Nan looked about her restlessly. On the stage she could see Fitzie among the violins, next to a tall redhaired girl. That was where the other girl, Mabel something, used to stand last year, the girl who ran away with the flushfaced boy Fitzie told about, with bright teeth, the Italian who looked like a young Greek god, like Wenny perhaps. And he was dead. In all these months she should have got used to his being dead, but still when she thought of him she had to tell herself quickly he was dead, to escape the horrible pain of thinking of him, wishing him alive. Or did that all mean there was no death, that he was utterly18 surrendered to her. Fitzie 'ld say that, poor lonely Fitzie. Dull program it was this afternoon; a dismal19 ending for all that work and hysterical20 eagerness up at the conservatory21, a lady 'celloist in the Fadettes.
Nan began to listen to the music again. They were playing the march from The Twilight22 of the Gods over-solemnly. The conductress brought down her baton23 for the last time. People got to their feet. The lights went on. Nan was adjusting her hat with two hatpins in her mouth. Had she got all her packages? She walked out slowly into the crimson24 sunset light of Washington Street, and round through a cold swirl25 of dustladen wind to the stage door. The women of the orchestra were coming out, short women in highcollared shirtwaists, a tall girl with high cheekbones and yellow hair, two stout26 women with glasses both rippling27 with the same laughter, the harpist, a consumptive-looking girl with white, drooping28 face and blue rings under her eyes; then Fitzie walking with jerky little steps, pigeonbreasted.
"O Nancibel, how sweet of you to wait... I'd just decided29 you wouldn't."
"Why should you think that?"
"O I don't know. I guess I must think sometimes that you're a little upstage, dear; simply horrid30 of me and I don't mean it a bit. Maybe it's that anybody who didn't know you would feel that you were a little, just the weenciest bit."
"I don't think I am, Fitzie."
They were drifting up the street in a compact stream of people like on a moving platform. Nan looked from face to face that passed her in a chilly31 flutter of expectation. She knew that before long she would see a man she would think was Wenny. What was this tremor32 that went through the procession of faces at sunset time, browned them, put blood in their lips, sparkle in their eyes, so that suddenly, as if dolls should come to life she would feel that she was going to meet Wenny. Dreading33 the pain of it, she tried to forget herself in Fitzie's shrill35 gossip of how the harpist had sauced the conductress and would have been fired except that she was such a good player and she'd only had to apologize and everybody had been in a dreadful temper and they'd played the Gotterdammerung piece much too slowly. So they reached Park Street.
"Fitzie, suppose we have tea at my place. D'you mind? I want to get there before Miss Spence goes away."
"It'll be charming, and is the dress finished, the blue satin? You will let me see it, won't you? I so love looking at lovely dresses the way I liked fairy tales when I was little. Even if I can't have them ..."
"There's nothing very fabulous36 about this one."
"O, you're so lucky, Nancibel, to be able to afford lovely dresses."
Nan thought of the dresses of the women in the Fadettes, angular, with the restlessness of bargain counters, fussily37 trimmed. It's not the money, she told herself, it's knowing what to wear.
"Is Mr. Macdougan back from Europe yet?" asked Fitzie with downcast eyes once they had settled themselves in the streetcar.
"Yes, he's back," said Nan drily. The car ground rattling38 round a corner in the tunnel and climbed out into the shattered dusk of the street. Nan had a glimpse of lights among the trees of the Public Garden. She narrowed her eyes to see the people along the pavements moving dark against the filmy brightness of shopwindows.
"Nancibel," said Fitzie after a pause, "I was so sorry about that ... when it happened."
"When what happened?"
"You know what I mean, dear ... Like Billy and me, you know."
"How absurd. I was never engaged to Fanshaw. Can't you people understand that a man and a woman can be friends? All this sentimental39 tommyrot makes me furious."
"It isn't that, dear. You shouldn't say such things, Nancibel, love is so beautiful."
Nan did not answer. She was thinking of Wenny bursting into her room that spring morning, how the flame of him had frozen her into a helpless clicking automaton40, and when he had gone she had watched him from the window rush across the street and all the rigid41 life had gone out of her so that she lay with her head on the windowledge and looked at the empty snowpiled street ... agony not beauty that was.
Art Museum, called out the conductor. They alighted and walked slowly along past the pompous42 marble oblong of the dental clinic.
"O, Nancibel, I'd forgotten to tell you," cried Fitzie, suddenly turning excitedly to Nan, "I've seen Mabel Worthington."
"The girl from the Fadettes, your friend who eloped?"
"Yes, and just imagine it, she's terribly successful."
"What at?"
"Why, I don't just know. She's living at the Vendome, just think of that. I think she's managing concert tours, and she's married and everything. Several of the girls have been to see her."
"So she married the boy she eloped with? The Italian you said was so good looking."
"No, she didn't ... That's what so queer. She's Mrs. Van Troppfer and her husband's a Dutchman."
Nan burst out laughing.
"How shriekingly funny."
The Swansea: the gilt44 letters slanted45 down the glass door. They were in the elevator that had a familiar heavy oilsmell. Nan was still laughing. Under her laughter she was pleased to be getting back to her apartment. All afternoon she had looked forward to seeing how far her dress would be along.
"O, how do you do, Miss Taylor. I was just going," came Miss Spence's voice from the bedroom. "Now I can try fitting ... It was such a lovely afternoon, too lovely for words for those who can afford to go out in it.. . O, how do you do, Miss Fitzhugh, you'll be able to tell us what you think of the dress ... If you don't mind, we can fit it right now, because I mustn't be home late this evening and the cars are so crowded." Miss Spence was a little woman who talked continually, her mouth bristling46 with pins, in an even whiny47 voice; her hands were all the time darting48 about in front of her like lizards49.
