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Chapter 33 "Shrink from YOU?"
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Holcroft soon came driving slowly up the lane as if nothing unusual was on his mind.  Having tied his horses, he brought in an armful of bundles and said kindly1, "Well, Alida, here I am again, and I guess I've brought enough to last well through haying time."

"Yes," she replied with averted2 face.  This did not trouble him any now, but her extreme pallor did and he added, "You don't look well.  I wouldn't mind getting much supper tonight.  Let Jane do the work."

"I'd rather do it," she replied.

"Oh, well!" laughing pleasantly, "you shall have your own way.  Who has a better right than you, I'd like to know?"

"Don't speak that way," she said, almost harshly, under the tension of her feelings. "I--I can't stand it.  Speak and look as you did before you went away."

"Jane," said the farmer, "go and gather the eggs."

As soon as they were alone, he began gently, "Alida--"

"Please don't speak so to me today.  I've endured all I can.  I can't keep up another minute unless you let things go on as they were.  Tomorrow I'll try to tell you all.  It's your right."

"I didn't mean to say anything myself till after supper, and perhaps not till tomorrow, but I think I'd better.  It will be better for us both, and our minds will be more at rest.  Come with me into the parlor3, Alida."

"Well, perhaps the sooner it's over the better," she said faintly and huskily.

She sunk on the lounge and looked at him with such despairing eyes that tears came into his own.

"Alida," he began hesitatingly, "after I left you this noon I felt I must speak with and be frank with you."

"No, no!!" she cried, with an imploring4 gesture, "if it must be said, let me say it.  I couldn't endure to hear it from you.  Before you went away I understood it all, and this afternoon the truth has been burned into my soul.  That horrible man has been here--the man I thought my husband--and he has made it clearer, if possible.  I don't blame you that you shrink from me as if I were a leper.  I feel as if I were one."

"I shrink from YOU!" he exclaimed.

"Yes.  Can you think I haven't seen the repugnance5 growing in spite of yourself?  When I thought of that man--especially when he came today--I understood WHY too well.  I cannot stay here any longer.  You'd try to be kind and considerate, but I'd know how you felt all the time.  It would not be safe for you and it would not be right for me to stay, either, and that settles it.  Be--be as kind to me--as you can a few--a few hours longer, and then let me go quietly."  Her self-control gave way, and burying her face in her hands, she sobbed6 convulsively.

In a moment he was on his knees beside her, with his arm about her waist. "Alida, dear Alida!" he cried, "we've both been in the dark about each other.  What I resolved to do, when I started for town, was to tell you that I had learned to love you and to throw myself on your mercy.  I thought you saw I was loving you and that you couldn't bear to think of such a thing in an old, homely7 fellow like me.  That was all that was in my mind, so help me God!"

"But--but HE'S been here," she faltered8; "you don't realize--"

"I don't believe I do or can, yet, Alida, dear, but that blessed Jane's spying trait has served me the best turn in the world.  She heard every brave word you said and I shed tears of joy when she told me; and tears are slow coming to my eyes.  You think I shrink from you, do you?" and he kissed her hands passionately9. "See," he cried, "I kneel to you in gratitude10 for all you've been to me and are to me."

"Oh, James!  Please rise.  It's too much."

"No, not till you promise to go with me to a minister and hear me promise to love, cherish--yes, in your case I'll promise to obey."

She bowed her head upon his shoulder in answer.  Springing up, he clasped her close and kissed away her tears as he exclaimed, "No more business marriage for me, if you please.  There never was a man so in love with his wife."

Suddenly she looked up and said fearfully, "James, he threatened you.  He said you'd never be safe a moment as long as I stayed here."

His answer was a peal11 of laughter. "I've done more than threaten him.  I've whipped him within an inch of his life, and it was the thought of you that led me, in my rage, to spare his life.  I'll tell you all--I'm going to tell you everything now.  How much trouble I might have saved if I had told you my thoughts!  What was there, Alida, in an old fellow like me that led you to care so?"

Looking up shyly, she replied, "I think it was the MAN in you--and--then you stood up for me so."

"Well, love is blind, I suppose, but it don't seem to me that mine is.  There never was a man so taken in at his marriage.  You were so different from what I expected that I began loving you before I knew it, but I thought you were good to me just as you were to Jane--from a sense of duty--and that you couldn't abide12 me personally.  So I tried to keep out of your way.  And, Alida, dear, I thought at first that I was taken by your good traits and your education and all that, but I found out at last that I had fallen in love with YOU.  Now you know all.  You feel better now, don't you?"

"Yes," she breathed softly.

"You've had enough to wear a saint out," he continued kindly. "Lie down on the lounge and I'll bring your supper to you."

"No, please!  It will do me more good to go on and act as if nothing had happened."

"Well, have your own way, little wife.  You're boss now, sure enough."

She drew him to the porch, and together they looked upon the June landscape which she had regarded with such despairing eyes an hour before.

"Happiness never kills, after all," she said.

"Shouldn't be alive if it did," he replied. "The birds seem to sing as if they knew."

Jane emerged from the barn door with a basket of eggs, and Alida sped away to meet her.  The first thing the child knew the arms of her mistress were about her neck and she was kissed again and again.

"What did you do that for?" she asked.

"You'll understand some day."

