing with youth and power, overwhelmed and dazzled her.—Yes, she is beautiful! And hers is the beauty he desires.—
She kept her eyes fixed on the silent splendor38 of the waters, with the letter on her lap; she was nailed there by the inflexible39 truth. And involuntary thoughts of destruction flashed upon her inert40 discouragement; the face of Donatella burned by fire, her body crippled by a fall, her voice ruined by an illness! Then she had a horror of herself, followed by pity for herself and the other woman.—Has she not too the right to live? Let her live, let her love, let her have her joy.—She imagined for the young girl some magnificent adventure, a happy love, an adorable betrothed41, prosperity, luxury, pleasure.—Is there only one man on this earth, then, that she can love? Is it impossible that to-morrow she might meet some one who would win her heart? Is it impossible that her fate should suddenly turn her in another direction, take her far from here, lead her through unknown paths, separate her from us forever? Is it necessary that she should be loved by the man I love? Perhaps they never will meet again.—She tried thus to escape her presentiment42. But a contrary thought whispered: "They have met once; they will seek each other, they will meet again. Her soul is not obscure—not one that can be lost in the multitude. She possesses a gift that shines like a star, and it will always be easily recognizable even from afar—her song. The marvel43 of her voice will serve her as a signal. She will surely avail herself of this power; she too will pass among mankind leaving a wake of admiration44 behind her. She will have glory as she has beauty—two attributes that will easily attract Stelio. They have met once; they will meet again."
The sorrowing woman bent45 as if under a yoke46. A clear, pearly light bathed the lagoon in radiance. The islands of La Follia, San Clemente, and San Servilio were enveloped47 in a light mist. From a distance came at intervals48 a faint cry, as of shipwrecked sailors becalmed, answered by the harsh voice of a siren whistle or by the raucous49 call of the sea-gulls. At first the silence seemed terrible, then it grew sweet.
The woman, little by little, recovered her deep goodness of heart, felt again her old tenderness for the beautiful creature in whose personality she had once deceived her desire to love the good sister, Sofia. She thought again of the hours passed in the lonely villa on that hill of Settignano, where Lorenzo Arvale created his statues in the fulness of his strength and fervor50, ignorant of the blow that was about to fall. She lived again in those days, saw again those places; she sat once more in memory for the famous sculptor51 who modeled her in clay, while Donatella sang some quaint52 old song; and the spirit of melody animated53 at once the model and the effigy54, and her thoughts and that pure voice and the mystery of Art composed an appearance of a life almost divine in that great studio open on all sides to the light of heaven, whence Florence and its river was visible in the springtime valley.
In addition to fancying the girl a reflection of Sofia, had she not been attracted otherwise to her—the sweet Donatella, who never had known a mother's caress55 since her birth? She saw her again, grave and calm beside her father, the comfort for his hard work, guardian31 of the sacred flame, and also of a resolve of her own—a secret resolve, which preserved itself as bright and keen as a sword in its sheath.
—She is sure of herself; she is mistress of her own power. When at last she knows she is free, she will reveal herself as one made to rule. Yes, she is made to subjugate56 men, to excite their curiosity and their dreams. Even now, her instinct, bold and prudent57 as experience itself, directs her.—La Foscarina remembered Donatella's attitude toward Stelio on that night; her almost disdainful silence, her brief, dry words, her manner of leaving the table, her disappearance58, leaving the image of herself framed within the circle of an unforgettable melody. Ah, she knows the art of stirring the soul of a dreamer. Certainly he cannot have forgotten her. And just as certainly he awaits the hour when it shall be given him to meet her again—not less impatiently than she, who asks me where he is.—
Again she lifted the letter and ran her eyes over it, but her memory traveled faster than her eyes. The enigmatic query59 was at the foot of the page, like a half-veiled postscript60. Looking at the written words, she felt again the same sharp pang61 as when she read them the first time, and once more her heart was shaken as if the danger were imminent62, as if her passion and her hope were already lost beyond recall.—What is she about to do? Of what is she thinking? Did she expect him to search for her without delay, and, disappointed in that, does she now wish to tempt63 him? What does she intend to do?—She struggled against that uncertainty64 as against an iron door which she must force in order to find again behind it the light of her life.—Shall I answer her? Suppose I reply in such a way as to make her understand the truth, would my love necessarily be a prohibition65 of hers?—But here her soul rose with a mingled66 feeling of repugnance67, modesty68, and pride.—No, never! Never shall she learn of my wound from me—never, not even should she question me!—And she realized all the horror of an open rivalry69 between a woman no longer young and a girl strong in her maiden70 youth. She felt the humiliation71 and cruelty of such an unequal struggle. "But if not Donatella, would it not be some one else," again whispered the contrary spirit "Do you believe you can bind72 a man of his nature to your melancholy passion? The only condition under which you should have allowed yourself to love him, and to offer him a love faithful unto death, was in keeping the compact that you have broken."
"True, true!" she murmured, as if answering a distinct voice, in formal judgment73, pronounced in the silence by invisible Fate.
"The only condition on which he can now accept your love, and recognize it, demands that you leave him free, that you give up all claim on him, that you renounce74 all, forever, and ask for nothing—the condition of being heroic. Do you understand?"
"True, true!" she repeated aloud, raising her head.
But the poison bit her. She remembered all the sweetness of caresses—the lips, the eyes, the strength and ardor75 of the lover had re-animated all her being.
A far-away monotonous76 sound of song floated in the air—a song of women's voices, that seemed to rise from bosoms77 oppressed, from throats as slender as reeds, like the sound evoked78 from the broken wires of old spinets at a touch on the worn keys; a shrill79, unequal tone, in a lively and vulgar rhythm, which sounded sadder in that light and silence than the saddest things of life.
"Who is singing?"
With obscure emotion she arose, approached the shore, and listened.
"The madwomen of San Clemente!"
From the isle80 of La Follia, from the barred windows of the light, lonely hospital, came the lively yet melancholy chorus. It trembled, hesitated in the immensity of space, grew fainter and almost died away, then rose again and swelled81 to a piercing shriek82, diminished once more, and finally sank to silence.
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rendezvous
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