"What a beautiful blue," Fitzie was saying. "O, my dear, what a treat to see it fitted."
"Too lovely for words," echoed Miss Spence.
"It must have cost an enormous lot."
"Nonsense ... Fitzie, d'you mind putting some water to boil in the kitchenette ... When do you think you can have it ready, Miss Spence?"
"O, dear, now let me think; would day after tomorrow do?"
"But I want to wear it to dinner tomorrow. My aunt is giving one of her musical evenings."
"O, how lovely that must be. O, I must try." Miss Spence's little hands fluttered up and down the satiny front of the dress. "How about length?"
"Stunning50, stunning!" cried Fitzie, who had come back from the kitchenette. "A wonderful concert gown it would make."
"Do you think so?" said Nan and felt a warm glow suffuse51 her whole being, so that she could not help throwing back her head a little and straightening her shoulders.
"Too lovely for words," whined52 Miss Spence through the pins in her mouth, standing53 back against the wall to look.
"I seem to remember having heard Phillips Brooks54 say once," Aunt M. was saying, "that a meal without fellowship was almost an enormity. It's so true. As one grows older, Nancibel, one has to eat so many lonely, tasteless meals."
Nan looked at her aunt across the round primly55 set table, where the four candles under their silver shades cast an uncertain creamy light on the starched56 cloth and gave forks and spoons and plates blue uncertain shadows.
"But I find it rather pleasant to have a meal alone now and then ... It gives me a chance to collect my thoughts."
Aunt M. was lifting a cup of cocoa to her lips, carefully like a child; she smiled wryly57 and said with a glint from the candles in her eyes:
"Because you can have company whenever you want. Nobody wants very much to have supper with an old woman like me."
"Why, Aunt M., you know I love to talk to you this way. The only reason I don't come oftener is that I'm so busy nowadays." Nan's fingers on her lap were tapping nervously58 against her knee.
"Of course, of course, dear, I understand. With your music and everything. I used to be very busy, too, and even now I'm not idle, am I?"
"I should say not."
"And then, watching your career, Nancibel, dear, I live over my own life. Think of it, dear, when I was young in those years after the rebellion ... Mary Ann, Miss Taylor will take her coffee in the other room."
"Yessum."
Aunt M. got to her feet, brushing a few crumbs59 off her silk dress and went through the portieres into the parlor60. Nan glanced at herself in the mirror over the mantel as she followed. How pale I look tonight, she thought.
"When I was young in those years after the rebellion, Boston was a very busy place. And we were all so sanguine61 for the future. But now, even if I were strong enough, I would go out very little. It all seems so strange and ugly to me. And where is it going, this hideous62 chase after money?"
"I find a sort of splendor63 in it," said Nan brutally64. They sat side by side on the curvebacked sofa, Nan with a small coffee cup in one hand.
"I'm happier indoors. But even here there's no real peace. The traffic on Beacon65 Street is so distressing66."
"Marblehead would be a nice place to live."
"O, no, you wouldn't have me leave this house, would you, Nancibel, dear? This is my home. Do you remember in Mr. Emerson's poem..."
Why seek Italy?
Who cannot circumnavigate the sea
Of thoughts and things at home?
"I feel that way about this house. Why since I lived in my mother's house I haven't lived anywhere else. How well I remember the first excitement of having a home of my own."
"When was that, Aunt M.?"
"I have never told you, have I? It was after I decided I would never marry." Aunt M. paused. Mary Ann rustled67 in to take the tray of coffee things.
"Anything else tonight, mum?"
"No, I won't need anything more. Good night, Mary Ann."
"Good night, mum."
"Nan, it's a long time since you brought Mr. Macdougan in to see me."
"He's very busy this year. He's giving a course of his own."
"A very clever young man, Nancibel ... But I was telling you about the events that led up to my taking this house. It was something very near to me, which I have told to very few."
Aunt M. turned towards Nan and let her voice drop to a shaky whisper. Her eyes seemed strangely large and young and tremulous, staring out of the yellow wrinkled face.
"I had engaged myself when very young—we were more precocious68 in those days—to a youth of good family and connections. You've even met him, but I shall not tell you who he is. We decided to wait several years before marrying, and in the meantime there was not a dance or party in Boston suitable to a young girl where I was not to be found merry with the merriest."
People in crinolines bowing low and dancing to waltzes by Auber; our generation is different from that. We count more. Music welling out from the broken moulds of old customs. We are really breaking away seeking something genuine; true culture. Aunt M. wouldn't believe if I tried to explain.
"One night at a dance on Beacon Hill I was much struck by the appearance of a young man. I'd never seen any one so handsome before and to this day I have never seen the like of him ... Nancibel, I'm getting old. A year ago, even, I don't think I would have been able to tell you all this without my heart fluttering ... You are a dear girl to listen so attentively69 to your poor old aunt's reminiscences. Don't let me forget to go up to bed the minute the clock strikes ten."
They were sitting side by side on the curvebacked sofa. The old woman had snuggled close to Nan and held her hand like a child listening to a ghost story. Nan's glance roamed nervously about the room. For a long while she stared at her Aunt's hand that lay pudgy and freckled70, with swollen71 knuckles72, in her slender white hand.
"He was an Englishman named Verrey, though his skin was so dark everyone thought him an Italian. He paid court to me more charmingly than you can imagine. Every day of my life he sent me a great bunch of Malmaison roses. Without telling anyone, I broke off my engagement. Mother was dreadfully uneasy about me, and all the family hated young Verrey because he looked so foreign. I was nearly ill about him. O, Nancibel, you can't imagine how wonderful he was, so dashing and chivalrous73. And so it kept up. I stopped going out and used to spend all day in my room thinking of him. My father forbade him the house, so that the only way I had of communicating with him was that a certain time each day I used to come to the window and he would walk slowly up and down the street in front of the house. I thought I'd cry my eyes out, he looked so sad and dejected. Then, to make a long story short, he came to see me one day when I was alone in the house. He was so perturbed74 he could hardly speak. He said I must run away with him instantly or he'd go mad with love of me. He tried to kiss me. It was terrible. I ordered him out of the house and I never saw him again. But I was awfully75 ill. Several days after I went to bed with brain fever. For weeks they despaired of saving me."
