If the course of true love could be persuaded to forsake1 its ancient uncomfortable method in favour of a single harrassed lover, surely the trials of Allan Dunlop might soften2 its harsh turbulence3, and move it to a gentler flow. Rose was devoted4 to her father, and the tie between them, made stronger by her mother's death, was not of a nature to be affected5 by the sighing breath of a mere6 lover. Then she was as lovable as she was lovely, and there was nothing in the cordial liking7 of a host of friends to encourage the growth of any morbid8 desire for the affection of a poor and insignificant9 outsider. There were other insurmountable points on the mountain chain of circumstance that lay between him and his heart's dearest wish. The Commodore's inherent reverence10 for birth and breeding, and his comparative indifference11 to brain, was one of them. The obstinate12 pride of Allan's undistinguished and ambitious self was another.
Of all sorts of pride the sort that goes with inferiority, not of person, or behaviour, or talents, but of mere social position, is the most inveterate13. This unreasonable14 feeling was the mightiest15 of all the obstructions16 that, mountain-like, lay between them; but on its rough sides--flowers on an arid17 rock--grew the yearning18 affections, seemingly rootless, yet continuing to bloom in secret, scarce discovered beauty. Of what use was it, he asked himself in bitterness, to brood over these impassable barriers, to cultivate a faith in the power of his own affection strong enough to remove them, to cherish the vain imagination that this incomparably sweet girl and his own plain self were made for each other, and that no earthly obstacle could suffice to separate them? Upon his soul had fallen the edict of society, "What man hath put asunder19 let no higher power join together!"
And so he hardened his heart and closed his eyes to the heavenly vision of girlish beauty and purity that shone forever in the upper skies of his consciousness, as clear as the star of evening, and almost as far away. But tears flow as easily beneath closed lids as when the eyes are wide open, and to the hardest heart come moments of reverie, of sudden waking from sleep, or involuntary lapsing20 into day dream, when, like a sword in the heart, comes the thought of one too dearly loved. Do his best he could not escape these moments of exquisite21 torture. The poem he was reading fell fantastically into the tune22 of the last waltz down which he and Rose had drifted together. The prose--and very prosy--work he impatiently seized in the hope of banishing23 that witching melody from his brain, simply followed the perverted24 feet of the poem. Down the dull page danced the meaningless syllables25, keeping time to the delicious strain in a way that was simply appalling26 to a mind whose intellectual processes were, as a rule, thoroughly27 well regulated. If he walked the street there was small chance but that some half-turned head or fluttering robe among the women he met would remind him of the sweetest head and prettiest drapery in the world.
Always along the misty28 aisles29 of his consciousness sped this little lovely vision, now hasting, now delaying, now bending with melting tenderness toward him, now mockingly eluding30 his grasp, never out of sight, never within reach. No wonder he grew pale and heavy-eyed and distrait31. But no one of those who noticed that he ate little and spoke32 little, and walked with weary footsteps, knew that he was a haunted man--haunted not by any pale spectre, but by veritable flesh and blood, gold crowned, pink tinted33, and illumined by the bluest eyes this side of the blue heavens. It is useless for those who are troubled in this way to say they will not be haunted. Celestial34 visits are planned with reference to anything but the convenience of their recipient35.
Allan Dunlop was spoken of as 'a pushing young man,' but in affairs of the heart he did not push--he simply waited. Not that he had any faith in the so-called beneficent influences of time--for what young lover is willing to believe that the slow drag of months and years over his passion will crush all life from it at last?--but he had the delicacy36 of nature which forbids the gross intrusion of personal wishes and desires upon unwilling37 ears. He had, besides, a spark of that old-world loyalty38 which is prone39 to uphold the claim of the father in the face of despairing aspirants40 for the daughter's hand.
This unwillingness41 to take an advantage, or to push it when it was thrust upon him, was not without a certain allurement42 for Rose. She was accustomed to be sought after; but the man who unconsciously occupied a higher place in her estimation than any by whom she was surrounded, held himself aloof43. Probably he despised her and the frivolous44 society in which she moved. It was a depressing reflection, for the regard of those whom we believe to be our superiors is infinitely45 more precious than the adoration46 of those who are not.