"Say," said Jane in an impulse of good will, "if you're only half married to Mr. Holcroft, I'd go the whole figure, 'fi's you.  If you'd 'a' seen him a-thrashin' that scamp you'd know he's the man to take care of you."

"Yes, Jane, I know.  He'll take care of me always."

The next morning Holcroft and Alida drove to town and went to the church which she and her mother used to attend.  After the service they followed the clergyman home, where Alida again told him her story, though not without much help from the farmer.  After some kindly reproach that she had not brought her troubles to him at first, the minister performed a ceremony which found deep echoes in both their hearts.

Time and right, sensible living soon remove prejudice from the hearts of the good and stop the mouths of the cynical13 and scandal-loving.  Alida's influence, and the farmer's broadening and more unselfish views gradually bought him into a better understanding of his faith, and into a kinder sympathy and charity for his neighbors than he had ever known.  His relations to the society of which he was a part became natural and friendly, and his house a pretty and a hospitable14 home.  Even Mrs. Watterly eventually entered its portals.  She and others were compelled to agree with Watterly that Alida was not of the "common sort," and that the happiest good fortune which could befall any man had come to Holcroft when he fell in love with his wife.

The End 


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1 kindly tpUzhQ     
adj.和蔼的,温和的,爽快的;adv.温和地,亲切地
参考例句:
  • Her neighbours spoke of her as kindly and hospitable.她的邻居都说她和蔼可亲、热情好客。
  • A shadow passed over the kindly face of the old woman.一道阴影掠过老太太慈祥的面孔。
2 averted 35a87fab0bbc43636fcac41969ed458a     
防止,避免( avert的过去式和过去分词 ); 转移
参考例句:
  • A disaster was narrowly averted. 及时防止了一场灾难。
  • Thanks to her skilful handling of the affair, the problem was averted. 多亏她对事情处理得巧妙,才避免了麻烦。
3 parlor v4MzU     
n.店铺,营业室;会客室,客厅
参考例句:
  • She was lying on a small settee in the parlor.她躺在客厅的一张小长椅上。
  • Is there a pizza parlor in the neighborhood?附近有没有比萨店?
4 imploring cb6050ff3ff45d346ac0579ea33cbfd6     
恳求的,哀求的
参考例句:
  • Those calm, strange eyes could see her imploring face. 那平静的,没有表情的眼睛还能看得到她的乞怜求情的面容。
  • She gave him an imploring look. 她以哀求的眼神看着他。
5 repugnance oBWz5     
n.嫌恶
参考例句:
  • He fought down a feelings of repugnance.他抑制住了厌恶感。
  • She had a repugnance to the person with whom she spoke.她看不惯这个和她谈话的人。
6 sobbed 4a153e2bbe39eef90bf6a4beb2dba759     
哭泣,啜泣( sob的过去式和过去分词 ); 哭诉,呜咽地说
参考例句:
  • She sobbed out the story of her son's death. 她哭诉着她儿子的死。
  • She sobbed out the sad story of her son's death. 她哽咽着诉说她儿子死去的悲惨经过。
7 homely Ecdxo     
adj.家常的,简朴的;不漂亮的
参考例句:
  • We had a homely meal of bread and cheese.我们吃了一顿面包加乳酪的家常便餐。
  • Come and have a homely meal with us,will you?来和我们一起吃顿家常便饭,好吗?
8 faltered d034d50ce5a8004ff403ab402f79ec8d     
(嗓音)颤抖( falter的过去式和过去分词 ); 支吾其词; 蹒跚; 摇晃
参考例句:
  • He faltered out a few words. 他支吾地说出了几句。
  • "Er - but he has such a longhead!" the man faltered. 他不好意思似的嚅嗫着:“这孩子脑袋真长。”
9 passionately YmDzQ4     
ad.热烈地,激烈地
参考例句:
  • She could hate as passionately as she could love. 她能恨得咬牙切齿,也能爱得一往情深。
  • He was passionately addicted to pop music. 他酷爱流行音乐。
10 gratitude p6wyS     
adj.感激,感谢
参考例句:
  • I have expressed the depth of my gratitude to him.我向他表示了深切的谢意。
  • She could not help her tears of gratitude rolling down her face.她感激的泪珠禁不住沿着面颊流了下来。
11 peal Hm0zVO     
n.钟声;v.鸣响
参考例句:
  • The bells of the cathedral rang out their loud peal.大教堂响起了响亮的钟声。
  • A sudden peal of thunder leaves no time to cover the ears.迅雷不及掩耳。
12 abide UfVyk     
vi.遵守;坚持;vt.忍受
参考例句:
  • You must abide by the results of your mistakes.你必须承担你的错误所造成的后果。
  • If you join the club,you have to abide by its rules.如果你参加俱乐部,你就得遵守它的规章。
13 cynical Dnbz9     
adj.(对人性或动机)怀疑的,不信世道向善的
参考例句:
  • The enormous difficulty makes him cynical about the feasibility of the idea.由于困难很大,他对这个主意是否可行持怀疑态度。
  • He was cynical that any good could come of democracy.他不相信民主会带来什么好处。
14 hospitable CcHxA     
adj.好客的;宽容的;有利的,适宜的
参考例句:
  • The man is very hospitable.He keeps open house for his friends and fellow-workers.那人十分好客,无论是他的朋友还是同事,他都盛情接待。
  • The locals are hospitable and welcoming.当地人热情好客。


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