Nan was pressing her aunt's hand hard.
"And then?"
"Nothing. When I got well, nothing seemed to matter much. Convalescence76 has that effect. From that day to this I've never been able to abide77 the smell of roses. But, my dear, I must go up to bed. I feel badly all day if I don't get my proper sleep ... Forgive my boring you with these old women's stories. We were very silly when I was a girl. How out of date I must seem to a generation brought up on Ibsen's plays."
"Yes, our ideas are a little different nowadays," said Nan.
Outside the streetlights sparkled diamond-hard in a clear wind. Nan walked fast, her thoughts desperately78 tumultuous. The keen October air and the clatter80 of her heels on the empty pavement of Beacon Street were a relief after the senile stuffiness81 of her aunt's parlor. And I will be like that, spending my life explaining why I didn't dare live. No! No! Poor Aunt M. had nothing to fall back on. I have my music, my career, my sense of humor; it's not as if I were helpless before things like Fitzie. And she remembered how she'd stood at the piano the other night in that closefitting dress of royal blue satin and felt their eyes on her, and felt light coming into the bleary eyes of old people as she played to them.
She had reached Massachusetts Avenue where the pavements were full of people coming out of the moving-picture theatres, standing in knots on the corner waiting for streetcars. For a moment she was caught up, elated, in the stream of windfreshened faces, bodies uncramping deliciously after the stiff seats of theatres. Her eyes ran thrillingly over faces that streamed past her, like her fingers over pianokeys. She walked fast, with exhilaration, until at a corner where she turned up past a drugstore, the curve of a cheek under a boy's mashed-down felt hat, full lips laughing, made her stop still suddenly. Dizzy blackness welled op through her. She stood panting on the corner. Whites of eyes, heads jerked towards her, puzzled looks as people passed. She walked back and forth82 in front of the drugstore. A hallucination, of course. But could she have seen him? Before she knew it she had called out: "Wenny!" People were looking at her. She walked hurriedly up the dark street, breathless, running away from them. She spun83 in the grip of a horrible nausea84.
* * * *
"Why, Confucius looks sleeker85 than ever, Nan," said Fanshaw, and ran the tips of his fingers round the big blue teapot. They sat in the open window looking out at the misty86 russet trees of the Fenway, with the teatable between them.
"He never goes hungry, or rather thirsty."
"Imagine this weather for the end of October ... St. Martin's summer."
"That's a nice name for it."
"Nicer than ours. Indian summer always makes me think of Hiawatha."
A sound of pounding and spades cutting gravel87 came up from the street below. Nan watched the blue backs of three laborers88 bend and straighten, bend and straighten as they worked in a hole in the street. A man in a black felt hat with a corncob pipe stuck in his beet89 face stood over them.
"Curious for them to be tearing up the street at this time of the year," said Fanshaw, languidly.
"Our watermain burst. There wasn't a drop of water in the house this morning."
"How awkward."
Nan did not hear him. One of the laborers had looked up. For a moment his eyes were black, shining into hers. O, but he can't really see me from down there. The face was lean brown between curly black hair and an unshaven chin. With an eager child's smile he raised a hand. As the hand fell she had a glimpse of a dark chest scooped90 in taut91 muscles towards the belly92 under his open blue shirt. He was again a blue back bending and straightening with the three, other backs. Crazy fires danced through her.
"Yes, I had to go round to Gertrude Fagan's to wash." There was a dead veil between her and Fanshaw.
"And how is the fiery93 Gertrude?"
"Very well."
"The last time I met that lady on the street she cut me dead ... I suppose she's too taken up with the world beyond to notice us terrestrial beings."
"Nonsense, Fanshaw, Gertrude's an awfully nice person ... You must have done something she didn't like. She's very easily offended."
"Do the spooks continue to flourish?"
"You mean her automatic writing. Well, what of it? You shouldn't scoff94 at things you don't understand."
"That's better than being awed95 by them, Nan."
"Anything more I can do for you, Miss?"
It was the Irish girl who came to clean. She stood in the shadow by the door with her hand at her sides. Pretty smiling lips.
"No, nothing tonight, Marion. I'm sorry I kept you so late today."
"That's all right. Good night, Miss."
Nan smiled warmly at her through the dusk of the room. At the end of the hall the door shut sharply.
"More tea, Fanshaw?"
"No, thanks."
While she poured a few drops of tea into her cup she glanced out the window again. Italians they were, probably, smelling of pipes and sweaty shirts and garlic. There's Marion. If I were Marion Reily instead of Nancibel Taylor ... to stroll along twilit streets with backward looks through the lashes96; that boy'd rub the clay off his hands and follow me; kidding talk on park benches, fumbling97 work-rough hands, ditchdiggers' hands, hardmuscled arms crushing, moist hot lips bearing down, panting. The cold voice of Aunt M. when she was a little girl too excited at the circus: Careful, Nancibel, careful, Nancibel.
"But, Fanshaw," she was saying, straining to keep the tumult79 out of her voice, "suppose there were a life after death."
Fanshaw did not answer for a moment. She saw his eyes dusky grey, troubled. The straight line of his lips tightened98. All this is me, smalltalk over teacups and polished hardwood floors and Fanshaw's drawling Harvardese. Marion's neat dark figure had gone off down the street with quick jerky steps. Nan looked back into the darkening room.