To the lover, as to the good general, the knowledge of when not to approach is of inestimable importance. Scarce are the girls upon whose hearts a tender impression can be made in the middle of an ordinary work-a-day forenoon, or who can give sigh for sigh immediately after a hearty47 dinner. Very few are those who, at all times, are equally approachable and appreciative48. Allan's stern, self-denying course of action, to which he considered himself forced, could not have been better chosen had he had nothing at heart but the aim of furthering his own interests. In Rose's imagination he had always formed an admirable contrast to the purposeless, objectless young men of her acquaintance, and his wise withdrawal49 after he had roused her interest, she interpreted as indifference. So let it be, thought the young lady, assuming a feeling of entire content. But assumed feelings are not lasting50. She who had been the life of society now grew very weary of it. She yawned secretly in rooms of entertainment, or invented lame51 excuses for her non-appearance there. "I can't think what is the matter with me," she said to herself. "I never cared for solitude52, and I don't now; but I care less for common people and commonplace talk."
It was perfectly53 consistent with this state of feeling that, on one of the most disagreeable of all disagreeable March days, she should go out alone for a long walk which had no definite direction nor object. There was a certain satisfaction in matching her restless mood with the restless weather, in feeling herself now gently buoyed54 along, now almost lifted up and borne away on the strong wings of the rushing wind. Great soft flakes55 of snow were falling, and yielding up their heavenly purity at the first touch of earth, and the dull sunless day, weary of its own existence, was with seeming relief dying into night. Rose walked very fast without being aware of the fact. It is a peculiarity56 of windy weather that it begets57 a mental exaltation, in which even the clumsiest body seems to partake of the immortal58 energy of the soul. Rose's trim figure moved as softly and swiftly as a sail-boat before the wind. Nevertheless it was with a feeling of dismay that she found herself at the edge of night and far from home. She had been dreaming as she walked, and now--the usual fate of dreamers--she found herself abruptly59 brought face to face with reality. The big flakes were still falling, the wind still urging her forward, as she turned to retrace60 her steps. But now progress became difficult. The wind was in her face, and the snow blinded her eyes. She had turned so suddenly that the broad-shouldered, heavily-coated young pedestrian, who had been following in her wake, was astounded61 to see her, with down-bent62 head, swiftly advance and abruptly fling herself upon him with an impetuosity born of sightless but determined63 resistance to the rampant64 breezes. The next instant, with a movement equally impetuous, and a deeply drawn65 "oh!" she swept aside and looked straight into the eyes of Allan Dunlop. "I didn't know it was you," she murmured, her cheeks turning to flame beneath his gaze.
"No, you usually treat me with more hauteur66. I never expected you to make all the advances in this way."
"Oh, shameless!" exclaimed Rose, clasping both daintily gloved hands first to her ears, then to her eyes. Then, mockingly, she responded, "I never expected to find you so approachable."
They were very glad to meet again. They did not say so, but what necessity existed for the verbal expression of a fact so apparent in the face looking down and in the face that for more than a moment at a time was unable to look up. She laid her hand within his arm, and they faced the storm together. "What were you doing at this end of the town?" she asked, fearing he would make the same inquiry67 of her.
"Following in your footsteps," he replied. "I was not sure who it was, but your gait reminded me so much of yourself."
What light words to make a little heart beat faster! The wind would have blown them away if she had not caught them.
"Ah, yes, no doubt a moving spectacle, but," glancing at the rough pavement which had grown worse and worse, until in pure self pity it came to an end, "I'm afraid that for the last half-hour I have led you a hard life of it."
"It was hard--very. This side-walk is a disgrace to the town, and it usually has a depressing effect on me to be out in windy, uncertain kind of weather, but I think"--the wind blew an end of her long silken scarf caressingly69 about his neck--"I think it was worth while."
In his heart he added, "Little darling, what rough road would I not travel in pursuit of you, if only you would turn at last to throw yourself in my arms."
They walked on for a little in silence. When love looks out of the eyes, and hesitates on the lips, and trembles in the arm that feels the confiding70 pressure of a tiny hand, it seems as though words were a crude, primitive71 method of communicating ideas. Nevertheless, so strong is the power of habit, that there are few who can resist the imagined necessity to talk if one feels like it, and make talk if one does not. So presently Rose remarked upon the beauty of the town. Even in his love wrapt state the idea struck Allan as slightly absurd.