"Is there any reason to believe," Fanshaw was saying in a tone that arrested all her attention suddenly, "that people in the next life would be any less futile99 than people in this life? It's horrible to want to do way with death."
How can you feel that way? It's all such fun," she said boisterously100. So Fanshaw too ... She felt he was changing the subject.
"Coming back on the Baltic, Nan ... you should have seen Edgar. He blossomed into a regular society butterfly and actually forced me to play bridge with some dreadful girls named Van Ryn he dug up somewhere."
"New Yorkers?"
"Yes."
"Was the famous Mrs. Harry101 Van Ryn along?"
"Was she? You should have seen how she dressed! Might have thought it was the Lusitania. Her daughters were quieter than she was, and rather more intelligent, I must allow them that."
They were silent a while. Rosy102 afterglow flowed like water through the window.
"Where did you go besides Siena?"
"O, to Arezzo, Urbino, and then to Assissi and San Gimingiano."
"You wretch103, stole a march on me ... And there I was up at Squirrel Island with Aunt M., bored to the ears. Never mind, I'll have my revenge some day."
Fitzie's Italian who smelt104 of garlic and looked like a young Greek god, dark face and a boy's full wistful smile. The gods were ever young and Mabel Worthington eloped with youth and married an elderly Dutchman for his money and lived at the Vendome.
Fanshaw was on his feet.
"Must you run away so soon?"
He nodded. Her cheerful social voice rang bitterly in her ears as she stood in the middle of the empty room. She was full of dull surprised pain like a disappointed child. So that's dead, she heard herself say. Am I growing old? Is everything going to die like that? Twenty-nine isn't old.
She switched on the light and took her violin. I can get in an hour's practice before getting ready to go to the Smithers ... O, I can't play. I'm too wretchedly nervous this afternoon. Perhaps Gertrude'll be in. She went to the phone in the hall to call the number. As she waited with the receiver against her ear, something made her remember Fitzie saying in her thrill excited whisper: And Salinski says you played as if you had a soul. Let's see, when was that? Think I've been in this apartment nearly four years, four years scraping on the fiddle106. Gertrude doesn't answer. Tomorrow morning I must get hold of Fitzie. She promised to take me to see that girl. Quite exciting her career has been: the Fadettes and then that disreputable episode with the Italian. How much she must know about life! Probably decided she couldn't play or she wouldn't have gone into the agency business. Wonderful to cut loose the way she has. Fitzie says she comes from quite a good family out in Waltham.
Nan had put the teacups on the tray with the pot and was carrying them out into the kitchenette. O that wretched girl forgot the garbage. She took up the little zinc107 pail and put it on the dumbwaiter. I'll ask John to empty it as a special favor. While she stood pulling on the rope, gingerly so as not to dirty her hands, she heard loud laughter from one of the kitchens below. Wish I'd noticed more about the people living in this house; there must be some queer fish. She felt herself smiling. How shocked Aunt M. was when I told her where I'd taken an apartment. She washed the teacups and the pot and left them to dry in the rack beside the sink. When she opened the tin box to put the cake in, there came to her a familiar smell of stale bread and crackers108. She dropped the lid sharply. Why do I go on doing these little things day after day? The indigestion of the little. A woman's life may always be that. O, I must know about other people's lives. Mabel Worthington, is her life just pots and pans and combs and nailfiles and doilies? She went into her bedroom. Only half-past six by the little porcelain109 clock on the mantel, a whole hour before I need be at the Smithers. She lifted the shade and peered down into the blue darkness of the street. The workmen had gone. Under the lamppost she could see the patched place they had left. She let herself sink into a chair and remained a long while looking out the window with the shade between her and her room. Occasionally a man or woman walked past from the direction of Huntington Avenue. On their way home to dinner. Endless family tables, and other tables, kept women pouring out champagne110 for fashionably dressed men, the fast set. Women throwing back their heads and laughing through the smoke of their cigarettes. Perhaps that's how Mabel Worthington would be, with high-piled hair bleached111 with peroxide and a whisky voice. If I were like that dining tonight with Wenny among cocktails113 and offcolor stories. The Back Bay siren. She shuddered114 and threw open the window. Fog was coming in, blurring115 the streetlights. He always loved the fog. Perhaps once more out of the streaming faces and the clicking feet, his funny shambling walk, his hands, ditchdiggers' hands, the hair curling crisply about his forehead the way it curled on foggy nights.... As the fog thickened the people passing under the window became shadowy and the sound of their steps dull and muffled116.
Behind her in the room the clock struck seven silvery discreet8 little strokes. Nan jumped guiltily to her feet. She must dress. As she arranged her hair she wondered if she should take her violin. They'd be sure to ask her to play, but perhaps it would impress them more if she said she had forgotten it.
* * * *
"Perhaps it's suede117 you wanted, Miss," said the thin blonde saleslady, narrowing her eyes as she leaned towards Nan across the counter.
"The material doesn't matter a bit. It's a certain color I'm looking for, can't you understand?" said Nan peevishly118. She held herself in and said again firmly in her natural voice: "A warm pearl grey."
Nan was very tired. The late afternoon bustle119 of the department store and the atmosphere of perfumes and women's furs and breathedout air and the close smell of fabrics120 were almost unbearable121. She had been shopping all afternoon so that her legs ached and she had a faint pain between her eyes. While the woman went off for a new box of gloves, Nan stared dully at the holly-wreathed sign above the counter: Do Your Christmas Shopping Early. Her eyes followed the wearisome curlicues of the gothic capitals.
"Here you are, Miss," said the saleslady, with a desperate attempt at sprightliness122 in her voice.
"That's it," said Nan. She found herself looking in the white face of the saleslady, itself a little like wrinkled kid. "Busy time this must be for you."
"Busy! No time to breathe."
"I don't see how you do it."
"Don't think about it. Only way. Never think about things," said the saleslady, breathlessly writing out the slip.
Nan found herself drifting down the aisle of the store, a package added to those under her arm and stuffed into her bag, among fat jostling women and angular women with disapproving123 lips and small tired women with saggy124 eyes; she glanced in the waxen face under slimy hair of a floorwalker, tried ineffectually to approach the notions counter and at last found herself looking at the clock beside the elevator. Half-past four, time to meet Fitzie at the tearoom. The elevator smelt of oil, heavy like castor oil. Was it her mother's voice, or some governess's out of her childhood: Now, Nancibel, if you can't be more ladylike you'll have to take some castor oil? How tired she was this afternoon. Silly to come shopping in the afternoon so near the Christmas season.
Christmas comes but once a year.
Let us laugh and have good cheer,
La la dee dee, la la dee dee.
Beyond nodding cherries in a grey woman's hat, the face of the elevator man, black face with an ivory grin, and his suave125 negro voice announcing: Mezzanine Floor: Ladies' and Misses' garments and imported lingerie, Ladies' and Misses' hats and footwear. Way back, please ... Second Floor: Men's and Boys' clothes, ready and custom made, sporting goods; Men's and Boys' haberdashery and footwear. Let the lady out, please ... Third Floor: House furnishings, rugs, verandah furniture and imported goods ... At the top floor Nan stumbled out of the elevator and had to sit down on the bench in front of it, she was so tired. She counted over the little packages on her lap. That's right, I haven't lost anything.
"Nan, it's all fixed126."
Fitzie, in a red hat with a feather, popped out of the soggy mass of women in the elevator crisp and bristling with excitement. She sat down beside Nan on the bench.
"My dear, you look a sight; you must be dreadfully tired. Never mind, some tea'll freshen you up famously.... But it's all fixed about our tour."
"You mean the orchestra?"
"Of course, Nancibel. We open next Monday in Montreal."
"It'll be dreadfully cold up there, I should think."
"But think, dearest, how wonderful! I've never traveled in my life before. We'll go all the way out to the Coast, San Francisco and all that."
"Fitzie, before you go we mustn't forget to call on Mabel Worthington. I'm very curious to meet her."
"O, we will, but let's get a table before they are all snapped up. I'm perishing."
The waitress had pretty brown eyes. She can't be more than eighteen, thought Nan as they sat down. Eleven years younger than I am. What happens in eleven years! Nothing. Everything. A mere127 kid Wenny would have been eleven years ago, inky-fingered curlypated schoolboy.
"And how's your aunt?" Fitzie was asking.
"I'm rather worried about her ... Poor Aunt M. hasn't been a bit well this last month. I've been trying to get her to go south."
"I should think Florida 'Id be just the thing."
"She's afraid she'd be lonely."
"Why don't you go with her?"
"But my music, Fitzie! I can't afford to lose a whole winter at this stage of the game, and Salinski's promised me some extra hours."
"O, I see."
Nan frowned.
"You don't mean you think I ought to give up everything and go, do you?"
"Of course not, but the conflict between one's love for one's family and one's wanting a career is sometimes dreadful, positively128 dreadful ... Of course, it's none of my business and I shan't say anything one way or the other."
"But what tommyrot ...You know perfectly129 well how I feel about my career."
"Of course, dear, of course," said Fitzie nibbling130 at a piece of toast. "You'll be interested in what Mabel has to say about that. She's made more of a career than any of the girls in our time at the Conservatory."
"I don't mean quite that by career," said Nan laughing.
"Of course not, you are much too wellbred, dearest ... But could you go tomorrow?"
"Not tomorrow ... But, how about Saturday?"
Nan gulped131 down a cup of weak milky132 tea with relief. The chatter133 at the tables round about and the smothered134 selection from the Arcadians out of the victrola in the corner of the tearoom sucked all the remaining energy out of her so that she sat limp, staring at her friend's new red hat. Utterly ridiculous, like a redbird, she was thinking.
"Why not tomorrow?" insisted Fitzie. "I shall be dreadfully busy Saturday. It'll be my last useful day. We leave Sunday night. Isn't it too wonderful! Think of the places I'll see and the people I'll meet and everything ... Of course it'll be exhausting too."
"I almost wish I were going with you."
"But you can't have engagements all day tomorrow, Nancibel."
"I'm going to stay in the house tomorrow."
"O, you poor dear!" Fitzie leaned over and patted Nan's hand. "That's quite all right. Of course, I understand. Of course, we'll go Saturday."
Nan winced135. She felt a sudden rage against all this womanish chatter and chirping136 talk. The smell of women, perfume, furs, dry goods was choking her. I must get out of here.
"Walk with me to the Touraine, Fitzie. I'm going home in a taxi."
"You extravagant137 thing. But I simply can't. I've got so much to do ... preparations for departure."
"And that Worthington girl?" asked Nan in a carefully offhand138 voice as they were going down in the packed elevator.
"O, I'll call her up and make a date. She's always in at teatime. Shall I phone you, dear?"