"Where do you find it?" he asked in amused perplexity, looking at the little wooden houses and shops, the meagre beginnings of a city that as yet had no time to be beautiful, and noted72 the vile73 mud with which the streets were thickly overlaid. "Though, of course," he added, "there is scarcely anything to be seen save darkness, and that element is strictly74 necessary to an appreciation75 of the beauties of 'Muddy Little York.'"
"Oh," exclaimed Rose, "don't you see the lights flashing in the windows, and in every little muddy pool on the street? Think of the concentrated life in these little human nests set against the vast wilderness76. Look at those faint yellow rays mingling77 with the slanting78 lines of snow, with the deep woods and dark sky in the distance. If it isn't beauty it is poetry."
Her foot slipped a little on an unexpected piece of ice, and his arm felt the momentary79 pressure of both hands. "It is everything heavenly you can mention," said Allan devoutly80.
He noticed the slight instantaneous withdrawal, and was impelled81 to be practical, if possible; so he began to dilate82 at length upon the future glories of York. "This will be a great city, some day," he said.
"Possibly, but who loves greatness? People may say what they please against muddy little York. To me it is dear because it is so little."
"Yes, there is an unexplainable charm in littleness." He glanced thoughtfully down at the dainty figure beside him, while Rose wondered if it would be possible for her to make a remark to which he could not give a personal application. It was impossible for them to walk on in silence, as though this were a lover's idle stroll. Her face warmed at the mere fancy. No, she must e'en try again.
"Particularly when it is a little breeze," she said. "Now, a huge, awkward, overgrown affair like this changes what ought to be a caress68 into an assault."
"Yes; but you brave little creature, how blithely83 you face it. I wish I could shelter you from the storm. I wish I could defend you from all the storms of life."
His voice broke, and the girl felt as though her heart would burst. No bold, imperious, master spirit was this, demanding her love and life as if they were his by natural right. It was as though she had been newly roused by a faint knock at the door; and now, before her foot was set upon the stair that led down to the entering guest, he had turned away again.
"I like your way of meeting the tempest," he continued. "You face it for a moment with mocking defiance84, then you step aside to escape a fierce gust85, or turn your head to avoid at least half its violence. You seem to be coquetting with old Boreas. For me, I can't play with the foe86; I simply have to meet him and fight him till my strength is exhausted--then rest till I can get breath--then up and at it again. Do you remember those old lines:
"'A little I'me hurt but not yett slaine,
I'le but lye down and bleed awhile,
And then I'le rise and fight againe!'"
"Oh, heaven help me," thought poor Rose, "what can I say now? There is nothing in the world to say." She fell to crying bitterly, as she safely could under cover of the snow and the darkness; but after a minute she controlled herself, and was, to outward appearance, tranquil87 and buoyant as before.
They had reached the house. He stepped inside the warmly-lighted hall just for a moment, as Rose, with a gesture of dismay, threw off her wraps, and disclosed an inappropriately elaborate little gown, partially88 soaked by the storm. "I suppose I need not have put on anything so fine as this to go out in on a wet day, but I am fond of dressing89, not for others, but for myself. I prefer feeling effects to producing them. Do you think me very selfish?"
"Oh, yes; everything that is hard, unfeeling, and unlike your sweet little self."
She had already mounted a few steps of the stairway, as he had said he could not stay. His outstretched hand held hers in a last good-by, but instead of going he touched a fold of the damp edge of her gown. "It is very wet," he said. "You are shockingly careless." And then, without daring to meet the divine eyes bent upon him, he lifted her hand reverently90 to his lips, and so went forth91 into the night and the storm.
"Rose," said the Commodore, interrupting her at the head of the stairs, "who is it that has just gone?"
"Mr. Dunlop," said his daughter hesitatingly; "he overtook--he met--I met him on my way home, and he came with me." The young girl's face was a flame, and her heart was a song. She felt that she was aggressively, barbarously happy, and tried to modify the unruly emotion out of deference92 to her father's anticipated anger. He looked extremely annoyed.
"I am sorry to seem arbitrary," he said, "but in future, my dear, it will greatly oblige me if you will so conduct yourself towards that young man as to discourage him from meeting or overtaking you, or accompanying you home."
"Very well, Papa." Not a ray of light faded from her eyes, not a particle of warmth from her smile. She had heard him make similar remarks before, and they affected her the same as if he had said: "It is yet winter; don't be deceived into supposing that spring-time is coming." Ah! but under the snows of winter, what power can hinder the countless93 delicate roots of spring flowers from thrilling into life?
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