"Yes, do." Fitzie's short pigeon-breasted figure was caught into the stream of women down the main aisle of the store, over which the arcs hovered139 like big lilac-white balloons. A last glimpse of the red hat. O, I should have spoken of it; she'll be offended. But such a sight ... The revolving140 doors swung Nan out on to the pavement, where the air was cold and hard. The signs down Washington Street brandished141 metallic142 facets143 of light. The crowd streamed endlessly dark against the motionlessness of the wide windows of stores. From automobiles145 moving in compact opposed streams came the rasp of racing146 motors and a smell of scorched147 gasoline. Nan made her way slowly through a barbed painful tunnel of light and noise and cold. With a little sigh she sank back into the springy seat of the taxi and let the packages slip out of her hands. There was a musty smell about it that brought up childish dreams of elegance148. That picture eternally repeated in the movies of the elegantly gloved heroine stepping into her limousine149. To arrive that way stately at the side doors of concert halls, to be handed out by sleekhaired men in frock coats, to stand a moment waiting in a long tightfitting dress of royal blue, her violin in one hand, a smell of roses about her, and from everywhere the terrible dizzy murmur150 of the waiting audience. Had Mabel Worthington attained151 all that already? Why, she can't even play, all she's done has been to flaunt152 her sex. She must be a veritable harlot. I must see her to find out.
They were turning the corner out of Massachusetts Avenue. Nan tapped suddenly on the window.
"I want to stop at that fruit store ... That's right."
"All right, Miss," said the driver smiling. He was a pertlooking young man with a red face and a horseshoe scarf pin.
Why am I so timid? I have personality as much as the next girl, she was thinking as warmed by the young man's smile she wandered about the fruit store trying to decide what to buy. At last she lit on some pears. While the Greek, a sallow man with a long nose and close-cropped hair, was putting them in a bag, she spied some Japanese persimmons in a box. "O, I must have some of those for the color."
"They are mighty153 good ... sweet as honey," said the Greek.
"At last!" she muttered, closing her eyes with a little sigh when, having paid off the taxi, she stood in the elevator of the Swansea. As she let the packages slide from her arms into the armchair in the living room, she felt a crushing sense of loneliness. She poured the orangered persimmons into a blue bowl on the teatable. How beautiful they are. If I only had someone to show them to. She threw herself into a bustle of preparations for supper. She lit two burners in the kitchenette. Toast and boiled eggs and then I'll go to bed with a book. The usualness of the smell of the gas-burners and boiling water and toast oppressed her. Was she going to spend all her life puttering about that miserable154 kitchenette? If I were at Aunt M.'s in the little room I had when I was a child it would be cosy155 to be made a fuss over and have breakfast brought up to me in bed by Mary Ann in the morning.
After supper she remembered she hadn't looked at the letters she had brought up from the mailbox. One from Salinski, what on earth?
Dear Miss Taylor:
It is with infinite regret that I must announce to you that on account of great and pressing business I shall be forced to omit your next three lessons, making our following engagement for January 26....
I know what that means. He's losing interest in me. He can't treat me like that. I'll phone him. He has no right not to explain what he means.
She went to the phone and jerked off the receiver. Then she put it back weakly and burst into tears. O, I'm all distraught this evening. How horribly silly. I'll go to bed and read.
Once in bed, in her white bedroom, with the reading light over her shoulder and the rest of the room in cosy shadow and the persimmons in their blue bowl on a chair within reach, she began to feel calmer. She lay a long while staring at the ceiling with Locke's Beloved Vagabond unopened in her hand. Is it just that I'm feeling low this evening, or is everything crumbling156, breaking down to let in the floods of platitude157 the way the noise of pianolas seeps158 in through apartment-house walls?
The persimmons glowed like lacquer. Sweet as honey, the Greek had said they were. Vermilion, the color, was more than red or orange. Was it Wenny or Fanshaw used to talk about how the three of them were like people out of another age lost in a grey swamp of dullness in their vermilion barge159? Another age. If she'd lived in another age. The grandeur160 that was Rome. Decline and fall. What careers women had then. Dread34 career of adultery and crime. Messalina. Was it on the Pincian her gardens had been? Somewhere in Baedeker. Carried in a litter through howling streets, swinging above the torches and the black dripping backs of slaves with an arm about the neck of a young curlyhaired lover, long ringed fingers clasped about the hard muscle of his shoulder, into the walled gardens winy with the smell of overripe fruits sweet as honey. Great gates closing on streets full of crowds that shrieked161 challenging, mocking, Messalina. In the hush162 of the garden on the Pincian she and Wenny in each other's arms, with their lips touching163, sweet as honey. Nan felt hot shudders164 go through her, her cheeks were fire. She pressed her dry eyes against the white cool linen165 of the pillow and lay on her face rocking to and fro. Then she jumped out of bed and began to walk about her narrow bedroom. She must go out.
From the apartment below came the sound of a piano and a man's nasal voice singing:
I know a spot where the sun is like gold
And the cherry blooms burst with snow.
Nan threw open the window and looked out into the empty street. Two cats, arched scuttling166 shadows, were circling about the lampost. The night was suddenly ripped with their caterwauling. Shivering with cold and disgust, Nan sat a long time in the chair by the window, her palms pressed against her hot tearless eyes. Down the street she heard from time to time the lovewail of a cat.
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A bellboy's brown back shiny with buttons preceded them down the dark red-carpeted hall. In spite of Nan's casual stroll beside Fitzie who walked with her face pushed forward eagerly and a smile ready on her lips, she felt strangely uneasy. I merely want to see what she's like, she said to herself, constricting168 her flutter of excitement as she constricted169 her wrists buttoning her tight kid gloves. Merely to observe. The boy knocked on a brown door at the end of the hall. Nan could feel her heart pumping.
"Come!" The voice was deep, throaty under velvet170. The room was bright, wide, looped salmon171 colored curtains, brisk air with a smell of flowers, freesias. The woman walked towards them, holding out a hand.
"Hello, Fitzie. Why, how splendid... I always wanted to meet you, Miss Taylor.... You see, I admired you from afar up at Jordan." Her hand was firm and cool. She had brown eyes, a skin flushed with olive, hair like ebony, and at the waist of a simply cut tuniclike black dress two small red chrysanthemums172. "Do sit down. O it is good of you to have come."
As she sat down she spread out one arm along the top of the brocaded sofa. Above a long brown neck. Preraphaelite neck, poised173 a little pointed105 chin. Nan felt herself sitting stiffly with pursed lips. She let herself sink back in her chair.
"O Fitzie, I've heard about the tour. Isn't it great? I almost wish I were going along. Think of the squalling and squabbling there'll be; won't it be grand? It was funny enough going out to Worcester that time, but the grand continental174 tour of the embattled Fadettes'll be an unholy shriek43."
There was a knock at the door. A waiter came in half hidden under a teatray balanced over one shoulder.
"Would either of you prefer a cocktail112 or a glass of port or something?"
"O no, tea will be just delicious," said Fitzie, shaking hastily the red feather of her hat.
"Nothing could be better than tea, Mrs. Van Troppfer," said Nan quietly.
"Did you know, Fitzie, I've given up the violin? After all this time, isn't it ridiculous?" The brown eyes were looking in Nan's, wide amused. "Yes, I'm afraid I'm a rolling stone, and certainly I shan't gather moss175. Think how they'd be horrified176 up at the conservatory.... I'm going to try to sing again. You see, I always had wanted to sing and only took up the violin because I could get quicker money by it. Then I had mother to support."
"Really, I never knew that," said Fitzie, suspending a spoonful of pastry half way to her mouth.
"O families are a perpetual problem, aren't they?" said the Worthington girl, laughing.
Nan ate a cream cornucopia177 delicately, between sips178 of tea. The crisp pastry and the faint cheese flavor in the white cream made her think of Paris, station restaurants, and fogs and concerts.
"We are going abroad again in a week or two and I'm going to work like a Trojan ... try to strike while the iron's hot. You see, my husband and Hammerstein claim that I have a good stage presence and ought to take a whack179 at the Opera Comique. That's what the Fadettes did for me! I keep telling them that I'm too long-necked to be a singer ... but I guess I'll take a try at it. Maybe I'll have luck."
"Your husband must have great connections," said Fitzie in a humble180 tone.
"That won't do any good unless I manage to learn to sing, will it?" She turned laughing to Nan, "Do have a little more tea, I'm afraid I'm boring you with all my chatter.... I hear you are studying with Salinski, Miss Taylor. How do you find him? He knows the instrument all right, but it's difficult to hold him down, he's getting so social these days."
"Still if he's really interested in your work," Nan heard herself say.
"O, that's another thing ... He never was interested in me, I know that."
There was a knock at the door. "Come!" called the Worthington girl. The bellboy came in with a telegram on a plate.
"All right, bring it here; thanks."
It was a creamfaced boy with a snub nose. Nan watched a tense, adoring look come into his eyes as he put the plate within the Worthington girl's reach. That's how she does it. The boy left the room hurriedly, flushing as if her smile stung. With languid fingers she crumpled181 the telegram.
"You must excuse me," she said. "Isn't it wretched being in a hotel this way? They never give you any peace ... Did you ever study music in Paris, Miss Taylor?"
"No, only in Boston."
"I was wondering if they were as stupid over there about it as they are here. Isn't it hopeless?" She laughed happily, cuddling into the corner of the sofa and taking little bites out of a cream cornucopia. "Still, we'll see what turns up."
"Who are you studying with?"
"O, that's the great question ... It's really more difficult than getting married. I have to look them over and they have to look me over."
Nan began to put on her gloves.
"Must you go?"
"I'm afraid so."
"Then so must I," said Fitzie hastily. "It's been just lovely to see you, Mabel dear."
"I was hoping Van Troppfer would get in before you left.... He'll be disappointed not seeing you."
The Worthington girl went with them to the door. As they turned the corner of the red-carpeted hall Nan had a glimpse of her smiling at them from the half open door, tall and dark against a streak182 of light.
They walked down the stairs and out on the street in silence. Then Fitzie turned suddenly to Nan and said:
"Isn't she just wonderful? ... Now you must tell me what you think of her. O, she's the girl who'll have a career."
"I suppose her vulgarity was to be expected. She wears her clothes beautifully, doesn't she?"
"Well, she always did do that. Everybody admitted her to be the best dressed girl in the orchestra."
"I wonder where she learned it?"
"I believe she came of a good family in reduced circumstances; that's all there is about it."
"Well, Fitzie, I'm going home. If I don't see you again before you go, here's wishing you all the luck in the world." Nan leant and kissed Fitzie on the cheek.
"You will write, won't you, dearie? I'll let you know the addresses."
"Of course, I will."
Nan walked fast down a cross street. What a relief to be alone. Shouldn't have left Fitzie so abruptly183, but couldn't stand her chatter a moment longer. Silly to be so upset; what am I so upset about anyway? My nerves are jumpy as the dickens this winter. In a cold fury of dismay she walked home through the yellow twilight, her chin pressed into her fur neckpiece as she leaned against the wind that blew razorkeen down the long street that led to the Fenway and made her ears sting and her forehead ache. Muffled by closed windows, shattered by the gusty184 wind, there came to her from the houses on either hand wail167 and tinkle185 of music students doing their scales on piano and violin, growls186 of cellos187, trilling of dramatic sopranos. Street of scales; they expect to climb into life up their scales like up ladders. She remembered savagely188 she hadn't practiced that day. And that Worthington girl, did she ever practice, did she work and contrive189 to get on, or was everything as easy to her as the bellboy's frightened blush under her smile? And this husband she had picked up, what could he be like? A short loud man in a checked suit probably, with a bulging190 red vest and a brown derby. I'm glad I didn't see him, men like that are too disgusting.
She dug her chin into her fur and battled furiously with the wind. If it'ld only snow it wouldn't be so cold. At length the letters spelling out The Swansea were dark against the light ahead of her, she was in the elevator, the key was clicking softly in the lock of her door. The homelike smell was soothing191 to her nostrils192. Thank heavens, I left the heat on. Before taking off her hat and gloves she stood a moment in the window, her hands over the steampipes. The sky, beyond the hardetched tangle193 of branches of the Fenway and the purple cubes of the further apartment houses, was a wide empty yellow, chilling to green overhead. Nan felt its bitter emptiness like a rasp on a half-healed wound. With wincing194 lips she pulled down the shade and turned her back on the window.
That night she dreamed that she sat in the great yellowshot beehive of the Boston theatre and that Fanshaw sat on one side of her and Wenny on the other, both in evening dress, and she was a little girl in spotted195 calico with her hair in pigtails and on the stage was the orchestra of the Fadettes playing like mad and in front of them Mabel Worthington with her mouth open and her head thrown back and a sheet of music agitated196 in front of her and Nan kept turning to Wenny and to Fanshaw and saying: I can't hear a word, not a single word. Suddenly Wenny had slipped from her side and was in a taxi with his arms round the Worthington girl, kissing her, kissing her, and Nan was in another taxi driven by a young man with a red face and a diamond horseshoe in his tie and they were hurtling through red-flaring streets under a black sky, streets lined with faces staring and hands pointing and to all Nan's crying to them to tell her where he had gone there was no answer but hissing197 and stamping and catcalls.
Nan sat up in bed rubbing her forehead trying to remember what she had been dreaming. The glow of the street-light in her window was full of furtive198 padded movement. Snow.
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Nan closed the front door gently behind them.
"My, I'm glad to get in again," said Gertrude Fagan.
"Why, dear?"
"It's so horrible a night like this. I hate it all."
"What do you mean? But we'd better go up to my room. We'll wake Aunt M. if we sit down here, and it's so hard to get her to sleep again."
"I don't suppose she's much better, is she?" whispered Gertrude Fagan as they tiptoed up the heavily carpeted stairs. Nan winced when a board creaked on the second flight.
"No," she was whispering over her shoulder, "though there doesn't seem to be any danger of another stroke just at present. There doesn't seem to be any cure for the aphasia199, though Doctor Smythe talks wisely enough about it ... Whew, it's hot in here."
Nan went to the window without turning on the light and pushed it up hard. A heavy scent200 of lilacs came in off the Public Garden where the occasional lights were misted with the green of young leaves. Beyond, the electric signs of Boylston and Tremont Streets sent a great glare up into the milky spring sky. An automobile144 whirred past. There were steps on the pavements. She turned back into the room.
Gertrude Fagan sat on the bed with her hat on her knee. The reading lamp she had just switched on threw her eyes into shadow.
"Look, Nancibel, at my shadow on the wall," she said harshly. "Wouldn't think I had a hooked beak201 like that, would you?"
"How absurd, Gertrude! Look, this is the room I used to have when I was a little girl ... I'll put you up next door."
"But, really, I ought to go home."
"No, you'll be perfectly comfortable here. You know you don't like going home alone at night."
"Not a night like this," said Gertrude Fagan shuddering202.
"But it's the finest night we've had this spring."
"I hate it; it makes me feel unclean, as if I hadn't washed all day. And there's a sense of unclean things prowling about one ... It shatters my nerves a night like this."
"I wonder if I don't feel that way too, really," Nan said in a low dead voice. "Look, Gertrude, are you too tired to work the board again tonight?"
"You mean you want to try again?"
Nan nodded.
"Of course I could keep it up for a little while," said Gertrude Fagan, getting eagerly to her feet. "You're sure your aunt won't mind if I spend the night? Seeing me appear mysteriously at the breakfast table might surprise her."
"Poor Aunt M., she's gone beyond surprise, Gertrude; she probably won't recognize you. It's almost as if she were dead."
"Horrible! She was such a brilliant person ... I always felt there was a strange magnetism203 about her, something I couldn't explain, like about you. Probably all your family had it ... What a nice room this is, the antithesis204 of those horrible paths across the Common ... O, didn't you feel it, Nancibel, in the theatre and shoving our way through the crowd home, a horrible lack of spirituality in all the faces?"
"Rather that they have strange secrets I can never know." Nan was leaning over the chiffonier, fumbling in a drawer. "Here's the ouija board." She turned into the swath of light, holding out before her a yellow varnished205 board with a semicircle of letters on it.
"He taught you to think that. His was an earthspirit. Now he is purified."
"Please, Gertrude, ... You never knew him," Nan snapped out. Her fingers were taut about the edge of the ouija board.
"Why, I met him several times."
"I mean really knew him."
"Why are you angry at me, Nancibel?"
Without answering, Nan began taking the books off the small table where the reading light stood. She drew up two chairs and put a small three-legged wooden pointer on the board. Then she went to the window again and looked down into the welter of broken lights and green-spun shadows of the Public Garden. That night of premature206 spring the three of them had walked into town under a sky of coppery flame and all the streets had seemed to fall into a procession behind them and they had seemed gay and strong enough to trample207 the whole world, was this all it led to these choking lilacs that smelt of death? Or was it all mirage208, false? Behind her she could feel Gertrude Fagan moving restlessly about the room. Nan half closed her eyes and breathed deep of the fetor of blossoms and gasoline and lurking209 bodies; then came back to the table, her face still and pale. Gertrude Fagan already sat at the table with the tips of her fingers on the wooden pointer, her eyes black, fixed on the black of the window.
"Think of him, Nancibel," she said in a shaky voice.
Nan put her fingers on the other end of the pointer and closed her eyes. Above the pounding of her heart she could hear the slow rasp of the other girl's breathing. So they waited.
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fiddle
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magnetism
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